Hello everyone, Thanks for all the kind words, the pms and reviews, they all mean soo much. Now some background about this next chapter. The new episode Diva just came out, and while I loved it, some parts, particularly the total abandoning of Blaine's crush angers me. So here is Diva, from Blaine's perspective and how I think it should have went. Also, and it pains me to do this because I could do a lot with it, since the performance of Diva was a dream sequence I am not including it.
"Alright this week's theme is Diva." Finn says excitedly.
"According to the online urban dictionary, a Diva is a fierce often temperamental singer who comes correct. She is not a trick-ass ho and she does not sweat da haterz." Mrs. Pillsbury says.
"So the guys are all screwed." Jake groans.
"Guys can be Divas too." I point out.
"Yes they can." Mrs. Pillsbury agrees. "I myself have been considered quite a diva at many local restaurants because I know what I want and I am not afraid to send a dish back." She says as she starts to go into a story detailing one of these times.
"Well you guys better give up." Wade says, underneath Mrs. Pillsbury. "Cause there is only two ways to spell Unique and one of them is D-I-V-A, Diva. Ok Shantae I stay and it will be brought, dished out and served and mopped up by the time YOU," He says pointing to Tina, "even pick out a wig. Looking at you clocking that sucks."
"I have more Diva in my little finger than you have in your whole angry inch Wade Unique." Tina retaliates.
"Tina you kinda have been talking some ridiculous trash for months unchallenged and that stops now." Marley surprisingly says.
"Use that finger, use that snap." Mrs. Pillsbury says as she keeps talking.
"Listen guys can be divas." I say angry that the others don't agree.
"You guys I'm going to win Diva week. And you know how I know?" Brittany asks. "Because I'm a Diva." She says leaning back.
"And that is how I made the manager cry at The Cheesecake Factory, by being a diva." Mrs. Pillsbury finishes.
I start sneezing and leave to run to the bathroom. I know I'm getting a cold and don't need to expose anyone else to it. I come back and stay for the remainder of Glee then leave going home to rest and hopefully get better from this ridiculous cold.
The next day I am standing in front of my locker, miserable as this cold has gotten worse overnight when Tina approaches me.
"Here I put together a little cold buster kit for you." She says handing me a small box.
"Cool." I say, a little freaked out. "How did you know?"
"Your nose was red." Oh she has been staring at me. She then proceeds to give me instructions for her cod buster kit.
"Thanks Tina." I say. "This is going to have me feeling better in no time, but I can't take the nighttime cold medicine because it makes me sleepy and woozy, which is something I can't afford to be right now, not with Diva week in full swing." And it's true especially this week I can't be off my game, even if that means avoiding Sam. "I want to prove that men can be divas too, which is why I'm performing Freddy Mercury to get the boys to show some diva attitude."
"Blaine you find new ways to inspire me every day." She says somewhat creepily.
"Aw thanks Tina," I say going to the bathroom to get changed for my song in Glee.
My song went amazing. And throughout the song, I couldn't stop looking at Sam no matter how I tried to avoid it. The weird thing was, he was looking right back at me, and would smile whenever our eyes met.
After my song, I went and got changed, and came back to find Finn and Mrs. Pillsbury about to make a big announcement.
"They say that true divas aren't really mortal." Finn says. I have never heard that one but I am intrigued but it. "They are more like the Loch Ness Monster, or Sméagol." He says. I see Sam nod, and I can totally tell he is loving that comparison.
"Divas walk and they talk and they breathe brilliance." Mrs. Pillsbury continues. "So here to demonstrate that elusive brilliance is a very special guest diva."
"Raven Simone." Brittany interjects hopefully.
"All the way from Louisville give it up for Santana Lopez." Finn says as Santana bounds into the room followed by a bunch of cheerleaders.
While Santana is preforming I can't help but think how much trouble this could cause for Sam. He and Brittany are now, sadly, in a very comfortable relationship, but you can tell Brittany still has feelings for Santana. And of course Santana has feelings for her. So this cannot be good at all.
I look at Sam and he isn't reacting hormonally like the other boys to this provocative display. He is glaring at Santana, but occasionally looks at Brittany worriedly.
After the song Brittany gets up and goes to Santana.
"Santana," she squeaks, "that was simply the greatest moment in show business history. But how come you didn't tell me you were coming in town." She says looking hurt. You can tell she still cares about her by the way she said it, and looking at Sam, you can tell he is worried.
"Well I think the better question is why you didn't tell me you were dating Sam." Santana says. I am shocked, as I believe most of the people here are. These two tell each other everything.
"I just left a comment on one of my favorite lesbian blogs when I heard the news." I see Tina smirking evilly next to me and wonder what that is about. "Oh and before I forget allow me to introduce my girlfriend Elaine." And then she kisses her. I don't know about the others but that seemed very off to me.
After Glee I head home miserable, I want to help Sam, because he is obviously struggling and in for one heck of a week, but I can't. I don't want him getting sick and I need to think of new ways to show how guys can be divas.
Usually just thinking of Sam gets me half hard. But with how miserable I'm feeling, my dick doesn't even twitch. So I just go to sleep praying that I will be better in the morning.
I wake up the next morning to find two texts on my phone one from Tina and one from Sam.
Tina- How are you feeling? Is my cold buster kit working?
Sam- Hey dude, I need your help. Santana basically told me she'd do anything to get Brittany back last night. It was freaky dude. I don't know what to do and I could really use my best friend.
I text Tina back saying I'm feeling a little better, even though I'm not. And I can't text Sam back. I'll just try to help Santana and Sam will be single. I hate knowing that I would do that. I'd like to think that I'm stronger than that, but I know I'll slip up and do that. So I can't help him.
At school I catch Tina staring at me in the halls and it's really starting to get annoying. At least with my crush I'm not obvious.
"Hey Blaine-Blaine." Really. "Feeling better?" She asks.
"Hey, Tina. No its worse." And it is. "My whole head feels like it's a shrink-wrapped fist of ham." Buts that is not only because of the cold, it is also because I can't stop thinking about what Sam is going through and how I can't help him. And how much Tina is crushing on me.
"Here I got you this, its vapor rub." She says handing it to me. "My nana swears by it."
"Aw, thanks Tina. That was really sweet." Even if she does have the crush, she still is sweet.
" I don't want to be sweet, I want to be the girl, that kicks down doors and makes demands. But let's face it, no one thinks of diva and pictures me."
"What are you talking about there are tons of bad ass Asian divas. Ok you are coming to my house after school tonight and we are going to find you the right song." I say kind of regretting it. "We are going to bring out your inner diva if it kills me." And it just might.
"Aww, Blainey-days." WHAT?
Later at my house I just walk into my room carrying a tray of drinks when Tina asks "Have you ever been with a girl?" I know where she is going with this and I don't like it.
"NO, Perfect gold star gay." No chance of it EVER, unless I'm super drunk. But still. "Except that one time I kissed Rachel Berry."
"That doesn't count." She says.
I then explain how I do love girls, I just don't want to have sex or be in a relationship with them.
"We're young we still have time to find ourselves." Tina says. Is she really doing this?
"Exactly," I say changing the topic, "Which is why Tina Cohen Chang you are about to find your inner diva. I took the liberty of making a playlist of some of the classic diva songs for you. But you should open the laptop I don't want to give you my germs." I say pointing to the laptop on the bed.
"Wow. I can't believe you went old-school diva." She says smiling. She starts looking at the names of the artists. "Do you really think I can pull this off?"
"Are you kidding me, you would kill it." I say yawning. I ended up taking the cold medicine and it's kicking in and making me very drowsy and tired. "Sorry the cold medicine is really strong.
"Why don't you lie down?" She says.
"That's a good idea" I say lying down
I fall asleep as Tina starts ranting about something, and I feel bad but I can't keep myself awake.
I'm in my room, but Tina is not there instead its Sam. He walks over to me and starts to unbutton my shirt. The he smiles as he slowly rubs his hands all over my slightly fuzzy chest. I moan, and he continues doing it a bit more and playing a bit with my nipples. His hands are cold and seem to leave wetness where he rubs me. It feels so good.
"MMM, SAM." I moan.
Suddenly it stops he moves away and leaves. I yearn for more of his touch but he is gone.
The next day at school Tina is avoiding me. I feel bad that I feel asleep, but I am feeling a lot better today and I wanted to talk to her about her performance. But she won't stop avoiding me and when I meet her eyes she is glaring at me. It's all very weird, what did I do?
I am talking to Artie when all of a sudden she starts walking toward me anger rippling off of her in waves.
"Tay-tay," She is not the only one who can come up with stupid nicknames. "I was just telling Artie how awesome"
"Would you excuse us Artie." She says
"But uh, oh." He says and rolls away.
"Is everything ok? The chicken soup you made me really helped." I lied.
"You want to know why, because of me because I took care of you." She says, seeming off.
I pull out the vapor rub, which had mysteriously almost emptied itself. "I guess I used most of this sorry." I say, and her glare gets harsher. "Wait are you mad."
"Look I give you all of my heart gladly, and I love hanging out with you Blaine, I love yo.." She stops. Crap. What happened. "It's sad because you don't see that its me that gives you that support. NOT SAM." She says.
"What are you doing?" I ask flustered and people start to look at us. "Why are you acting like this?"
"Because a diva goes after what she wants. And she doesn't settle for less. So next time don't come crawling back to me the next time you realize SAM DOSENT AND NEVER WILL FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT YOU." She screams storming off.
I don't know what to do. Everyone is staring at me. I look down the hall and see Sam. He looks frightened, he sees me looking at him and he runs off. What did Tina just do?
The rest of the day is horrible. I can feel everyone looking at me and whispering about me. During Glee, Tina does an amazing performance, but I don't care. I don't know how I can ever be her friend again after what she did. I realize her performance is about me, but I could care less.
Sam hasn't spoken or texted me ever since Tina let everyone know my secret. He also doesn't even look at me in Glee.
"The first annual high school Diva award goes to.. Tina." Finn announces in Glee. I almost threw a fit, but I didn't. None of the Glee kids have talked to me after what happened and I don't blame them. But it still hurts. Last night I cried, I haven't cried since I stopped thinking about Kurt. But last night that was all I did, cry. And now Tina wins an award. The person who ruined my life. Well yay for her.
"Blaine." Tina says running up to me after Glee. " I am so sorry I didn't mean to. I was angry and"
"Save it Tina." I say, because I am done with her bull-shit. "I know why you did it. I have known about your crush. You told me you had one. But you wouldn't stop until you ruined my life. I didn't return your feelings so you stab me in the back. I'm happy you won and I'm happy you like and care about me. But you knew from the start it was a hopeless battle and that I would never feel the same way about you. But you still continued. I'm sorry if you thought I was leading you on in any way, because I tried my hardest not to. I don't know why you thought you could change me. And you couldn't. The only thing you changed was my friendship with Sam and my friendship with you, because they are both done. Thanks Tina I'll see you around. Congrats." I say walking away leaving her in the middle of the hallway with tears in her eyes.
When I get home I decide to text Kurt maybe he will know what to do.
Hey Kurt.
Hey Blaine, guess what I beat Rachel in a sing off. He replies moments later.
That's great, can I ask you something?
OK
Ok so I kind of have a crush on Sam, and I told Tina, who has/had a crush on me. I made sure to hide my crush, but Tina basically tried to make me straight. She got mad it wasn't working and told everyone about my crush. And no my best friend (Sam) wont talk to me and I don't know what to do.
Wow, ok Blaine, everything will be alright. Sam is rational and he wont mind, and if he does he and everyone will get over it. It will all blow over I promise. He replies a few minutes later.
Thanks Kurt. I text.
Anytime
Even though this has me feeling better I am still sad. Tears are still running down my face and I don't know what to do.
An hour later the doorbell rings. I slowly get up off my bed and trudge downstairs and open the door. And standing there crying is Sam.
"Sam what are you doing here?" I ask amazed he could even be this close to me.
"Can I come in?" He sniffs.
"Sure." I say. After what happened can he really be like this around me? Does he trust me? What is going on? "What's wrong?"
"Brittany broke up with me." He says sitting on the couch. "She called me and said since Santana has come she has been thinking about me and Santana. But she doesn't want to choose. So she told Santana to follow her dreams and go to New York, which she is, and she told me we are breaking up."
"Sam I am so sorry." I say standing up, because I'm worried if I sit next to him he'll leave.
"Blaine, I really liked her."
"I know."
"And I could really use my best friend." He says looking up at me. He still considers me his best friend?
"Ok." I say sitting down and putting my arm around him.
"Thanks." He says smiling. "Blaine is what everyone is saying true, that you have a.." He asks.
Should I tell him the truth? If I do will he leave, or should I just say Tina way lying.
"Yeah, it's true." I say moving away.
"Ok." Sam says, and he moves closer to me. "Can I tell you something Blaine?" He asks kind of acting like a three year old.
"Of course."
"Even though I really liked Brittany, my feelings had been going away for a while. There has been someone else who I kind of have been developing feelings for." Sam says shyly.
What is he saying, if he is saying what I think he is saying I might die. "What are you saying Sam?"
"I am saying," He doesn't continue, he just leans in and kisses me, on the lips. His lips feel so good. They are so plush and soft and perfect. As soon as the kiss started it ends, and he breaks away.
"What was that?" I ask dumfounded.
"I like you…a lot. I have kind of been developing feelings for you for a while now. But since you made me that video and Brittany broke up with me, I realized how strong those feelings were. I'm sorry if I'm just putting you on the spot. And before you ask, no this isn't some rebound."
"Really?" This has to be a dream.
"Yeah." He says his huge mouth grinning. "And I was wondering if you had a date to Mr. Schue's wedding?"
"No, I don't actually." OMG.
"Would you like to be mine?" He asks.
"You would like to be my date, to a huge public event full of all of our exs.?"
"Yeah."
"Then I would be honored." I say leaning in and kissing him.
Thank you everyone for reading, hopefully I can update more often this week. I really hope you liked it. And I would love to hear everyone's feelings about my take on the episode. Please pm or review. Thanks so much.
