Title: Fallen
Author: Lazalot_Anreads
Beta: None
Characters/Pairings: Bella/Jacob
Rating: NC-17
Challenge: None
Summary: Bella is just starting to heal when she is raped, beaten, and left for dead on the side of the road near the reservation. Jacob finds her.
Notes: Rape, New Moon AU
Chapter 009
Entry 006 - Thursday, October 14, 2010
I changed my mind; I'm not leaving. Jacob and I talked, and he promised that he'd trust me from now on, so I agreed to stay. So far he's kept up his end of the bargain, and things couldn't be better.
Last night was AMAZING. I didn't intend to take it so far, but when Jacob told me that he wanted to make me come, it made me SO wet. I took his hand and put it on me, and for a moment he froze, but then he kissed me again. His fingers started to move, two pumping in and out of me while he rubbed my clit with his thumb. It wasn't long before I was coming HARD, my shout of his name echoing in the shower.
I tried to return the favor, but he made it clear that he's not ready for me to touch him yet. I guess I can understand that. He'd probably have felt horribly guilty if he'd allowed me to get him off. I AM a rape victim, after all. (Excuse the bitterness. I hate being a victim of any kind, let alone a victim of RAPE.)
Once we were in bed, I proposed a compromise. I wanted so badly to see him come, so I asked him to touch himself for me. Best idea I EVER had! He was beautiful, so sexy, that I couldn't help but play with myself while I watched. He liked that a LOT. He lasted about as long as I had in the shower before he shot his seed.
I couldn't help myself. I HAD to taste him. So while he was recovering, I leaned down and used my tongue to lick him clean. His semen tasted like bananas, which just happen to be my favorite fruit. I was disappointed when it was all gone.
Then he asked me if I was okay, and I decided to show him just how OKAY I was. Once again, I pulled his hand to my center, letting him feel my desire. He did the HOTTEST thing - he dipped his fingers inside me and then put those same fingers in his mouth, sucking my juices off of them. He said I tasted like cream.
Though I was embarrassed, I somehow found the guts to ask him to put his mouth on me and make me come that way. He did, driving me to a screaming orgasm that put the one I'd had in the shower to shame. Like I said, last night was AMAZING.
I know it shouldn't be so easy for me to do sexual stuff so soon after the rape, but I have a theory. I think that whatever healed my body the other night also healed my soul. Not completely, of course - just enough to make it possible for Jacob and I to eventually Mate.
I think that when he claimed me as his Chosen, the magic of the claim saw that I might NEVER be able to complete the bond. So the magic healed me enough to make sure that I WOULD be able to one day. It makes sense, at least to me. I mean, how could I be Jacob's Chosen if we were never going to Mate? I couldn't. It would defeat the purpose of the claiming entirely.
I haven't shared my theory with Jacob and Embry yet, but I plan on telling them all about it tonight over dinner. Right now I'm just enjoying this time to myself while the boys work on the master bath. Embry thinks with Jacob's help that they'll probably finish it today. Then Embry is going to turn his entire focus to his studies, and Jacob is going to start hunting Tyler and his thugs.
I'm not sure how I feel about that. On one hand, I want them dead just as badly as my Jacob does. On the other hand, I have no idea how we can possibly accomplish that goal without getting arrested for murder. Jacob keeps telling me not to worry about it, but he doesn't how we're going to pull it off either. Maybe we should just leave it alone.
But I want them DEAD.
Bella sighed and closed the notebook, setting it and the pen on the bedside table. Writing about murder had reminded her - she needed to call Charlie. Getting to her feet, she went to use the phone in the kitchen.
He picked up on the third ring. "Hello?"
"Hey, Dad, it's me," Bella said cheerfully, using her memories of the night before to lift her mood. "How are you?"
"Bella!" He sounded happy to hear from her. "I'm fine, honey, how are you? You sound MUCH better than you did the other day."
Bella smiled. "I FEEL better."
"I'm glad, Bella. Does this mean you're coming home now?" Charlie asked hopefully.
"Not just yet. I probably won't be back for at least another week." A week and three days, to be exact. She wasn't leaving until Jacob and Embry did.
Charlie sighed. "Okay, kid. Do what you need to do."
"Thanks, Dad." Not for the first time, she was grateful for her father's laid back nature. "I love you."
"Love you, too," he replied, a touch uncomfortably. "Bye."
"Bye." Bella hung up the phone and started looking for cleaning supplies. It was the least she could do, and besides, she was bored.
That night, while they were eating, Bella brought up her theory. "I think that more than my body was healed Sunday night."
Embry nodded. "I had that thought myself. It's like your spirit was healed as well. Not completely, but a little bit."
"Exactly." Bella smiled at him. "Anyway, I have a theory about the whole thing." She quickly explained how she thought the magic from Jacob's claim had healed her so that she might someday be able to complete the bond.
Jacob was skeptical. "It's not supposed to work like that, though. Claiming magic is BINDING, not HEALING. In the past, other Werewolves' Chosens have been injured, and no magic healed THEM. Why should things suddenly change for us? It doesn't make sense."
Embry snorted. "Since when does ANY of this supernatural shit make sense? I say we should just be happy it happened and stop trying to analyze it."
He had a point, so Bella and Jacob both agreed to let it be and finished their meals. Embry offered to clean up the kitchen, smirking knowingly at them. Jacob threw a dish rag at his head and led Bella down the hall to the bathroom.
They watched each other strip, heat in their gazes, and then climbed into the shower. Once they were in, Bella pressed as close to Jacob as she could get, tilting her face up for a kiss that he gladly gave her. He put one hand on the small of her back to hold her against him and tangled the other in her hair, licking into her mouth. Bella moaned and kissed him back just as passionately as he was kissing her, snaking her arms around his neck.
Jacob's mouth broke away from hers and trailed across her jaw line to her ear. "Tell me what you want, Bells," he whispered hotly. "I want to make you SCREAM."
A dozen images flashed past her mind's eye in a matter of seconds and Bella sucked in a sharp breath. She wasn't ready for ANY of that yet, no matter how much she'd healed. She'd really enjoyed having his mouth on her the night before, though. "I want you to eat me out again," she spoke clearly, but she was blushing.
"Yes," he growled. Then he dropped to his knees in front of her. "Spread your legs."
Her heart pounding, Bella did as she was told. She kept her eyes on the top of his head, feeling her juices slide down her inner thighs.
Jacob took a deep breath, the scent of her arousal making his head swim. Holding her hips in his hands to steady both himself and her, he leaned forward and kissed the inside of her left thigh. Tasting her juices, he moaned and slid his left hand down to her pussy, easily slipping two fingers inside of her. Slowly pumping his fingers in and out of her, he licked both of her thighs clean before moving his mouth to her clit, which he immediately began teasing with his tongue.
Above him, Bella whimpered and grabbed the shower bar, squeezing it so tightly that her knuckles turned white. The faster his fingers moved, the faster Jacob flicked her clit with his tongue and the more Bella whimpered.
The sound was driving Jacob crazy. His cock was hard enough to cut diamonds, but he resisted the urge to touch it. In the back of his mind, he was hoping that Bella would want to watch him again.
Bella began to gasp between whimpers, and Jacob's fingers and tongue moved at furious pace. One, two, three more flicks and she was coming, screaming her ecstasy to the world in the form of his name. "JACOB!" Slowly, she sunk to a sitting position on the floor of the shower. "WOW."
Jacob smiled smugly before sucking his fingers clean of her come. He groaned at the taste. "GOD, if I could bottle your taste I'd make BILLIONS!"
Bella laughed breathlessly, but her eyes were on Jacob's erection. He was still kneeling next to her, so it was hard NOT to look. "Will you let me touch you tonight?" she asked, her expression hopeful.
Jacob stopped smiling and stood, helping her up. "Lets finish our shower while I think about it."
Bella nodded, excited that she might be allowed to make him come. They washed each other quickly but efficiently, then climbed out and dried each other off. They brushed their teeth and Bella put on Jacob's t-shirt long enough to get down the hall to their room. Jacob wore his boxers.
It wasn't until they were undressed and in there favorite position in bed again that Jacob finally spoke. "It's not that I don't want you to touch me; I DO. I just keep thinking about all of the stuff I read about rape. You shouldn't WANT to touch me."
"I thought we cleared this up during dinner." Bella sighed and turned to face him. "Whatever healed my body Sunday night also healed my spirit, like Embry said. No, I'm not ready for everything yet, but I am ready for some things. Touching you is one of those things."
"Okay," Jacob agreed after a short moment of silence. He kicked the sheet off of them and laid flat on his back with his hands folded behind his head. "Have your way with me."
Bella didn't waste any time. She gripped his big dick with both of her tiny hands and, without warning, kissed the head. Her lips were sticky when she pulled away, so she licked them. Then she moaned and went back for more, sucking the head of his erection as she worked him with her hands.
Jacob couldn't believe she'd put her mouth on him. Despite what had happened the night before, he hadn't expected her to be so forward. Well, he HAD told her to have her way with him, hadn't he? He decided to just relax and enjoy it.
Just then, Bella stabbed her tongue into his slit, moaning. He came in a rush and she swallowed it all, moaning the entire time. He just tasted so damn GOOD! Crawling back up his body, she kissed him HARD.
"I love you SO much," she told him once they'd pulled apart.
He smiled one of his sunshine smiles. "I love you, too, baby."
