Spencer was unsure of confronting his acquaintances with him and Derek's personal information. The closer he got to the door, the more nervous he got. Derek made it clear that he did not want to let people know about them until he was ready. But when he was ready was never noted, by date or otherwise; so when the team and Derek's family ever knew about them could be never if he had it his way. Reid felt his stomach turn as he slowed his steps.

"Are you okay? You look pale."

"Oh I-I'm fine, it's just that, well I don't know if Derek will be willing let this out so soon, I mean it's been a month..." He said quietly as he wiped the sweat beading on his face.

"Look you don't have to do this, I need to tell Zack anyways, me and his brother want to move in together." Allen smiled calmly. Spencer had comfort in the fact that Allen was sort of in the same situation as him and Derek, he thought it was nice to have someone else outside his small circle of friends he could talk to about stuff like this.

"Well listen, you and Derek take your time. What you two have is new and I'm guessing extremely fragile. Derek had so many women before you and from my experience, that's a little challenging to overcome. Especially when one is typecast as a quote "ladies man". Tread lightly with him."

Spencer was a little shocked at Allen's statement and swallowed hard. Relationships were one thing he could not quite put his finger on, facts about what it meant and what was expected he knew, but the emotional ties that came with was a tough topic that even the genius could not figure out.

"Well alright... I really don't want to mess this up. He means so much to me," he said with a sigh as he ran shaky hand through his hair. He really wanted to talk to Derek about this. They needed to plan, they needed to figure things out. Reid was starting to hate not having the answers for their lives, hell, he is a genius. He believed he should know everything.

~~~~xxxxx~~~~

Derek panicked. He did not want to tell his friends what was really going on. He stared at Zack and Gerard with wide eyes.

"What do you have to tell us?" Zack said quickly as he munched on some Doritos. Gerard just blinked and kept watching the game trying to seem interested as the door opened.

"That me and Gabriel are together...," Allen said quickly as he shut the door behind Spencer. Zack laughed.

"Gabe? What? Who are you talking about?"

"Gabriel, your brother..." Allen said calmly. Derek looked at him in shock and Spencer backed away slowly. Zack chewed his bite and swallowed as his smile faded away to a frown.

"What?"

"We plan on moving in together, so..." Allen said unwavering to the man before him. Gerard, now fully aware of the situation, turned off the game and started packing his things away. Spencer noticed this and rolled his eyes to look at Derek who looked quite scared.

Zack got up and looked Allen in the eye with a deadly expression on his face.

"You mean to tell me your a Grade A fag? With my brother?"

"To an extent, yes."

Zack responded by charging him and shoving him into the door holding him by the collar of his shirt, knocking over the table with food and drinks spilling everywhere. Derek lunged forth and grabbed Zack trying to pull him off of Allen, who did not fight back. Gerard just stood there in shock.

"YOU FUCKING FAGGOT! HOW DARE YOU?" He spat as he shoved Derek off of him. "THAT'S MY BROTHER!"

"Well I love him and he loves me." Allen said loudly with a sad look on his face. Spencer frowned.

"I should kill the both of you...you're a fucking lying piece of shit. We have been friends for seven years! And you mean to tell me that you been seeing my brother behind my back, knowing that my family will not tolerate this shit. But I must know. Tell me, Allen Novak, how long?"

"Four years."

Enraged, Zack grabbed his things and walked out the door. Allen walked after him. Zack turned around swiftly and stared at Allen coldly as Morgan and Reid looked on.

"You are no longer welcomed in my house and tell Gabriel the same, you ungodly assholes best stay away from me." Zack hissed as his dashing good looks turned sour. Spencer noted this and the look on his boyfriends' face. He realized that this is what Derek was afraid of. Losing his friends and his family to their love affair, losing everything he worked so hard for. And Reid was just beginning to think that if Morgan does not want this coming out, they could never really be together.

"Tell Gabriel to never come back home for the holidays, our parents will not welcome a couple of pipe cleaners..." He said as he walked off.

Allen just stared after him long after he was gone. Reid quickly asked him if he was alright while shaking angrily.

"Are you okay?"

"I just ruin everything for my boyfriend, I guess I'm okay." Allen looked at Reid with a genuine smile. "I'm sorry I ruined game night,..." as he looked at Derek, who frowned sadly.

"Look if you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to call me." He handed him a card and turned to Derek who looked away from both of them. The doctor noticed this and flushed with anger, this is Derek's friend and he just stood there like an idiot. Spencer looked back at Allen told him his phone number as Derek stood silent.

"Hey Derek, why don't you work on the mess in there while I show Allen out." Spencer said quietly. Morgan said nothing and did what he was told still not looking at Allen.

As they walked through the lobby, Spencer could not help reflecting on what he just witnessed. What he just saw was a cruel taste of what could and can happen if him and Derek if word got out about them. He hated the fact that on the field of duty, Morgan would do anything to get the job done. But now, when he is really needed, by his friends no less, he did nothing. Morgan was never they type of person to jump out of his comfort zone but his lack of actions on an emotional level was bothering Reid.

"Once again, I apologize. I didn't think Zack was that type of person, I hope you weren't offended."

"N-no, I'm just really angry. I should of kicked him or something." Reid said quickly. "Does Gabriel know you were telling him?"

"Yes, I thought it would be better for us, because Gabriel hates fighting, and Zack is a fighter."

"You were so calm,"

"If I would of fought him, it would of made things worst. Plus, I'm a deadly weapon due to my job so..." Allen said with a smile. Reid did not understand why Allen was so kind and was truly glad to have met him and also sympathize with him as he held out his hand and shook Allen's.

"Good luck Allen,"

"You too Spencer," he said as he left.

~~~~~xxxxx~~~~~

Spencer returned to Derek's home and closed the door. He watched as Derek finish cleaning the mess. He walked past him to sit at the island and started looking through his phone.

"Gerard left," Derek said quietly.

"Whatever."

"Look Spence,"

"Derek don't. Just stay over there for a minute."

"Look man, I just couldn't-"

"You couldn't what Derek? Help your friend? Derek, I'm not mad at you but I'm extremely disappointed. You and that Gerard character did nothing to help him."

"I'm sorry, Spence. I just froze."

"Derek, look. I think you have some issues you really need to fix within yourself. I have never seen you at like that, and if the team knew about it..." he just turned away from Derek and shook his head. Morgan had this side to him that Reid did not like. If he couldn't protect his friends, what make him think he could protect his lover.

"I just didn't know what I could do to help,"

"You could of told him you would be there for him, that it's okay! Something!"

"But he's a tough man Reid."

"Looks that way doesn't it. He just displayed his emotions in a way that could damage a person. Physically, he looks fine, with that sad smile on his face. But psychologically, he's probably torn up.

He just lost a friend and his lover's family." Spencer said clinically. "I would go into statistics but I'm too mad to think right now. You did the same thing when that Olivia girl was involved."

"So this is my fault?" Morgan said angrily as he stood up to face Reid, who just glared back.

He was right, as always the genius. Derek didn't want to push the issue. Instead he wanted to run over and make love to his boyfriend and forget that this whole thing happened. But this showed him something else, how big Reid's heart was. The man did not have many people in his life to call family or friends as well but when wants the best for the people he cares about, it shows. Too bad for Derek, he wasn't the same. He can make anyone feel good about themselves but when emotions are involved he ducks and hides.

"No it's not, but I'm worried about you."

"Oh please, I'm fine. I know I need some fine tuning but I'm good, man." He said angrily.

"Look, I'm just saying if we are going to move on with this, you need to be aware of what's to come." Spencer said without looking at the older agent.

"Can we please just drop the subject?"

"Sure, if it makes you sleep better at night..." Reid said stung by his dismissal.

"It will. I don't want to lose my mind..." Derek said carelessly and instantly regretted it when Reid looked up at him with wide sad eyes.

"I hope one day you realize who you are talking to when you say things like that," Reid said quietly as he when to his room and closed the door softly.

"Ah fuck," Morgan said pointedly at himself. As he walked into his master suite and turned on the TV. He wanted to sleep and forget everything. He just wanted him and Spencer to work by day and make love by night. Nothing else mattered. Hopefully, all this will be over by tomorrow. With the TV on rather loud, he went to sleep with hope that Spencer did the same. Two hours later, Reid walked out of his room and walked to Derek's door and watched him sleeping peacefully as his chest moved up and down rhythmically. Spencer smiled and went back into his room.

Reid slowly exited his room with a briefcase and his messenger bag. Another bag held his mother's pictures which he gripped tightly. He left a small note on Derek's coffee maker, knowing that's where he always go first and walked to the door.

"I'm really gonna miss this place," he said to himself with a smile as put on his coat and opened the door. He closed it softly not wanting wake the other agent.