*Yuri's POV*

I walked into Viktor's room with a smile on my face. "It's done!" I said showing him the costume. It's been a week since that day on the beach. Viktor hasn't brought it up again and I certainly don't really want to talk about it. I mean I told THE Viktor Nikiforov that I have feelings for him. And he feels the same way. But I still , I mean I'm just not ready right now.

Viktor grinned, "Great! I'll try it on now!" He took the costume from me and walked into the bathroom.

"Yuri-san are you feeling better now?" Yurio asked from the couch. I smiled and nodded my head. "Hey, Viktor said something about a festival are we all going together?" Yurio asked, "I've never been to a Japanese summer festival, is it fun?"

"Yea, there's all kinds of things to do at festivals! The summer festival starts tomorrow, if you want you can wear a yuksata. It's a Japanese robe that you wear for festivals." I told Yurio.

"Are you going to be wearing one?" Yurio asked me. I nodded a smile of my face, "C-can I wear one also?" Yurio asked a blush on his face. I laughed and nodded my head. Viktor then came out of the bathroom wearing his costume.

"I love it Yuri!" Viktor exclaimed looking at himself in the full length mirror. Yurio rolled his eyes and went back on his phone.

"Don't you think it looks good on me Yuri~?" Viktor purred turning around to look at me. I blushed and nodded. Viktor grinned and turned back around facing the mirror.

Mari then came into the room, "Yuri can you help me find the vacuum?" I nodded my head and followed her out the door. All of the sudden she pulled me into her room. I looked at her in confusion, Mari then held out an envelope in front of me. Wait, is that?

"Yuri." Mari started her voice shaking a little. "This is a suicide note."

-Two years ago-

I hate myself, I fucking hate myself. I want to die just fucking die already Yuri. Your too fucking scared to kill yourself aren't you? You fucking coward. Your a worthless piece of shit, your wasting oxygen. End your miserable exist already.

I cried to myself in my pillow. If only the fucking car accident happened of only he didn't come into my life. If only I wasn't such a Fucking failure.

I got off my bed and wiped my tears with my long sleeve. I should leave a note.

"I'm sorry Mari. I couldn't deal with all of the pain. My mind feels like it's ripping apart and I don't have the energy to force a smile anymore. I'm worthless. I can't to anything. I can't even be your little brother. I feel myself drifting apart from you, from myself everyday. I'm losing my sanity and I don't know how much I can take this. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough."

I sealed the letter in a purple envelope and slid it under Mari's door. Then I left the house.

I walked around aimlessly just trying to decide if I did the right thing. I guess I am really a coward.

My phone then rang, why did I bring this?

I answered anyway, "Hello?"

"Yuri! Good news, starting now you'll be sewing clothes for skaters! You got the job! I'm so proud of you! I went to the store to get you some things, I'll be home in about 20 minutes!" Mari's voice said through the phone. Before I could say anything she hang up on me. What?

I then rushed home without thinking, I have to hide that letter.

-Now-

"When were you going to do it?"Mari asked tears running down her face.

"That was a while ago, how did you find that?" I asked.

"It was in the hallway closet, and today I was cleaning it out. Yuri why?" Mari's voice crumpled. I didn't want you to find out like this. Not this way. I really messed up.

"I'm sorry, I didn't think you would find it. I don't feel that way anymore. Ever since I got my job, it's been relaxing. And I'm closer to you and I feel more happy. I think being around Viktor and Yurio has helped me a lot also. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Mari." I apologized to Mari hugging her tightly. "I'm not going to do anything stupid, I promise."

Mari cried in my arms, while I whispered sorrys and promised never to scared her like that again.

"Are you guys ready for the summer festival?" Mari asked. I still feel horrible about what happened last night but it looks like Mari trusts me. I'm grateful for that.

"I'm so excited for it!" Viktor said, he's practically glowing. "I can't wait! But how do you put on a yuksata?" Viktor asked.

"I'll help you guys put it on." I told Viktor.

"Oh yea Minami called earlier, I invited him to go with us." Mari said.

"Who's Minami?" Yurio asked.

"I sew his costumes also. And he practices dancing, so sometimes I help him." I said to Yurio.

"I think you guys will get along." Viktor said.

I looked at the clock, "We should get ready putting on a yuksata takes time." I said getting up. "I'll go get them."

A few hours later Minami came over, Yuri and him were taking about how to better their programs. "Why don't you help Viktor put on his yuksata?" Mari asked me. I slowly nodded my head. "Minami can you help Yurio with his yuksata?" Minami nodded his head.

"Let's go Yuri! I want to explore the festival!" Viktor said excitedly pulling me to his room. I blushed when I noticed he was holding my hand. I wonder... "Yuri? Are you ok?" Viktor asked waving a hand in my face.

I blinked, "Yea, I'm fine. Let's get you into your yuksata." I told Viktor pulling one off of the closet shelf. "Um, you can get undressed." I told Viktor, I blushed and looked away. Maybe I'm just over thinking everything. But he did say he would wait. Is he serious though?

"Ok put your arm through, and hold this so I can tie it." I told Viktor helping him in the yuksata. When we were done Viktor's face brighten. He really loves Japanese culture doesn't he?

"Yay! Let's go to the festival now!" Viktor cheered running out of the room.

"We have to wait for the others!" I called running after him.

Yurio walked out to the living room in his yuksata. "Aren't you going to wear one?" He asked I shooked my head.

"Everyone ready?" Mari asked swirling her keys.

As soon as we arrived Minami, Yurio, and Viktor were out of the car and running up to stalls. I laughed. "Make sure they don't break anything." Mari said locking her car. I nodded.

"Yuri! Yuri! What is this?" Viktor asked showing me a stall food.

"That's takoyaki." I answered.

"It's good~" Viktor said taking a bite. He's like a child. Cute. Did I just call him cute?

I shrugged off the thoughts, "Where are the others?" I asked.

"Mari took them somewhere. Let's go play some games!" Viktor smiled taking my hand again.

After a night of playing goldfish scooping, having karaoke contests, eating lots of stall food like, candy apples, yakisoda, taiyaki, and dango it was time to go.

"Let's go Viktor! It's getting really late." I told Viktor dragging him away from another food stall. Viktor pouted but followed me back to where the others would be waiting. "Did you have fun?" I asked.

Viktor smiled and laced our hands together, "Yes."

I blushed but didn't let go.

Maybe, just maybe. I thought to myself.