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Chapter 9 coming at you - dedicated to my Rock Star


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Chapter Nine - Where's Your Head At

So Spencer was released from hospital a few days ago. She had to stay there for like a week on account of having to have her spleen removed and all that. I guess they can't just slice and dice an organ out of you and send you packing.

I went to see her everyday. You could tell that she was trying so damn hard to pretend that everything was ok but inside I could tell she was screaming. Her smile didn't quite reach her eyes, which are so expressive that I could read every emotion she was trying so desperately to hide.

I tried to reach out to her but she just pulled away and insisted that everything was fine. It wasn't. After our talk the night she woke up in hospital I really thought that she'd be ok, I was wrong.

So here I am, three days since she came home from hospital sitting outside her house trying to figure out what I'm going to say to her once I walk through her front door. I brought an arsenal or goodies with me in an attempt to cheer her up, and also in case I once again can't find the right words to say. I'm Ashley Davies, I'm supposed to be good with words, but when it comes to Spencer I become that sweaty palmed freshman boy trying to talk to the senior cheerleaders. Oh and please don't ever tell Spencer I compared her to the cheerleaders, she HATES the cheer bitches with a passion.

I checked my bag and made sure the supplies were there, took a huge breath and stepped out of my car. Time to try and make my blonde smile.

I let myself in, Mrs C had ordered me to stop ringing the door bell if I was going to be practically living there. Mrs C is kinda cool, not as cool as Mr C but still cool. They make my folks looks like the biggest drop kicks on the planet (which they totally are)!

"Hey Mr C," I call as I climb the stairs, he pokes his head out from the living room and gives me a huge grin, it's the first time a girl's parents have ever liked me…its kinda weird in the coolest of ways. Usually parents seem to have the desire to either stone me or tie me to a stake and set me on fire, I'm glad the girl I am desperately in love with has parents who don't think I'm the spawn of Satan.

Actually the first girl I dated, her parents once called the cops on me when the found me in their daughter's bedroom, oops!

I knock lightly on Spencer's door, walking in once she tells me to. "Hey Princess, how are you?"

Spencer is sitting cross legged on her bed with her laptop on her knees. Even in her baggy grey sweat pants and a white tank top Spencer looked hot. She turns to me and gives me a tired smile, "Hey there. Um I'm alright, getting a bit stir crazy couped up at home though. Glad to see you, how are you? How's the real world?"

"You're Mom said you'd be good for school on Monday so only the weekend to go. The outside world is still out there waiting for the return of my Princess," I smiled at her, getting a rather half hearted smile in return. Ok that will so not do!

"Spence, do you want to talk about it?" I almost wanted to take those words back the second I said them.

Her face became stormy and angry for a moment before she pasted on a smile and said in a strained voice, "No, I'm fine thank you." Polite Spencer is so not my Spencer, well not with me anyway. With me she is meant to banter and throw around sarcastic comments like my teachers throw out detentions. With me she's meant to flirt and tease and argue. With me she is not meant to be polite.

I watched her sadly for a moment and then sighed. This was getting us no where, me pussy-footing around her like this. I have had enough of her pretending that everything is fine when it so clearly isn't.

"Ok Spencer how about you try being honest this time?" I said quietly.

"Excuse me? What the fuck are you talking about?" Spencer snapped. Finally a reaction, granted not a huge one but a reaction none the less, at least she wasn't being polite.

"I'm talking about the fact that you've been putting up this happy front since all the shit with Carmen and I can tell that is so not how you feel!" I snapped back.

"Well if you know how I feel, why don't you tell me then oh wise one?" Spencer said sarcastically.

I bit back the first bitchy, sarcastic retort that flew into my head and tried to answer as calmly as possible, "I care about you Spence, I just want to help you. I can see how hard you're trying to be ok, to show everyone how ok you are, but you don't ever have to pretend with me. Please just tell me how you feel Spence, let me in so I can help."

Spencer froze and stared at me for a moment then she started to cry. I stepped forward and pulled her into my arms, letting her cry against my chest. "I'm just so angry Ashley."

"At Carmen?" I asked gently.

"Yeah at her, but I'm angry at myself too." Spencer murmured quietly. I stroke her silky blonde hair, running my fingers through one of the dark brown streaks and held her closer.

"Why would you be angry at yourself Spence? You have done absolutely nothing wrong." I asked confused.

"Because Ashley I let it happen. I never should have gotten together with her in the first place. I was so confused and hurt over what happened with you and how I felt about you and I threw myself into a relationship as soon as someone showed me the slightest bit of attention. I was an idiot. It was the biggest mistake of my life, not just because it meant that I ended up getting this shit beat out of me but because it meant I wasn't with you." Spencer sat back and locked her eyes on mine. I felt my breath catch at the look of pure love and anguish in her eyes.

"Spence it's ok. I understand why things happened with Carmen, I do. After you told me about everything with Claire I get it. I just wish I'd had the balls to tell you how I felt before it even got to that. I was a coward and a moron. If I'd just been honest then you would have been with me and Carmen would have never gotten to lay a single finger on you. Spencer please do not be angry with yourself," I pleaded as I squeezed her hand in mine.

I really wanted to go kick Carmen. Don't really care what part of her body I maim, although face or ovaries seem to appeal the most. I also wanted to kick myself, but just in the ass and not really that hard.

Spencer tilted her head up to face me. The look in her big blue eyes was so intense I felt my pulse quicken. Spencer's eyes flicked back and forth between my lips and my eyes before she pulled back out of my arms and got off her bed to walk across the room.

I felt cold as soon as she walked away, the space next to me just felt empty. I could have sworn she was about to kiss me, maybe its too soon after Carmen. Spencer leaned against her desk and nodded towards the rather big bag of goodies I had dropped on the floor, "What's in the bag Rock Star? Bombs? Drugs? Dildos?"

I threw back my head and laughed, the word 'dildos' sounded so wrong coming out of her mouth. Clearly this was her way of avoiding the potential awkwardness, who am I to argue with her? I hate awkwardness as much as the next person, in fact I think I hate it more than the next person.

I scooped the bag up from the floor and stood up. I put on my game show host voice and began a rather dramatic revelation of the items in my bag. "Well firstly we have the most wonderful food in the whole world…brownies!" Spencer giggled and came to sit on her bed.

"Next we have a dozen doughnuts, half chocolate, half jelly. Oh and to even out all the sweet with some savoury we have the Nacho Cheese Doritos!" I said wiggling my eye brows. Spencer burst out laughing, it was the most beautiful sound.

"I also have the Buffy the Vampire Slayer board game and I brought the Buffy video game. I also brought season 1 of Veronica Mars, we both know you have a thang for Kristen Bell," Spencer shrugged and then nodded with a huge smile that actually reached her eyes, go me! "Oh and I brought John Tucker Must Die as well, and yes I am going to make you rewind the scene where Sophia Bush kisses Brittany Snow. My Sophia is one hot woman!"

Spencer giggled, "Hey Ash?"

"Yeah Princess?"

"Thanks," Spencer murmured quietly.

"For what gorgeous?" I asked with a huge grin.

"For being here, for not letting me disappear, for making me laugh and for being amazing. You are one incredible girl Miss Davies," Spencer beamed at me. I chucked my now empty bag on the floor and pulled her into a warm hug. Spencer buried her face against my neck and held me close.

"You are rather incredible yourself Miss Carlin. So Princess what would you like to do first?" I asked, my voice muffled against her hair, which smelt like raspberries just so you know and I know you desperately wanted to.

"Hmm well I'm thinking some of that sugary goodness you brought and a few eps of Veronica Mars. What do you think Rock Star?" Spencer asked with an adorable smile.

"Whatever you say Princess. I'm up for some Kristen Bell," I winked at her and got up and put the DVD on before settling next to Spencer on the bed.

Before we could get into the first episode Spencer's door was thrown open and Glen came charging in. He gave us both warm smiles and said, "So how's my baby sister today?"

Spencer rolled her eyes, "You know I'm only a few minutes younger than you right ass-face?'

"Yeah but you're so annoying, in the way that only little sisters can be butt-munch." Glen smiled sweetly, earning another eye roll from Spencer. He's right though, younger sisters are annoying in a way only younger sisters can be, fucking Kyla shits me most of the time but you can't help but love her. Plus killing her would be illegal and might piss off the parentals a tad.

"Well I'll leave you guys too it, good to see you Ash," Glen left closing the door behind him. Spencer turned to me with a wry smile on her face.

"He thinks I'm annoying? Has he met himself?"

I laughed, "Hey it's a baby sister's job to be annoying and in the words of Logan Echolls, 'annoy tiny blonde one, annoy like the wind.'"

Spencer grabbed a pillow and whacked me hard in the gut. Oh hell no, she is so not getting away with that! I scooped up another pillow and thump her across the back with it. I'll admit it was probably a little stupid seeing as she only got out of hospital a few days ago, but rational thought tends to desert me around this blonde hottie. We pound on each other for a while until I tackle her and end up straddling her on the bed with her hands captured under my hands above her head.

Spencer's eyes were wide and her breathing I erratic. I have to say it was hot. Spencer's eyes were a deep blue and they bore into mine with an intensity that I hadn't seen before. I unconsciously licked my lips which seemed to make her eye's grow darker.

Spencer licked her own lips and then whispered, "I think I'm having a déjà vu episode right now, only this time let's get it right."

I grinned remembering the last time we'd ended up like this only to have Glen ruin the moment before we could kiss. No way in hell was that happening again. "You sure?" I asked leaning in ever so slightly.

"Just kiss me," Spencer said softly, her eyes piercing mine.

I lowered my lips to hers and tenderly brought our lips together. It was soft and gentle, and it was the best thing I have ever felt in my entire life. I kept the kiss light, I didn't want to push her too far too quickly. As I went to pull away I felt her hand on the back of my neck pulling me closer so she could deepen our kiss. I guess I let her set the pace.

I felt her tongue brush my lips and opened them to let her in. Before long our tongues were fighting for dominance. Spencer moved a hand to the small of my back and pulled my body firmly against hers, making me gasp into her mouth. I felt her smirk against my lips, God this was what heaven must be like.

I felt Spencer's warm body beneath me, my body on fire everywhere our bodies touched. It was the most intense kiss of my life, Spencer Carlin's kiss has ruined me for other girls, no lie. I lost myself in the kiss and the girl in my arms.

We'd been kissing for a good long while when Spencer's door was thrown open and a voice called out, "Took you bitches fucking long enough! But you know you're supposed to stop for air right?"

I rolled off Spencer and glared at the figure in the door, Ridley. I am going to slaughter her…when my body can function again. Spencer was blushing a rather spectacular shade of scarlet, "hey Rid…um what the fuck are you doing here?"

Ridley smirked and took a seat in Spencer's arm chair, "Well clearly I'm here for the show so continue with what you were doing." Spencer laughed and chucked a cushion at Ridley, managing to get her right in the face, my girls got wicked throwing skills. "Oi Carlin not cool!" Ridley shrieked as she ran a hand through her short ponytail.

Spencer sat up and pulled my head over to rest in her lap…hell yeah I know you all wish you were me right now! "You were asking for it Rid and you know it, wanna join us?"

"Carlin is that your way of asking me to have a threesome with you two? Coz babe I already told you not unless its you, me and Megan Fox and even then I have ground rules." Ridley said with a sympathetic shrug.

Me and Spencer both roared with laughter. It felt so amazing to have Spencer laughing and joking next to me…not to mention the rather incredible tingling I was still feeling from all the kissing.

"So in all seriousness what's going on here? Spencer? Ashley? Are you guys like a couple now?" Have I mentioned the fact that Ridley has absolutely no tact what so ever? Well she doesn't. I was freaking out, I actually get to kiss Spencer for the first time now this crazy girl was trying to get us to define the relationship? Fuck! I was just waiting for Spencer to flip out and chuck my ass off her bed.

Instead I almost died of shock when Spencer laughed and shook her head, "Ridley baby, tact…look it up. Now in response to your question what you just interrupted was a first kiss…"

Ridley cut her off with a sly smile, "Looked more like foreplay to me." Spencer blushed harder and gave Ridley the finger while I tried to hold in my laughter. I put a hand on Spencer's knee and lightly stroked her leg through her sweat pants.

Ridley's smile widened as she watched my actions, "Ok ladies I might head off, you know get to work on making Megan Fox my wife and all. You guys keep it PG 13 on the first night ok? Later bitches!" Ridley called as she got up and wandered out.

Fucking Ridley is insane…seriously.

"That girl has some serious issues," Spencer said with a laugh. She looked down at me with a sweet smile on her lips, "So I guess we have to talk right?"

I reluctantly removed my head from her lap and sat up. There was no way in hell I could have an intelligent, serious conversation with my head there. "Yeah I think we do. Where's your head at Spence?"

Spencer giggled, I really couldn't see the funny side to what I had just said. On my confused look she explained, "Sorry, every time someone says that all I can see is that Basement Jaxx song, you know the video clip with those creepy monkeys that have human faces, that clip kinda freaks me out." I rolled my eyes and laughed.

"Ok let me rephrase that, what are you thinking now, after well…after."

Spencer cut me off with a smirk, "making out with you?"

"Yeah something like that," I said sheepishly. Spencer smiled and tilted her head…oh my God the head tilt…is she trying to kill me?!

"Ash, I know you're expecting me to freak out, but I'm not going to. I know I haven't been myself this past week, after everything. I guess all I've been doing is thinking. Think about her, about you and everything that happened. I've been an idiot, really I have. I should have trusted you and not jumped into that relationship with Carmen. But I can fix that mistake now," Spencer swallowed and took my hand in hers, gently stroking the skin over my knuckles with her thumb.

"Ashley I want to be with you. I want to be able to tell the world that you are mine. I want to forget that there ever was a Carmen and I want to move on. If I don't move on with my life, if I wallow in what Carmen did to me then she wins. In short I want you to be my girlfriend, what do you say to that Rock Star?"

Ok so my mind is officially blown, she wants to be my girlfriend…God! In my head I am so doing a happy dance. "I guess I say…hell yes I want to be your girlfriend Princess. We'll take things slow Babe."

Spencer smiled coyly at me, "Yeah, slow." She then leaned forward and tenderly kissed my lips. It was even better than the last kiss. I was drowning in her, willingly I might add. Spencer pushed me back on the bed and lowered herself over me, never breaking contact with my lips. Her hands were gentle as they stroked my hair. I cupped the back of her neck, holding her to me.

We were engaged in one of the most tender and intense make out sessions of my life when I got the shit scared out of me by cries of, "Oh my God my eyes! My eyes!! They burn," and "Dude that's my sister…God I'm gonna need therapy, thanks Ridley!"

I groaned in frustration as Spencer climbed off me and we both sat up glaring at our intruders. Just for your information the first cry was my lovely little sister Kyla who looked horrified, the second was Glen who was glaring daggers at Ridley who was just smiling innocently. She really is fucking insane.

"What the fuck is going on here?" Spencer asked, can I just say she is hot when she's pissed off…ok Ashley brain back in the moment please. Ridley, Glen, Clay, Kyla, Madison, Chelsea and Aiden were all standing just inside Spencer's bedroom door. I guess we were too into what we were doing to notice them coming in. What can I say as soon as Spencer's lips touched mine I lost all awareness of anything but her.

"Well I thought seeing as you guys were finally pulling your heads out of your asses and hooking up we should all celebrate," Ridley explained with a huge grin. Kinda hard to hate her when she looks so happy for us.

Poor Glen, Kyla and Clay all looked a little freaked, I guess it really isn't cool to walk in on your sibling getting some…ok so we weren't technically 'getting some' but you get what I'm saying right?

Madison was grinning at us like a proud mamma, Chelsea looked so happy she might cry, Ridley looked smug (I might have to smack her upside the head later for that smugness) and Aiden looked like all his Christmases had come at once, in the form of girl on girl porn…boys are icky.

"So you guys enjoy the show?" Spencer asked sarcastically, still glaring at Ridley.

There was a chorus of "yeah," and a "Hell Yes!" from Aiden, followed by a "not at all," "I think I'm gonna hurl," and "Seriously needing a drink right now," by Clay, Kyla and Glen respectively. It was kinda funny and I couldn't help but laugh.

"What are you laughing at Davies?" Spencer asked sternly, it just made me laugh harder. Spencer suddenly gave me an evil smile and murmured, "I guess someone doesn't want to be getting any lovin any time soon."

There was a loud groan from our siblings and laughter from the others. Me I just pouted. I know I told her we'd take things slow but damn I want me some lovin, especially Spencer lovin! Spencer just chuckled and wrapped an arm around my shoulders. I snuggled into her, earning beaming smiles from everyone, even our rather grossed out siblings.

"Ok hoes, let's go get our celebration on!" Ridley yelled, that girl really doesn't know how to speak at a normal decibel.

"Ok just to be clear we're celebrating Spencer and Ashley getting together right? Wait are you guys together?" Madison asked.

I looked at Spencer who smiled at me and nodded. I turned back to the others, "Yeah we're together." I think my grin was scarily wide because Madison and Chelsea laughed at me, bitches.

"Fucking finally, so lovers lets go get some food I'm fucking starving," Ridley announced. Yeah and did I mention on top of being insane and loud Ridley also has a mouth like a fucking sailor…oh wait so do I…ignore what I just said.

Everyone headed downstairs so Spencer could change, plus Ridley was going to convince Mr C to let Spencer out (she would have no problem, Mr C is a big softy). I sat on Spencer's bed while she disappeared into her bathroom to get changed. I just sat there grinning to myself, I guess I got the girl. I meant what I said though, after everything that went down, we are taking it slow. She means too much to me to risk fucking it all up by moving too fast.

I was ripped from my thoughts when Spencer wandered out of her bathroom looking all kinds of hot. She was wearing a short, light blue jean skirt with a frayed hem which showed off her long, toned and extremely tanned legs. On her feet she was wearing her favourite pair of purple Converses, I loved it when she wore them coz in my heels it meant I was taller than her. She was wearing a loose black top that hung off one shoulder, leaving it bare except for her purple bra strap. God she is so beautiful.

"When you're done staring Ash, how bout we go," Spencer asked with a smirk.

I blinked a few times and smiled sheepishly, I guess I was staring, but hello Spencer Carlin is hot and totally stare inducing. "Ok Princess, let's go before Ridley busts in here to drag us out."

As if summoned by her name Ridley threw open the door, "Ok bitches time to get our sexy asses moving, you two can have hot lesbian sex later…I'll even leave you a web cam so we can all enjoy!"

Spencer smacked Ridley's arm and shook her head laughing. I grabbed Spencer's hand and we followed Ridley out the door while she rambled on about the different sexual positions we should try. Thank fucking God there is only one Ridley Walker!

"Ok bitches let's get out of here! Later Mr C!" Ridley yelled out. Mr C gave her an affectionate smile and shook his head before kissing Spencer on the cheek and giving my shoulder a squeeze.

"Have fun kids, Ash take care of my little girl for me," Mr C asked with a big smile.

"You know I will." I beamed and squeezed Spencer's hand. She just grinned at me and her Dad before dragging me out the front door after the others. Time to go hang with my friends and my girlfriend, hehe my girlfriend how awesome does that sound? Anyone who said that isn't awesome is just jealous that Spencer is mine and not their's, jackasses.

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Ok so there is Chapter 9, thanks to all who reviewed on chapter 8.

I'm not sure how I feel about this one so I would love to hear what you think.

I'm working on chapter 10 now so hope to get it up soon.