I am sorry for those of you who have been waiting for the next chapter. We had alot of stuff to do at school these past weeks. I am now on SPRING BREAK so I will be posting a two part chapter that I hope you will all like. Yes Jacob and Leah will be going together. I know that it says Jacob and Edward but that is because I am telling you the story from both of their points of view. So if there was any confusion on that. The next part in this chapter will be the fight and maybe a cliffy at the end idk :) I have the next couple chapters planned out so yes there will be more drama and tension between Edward and Jacob. Oh and btw I am looking for a Beta so if anyone is intrested write me... Hope you enjoy Part I!!!
Part I EPOV
I tried not to let Jacob's thoughts get to me. If we think we are going to lose then that's what will happen. We need to be strong, especially at a time like this.
Jacob and I sat on the porch steps in complete silence. There was nothing we could say. All we could do is fight and fight hard.
"Jacob, we need to strategize with Sam." We needed to prepare how we were going to take on Victoria and her group of newborn vampires. Jasper would need to be the one to show us how to handle them. Newborns are wild, blood thirsty, and most of all – strong. Jacob nodded in agreement.
"I'll make a time with Sam. Where should we meet?" Jacob asked. He was all business now. I knew that he was just putting on a mask that covered up his feeling he was too nervous to show. He was scared. He was frightened of losing the people he cares about. Scared of losing time.
"The baseball clearing. How about at midnight?" I asked him. I would need time to get everyone together.
"Okay." Jacob said and began to stand. Then he started walking away.
"Did you want me to give you a ride? Aren't you tired?" I asked. I didn't want him to pass out or anything because he was already tired as it was.
"I'm fine," he snapped and sprinted into the trees. This was really hard on him. I sighed and went back inside the house What I needed was time to think.
"We have to meet with the Quiluetes at midnight. We are going to come up with a plan to take Victoria down. And Jasper- we need your help in training all of us to kill the newbo0rn vampires." I looked over at Jasper. His eyes were wary. I could hear past memories running through his mind. He nodded almost in defeat.
I went and sat on the floor by the wall that was actually all windows. Bella wasn't up yet so there wasn't really anything for me to do. She needed her sleep though and I wasn't going to take that from her. I tried to sort the problems that were jumbling my mind. First, there was Jacob. I felt so entirely happy that he liked someone else. He needed to eventually find out that there are people who love him. But, it shocked me that I was insanely jealous. Part of me wanted him to love only me. I wanted him to keep chasing after me. I was also a bit angry. If he truly wanted me he shouldn't have given up so easily. Yes, it was fantastic that he loved Leah, but would there be any time for me? This whole situation was confusing.
And then there was Bella. It was unbelievable that she was here and she still wanted to be with me. I loved her so much. But what if things got too overwhelming for her? Would she leave me again? Could I honestly trust her with my heart again? I had no clue what to do. Whatever happened would happen I guess.
"Stop worrying, Edward," Jasper told me gravely. My emotions were driving him crazy. He wanted me to focus on the situation at hand, not my complicated love life. I rolled my eyes at him. He never had to deal with this sort of thing. Him and Alice were made for each other and no one else was trying to pull them apart. He wasn't always overwhelmed with jealousy and hurt like I was. He knew exactly whom he was supposed to be with. The question was who was I meant to be with?
I was suddenly distracted by the sound of yawning and stretching upstairs in my bedroom. Bella was up. I felt a strange feeling in my stomach as I went with vampire speed upstairs.
"Hey," She said softly as I appeared at the door. I crossed the room and enfolded her into my arms. She sighed and I pulled her even closer to me. Her sweet scent filled my lungs and I could have sworn that I was in heaven. I turned my head to the side and kissed her throat softly. If felt as if a small flame had run down my throat. The pain was lost when her hand tangled itself in my hair. I kissed a path up her neck, and rained kisses down on her jaw.
"I love you," I whispered to her. She opened her mouth to say something and I brushed my lips against hers. I could feel her heart racing under my hand. I couldn't get enough of her. She kissed me back eagerly and I pulled her mouth closer to mine. Her hands ran down my body and pressed me closer to her. I could feel the hunger rising in me, not only for her sweet blood but her body as well. I wanted to keep going but I didn't want to risk losing control of myself.
I pulled away reluctantly. Both of our breathing came in pants. She laughed softly. We both lay still for a moment catching our breath. Her head rested against my chest and I gently stroked her hair. I
couldn't believe I lived without her for almost 100 years. She was my everything.
"We're meeting the Quiluetes tonight." I told her. She already knew Victoria and her gang of newborns was coming. She was abruptly tense by my side. She picked it up from me.
"Why?" She asked confusion on her face. This was one of those times that I wish I could read into her mind. It drove me crazy not knowing what she was thinking.
"Jasper is going to explain to us, as well as the wolves, how to take out a newborn vampire."
"Oh." She breathed. She musty have been thinking we had to meet with the wolves because of some other reason. "I'm going with you." She stated flatly. I knew that she would want to go. But, it could be potentially dangerous for her to be there. We didn't know how our meeting out in the field would go. We might not be able to cooperate with them. This might make a strain in our treaty even. I sighed. I didn't want her there at all. I didn't want to see her face if she was standing there and things spiraled out of control. But, I knew she wasn't going to give in. I didn't want to spend any time away from her now anyway. It was like there was a deep sickness inside of me when I thought about leaving her. All I knew was that she would be by my side. I could protect her and I would know that she is safe with me.
"Actually, we need to be going soon," I told her, but the last thing I wanted to do was leave the comfort of her arms.
"Okay," she said and sat up quickly. "Just give me a moment to be human," I nodded. Sometimes it was so easy to forget she was human. It wasn't that I was immune to her irresistible scent, I totally was, but she knew me so well. She could see through all my stupid pretenses. She was the only one I could really tell everything in all my existence. She was so good for me. Bella got up and went to the bathroom. I went downstairs.
As I appeared into the living room I noticed that the others were already getting prepared. All of them looked ill at ease, that is, everyone except for Emmett.
"Do you think they will let me take on Paul?" He laughed.
"Emmett," Carlisle spoke seriously, "we're trying to work with them not pick a fight. They are making a huge decision by fighting with us. We are going to try our absolute best to ensure nothing gets out of hand." I'm glad he said that. Things needed to be taken seriously now.
"It's not going to be exciting anyway. Hanging around a pack of mutts- what a joy. It was bad enough just being around Jacob." Rosalie inputted. I couldn't stop the hiss that escaped from between my clenched teeth. Sometimes I just wanted to put my hands around her neck and-
"Edward," Alice spoke, probably seeing a vision of me choking the hell out of Rosalie, "It won't help anything." She tried to reason with me. I noticed a couple of eyerolls and glares across the room. Then Bella walked over to me. I hadn't noticed that she had come into the room. I must've been distracted by my anger at Rosalie. Seeing Bella immediately calmed me. I pulled her to my side. I pulled her wrist up to my lips and gently kissed her. A mouthwatering blush began to creep into her cheeks.
After the tension died down in the room we began to proceed to the gigantic garage that enclosed all of the Cullen cars. Bella and I got in a car with Alice and Jasper. I wouldn't be able to stand Rosalie. The other four got in another car. Then both of the vehicles were speeding to the clearing.
For me, being in the baseball clearing was a little like déjà vu. It seemed like every time we came to this place something bad was happening. When I thought about this place it made me feel like Victoria was right here. The first time we saw her along with James and Laurent. Something that I would never forget and something I would always regret. If I had never brought Bella with my family to play baseball she wouldn't have ever been in danger. The other vampires wouldn't even have had the chance to meet her. All of these problems would disappear and it would just be Bella and me forever. But now here we are and there is nothing we could've done to change that.
While my family was already waiting in the center of the clearing, I took my time walking with Bella.
"What are you thinking?" I asked her. I always wanted to know what was on her mind.
"I'm thinking about the first time you brought me here actually," She told me looking away. It was weird how we had both been thinking about the same thing. Maybe this was why we were meant to be together. We knew each other so well. But her thoughts brought a hiss from deep inside me,
"It was a mistake."
"I wasn't thinking about the other vampires, Edward. I was thinking about the first time you brought me here because it was the first time you told me you loved me." She blushed. Looking back I remembered that I said that too.
"I love you Bella," I said holding her face between my hands. "You are the most important thing to me ever. I never want to lose you."
"I love you," she told me, and the words warmed my heart. I kissed her as gently as I could and tried to show her how much I cared. I tried to put all of my love in this kiss. This was something that I could honestly say that I had never felt before.
"Will you stop making out and join us?" Emmett called loudly. I heard a few chuckles from the rest of my family. Bella and I walked hand in hand to join my family. I could detect that the wolves were on their way. Hopefully everything would go as planned and not turn into some disastrous mess.
The wolves that were approaching from the trees were Sam, Jacob, Jared and Quil. As I read into Sam's thoughts I realized Sam ordered the others to stay behind and protect LaPush. He was thinking that if things happened to get out of hand that we might go for their territory and he left wolves back their to protect his people. They should know by now that we weren't going to attack them. We were all truly grateful that they were going to help us in the fight. Truly, we thought of them as almost friends, or at the least allies.
The four of them stopped a good distance away from us. Sam wanted everyone to stay in wolf form so that not only could they talk to the others at home, but just in case they were prepared for anything. That means I would have to be the translator for the rest of them since they couldn't read minds.
Edward I know you are listening. Could you please tell the others that we are going to stay in this form and that we will only be watching the demonstration?
"They are staying in their wolf forms. They are only going to watch what Jasper shows us." I told everyone. They all nodded in understanding.
"Thank you for coming," Carlisle spoke. "Jasper is going to show us all how to handle newborns." Sam nodded.
Yes…. Thank you. We will watch.
"He says thank you and that they will be watching." One by one the four wolves dropped to the ground and studied us with curious eyes. Bella was staring at them next to me. It was a wonder how a human like her could know so many things that the rest of the world had no clue about. It must be fascinating to her. She looked very tired next to me. Although she had only just awoken earlier, she seemed like she was going to fall out. Things must be harder on her than she is letting on. I put my arm around her.
"Maybe we should sit." I suggested. She nodded and she sat up against the rock that was close by. I sat next to her.
"I'm not tired." She said. "Just overwhelmed I guess. I want to see this though. " And I saw her determination to watch what Jasper was going to show. I held her hand and that seemed to bring comfort to the both of us.
Jasper walked to about midfield between the wolves and us. He was very wary about teaching us. He didn't like being in the spotlight. He also kept dwelling on his past and life he used to live. Teaching us to fight newborns was bringing up the person he used to be. The person who killed because he was hungry and that was the only thing he knew. He was a soldier, in command. He ran his own life and killed because that was how the world was for him. Part of him still wished he were still there and the other part wished he couldn't remember. Jasper sighed and directed his attention to us. There was a wave of déjà vu through him. I saw a mental image of him facing a group of wild, bloodthirsty newborns and giving them skills for battle. Jasper cleared his mind and began to focus.
"Newborns don't have much training. They rely on their strength to carry them. The only thing we have to do is not go for the easy kill. That's what they will be looking for and they will be able to defend themselves. Other than that they have no skill whatsoever. We have the numbers and the strength to take them out." Jasper paused. "Never let a newborn's arms get around you, that would be bad. They are easily distracted also. We have the upper hand here." Jasper finished his speech. He motioned for Emmett to come forward.
"We are going to try uneven pairings in skill. One technique is to move a step forward or backward when they spring at you. They get distracted and that's when you are best able to attack."
Emmett snickered as he approached Jasper. Emmett has the upper hand at strength, but Jasper has finer skills. Emmett immediately sprang at him and Jasper darted out of the way quickly. This went on for about a minute. Emmett would lunge toward Jasper and think he had him in his arms but then they would end up empty. The running and jumping of men became a whirlwind of motion.
I was dying with want. I wanted so bad to go up against one of them. I would know every move they would plan and I would be one step ahead of them. But, knew that going out there would upset Bella and then it really wouldn't be worth it.
I was listening to the thoughts of the wolves during the demonstration Jasper and Emmett were giving. They were full of appreciation. They were thinking about doing some of things during the fight. Some of the information was sort of useful to them.
"Okay, that's enough," Carlisle said. Jasper was behind Emmett and had him at the throat. Jasper smiled and there was a scowl on Emmett's face. They broke apart swiftly and turned to look at each other. They burst out laughing. If we were to let them keep going it would last a while. Neither one of them wanted to give in even though Jasper would probably win most of the times. I was pretty sure that they would be going at again.
Jasper 's next example was with Alice. It was different with her. We all knew that he would never in the world hurt Alice. It was more sweet than competitive between them. Jasper would spring towards her and Alice would move either frontward or backward and avoid him. They began moving faster and faster. It looked sort of like a rehearsed dance between them. Then they stopped abruptly.
Alice was perched on Jasper's back with her lips at his throat. She kissed him softly and then jumped down. The wolves weren't so impressed this time. That was their fault then. It was still a good demonstration though.
"Thank you for watching." Carlisle spoke to the wolves again. "We appreciate your help." The wolves nodded.
"Okay now that I showed you most of the basics I'm going to pair you up so you can practice." Jasper said. He started pairing them up.
"Do you mind if I go and talk to Jacob?" I asked Bella.
"No, that's perfectly fine. You know you don't have to ask me every time, you know. I'm not going to have a fit because you want to talk to him." She gave a faint smile. God, I loved her. I kissed her shortly and then walked away to talk to Jacob. Bella's attention was focused on the rest of the Cullens. I knew she worried over them. She really should have more faith in them. We could take care of ourselves and she was just putting unnecessary stress on herself.
I looked over to where the wolves were laying. Jacob wasn't with them. I read into their thoughts and I could hear the others talking about the others. I knew Jacob was close by. Then I saw him walk out of the woods, human. He came over to me, which was a little ways away from Bella.
"Hey," he said to me as he walked closer to me. He knew I was reading his jumbled thoughts and he looked away from me. Jacob was thinking about Leah. He was struggling with the emotions he felt towards Leah. He wanted her so much but was torn with his feelings for me too. Jacob felt like either way he was going to end up getting his heart broken. That wouldn't be guaranteed to happen though. Sometimes life makes turns in different ways than the expected. He should know by now.
"How are you Jacob?" I asked him. Jacob just rolled his eyes and shrugged his shoulders. I glanced back to see what the others were doing. Jasper was instructing the pairs and helping them improve their defensive skills. Jacob followed my train of sight and was abruptly tense. "There is no need to worry about tomorrow." I told him trying to calm his troubled thoughts.
"Yes, there is," he practically growled at me. "How am I supposed to not worry when everyone I care for is at stake?" he said a little loudly. The others glanced over at us. Bella was looking at us with a frown on her face. I tried to give her a reassuring smile. Then I turned back to Jacob.
Jacob was turned away from me. His jaw was clenched and his hands were balled up into fists at his side. I knew I couldn't disagree with him. We had a lot to lose. But, if we kept thinking we were done for, we would lose anyway. We had to try because it was our only option. Jacob turned back towards me. His eyes were wary and he suddenly looked so exhausted. He plopped down on the ground a few feet away. I walked over and sat with him.
"Does Sam know how to incorporate the instructions Jasper showed us in what you can do?" I asked. I knew I was sounding too formal. I was just trying to break the tense silence between us that you could almost taste between us. Jacob looked over at me and rolled his eyes. I knew he was saying that they could handle themselves just fine.
"Can I ask you something?" Jacob asked hesitantly. His thoughts were guarded against me.
"Anything," I told him.
"Would you be mad if I told you I loved Leah? If I was in love with her?" he asked me. I burst out laughing. I couldn't control it. For him to have to be sure that I was okay with it was so bizarre. I would be insanely jealous that he loved Leah more than he loved me but I would deal with it. Whatever makes him happy. And I had already found the love of my existence anyway.
"Why are you laughing?" he glared at me. I tried to compose myself.
"Because you can have anyone you want to. What I want most is for you to be happy. I know I am imprinted to you, but you don't need my approval." I chuckled.
"Oh. Okay then. Thanks I guess." Jacob said and looked away. He was always doing that. It drove me nuts. His face gave away most of what he was feeling. I was trying my hardest not to read into his thoughts. I knew it bugged him and I was trying to respect his space.
"What's really on your mind?" I asked him. He still looked tense and I could feel frustration coming from him.
"I love her Edward. I really do. I don't know how to tell her that and then we have the fight tomorrow. I don't know what to do. I can't lose her because I just found her. It's so complicated," I sighed
"Just tell her, Jacob, before it's too late. Maybe this is how things were supposed to be, you know?"
"I guess," Jacob mumbled and I smiled. Things were so different now. It was like all of us were together in one thread. Maybe this was how life was supposed to turn out for us. So many different types of love wrapped into one. "Don't you think it's weird that we used to hate each other?" I asked him.
"I think it was just jealousy and ego in our way. I don't think I could ever hate you now." He smiled and I returned it.
The wolves were beginning to stand up and brush out their fur. My family was huddled around the other side of the field near Bella. They were all wearing blank expressions. I knew that they were only hiding the worry and tension under their masks of calmness.
"I have to go," Jacob said while getting to his feet. Suddenly I felt like I couldn't breathe. This was the last time I was going to see him before the battle with the newborns and Victoria. What if he got hurt again? What if…..? No, I wouldn't think about that.
"Goodbye, Jacob," I told him. He walked a few steps away. Then he walked back quickly and hugged me. His warmth was like an open flame to my skin. But oddly, it wasn't uncomfortable.
"I'll see you tomorrow," he said determinedly. I nodded. I watched as Jacob sprinted back to the rest of the pack who were waiting for him. I walked over to Bella. I avoided the eyes of my family. I didn't want them to see how truly frightened I was. I picked up Bella in my arms. She rested her head on my chest, completely safe in my arms. I looked into her eyes and tried to show her my love. I walked away from my family with my love in my arms and worry in my heart.
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