And I'm back! Ok, I am sooo flustered right now over two things:

I was reading a fanfic here and my computer freaked out and now I can't find it again! I don't remember a thing about it besides the plot! It was a Tamaki/OC and she worked at a diner and in the end she attempted suicide, so if anyone can help me out here it would be MUCH appreciated! (I will give the author's name as soon as I find them, the story title too!)

I was over at my friend's house this MEA break and she put it in my head of 'Which Ouran character would you rather have rape you?' So yeah I am REALLY disturbed over this.

Oh and I am sooooo sorry for not updating in forever! School has been a B&*%$ and it didn't help that I just an overall tough time getting this chapter to turn out how I wanted it to. SORRY! (annadove you kicked me into gear!) If I'm ever taking WAY too long on a chapter tell me please!

Anyways please enjoy this chapter! (By the way, the poll is still up…..)

DISCLAIMER: The answer to 'Do I own OHSHC?' is the same as the answer to 'Doesn't Mori just talk constantly?'


Quicker than I would have thought possible the twins lunged for my wrist, latching on with an iron grip. Each pulled on my already sore arms with a crazy strong grip that one wouldn't expect from such soft living people. With one last glance at the stunned group behind me, I let myself be pulled, dragging my heels the whole way. Exchanging evil glances at each other the two twins laughed. The sound rang with torture; I shuddered and pulled weakly at their grip knowing full well that I wasn't going to be able to break free.

Whip lashing me into one of the dressing rooms that lined the back room I could barely hear their instructions to me.

"Tsu-chaaaaaan…. In order to make up for your long absence we have found a suitable outfit for you to wear to apologize. Deal?" Mixing their voices together the twins sounded in a chilling harmony. That was all I need to know that I wasn't going to be able to escape this one. At the realizing of this knowledge my head spun and my heart pounded at my rib cage. The heavy pounding rushing blood straight to my limbs. I was afraid.

"On the back wall you'll find the…. outfit…. that was previously chosen by us! We want to be surprised to so while you're changing we're gonna call our maids to help you with everything else ok? Have fu-un!" Hearing their footsteps recede I slowly spun to face the upcoming monstrosity that would be my clothing for the next few hours. I was surprised to find that it wasn't what I had expected, but it was certainly different from what I was used to for the two devils. In front of me, hanging on the mirror was an elegant dress.

It hung in folds colored a neat canary yellow, but more gold than the female uniforms. Reaching out my hand I brushed to smooth material with my fingertips, but drew back the second my hands hit the straps. Yes, straps. The sleeves for this gown amounted to spaghetti straps. Choking back a sob I whirled around away from the dress. I-if I wear that then…. everybody…...everybody will see. I won't be able to hide anymore. Nothing will be the same! I-I can't! At my next thought my breath froze in my throat as my mind became blank. If you wear that dress then you are fulfilling what you said you were going to do. You promised no more secrets by coming back here. Might as well end it now. You ain't gonna live much longer anyway at this rate. Mechanically I took the dress off of the hanger and slipped it on. Slipping against my hands I smoothed it over my hips before facing the cursed mirror. Brushing my hair behind my ear I slowly raised my gaze to meet my reflections. A soft gasp left my lips as I took in my image. Not only did the dress fit me perfectly it exposed everything. Coming to a stop just before my knees the yellow material did nothing to hide the amounts of bruises and welt on my legs. The skinny straps bore my shoulders and my many scars. The straight lined top showed the tip of one scar that disappeared beneath it. The low back showed everything, scars, and bruises

The only cover to which was my hair.

And there I stood. Not because I was stunned at the dress, but instead I stared at my arms, legs and face. Scarred and broken. Nothing pure or innocent anymore. Nothing was hidden by that dress, and my face set in a stony mask besides the smile that was starting to creep past my lips. A sigh of defeat left my slightly smiling lips, and my hand brushed my neck. Sneaking past my hair I grabbed each tail of the white ribbon and pulled. The long piece of silky fabric floated to the ground but I never seen it hit. I was looking outside of the curtain before that.

"Miss Tsuki? Are you ready for us to finish the look?" A smiley maid started to walk toward my peeking head and I nodded to her knowing full well that if I spoke now I would cry. Pulling my hand out to beckon her closer I whispered in her ear.

"You must stay silent, no matter what you think of what you are about to see ok?" With a terrified smile I watched as the maid nodded and made a motion of zipping her lips. She was still young but not too young any longer.

"Thank you." with that I stepped out from behind the heavy pink curtain, letting it flap behind me.

True to her word the maid said nothing and only stared wide eyed. Minutes passed before she shook her head and offered me a timid smile which I returned in about the same way. Grabbing my hand the maid smiled at me with a new resolution as I tagged behind her, latched fully to her hand.

She worked in silence this maid and I have never so grateful. It was enough that I was planning to expose every secret today, and I didn't want to answer the questions twice. After she combed through my snarled hair he cool hand brushed my neck and I jumped looking her right in the eye as her fingers ran across the ugly, jagged scar that ran just above my collar bones. Then she mouthed two words to me that killed me. From there I was on autopilot, no longer noticing what she was doing nor did I care. I simply stared at my own reflection in the mirror. I sighed when she pulled me up off of the chair.

I found myself standing in front of the door to the host club. I don't necessarily remember how I got here, nor do I know my feelings. My heart beat in my ears, and I felt astoundingly cold and sick. Before I pushed open the doors I seen two words run through my head. The same two words that I had been hearing all my life and had heard just a few minutes ago. I'm sorry.

Pushing open the large door in front of me I walked. I walked till I seen all of their heads turn toward me. I walked till I heard the gasps. I walked till I could no longer see due to the tears gushing down my face. I walked till I felt nothing.

"Oh… My… God." Haruhi's trembling whisper sounded from the corner of the room and I smiled. Not a happy smile but a cruel cold one.

"Is this what you wanted to see so badly!? To see me break down and show you all! Well, this is it! My pain and my life! My every secret bared! Now come on! Tell me that you're sorry! That you didn't know!" I heard a mumble from where the twins were sitting. "Shush! You thought I was serious?! That I actually want to hear that… well you're wrong. I don't want your pity or your tears. If I can bare it so can you. I was trying to…... protect you all. I'm sorry that….. I wasn't able to… I'm so sorry."

When I looked up I was staring into two twin pools of violet. His smiling features were clearly forced but he offered me a shaking hand. I knew it. They're afraid. They're wishing that they didn't have to know. They are all liars, and terrible ones at that.

I grabbed Tamaki- senpai's hand as he led me to the hot pink couch. As I sat down I swirled my tongue in my mouth to realize that I tasted blood. I must have bitten my lip when I came out here. Tears were still running down my face and I was quick to dry them. I probably looked weak enough at this point. Following that I took a deep breath causing my still sore ribs to complain. Looking into the host club's eyes I smiled a tiny and weak smile.

"So?"

"Tsuki….. May I?" I hadn't even noticed that Kyoya had left the little circle that we had made only to stand in front of me with a first aid kit. I laughed.

"What're you gonna do?! Heal that which has already healed? Honestly Kyoya, you can't." Taken back by my burst of laughter he gave me a gentle smile.

"Then may I ask how you have gotten these scars?" His calm voice sent shivers down my spine and I paused before answering. This was the moment to define it all.

"M-my…. father" My meek voice reached everyone in the room as they had fallen silent when I had started to speak. At my words I watched everyone tense up. Kyoya's glasses glinted with malicious intent, the twins stood up with murder in their eyes. Haruhi gasped with a terrifying anger in her eyes, and my two best friends simply stared at me with every seriousness in their eyes. Then Honey spoke.

"Tsu-chan. How can we help?" I knew then that he wasn't referencing the host club as a whole; instead he was talking about himself and Mori. Looking into Mori's eyes of silver I saw his worry and cautions. Was I safe to be around Honey anymore? I watched as that took the backseat though and worry took over. Was I ok? I don't think he had any doubts anymore about what he seen that one day.

"How long Tsuki?" Kyoya once again took over, completely business like.

"I don't know. How old am I?" Looking him dead in the eyes I watched as anger lit up his eyes.

"Tsuki, no more secrets. Tell us everything. Now." Though his words were harsh I seen that the emotion behind them was far from.

"Where to begin? Hmmmmmm." Looking into my mind's eye I watch event after event play out.

"How about how you got into this school to start with?" His voice gentle like he was talking to a child.

So with that suggestion I began…..


Have I said sorry yet? Well, I AM SOOOOOO SORRY for the suuuuuuper late update guys! If any of you are still with me after that long "break". I will try to get the next few chapters up as quick as possible! Again though, if I am ever taking too long to update again just pm me or something because sometimes life kills and so I forget about this. Thank you all so much for reviews and favs/follows! I love you all so much! Please tell me what you though! Till next update (so hopefully soon),

~Shade