Clary's POV

I woke with tear stained cheeks. Last night really happened; I said no to the guy I was starting to fall for. And now I have to pretend like nothing happened for the kids. It's for the best, it would have only ended in heartbreak, and I constantly chant that line over and over in my head. Reaching for my phone to see how much longer till the alarm would go off. Oh god it's only 5:30, I still have another hour and a half till it goes off. Oh well maybe I can still get a few more minutes of shut eye.

After about half an hour of not being able to fall asleep I give up on sleep. Tilting my head to look at Jace, I notice how at peace he looks in his sleep. Fuck why did I ever dated Sebastian? OH GOD I told Jace oh shit oh shit. If he ever finds out im dead. He can't hurt you anymore, he's locked up. I find that I always have to remind myself that he's in jail for life, no chance of getting out. Still the fear that he will come through with his promise chills me to the bone.

I never realized how gold Jace's hair is, it's like a halo fit for an angel. My angel. Wait what? No I can't be thinking like that. No I can't develop feelings for this guy because if I do then im going to fall for him. To love is to destroy. That's what my father always told me. I wish he was here, him and my brother. It's been forever sense I've talked to them.

Sitting up I decide to pull out my sketch book and draw something.

Jace's POV

I wake up to a loud beeping sound, totally confusing me. Then I realize that it was Clary's phone that was making the horrible noise. Deciding to ignore it I grab my sleeping bag and pull it over my head hoping to block out some of the noise. If it wasn't for the angelic voice that got through the barrier that served as my sleeping bag, I would not have gotten up.

"Haha time to wake up Jace."

"Ugh but why?"

"Because activities start today and plus breakfast is served in half an hour and we still have to wake up a tipi full of kids."

"You do it im going back to bed" and with that I close my eyes. Next thing I know I have a bunch of kids jumping on top of me telling me to wake up, all kids were participating. All accept one. Clary and Max were standing off to the side clutching their stomach's laughing. "All right that's enough" I say before getting the kids off me.

"Really?" I ask her

"What you didn't get up so I thought I would get some help. Now come on get dressed a little birdie told me their serving French toast and I do not want to miss out on it."

"You like French toast?"

"Like it? I love it"

"Haha I know it's like the best food creation out there."

"I totally agree."

Once we got all the kids up and ready for the day we started to walk towards the food hall. Halfway there I looked towards clary and realized we never talked about what we are to each other. I want to be with her but I can see she's been through a lot and she needs time but it doesn't mean something can't develop over time, so maybe I should just agree to be friends and then maybe something will happen sometime in the hopeful near future. The kids are out of earshot talking to each other so I think now is a go-

"Penny for your thoughts." She brings me out of my thoughts and back to reality.

"I was just thinking that, you know last night we never really discussed where we stand together I know you said no to going out with me and I respect. But I want you in my life, so I was just wondering if maybe we could be friends."

"Yeah about last night Jace what I said I don't tell many people about my past and I know that I haven't said much but to me it's a lot. So please don't tell anyone. But yeah I would like to be your friend."

"I would never tell anyone clary. Now let's get inside so we can get that French toast bestie."

Hey guys im sorry for not posting for so long I was so wrapped up in school and I just moved and a little while ago I lost a very close family friend to a car crash so ive been kinda out of it lately. But im trying to get back into my old way and this is one of the first steps. But let me know what you guys thought of this chapter. Love you guys