AN// Hey! Having never given birth I decided not to try and write it! Hope that's ok with you guys! Enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight or Supernatural, just the original storyline.


Chapter 9

I still couldn't believe it! This beautiful, precious thing could be mine. I was exhausted and felt like I had been 20 rounds with Mike Tyson but it was all worth it to hold my baby in my arms. Dean looked at me with a teary smile and I smiled back at him secretly wishing it was Sam I was sharing this moment with.

"You did it Bella, I don't know how to thank you for bringing my new nephew into the world" Tears formed in my eyes.

"I couldn't have done this without you, I know Sam will be proud that you stayed by my side for this" I beamed right back at him. Tears formed in Dean's eyes, he missed Sam as much as me.

"Oh my god Bella!" Alice spoke in a hushed tone. I suddenly remembered the Cullen's were in the room with us, I turned towards them and was greeted with 7 grins.

"I would like to present the newest and possibly the cutest member of the Winchester family, Tristan John Charles Winchester" The smile on my face just wouldn't stop, even with Sam missing. We had picked names months ago, both hoping for a boy and couldn't decide which of his grandfathers to name him after so had settled on giving him both their names as middles ones and picking our own for his first name.

"Can I?" Dean held out his arms to take him and I happily passed him over.

"Hey little man, I am your cool Uncle Dean, I am going to teach you everything you need to know! How to throw a punch, how to pick up chicks, how to fix up a car, something your father knows nothing about!" Dean and I shared a chuckle at the last part. "When your mum is being annoying I will show you the best way to shut her up and tell you loads of stories that will have her blushing in seconds. I am going to educate you in the best taste in music, I'm.."

"Ok Dean, he is only 15 minutes old, leave out all that till he is at least a week!" I cut in before Dean could think of anything else he was going to teach him.

"What? It's my privilege as Uncle to teach him things you and Sam aren't capable of!"

All the Cullen's gathered around Dean, all trying to get a better view of Tristan, I took a moment to wish Sam was here. I felt tears forming in my eyes, I couldn't believe Sam had missed the birth of our first child. Suddenly I found myself resenting Tristan for that, although it wasn't his fault.

Alice asked to hold the baby and after Dean had glanced at me he passed him over. Rosalie and Esme instantly started cooing over him, Carlisle and Emmett soon joined them which is when I noticed Jasper and Edward had disappeared.

They soon returned with bags of shopping and when my eyes met theirs they showed me what they had got, baby supplies, everything Sam and I could possibly need. The tears that had been threatening to fall ever since Tristan had entered this world started to fall at their kindness and generosity especially considering it was Edward who had done it.

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Three days later

I was sitting in the room Sam and I had shared if only for one night, Tristan was being watched by Alice and Esme who had grown really attached to him. I loved him but without Sam I didn't want to get too close, what if he left me too? What if Sam never came back, I couldn't raise our son, the pain would consume me.

"Bella, Bella" Dean was leaning on the door frame and by the look of it he had been standing there a while. "Where were you? Somewhere nice I hope?" He started walking towards me.

"Not really, just thinking, you know me always over thinking things" I answered although we both knew the real place my mind was. Dean sighed and dropped his arms by his side.

"I am going to head back to Bobby's pick up the search for Sam, you should stay here look after Tristan. And I won't come back until I have Sam with me."

"No, I let you guys leave me here last time and look what happened, I am coming with you this time!" I crossed my arms across my chest, there was no way he was leaving me here.

"Bella, you can't take a newborn half way across the country, I won't let you, I will find Sam and bring him back. You stay here and look after the new generation of Winchester."

"NO! How many times do I have to tell you! I am coming with you! Who better to find Sam than his own wife! Tristan can stay here, Sam needs me!" Dean and I were as stubborn as each other and with no Sam to come between us things could turn nasty.

Edward came through the door before Dean had a chance to answer back.

"Bella, listen to Dean, you have a new baby who needs one of his parents to not disappear on him! You should let Dean go and look for Sam, you belong here with your son!" Great! Now it was two against one!

"But I can't do this without Sam! I can hardly bare to look at Tristan, he reminds me too much of Sam, I can't, no I won't come to love my son without my husband with me! If I hadn't of been pregnant I could have gone with you two and maybe Sam wouldn't have gone missing, and for that I resent my own son" I regretted my words as soon as they left mouth, the look on both Edward's and Dean's face was enough to make me hate myself.

"Bel-la, I, I, you can't think like that, Sam wouldn't want you to." Dean struggled to form words at my revelation.

"I know, I hate myself for it but that's how I feel. I need Sam" I broke down, hugging myself and falling to the floor in a flood of tears.

Dean came over to me and pulled me into his chest as I sobbed for my husband. Edward took a step back, we weren't that comfortable around each other yet.

"I know Bells, and wherever he is I am sure he needs you too. You should have seen him in the car when we left, he tried to hide it but I knew he was crying. He barely spoke on the journey, only when he was on the phone to you did he actually smile. You want to know the real reason he put the phone down when he did? He was holding back sobs, sobs Bells, I would have ribbed him about it but he looked so broken. He needs you as much as you need him and wherever he is you and I both know the only thing getting him through is the thought of you. Stay strong, I will find him" Dean stroked my hair and rubbed my back to comfort me, I felt so weak without Sam, even his shirt I had borrowed before he left was losing his smell.

"I know, just promise me when you find him to bring him straight back to me, no matter what, please" I whispered into Dean's ear, I didn't want to admit I also meant even if he was dead although Dean knew the meaning behind my sentence.

"I promise" he pulled me up and wiped away the tears, kissed me on the forehead before grabbing his bag and leaving me on my own again.