Hey this is the end of the story. Its gonna have chardeath. So if you don't want to read it, please don't. I don't want to write it too… But… D:
Disclaimer: Gakuen Alice doesn't belong to me.
Chapter 9
"I hate you, I really do…"
I really do-
Really do…
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Mikan was on the floor when she woke up, all around her was cold and wet. She sat up, thinking about what she heard. She looked out of the window, it was still dark, or was it already dark. Her fatigue took over her for two days, and over the couple of days, her parents didn't return home, not at all. They went away without telling her, it was nothing unusual to her, they did not bother about her at all.
Mikan; Mikan; Mikan…
It echoed in her head, she had heard a voice so like his…
It can't be… He hates me so much…
Mikan gave a weak laugh at herself. Her heart suddenly clenched so hard that it threw her to the ground and left her gasping in pain. She curled up with her hands at her chest, spluttering and coughing. The excruciating subsided, but would come, soon.
She stared at the sky; it was still bright with stars twinkling happily.
Star…
She hopped up to her feet, struggling to maintain her balance and slammed out of the door. She ran as fast as she could, catching her breath whenever she can, she cannot afford to collapse now. She climbed the hill and sat at the summit where the sakura petals still were. The breeze blew gently at her hair and face, lightly picking up the petals and laying them down. It was still beautiful, a carpet of pink.
She closed her eyes, and gathered all her alice in her hands. The massive amount of power concentrated in her palms. In controlled amounts, she released bit by bit. The sakura petals swirled around her, forming a tower over her. All of a sudden, they charged down into the centre where the released alice her and formed a call of power. Mikan collected her memories with Natsume, the joyful and embarrassing times she had with him and thrust them in the concentrated spot. Her pain returned and crushed at her heart, pain coursing through her veins. She's nearly done; she couldn't afford to stop now. She wouldn't have the time and energy to start all over again. She didn't.
She released the remaining alice, her love for him, and the truth behind the cruel break at the spot and sealed them. The petals, as if attracted by a force, all flew to the centre of the power and energy released and a bright ray shot up to the sky. The middle of the light was a small pink stone, containing the life and all she had. The pain took over her, as soon as she completed the stone, finally willing to be released after her wish is fulfilled. Her breathing slowed despite the pain, hands clenching so tightly that her knuckles turned white. Her eyes shut, falling unconscious…
Natsume laid on the couch at home, mind boggled by all the events that happened in such a short time. He needed to release all his pent up frustrations. With Mikan around, he never needed to worry, quiet as she was; she never was boring, always humorous in her own way. But now she's no longer part of his life, and never will be.
He sighed and walked towards the door.
Walking in town at night was always quiet, too quiet.
It was never this quiet with her arou- Ah, why am I thinking about her.
He quickened his footsteps, trying to escape the deafening silence in town. He started to run towards the Sakura Hill, to the place he had gone whenever he had troubles he couldn't tell anyone since he was 7.
He strolled up the hill, enjoying the cool breeze. He enjoyed the silence unlike in the town, he never knew why. It was here, out in the rural area that he could really and truly be himself.
It looks really different tonight… So green and dry, not an inch of flo- Sakura flowers! Where are they?!
Natsume turned frantically around, searching for a single petal of sakura, but could find none. He ran up all the way to the summit only to see the naked trees and…
No- No…
Natsume ran towards the lifeless body, lying beautifully on the ground; her beauty was ethereal.
He knelt down onto the ground, careful not to touch her. Just beside her, a little pink stone was insignificantly placed on the ground. He picked it up cautiously and recognised it as immediately. He used his fire alice on it and the stone mingled with it and disappeared into his body.
Natsume felt power surge through his body as the last of Mikan became his. Her memories played through his mind like a video tape, and he experienced every single emotion she had. He felt the reluctance, the guilt, the hurt and pain she had when she lied to him that day. When he told her to scram, the pain that she felt, his was nothing compared to hers. He saw why she had to make the most difficult decision of her life, and his eyes filled up with tears.
"Mikan-" Natsume trembled. He had hurt her more deeply than she did to him, and he never knew.
Natsume held her in his arms, trying to wake her, keep her with him for as long as he could.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I had to do this Natsume…" Natsume remembered her saying this in his mind.
She apologised when she tried to prevent me from getting hurt, when I was the one blaming her all the time!
Natsume, I'm so sorry.
Hate me please.
You're the first and last.
Natsume's tears landed on her cheeks as it played over and over again in his mind.
A flake landed on the ground beside Natsume and another. He shook Mikan, wanting her to wake up, not to leave him now. Mikan's eyes opened, and looked at him in he eyes. She smiled weakly, raised her hand to his cheeks to wipe off the tears. Her attention shifted to the sky and saw tiny drops falling lightly to the ground. She blinked slowly and smiled and leaned in to Natsume.
"Hey…" Mikan whispered.
"I'm… so sorry for all the hurt I've caused you." She said, touching his cheeks.
"No… it's not your fault- you had no choice, I'm the one who didn't understand."
"You didn't know," she breathed heavily, "sorry I had to make you sad, hate me all you want, I won't mind."
"No…"he whispered.
The pure white snow descended. Mikan stretched her hands out to catch a flake, and smiled.
"I've managed to see it… Natsume."
Forget me Natsume, I'm not worthy of everything you gave me. Forget me.
"No… Mikan, no." Mikan didn't utter a word, but her mind was read. All her alice was passed to Natsume, whatever that was left of Mikan…
Mikan placed a finger to his lips, and they hugged for so long… so long.
Natsume looked at Mikan in the eyes, sad. She leaned forward and placed the last kiss on his lips. She closed her eyes and smiled, for the last time.
唯一の人である you are the only person
私は永久に愛する I love you forever
私は遠くにからの見る I will be watching you from far away.
そこにの上、星として up there, as a star.
His eyes closed and tears rolled down his cheeks.
No Mikan, there is no forever, no eternal… Nothing without you by my side.
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I will be watching over you
forever…
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End
This is the end of my story. Thanks for all your comments.
