Thankyou everyone who is still reading! I seem to have run myself out of idea's where I dont even know whats happening next anymore :( So unfortunently the wait may be longer then it should be. Also "Alone I break" is the title of a song I really like. it just seemed to fit :)
Disclaimer- I dont own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of its characters
Songs: Falling away from me- Korn.
Alone I Break- Korn
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Hiei woke late the next morning. His first thought immediately was Kuwabara. To get to the Maikai he would have to find a portal in the human world. If he only had a sort of clue where it could be, where Kuwabara could be. He wished that Kuwabara's voice would enter his mind and tell him everything he needed to do, and whatever it was he would do it.
Hiei started to feel cold inside, like ice, colder then ice. He remembered how he used to hate Kuwabara, his annoying voice, his stupid face and now he was running all over Japan looking for a way to be by his side. His mind wandered to the worst, what if he didnt find Kuwabara intime? He looked at his wrists. Then what would he have..to die for?
Kuwabara was all he had left.
As the day went on with no hints or leads Hiei thought back, to the song he was listening to..while cutting up his wrist. He felt that everything in the world was against him, and now. he was feeling the same way again.
Hey, I'm feeling tired
My time is gone today
You flirt with suicide
Sometimes that's OK
Do what others say
I'm here standing hollow
Falling away from me, falling away from me
Hiei looked up at the sky it was darkening already. He tried to shake any negative thoughts from his mind, but nothing worked, everything was negative. Dim stars began to show themselves in the sky, and he was hopelessly lost.
Day, is here fading
That's when I'm insane
I flirt with suicide
Sometimes kill the pain
I can't always say
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'
Falling away from me, falling away from me.
He didnt run anymore. Now he just walked through a silent forest out in the middle of nowhere, dragging himself along down a narrow man-made path that told him he had to be heading somewhere, he whispered the words to the song.
"Beating me down, beating me, beating me down,
Down, into the ground, screaming so sound,
Beating me, beating me, down, down
Into the ground"
He walked himself out of the woods to a cliff, that over looked the city he had left, no portal to be found. It was dark now so the city was filled with bright lights that looked almost unreal but beautiful, and as Hiei thought about the beautiful sight before him he realized...he would rather be sitting in his dim depressing hopital room, with no windows, no freshair, in Kuwabara's arms then be where he is right now.
"You said you would be here for me Kuwabara." He said, talking to noone, or to someone, he didnt even know. Maybe he was talking to himself, or maybe he was talking to Kuwabara. "I Give up damnit!" He yelled out. "Okay? So come save me! Kuwabara! Im calling you! You said you would come if I called your name..." He felt his eyes stinging like he wanted to cry but wouldn't let himself. He sat on the grass, on the cliff, and looked out into the wide open space infront of him. "I wont give up, We need eachother..." He said before whispering another quiet song.
"Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own"
"Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break..."
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