Thank you, Sparky, for giving me the idea for James' card. I totally forgot about him and I wouldn't write this one if you didn't tell me. James wrote this card when they, the five, were at Oxford.
I hope you will like it.
~James~
I live my life without you and I feel blue.
I can't sleep. It's 5 am, I am already awake and I am thinking of you. Darkness is all around me, and when I close my eyes, I can see your face. I know every curve of your face by heart. Your pure blue eyes and smiling lips are unforgettable.
I wish you were looking at me like that, I wish your smile belonged to me. I miss the smell of your long blond curly hair. Your touch makes me tremble, every single muscle shakes when your fingers brush my skin.
I fell in love with you, but I didn't tell you anything. I couldn't find the words. I made a mistake and you went away. Now I know all the words I didn't say.
Another man won your heart and soul and I had to stand aside. It broke my heart.
But there has been enough hiding of my feelings. I want you to know how I feel.
I love you.
It hurts. It hurts me more and more. Everytime you stand by me, I can hear your heart. I hear your heartbeat louder than before and it makes me sad. It pulses for someome else. Your lips kiss lips that aren't mine. I can't touch you the way he can even if I'm dying to press against you. If I cry, the tears are shed for you, because you are the one and only. You've set my heart on fire and now you are gone. I die for you, I cry for you, because you are the right one.
I can't let you go so easily; I would never forgive myself. I decided to fight for the right to love you.
If you loved me for a life time, I would give you my heart, I would promise you the heaven above.
Your Secret Sherlock Holmes
P.S. Thank you Arones, I really appreciate your help and advice you always give me.
