Hello Again!
So this chapter is a bit on the shorter side but I feel like you guys are going to be happy with it! There's going to be a couple more chapters of this story because I move on to part 4 (which I already have tons of ideas for). I'm really loving writing these stories for all of you, so thank you so much for continuing to read.
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As always, enjoy! -J
Chapter 9
Oh God what have I done.
Emily jumped up from the couch, running up the stairs and throwing Alex's bedroom door opened. Startled, the teen sat up quickly from where she had been lying on her bed; her eyes red rimmed from crying.
"Get up we have to go," Emily said frantically.
"What?" Alex asked, looking at the older woman with confusion written all over her face.
"Grab a coat, get your shoes, we need to go," Emily instructed.
"Go where?" Alex demanded, not wanting to go anywhere with Emily at the moment.
"To JJ's," Emily said. "I'm an idiot I need to get back over there."
At this Alex quickly got up from her bed, going to the closet to grab the first sweater she could reach, running downstairs before Emily even realized the teen had gotten up.
"Come on let's go!" Alex yelled from where she was waiting by the front door
Emily couldn't help but laugh, running downstairs where she quickly grabbed her coat, threw on her shoes and made it out the door with Alex right beside her. The two brunettes didn't say a word, quickly making their way down to the parking garage and getting in the car, before Emily pulled out and headed in the direction of JJ's apartment.
"So what's the plan?" Alex asked from the passenger seat. "I mean you have a plan right?"
"Well you're going to knock on the door and get JJ to open it, and then I'm going to grovel and perhaps beg until she forgives me," Emily replied, figuring there was really no other way.
"Solid plan," Alex said, biting her lip slightly, hoping that Emily's plan would work. "Emily….I'm…I'm sorry I yelled at you."
"Don't be," Emily replied, taking her eyes off the road for a moment to look the teen in the eyes. "You were right and I needed to hear it, so thank you. I just…I panicked and I ran because that's what I do," Emily said. "And I'm sorry for snapping at you."
Alex smiled, silently accepting Emily's apology, knowing that they were going to be just fine, even though they still needed to get JJ to forgive the older brunette. It wasn't long before they arrived at the apartment, Emily parking the car out front before both girls got out and headed towards the front entrance.
"So I'm just gonna buzz up?" Alex asked, wishing one of the neighbours would come out so they could head straight up. "What if she won't let me up?"
"Trust me JJ's not going to leave you out here," Emily replied, knowing that she was playing dirty using her daughter to get to her girlfriend, but seeing no other choice.
Alex hit the button for JJ's apartment, waiting a short moment before the blonde's voice came through the speaker, the sadness clear even through the muffle of the intercom, "hello?"
"JJ? It's Alex," the teen replied. "Can I come up?"
The blonde's answer came in the form of a buzz, the front door lock clicking open, allowing both Alex and Emily to head up to JJ's apartment.
JJ had spent the afternoon on the couch, cuddling with Sergio as she cried over Emily's reaction, wishing the brunette had been more understanding. The blonde hadn't expected Alex to show up, but she suspected that the teen must have spoken to Emily if she was there now. Not wanting Alex to see her looking like the wreck she knew she did, the blonde made a quick stop in the bathroom to splash some water on her face, realizing there was no hiding the redness in her eyes. There was a quiet knock on the door, and JJ made her way towards it, wiping her eyes once more before opening up the door.
"Lex," JJ greeted, attempting to force some happiness in her voice. "What are you doing here sweetie?" She asked, not seeing the older brunette who was standing to the right of the door.
"I…I'm uh," the teen stuttered, waiting for Emily to take over.
"She's here with me," Emily intervened, stepping out to where JJ could see her.
"What are you doing here Em?" JJ asked, sounding slightly cold while taking a step back.
"I'm gonna go play with Sergio," Alex said, heading inside and towards the living room where she knew she would be able to listen in, grabbing the tiny kitten on her way.
"I'm so sorry Jen," Emily said. "I was such an idiot."
"So I'm Jen again?" JJ asked, ignoring the brunette's apology.
"Jennifer please, I need you to listen to me," Emily begged. "I made a huge mistake and I'm so sorry. I panicked and I pulled away and I shouldn't have, but I just…I…I was scared."
"Don't you think that I'm scared too Em?" JJ asked, tears once again prickling at her eyes. "I'm scared to death and I needed you. I needed you to be there for me because you're my best friend, but you…you just ran," she said wiping away a tear.
"I know," Emily said, tears stinging her own eyes. "I know and I'm so so sorry. I shouldn't have run, but I need you to understand. Will you please let me explain?" The brunette asked.
The blonde crossed her arms over her chest, wishing she could keep the tears at bay, but nodding anyways, encouraging the brunette to continue.
"I didn't panic because of the baby," Emily began. "Not really at least. I panicked because this is all moving so fast and because..." the brunette paused, biting her lip nervously before continuing. "Because I…I love you Jen. God I love you and that scares the hell out of me, because I look at you and I see my whole future. I see you and me and Alex, and babies and it scares me because this is all happening so fast, and I've never felt this way before in my life. I'm scared because I don't want to mess this up and…"
Emily's next words were cut off as JJ's lips crashed against hers in a deep kiss. The blonde eventually pulling away, as Emily stood with her mouth open in surprise.
"I'm sorry I just needed to make you stop talking," JJ said with a laugh despite the tears that still filled her eyes. "I love you too Em," the blonde confessed, bringing a smile to the brunette's face. "I know that this is all so soon, and I know that it's scary, but I do love you."
"I'm so sorry I left," Emily whispered, pulling the blonde towards her and resting their foreheads together. "I should have been here for you. I want to be here for you Jen."
"Really?" The blonde asked, still slightly nervous that Emily would be unwilling or unable to raise somebody else's baby with her.
"Yes," Emily replied. "Yes Jen, and I'm so sorry I made you doubt that. I need you to know that I'm here for you. That I will be here for you as long as you want me," Emily said, "I'm all in Jen. I'm all in."
JJ brought a hand to the back of the brunette's head before joining their lips in a kiss, which reflected the feelings of both women. Tears continued to fall down JJ's face, now overwhelmed with happiness and the relief that Emily was going to be there for her.
"I'm all in too, in case anyone was wondering," came Alex's voice, pulling the couple from their kiss with a laugh, having forgotten that they had an audience.
"Get over here you goof," Emily laughed, lifting an arm for Alex, pulling the teen into a group hug.
"This is really lame," Alex eventually muttered from where she was standing between Emily and JJ.
"Well you better get used to it," JJ said placing a kiss on the side of the teen's head.
"Yep because this is how it's going to be from now on," Emily smiled also kissing the shorter brunette.
"I guess that doesn't sound too bad," Alex joked, laughing as Emily poked her in the side.
"Jen why don't you pack a bag," Emily suggested as Alex broke away from the hug, bending down to scoop up the little black kitten that was circling at their feet. "Come home with us."
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Later that night Emily stood in Alex's bedroom doorway, leaning up against the doorframe, watching as the teen slept peacefully, Sergio curled up beside her. A few minutes later the brunette feels arms wrap around her waist as a kiss is placed on the back of her shoulder.
"Looks like someone stole your birthday present," JJ whispered, seeing Alex snuggled up with the kitten.
"I'm willing to share," Emily smiled, turning in the blonde's arms and leaning in for a chaste kiss. "I'm really sorry about today Jen."
"I know baby," JJ reassured. "You were scared, I get that. But I don't want you to run from me. I need to know you're going to talk to me."
Emily pulled out of JJ's arms in order to pull Alex's bedroom door shut. "Can I be honest with you?" She asked.
"Always," JJ replied, allowing Emily to lead her down the hall by the hand.
Once the pair reached Emily's room, the brunette shut the door before leading JJ towards the bed where they both sat down facing each other.
"I meant every word I said back at your apartment Jen," Emily began. "But I need you to understand what worries me the most about this relationship." JJ squeezed Emily's hand in support, urging her to continue. "It's not just the speed that everything's moving, because I mean we've known each other so long that this all just feels natural. But I'm worried about how many people are invested in this relationship."
"What do you mean?" JJ asked, trying to keep the worry out of her voice, as Emily rubbed circles on the back of her hand reassuringly.
"It's not just you and me in this," Emily replied. "I mean it's you and me and the team and Alex, and now a baby and I guess that just kind of scares me. I mean when Alex found out I left you she lost it. She was devastated. I'm just worried about what it will do to her if this doesn't work out."
"Em, I love you," JJ interrupted. "And I love Alex. Baby I'm not going anywhere. And I know that neither of us can predict what's going to happen in the future, but I can say that I believe in us. I believe that we can make it work because I'm not going anywhere," the blonde reassured, hooking a finger under her girlfriend's chin to meet her eyes. "So I guess the question is, do you believe in us too?"
"I do," Emily replied, pulling JJ into a short kiss. "You have no idea how much I love you already Jennifer Jareau," the brunette whispered.
"How about you show me?" JJ suggested, pulling her girlfriend into a deep and passionate kiss.
