~Bonnie~
I sat down at the bar. The bartender came over with a grin as if he liked what he saw.
"What can I get you pretty lady?" he said flirtatiously
"A shot of vodka sounds good right about now." I said grinning
He set out a shot glass and filled it to the rim with clear liquid. I picked it up and hesitated for a second then down it in one gulp. In that instant I felt my stomach knot then release. My head was slightly tipsy.
"Another." I ordered
The bartender just shook his head and poured another shot. I downed that one too. My head started spinning faster but slowly everything that happened within the last few hours faded. I lost count of how many shots I'd downed. I was laying my head on the counter sliding the small glass between my hands.
"I get off in twenty minutes how about I take you home." the bartender offered
"How about not." said someone beside me
"Oh Stefan you ruin all the fun." I slurred
"Better that than you waking up unable to remember how you ended up in someone else's room besides your own." he said
"Ugh that's the beauty of getting slammed. You don't remember what happens." I complained
"Come on." he said ignoring me
I slid off the stool and started to fall but Stefan caught me around the waist.
"I feel so dizzy." I mumbled
"How many did you have?" he asked
"Two or three." I lied
I saw Stefan look at the bartender who motioned the number eight to him.
"Traitor." I hissed
"Let's just get you some one sleep Bon."
"Do you ever get scared?" I asked blindly
Words just kept coming out and I couldn't stop them.
"Because I am scared constantly. Like I can't be good enough or maybe I'll die alone one day." I continued
"It'll be okay." he reassuringly
"You have to say that. Because you'll be alone forever which is worse." I blurted
I wasn't sure but he looked like it stung. Then things got really blurry the I just blacked out. Everything had gone dark.
~Stefan~
Who knows? Maybe she was right maybe I would be alone but I couldn't be sure. I laid her down in her bed and tucked her in. Then I went I left because for the first time I could feel my hunger getting deeper and if I didn't hunt I'd do something I'd regret later.
I turned on my heel and walked toward the door then turned back to look back at wondering if she'd be alright. Then I left closing the door quietly.
When I got back she was still sleeping. I laid down on the couch and waited hoping maybe I might actually sleep.
~Bonnie~
I went to move but my head pulsed and throbbed.
"Ugh." I moaned
Then all of the sudden light flooded in. I screamed pulling the blanket over my head. I could hear someone laughing.
"Shut up!" I yelled
"Someone's cranky and hung over."
It was Stefan. Then all of the sudden he pulled the covers back. I covered my eyes instantly. He handed me something in my other hand. I felt them for a second before I realized they were sunglasses. Putting them on I sat up looking around scratching my head. The sunlight was still bright making my head hurt even worse. The next thing he handed me was two aspirin and a glass of water.
"Thank you." I muttered
He just nodded.
"Did I say anything last night." I asked curiously
He paused.
"Uh no nothing just babbling." he said
It's okay you were probably right about the whole being alone thing. I heard.
I cocked my head to the side looking at him. Then pulled the covers all the way back and got up. I headed into the bathroom to clean up a little when it hit me. I came barreling out of the bathroom so fast I nearly fell.
"Oh my god I am so sorry I didn't mean I swear. I was just …I was mostly talking about myself. I am so sorry." I said
He grabbed me by the shoulders trying to steady me.
"It's alright you were a bit…messed up." he said laughing
"It's not funny." I said
He kept laughing though and soon enough I was too. It felt good to laugh. Then I went back to finish getting cleaned up. When I came out Stefan was messing up my kitchen rummaging through the ridge. There was an aroma throughout the whole condo that smelled heavenly.
Mmmm real food.
Stefan grinned as I thought it.
"You know you shouldn't read other people's mind. It's the only place where a person has privacy." I said jokingly
"Sorry."
"It's okay I caught a few of your thoughts too so I guess we're even."
He turned and looked at me.
Oh so I'm not the only one mind probing?
I smiled innocently. He just shook his head.
Nope.
Breakfast was nice but quiet. There were unsaid words. But anytime I wanted to say I knew they just wouldn't come out right. After I was I got up to do the dishes Stefan was beside me drying them. An awkward silence took over.
Oh crap.
"I have to go I have class." I said nearly forgetting
Grabbing my bag which had my books I froze in the doorway.
"You…can stay if you'd like. That is if you don't have anywhere to go." I offered
"I'd like that." he said after a few seconds which felt like hours
A part of me fluttered. I just nodded then shut the door behind me as I rushed off toward the campus but I caught one last thought before I was out of reach.
Not so alone.
After class I walked out and noticed Eli wasn't there. It was strange he'd usually be here ready to jump up my butt. Then I noticed a set of girls whispering about something.
"What's going on?" I asked them
They looked down at me being I a bit tiny compared to them.
"We're just talking about a guy but you wouldn't know anything about that." one of them said
"Oh really?" I challenged
"Fine if you must know. Him." the other pointed out toward someone who was getting off of a street bike
I only saw his back but I was enthralled.
So you're the one who took my parking spot.
When he turned my jaw dropped. It was Stefan. He was wearing a leather jacket that I didn't know he even had. He leaned against the bike as if waiting for someone. I more or less looked like the other girls who were taken with him.
"Funny you're pointing him out because I'm dating him." I blurted then froze
Did that just come out? Oops . Take it back! No don't you'll look stupid follow through with something for a change.
"Yeah right McCollough why would someone that angelic looking go for a fire hazard like you?"
"Like you said I'm a fire hazard." I said a bit steamed
In the next instant I was walking over toward Stefan. It seemed that my body had a mind of it's own and my mind had been quieted by it. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him down to me in a kiss. There it went again that same shock I got when that memory slipped. But I liked it. He didn't push me away he didn't even resist. Rather he just pulled me even closer. When I parted his deep green eyes found mine.
Care for a ride.
The thought came back to me again.
When you have nothing Bon you have nothing to lose.
I smiled up at him.
Sure I answered.
