Just to clarify in this chapter so I don't get any hate mail. Shane is super aggressive in the show. He's super aggressive in this chapter. Nicole protests but everything is consensual. The two are going to have a angry/loving/fighting type of relationship. Hopefully y'all like it still and I get no death threats ;) Read & Review. Let me know what ya think!
She didn't trust Dr. Jenner from the minute she saw him. When he requested they submit to a blood test, she liked him even less. She had no issues with tattoos or piercings but shots and drawing blood gave her the creeps. He led them into the cafeteria where they sat down to a real meal for the first time in weeks. Daryl found the liquor cabinet and she helped herself to a bottle, not really caring what it was at this moment. She joined Daryl in giving Glenn some grief.
"Didn't know you two were getting so close. You make such a cute couple." Lori's words were laced with sarcasm and hatred. Rick watched his sister carefully.
"Don't worry Lori, there's still plenty of men to whore yourself out to in camp. No need to be jealous. Maybe you should concentrate on your husband." Nicole told her through gritted teeth, she ignored the look from her brother as she sat down at the table next to her nephew. Luckily he was out of earshot for the exchange.
After dinner, Jenner led them down a hall filled with rooms. Nicole ignored most of what he was telling them until she heard shower.
"Hot water?" She asked.
"That's what the man said." T-Dogg laughed as they all broke off into rooms.
She found a room with two couches and threw her bag down. The sounds in the hallway grew louder as the group unpacked and explored. She took no time in gathering her clothes and her bottle of whiskey before looking for the showers. The shower room was already filled with steam and the sounds of people enjoying themselves.
Nicole hung everything on the hook outside her shower stall before turning on the water. The hot water rushed over her body and she felt weeks of grime fall off of her body. Steam rose up around her. She reached outside the door and grabbed her bottle, taking a long swig of it. The combination of heat traveling down her throat and over her skin was amazing. She found herself relaxing in no time.
Shane argued with himself mentally as he watched Nicole turn on the water and step in the shower. His first instinct was to march over there and throw her against the wall, have his way with her. He watched her silhouette through the shower curtain and couldn't take it anymore. He stepped out of his clothes, hanging them up next to hers and pushed open the curtain quietly.
The look of shock and anger on her face almost stopped him but instead he stepped in, standing right in front of her. She opened her mouth to yell at him and he kissed her, pushing her back against the wall. Her hands flew out to the side, trying to grab anything to catch herself. Remembering her assault earlier in the day, he gripped her wrists and held them above her head. She was returning his kisses despite the initial protest from her body.
He kept her hands held together above her head and pulled away from the kiss breathlessly. She pressed her forehead against his as she gasped for air. He leaned in and kissed her again, pouring all his frustration and irritation with her into the contact. He used his free hand to push her legs apart. His fingers slid along her wet slit and he almost lost it right there, feeling how much she reacted to him. She squirmed under his touch and moved to get away. Finally letting his frustration take over, he released her arms and kept his body pressed against her. He gripped her waist and pushed her back against the wall. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled at his hair, breaking the kiss.
"You gonna stop me?" He asked through ragged breaths. Before she could answer, he slid two fingers inside of her, reaching for the spot he knew would end her resistance.
"You're an asshole." She moaned, her body slowly giving in to him. Her hips rolled against his hand and her nails dug into his back. She was close to coming undone against him.
"You want me?" He whispered, slowing the rhythm of his fingers.
She nodded at him, an almost desperate look in her eyes.
"Say it." He bit the top of her breast and she bucked against him. He pulled his hand away, leaving her panting against the wall.
"I want you. I fucking want you." She moaned before she turned away, sticking her curved ass out at him.
He didn't hesitate, grabbing both hips and pushing himself into her from behind. She held on to the wall as crashed into her. She matched his movements with insane force. When she finally exploded, she took him with her; her muscles draining everything from him. He put his hand over her mouth so that no one would hear her pleasure filled screams. She sunk her teeth into the side of his finger as she pushed against him one last time. He ran his hand down her back before pulling away from her.
She turned back to face him and leaned against the shower wall. Shane bent down and picked up the bottle she had on the floor. He took a long sip of it before handing it to her. Her breath was starting to return to normal. She was angry and he would gladly take whatever she decided to throw at him. She grabbed the bottle from his hand and guzzled more of it.
"Spend the night with me?" He asked softly as he took her soap and lathered it up.
She watched him as he washed his hair and body like nothing had happened. Her eyes widened when he squeezed more into his hands and started lathering it into her hair. Having her hair washed by someone always put her at ease and this time was no different. She allowed him to wash her body and she tried not to react when he reached the most sensitive parts.
She stood under the stream of hot water, rinsing the suds from her body. He took his time, running his hands over every inch of her body. When she put her head back and let the water rinse over her hair, he took one of her nipples into his mouth. She couldn't help but melt against him and she instantly hated her traitorous body.
Not able to stand it anymore, she pushed him away and turned off the shower. She reached for the towel and wrapped it around her body. His eyes followed her as she stormed through the door to the locker room.
Her knees were still weak but she didn't let it show until she was away from Shane. She sat down on a bench, catching her breath. Wanting nothing more than to run back to him and wrap her body around his, she slammed her fist into a locker. Her hand instantly throbbed and she cursed her stubborn stupidity. She took her time getting dressed and headed back to her room.
She opened the door to her room and groaned when Shane was sitting on one of the couches, shirtless. His feet were propped up on a table in front of him. Her bottle of whiskey sat next to him.
"Damnit Shane." She closed the door and threw her things down on the floor. Placing her hands on her hips, she oozed her anger out the best she could but she managed a weak childish fit instead. He saw right through her.
He leaned forward, placed his feet on the floor and leaned forward. He had a cocky grin as he rubbed his hands together.
"I asked you nicely. I asked you to spend the night with me. You know damn well you want to but you're being so stubborn." He stood up and crossed over to her, placing his hand on her cheek. She turned away from him.
"Shane, why are you doing this?" She sighed exasperated.
"Cuz I finally see you." He looked down at his feet. "Cuz I should have seen you a long time ago."
She walked away from him, grabbing the bottle and sitting down on the couch.
"And I'm supposed to believe that you suddenly 'seein' me doesn't have anything to do with the fact that you and Lori just ended? I know she came to see you last night." She could feel her buzz getting stronger with each sip.
"I was stupid, I never shoulda been with her. I honestly thought she loved me." He chuckled at the thought.
"Did you love her?" Nicole asked not really looking forward to the answer.
"Naw. I mean I wanted to. I told myself I did, but each time we were together, each time she said it to me I saw Rick, Caleb and you." He still stood in the same spot. She didn't know what to say.
He sat down next to her on the couch and despite her mental resistance; she couldn't help but crawl over to him. He held out his arm to her, pulled her into his chest. She laid her head on his shoulder and listened to his breathing.
The day of Caleb's Funeral
She struggled through the wake and service. People she barely knew came to her and paid her respects. During the wake, she stood at his coffin, staring at him. She hid her anger and pain, keeping herself composed as the grieving fiancé. When Rick showed up, he stood by her side. He put his arm around her and whispered into her ear reassuring her. As much as they had fought over the last week, she was partially grateful for his presence, until Lori walked in.
"What is she doing here?" Nicole asked through gritted teeth. She was furious.
"I don't know. She was supposed to stay home. I told her this wasn't a good idea." Rick rushed over to Lori. Nicole stepped behind him to follow until she felt a hand on her arm. Shane stopped her.
"I'll take care of it. You go sit down." He walked toward Rick and Lori who were arguing. Nicole watched through blurred vision as Shane whispered something in Lori's ear and led her quietly to the door. Rick returned to sit down next to her.
"I'm sorry Nic. She left." He whispered as he put his arm around her.
She flinched away from him. He forgave Lori, took her back. He even blamed himself. She couldn't stand to listen to him tell her that if he had paid more attention to his wife, loved her more that none of this would have happened. The heat in the building, the thoughts flowing through her head and her own anger made her dizzy. She stood up to go outside. Rick tried to follow her and she held up her hand.
"Just five minutes. Give me five minutes." She gave him a desperate look before going outside. A couple of people stood outside the door, smoking a cigarette. She gave them a weak smile as they gave her a look of sympathy.
"How ya feelin?" Shane turned the corner from the parking lot after taking Lori to her car.
"I seriously wish people would stop asking me. They really don't wanna know the answer." She told him. He put his arm around her and they walked over to a nearby bench.
"I wanna know the answer." He assured her.
"I wanna punch him. I just want to march in there and scream and yell at him. HE CHEATED ON ME WITH MY SISTER-IN-LAW!" Her words came out louder than she meant. "He made a fool outta me, they both did. I can't stand the sight of either one of them. But I can't even tell him that cuz she killed him." The tears flowed for the first time since they left the hospital. She spent the last week throwing herself into funeral arrangements and convincing his parents she was fine. His mom and step-dad were beside themselves and she couldn't bear to tell the sweet couple the real story behind his death. They stuck with the story that he was coming back from business early to surprise her and they had the accident.
"When everyone leaves, go in there and punch him." Shane's face was so serious she couldn't help laugh at him.
It felt good and horrible all at the same time but she couldn't stop. Caleb's step-sister came out of the funeral home to check on Nicole. Shane tightened his arm around Nic's shoulders and pulled her into him so that the young girl wouldn't see her laughing during the difficult time. The girl went back inside, her head down.
"She's gone. We're good." He loosened his grip and Nicole moved away, wiping away her tears.
"I love you Shane. I don't know what I would have done without you this week." She told him. "You can't tell Rick but I'm leaving. I got accepted a few months ago to University of Georgia. I wasn't sure I wanted to go but I think I have to now. I can't stay here and be remembered as the girl who belongs on a Jerry Springer episode."
"No one will ever think that about you." He ran his hand through her hair and she leaned into his chest. She listened to his breathing and relaxed against him. This was safety, home. She hadn't thought what it might be like to leave Shane.
"I do. Every time I look at her or go to the bar. I'll think it every day I'm here. I gotta go. 4 years and I'll be back." She told him.
"You know it doesn't matter if you ran off to Chicago, I'll come visit you every chance I get. Rick and me." He reassured her, still stroking her hair. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Shane's cologne had always made her melt and this time she let it. They didn't go back inside. When people asked where she disappeared to, she told them she just couldn't take it. They didn't question it. Two weeks after the funeral, she went off to college. A month later, Rick called her and told her the news; Lori was pregnant, almost four months pregnant.
Present Day
He felt the wetness of her tears against his chest. She sat up quickly, trying to hide her face from him. She hated to admit when she was crying or feeling anything. He sat up and moved in close to her.
"Nic, I fucked up. I shouldn't have been with her and if I had any clue that Rick survived that hospital, I wouldn't have done it. I was weak and stupid." He told her, hoping she'd understand. She didn't say anything and he didn't know what else to say. "I'm gonna run and get some water. You want?" She nods at him.
He closed the door quietly behind him and made his way back to the cafeteria. When he passed the rec room, he saw Lori in a short night shirt looking through the bookshelf. She had a glass of wine in her hand. She turned and saw him as he tried to duck away.
"Shane?" She asked.
"Yeah, just getting some water." He backed up and stood in the doorway, watching her cautiously.
"We should talk." She said. "I wanna talk to you."
"No need Lori. Nothing really left to say." He looked down at his hands.
"You can't just dismiss me like that. You love me." She sounded like she was going to cry.
"No, I don't think so. I wanted to and I tried to but I just couldn't." He shook his head at her.
"Don't fucking lie to me. You're just worried about Rick. He doesn't have to know." His disgust grew with every word.
"No, I'm not worried. Nothing's going on. It happened and now it's done." He finally looked up at her again. She stood up and walked over to him. She placed her hand on his chest for a moment, running a finger along the chain he wore. "Lori, don't. Go back to your husband. Be his wife."
Tears fell down her cheek. She tried to press her body against his but he pushed her away. A look of fury rushed through her face. She reached back and slapped him, digging her nails into his cheek. He almost hit her back but instead brought his hand to the wound, feeling the wet blood oozing out. He laughed angrily and turned away, heading straight to the kitchen.
