Chapter 9
EDITED BY SMILEY LOVES
CPOV
My stomach is in knots as I am making my way up to Ana's house. I stop and stand in the drive way for a while just to gain some composure. The results are due to be ready soon as I feel it has taken forever. Ana and I thought it would be best to receive the results together. I said I would come to her house and we can discuss anything that we need to talk about after we see the results. I finally get the courage to ring her door bell and she answers the door quicker than I expected.
" Hey Christian come on in." I walk in behind her. I shut the door which sounds really loud as the room is so silent. I miss Max already; you can really feel the atmosphere change as he is not here.
" I feel it to all the time Christian, you will get used to it." I am confused as to what she is talking about.
" You know it's weird without Max here. I could see you looking around as if you were waiting on him to pop out at you."
I have no idea how she could tell what I was thinking. She is right I would like nothing more than to have my little man here with us now. Ana offers me something to eat and drink and I just take a water, as I need to have a clear head for when the results get here.
" Christian I know this is none of my business but I can't get the comments Carrick made out of my head about that Elena woman. Did you two have something going on? I am sorry for prying, but I feel really unsettled about it."
" It's very complicated Ana, and I really do want you to know everything about me. I think I will have to speak to my mother first and then we can talk."
" I fully understand thank you for wanting to share it with me. Do you want to be Max's dad, or do you feel like you are obligated to play the part if the test comes back that you are his biological father?"
I am stunned by her question as all I want in this world is to be Max's daddy. I want to be a part of his life, but I guess Ana does not know me well enough yet. I guess we can all get to know each other a lot better after we get the results.
" I want nothing more than to be Max's daddy. I felt an instant connection with him, and I already have so much love for him. I just want to spend every waking minute with him."
I see Ana start to cry and I don't know if I have upset her or hurt her feelings. I am confused when it comes to women crying. Usually it's because I have punished them really badly.
" Hearing you say that Christian means a lot to me as Max is my life. Nothing is more important to me than him, and I want the very best for him. I hope if you are his Daddy you will feel the same also."
The doorbell rings and we are both frozen on the spot. Ana finally moves and answers the door as it is the courier with the test results. Ana closes the door and has the envelope in her hand and my hands start to tremble as she walks towards me. I stand to meet her half way and I can honestly say that this is the most nerve wracking moment of my life. Ana hands me the envelope and tells me I should be the one to open it. We can look together as it effects both of our lives. I open it up and look down onto the page in front of me, and I feel a tear roll down my cheek when I see the results.
" I AM THE DADDY." I yell out as I grab Ana and pull her in for a hug. She immediately tenses, ooppss I guess we are not hug friendly yet. " I am so sorry Ana I just got really excited."
" That's ok Christian it is just a lot for me to take in, as mine and Max's lives are now going to change a lot."
"Ana I do not want to bulldoze your lives in anyway. I just want to be a part of them and I guess we can learn how to exist as a family unit."
" I have one request. I want you and Max to spend more time together, and to actually build a solid foundation before we tell him. I hope you can understand this."
" Max comes first I get it Ana I really do."
" You can set the rules and I will follow them."
" That will be good, Max will be home the day after tomorrow so if you are free we can all spend some time together. After a while you can spend time alone with him and we will build on things."
" Will you be ok with me having a bedroom for Max at my place, so once he is ready he can stay over and spend time with me there?"
" That will be fine Christian. I have to be up early as I have to go to work in the morning so we will talk soon." I am so happy right now that nothing can bring me down. I am not even thinking about the heated discussion that happened between me and my parents once Ana left. My whole affair with Elena is now out in the open as my mother now knows about it. She also knows my father has known about it for quite some time. Seeing the disgust on my mother's face broke my heart. She told me that she loves me and that she blames herself for the bitch troll getting her hands on me. I tried to reassure her but I know she will take a while to come to terms with all of this. I can honestly say I feel sorry for my father going home with her as she will kick his ass. I know it's all my bullshit but I can't be dragged into all of this as I now have Max to think about.
I just want to shout from the rooftops that I am his daddy. For now, I am just going to tell the people close to me, as Ana will tell the people close to her as well.
" Taylor Max is my son."
" Congratulations Mr. Grey. I guess I will be going ahead with the new security plans then."
" Yes please Taylor the sooner the better." I know how impersonal texts are but I text Elliot, Mia, and my parents that I am Max's daddy. I don't want the big fanfare that they will cause. I have never felt the feeling of pure bliss before but I am feeling it now. Miss Jones congratulates me as I walk into the kitchen. I know Taylor let her know which I don't mind as they are married, and I guess married couples tell each other everything. I am so happy that by tomorrow the playroom will be gone and I can start all my new beginnings. I already have in mind what I want for Max's bedroom. I will have people come into to create my vision. One thing Ana and I did not really discuss was about when all the rest of the people in our lives will know about me being Max's daddy. Once the world knows the press will have a field day. I know I am getting way ahead of myself but I can't help it. I just want to have my little man in my arms all day every day. I can't wait until Max is home and I can see him. I know Ana's dad will most likely want to talk to me and get a feel for me. I will do anything to be a part of Max's life. I sleep like a baby all night which is strange for me as usually I get hardly no sleep at all. I would have still been asleep if it wasn't for Taylor banging on my door telling me that there where police officers here to see me. I quickly dress and go see what they want.
" Christian Trevelyan Grey. You are under arrest on suspicion of the murder of Elena Lincoln. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed for you."
" Taylor please call my father and have him meet me at the station." Oh ding dong the witch is dead. I would be more pleased with the situation if I wasn't taken out of my building in handcuffs. I have to be thankful that the officers have come in an unmarked car and they are taking me out of the underground parking structure. If anyone saw me like this the press would go wild. I know I have not committed a crime but I still feel guilty. If Ana finds out about me being in handcuffs, what kind of man does that make me look like? Would she allow me to be around Max? I feel like the walls are closing in on me in the back of this car. I know I am going to be put into a room to be questioned. I know by now that my father will be on his way to the station. I have nothing to fear as I did not kill Elena. A huge part of me wishes that I did but, I would never jeopardize my relationship I am trying to build with me son. Once I get to the station my father is already there kicking ass. I do love that he is so good at his job. He gets the officers to take me out of the handcuffs as I am not a threat and I am
willing to be questioned.
" Mr. Grey. where were you at around 3am?"
" I was at home sleeping. My head of security, his wife, and my actual building can vouch for that. My building has a state of the art security system. No one gets in and out without being seen."
" An eye witness claims that they heard you yesterday afternoon, at Mrs. Lincolns hotel threatening her life is that true Mr. Grey?" Oh shit I did threaten to kill her.
" I did make some threats, yes I admit that but they were out of anger. I would never follow up on any threats that I made towards her."
" Mr. Grey you are going to have to write a full statement of what happened while you were at Mrs. Lincolns hotel, while we go check your alibis." The officers leave and I can see my father looking at me like his head is about to blow off.
" Son, of all the dumb shit you have ever done this takes first prize. You know better than to choose your words very carefully." " I know, I snapped ok the bitch spoke about my son in a not so very pleasant way and I saw red. You know I am not a murderer, I did not do anything to her. Yes, I wish I did but I have a child to think about now and I will not start making dumbass decisions." The officers return back to the room, and I am happy that they are releasing me as my alibis check out which I knew they would. They tell me to not leave the country and to be available if they need to question me further. Now the big question is who killed Elena Lincoln?
