A/N: I decided since you've all been so patient that I'd post both parts.. and I thought it was cruel leaving you to wait until like... at least Monday until I update this again. I might get the chance once I'm in Palma but we'll have to see. Take care guys!!!


Olivia slowly placed Alex on the bed and stared at her in unabashed adoration.

"God you're so beautiful."

She knelt before her and cupped her cheeks.

"Are you sure you want to do this? We can stop right now. We don't have to do this."

"Do I need to remind you again how badly I want this?"

Olivia felt her cheeks flush with desire.

"No."

"Good."

"But at any time, if you want to, tell me okay? We'll stop right away."

"Thank you. Now stop worrying."

Alex leaned forward and captured Olivia's lips. Everything this woman was doing for her, and how caring and sensitive she was to her needs, made her want her all that much more. She'd wanted her for a long time and now that she could finally have her, she was not going to wait.

Olivia kissed her back passionately as she slowly began unbuttoning the blonde's top. Alex stopped her hand and moved it away.

"No, don't. Stop."

Olivia immediately pulled away.

"I'm sorry."

She sat back on her feet and looked up at the blonde with concern.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes. I- No I don't want you to stop completely, that's not what I meant."

"I…?" she looked confused.

Alex reached out and cupped the side of Olivia's face.

"I don't want you to take off my shirt. I want to keep it on."

Olivia frowned. Although she was pretty sure she knew why, she asked anyway.

"Just because."

"Tell me Alex."

"Can we just make love and keep my shirt on? I really want this, but I don't want you to…"

"To what?"

"To see." Alex looked down, embarrassed.

Bingo. She knew it.

"Alex look at me." She guided her face until they were staring eye to eye. "Honey you are beautiful. I have never in my life found anyone remotely as beautiful as you. There's nothing that could make me think otherwise. God, I can't even express to you how beautiful I think you are. You're perfect in my eyes Alex."

The blonde shook her head.

"I'm not. It's bad Olivia. I don't think you realize how bad it really is. You're not going to like the way I look but if we keep my shirt on then you don't have to pretend..."

Olivia's heart broke at the way Alex was talking. This was not the Alex she knew. The Alex she knew wouldn't give a damn what someone thought about her. If you didn't like her then that was just fine, she didn't like you to begin with. But this new woman, practically trembling before her, afraid of what Olivia might think... Jesus. This was definitely a changed Alex. The brunette took Alex's hands in her own and squeezed them gently.

"Alex, I assure you, there is nothing that could make me not want you. I'd never pretend with you. You are what I've wanted for as long as I can remember and there is nothing that will change that. Okay? You're the most beautiful, sexy, attractive, hot, drop-dead gorgeous woman I know. But you're in charge here. If you're not comfortable doing this, we'll stop now. You don't have to do this. And when I say that, I mean it. I'm not going to make you do anything you don't want to do, but I don't want just a part of you either Alex. If and when we make love, I want all of you."

There were tears running down Alex's face so Olivia wiped them away gently.

"I love you Olivia. God I love you so much."

The brunette's voice caught in her throat as she pulled Alex into a tight embrace. She held her tight and placed soft kisses on her neck.

"I love you too Alex. I have for a very very long time."

The blonde coughed on a sob and held her tighter. Olivia rocked her gently and continued to lay butterfly kisses on her shoulder. After she finally calmed down, Alex pulled away and cupped Olivia's face.

"I am so lucky to have you."

"I think you have it backwards lady. The guys'll never believe we're together."

"Oh yeah? And why is that?"

"You're pretty out of my league Alex. You're smart, funny, caring, intelligent, kind, and you're sexy as hell-"

"All things that could be used to describe you detective."

Olivia went quiet but smiled at the compliment. She began playing with the bottom of Alex's shirt, waiting to follow her lead. She didn't know what she wanted to do now, but she would wait until Alex told her what she wanted to do. The blonde simply sat there, watching Olivia fiddle with her shirt. There were so many thoughts going through her mind right now but they all seemed to be silenced by the way Olivia was playing with her shirt. Every time she turned her hand to move the material between her fingers, her knuckles brushed up against Alex's stomach causing a bolt of desire to shoot down between the blonde's legs. She stilled Olivia's hands and looked into her eyes. All she could see was love and desire in them, and that's what made her decision. She knew that if Olivia had the same scars that she did, it would do nothing to suppress the desire she felt. And she knew how the brunette felt about her.

She kept her gaze as she removed her shirt. She then moved her hands to her back and popped open her bra, slowly running it down her arms. Olivia's gaze travelled down and she could feel her pulse quicken as she looked her over. Olivia looked back up at her and grinned.

"You look so good I might just eat you up right here and right now."

The blonde laughed, instantly relieved of her fears.

"That was terrible Liv."

They both chuckled, the air in the room instantly becoming lighter. The brunette slipped her arms around the back of her neck and pulled her closer.

"Yeah but you loved it." she said seductively before bringing their lips together.

After several long minutes, Olivia finally pulled away and let her eyes travel once again down the most gorgeous body she had ever seen. It was definitely not as bad as Alex was making it out to be. She had lost most of the bandages that were wrapped around her torso, but there were still a couple of places near her ribs that had gauze taped to them. No matter. Olivia would just be careful of the wounds and would avoid the gauze altogether.

Alex shivered as Olivia leaned forward, placing small kisses from her neck down to the valley between her breasts. She got up slowly and guided the blonde up to the pillows before beginning to work her way down her stomach, snaking her tongue out between kisses. Once she was even with her hips, she slowly pulled at the waistband and smiled when she noticed Alex was going commando.

"You're not wearing panties."

Alex grinned down at her.

"Yeah. I thought you might like that."

Olivia cocked an eyebrow.

"Were you planning on getting lucky tonight counselor?"

"I was hoping."

Olivia chuckled against her leg and slowly pulled her pants down. She slowly ran her fingers back up the blonde's legs and grinned when she started squirming. Olivia carefully straddled her thighs and stripped her own shirt before leaning forward and capturing a breast with her mouth. Alex immediately plunged her fingers in her hair and pulled her closer. Olivia took her time, carefully massaging her nipple into a hard bud. Once she had managed to do so, she turned her attention to the other breast.

By the time she was finished, Alex was groaning and grinding her hips against her. Olivia smiled. She was not done with her yet.

"Turn on your back for me."

"What?"

She leaned closer.

"Turn over. I want to kiss and suck every inch of you."

Alex groaned as she felt another hot bolt of desire shoot down to her core and quickly gave into the request. Olivia moved the stray strands of blonde hair at the nape of her neck and began kissing and licking her way down her back. She stopped at Alex's lower back and paid special attention to the two small dimples she found there. She then kissed down to Alex's ass and scraped her teeth over her cheeks before kissing away the red marks.

"God Liv…"

She smiled against her thigh and kissed down her legs. She received a small gasp when she kissed the back of Alex's knee and received a second when she made her way back up the other leg.

"I don't think I can take anymore teasing Liv…I need you."

Olivia gently guided Alex onto her back and kissed her furiously. Alex plunged her tongue into her mouth and immediately sought out her tongue. They kissed passionately until Olivia pulled away to kiss her way back down Alex's torso. She ran her tongue back over the two perfect breasts before making her way down to Alex's sex.

When she was finally even with her goal, she draped one leg over her shoulder and kissed the swollen outer lips. She could not believe how wet Alex was. It definitely turned her on knowing that it was because of her. Olivia ran her tongue along the outside of her sex and smiled as Alex gasped and spread her legs wider. Olivia then tentatively spread her lips apart before giving her one hard lick. She heard the woman groan and Olivia grinned. She had always hoped Alex would be vocal, now she would see just how vocal she was.

She snaked her tongue out and licked every possible surface before making her way up to where she knew Alex really wanted her tongue. She found the hard little bud and flattened her tongue, massaging it slowly.

"God Liv. Ah…harder."

Olivia took it between her lips and slowly stroked her tongue over it. Alex was still groaning and gyrating her hips above her. Olivia ran gentle hands along her hips as she began licking and sucking on Alex's centre. When she felt Alex's hips increase in speed, she brought one hand to her and massaged her entrance. The blonde's walls were so slick that her fingers easily slid inside. She first slipped in two, then three and began moving inside of her. She searched and when she heard Alex groan and gasp, she knew she'd found what she was looking for. She increased her motions until Alex was writhing underneath her.

"Ah, God. Don't stop. Jesus Liv, don't stop. I'm so close. Ah-"

Olivia sped up her motions again as Alex began speaking and it didn't take long for the blonde's voice to catch in her throat as she crashed over the edge. Olivia held her tight and gently licked her clean as the blonde's spasms died down. Olivia could then feel Alex shuddering so she moved up her body to wrap her arms around her. When she got to Alex's level, she saw that the blonde was crying.

"Oh baby."

Olivia wrapped her arms tight around her and held her close. Alex turned into her shoulder and cried softly. Olivia said nothing. Instead, she rubbed her back in circles and hoped that the motion would help soothe her. Alex eventually stopped crying but she stayed quiet, her face buried in Olivia's neck. Olivia tried to pull away so that she could look at her, but Alex refused.

"Alex, look at me. Honey look at me."

Olivia guided her chin until they were looking into each other's eyes. She wiped the tears away and placed a small kiss on Alex's nose.

"What happened baby?"

Alex looked away, embarrassed. She still had tears streaming down her face and it broke Olivia's heart to see her like this. She kissed her gently on the forehead.

"Talk to me."

"I…it's just…I'm not used to this."

"Used to what?"

"Feeling cared for. Cherished. Loved. How gentle you were…It's been so long since someone has made love to me." Alex shook her head, embarrassment washing over her. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"

"Shh. Don't apologize. I love you Alex."

Olivia wrapped her arms tight around her. She hated not knowing what happened to Alex. She hated the fact that he probably touched her against her will. Olivia hated that she knew these things had happened. But the fact that Alex started crying because Olivia had loved her? You're so broken Alex. Olivia wrapped her arms tighter around Alex.

"Get used to it babe. I love you and I will never stop showing you how much I do."