TITLE: WORLDS APART

AUTHOR: Jaguarin

FANDOM: Birds of Prey TV

PAIRING: Barbara/Helena

DISCLAIMER: I do not own the characters. They are the property of DC comics and the WB network. This is just for fun..

SPECIALNOTE: Again my grateful to North & Aussie Kimmy helping me editing this fic. And thanks you for your comments. And thank you all for you feedback.


The next morning, Barbara and Dick finished their breakfast in a coffee shop close to the Clocktower. The redhead thought it better to talk in private. Helena had stayed in the guest room and Barbara was not sure if she had slept. She had been restless after Barbara took her to the Tower. Dinah was trying her best to make her friend feel comfortable but the brunette had many confusing feelings inside.

"So…" he said "she really thinks you and her…?" Dick waved his fingers.

Barbara nodded "Yes, she really believes that she and I… were involved… romantically."

"It's absurd!"

"I know, but she really thinks it is the truth. Thankfully she did some research, she went to the library, checked news, asked people… and now she knows it was all her imagination." Barbara couldn't hide the concern in her voice.

"Oh, in a few weeks she will forget." Dick said smiling.

"I don't think so. In some way she really has her feelings involved in all this. I need to know what happened to help her. She is very confused."

Dick observed her in silence and bit his lower lip. "Are you sure all this is not a game of hers?"

"Dick, please! She never would do that."

"I know her."

"No, you don't know her. She really thinks she is in love with me and she is hurt because I can't love her back."

"And what are you going to do? Kiss her?"

"I'd really appreciate it if you could be more respectful." Barbara hated when Dick turned jealous, it was impossible to talk with him and his comments were absurd.

"Barbara, she aban…"

"You have reminded me of that thousands of times." Barbara interrupted him. "You do not need to remind me every time we talk about her. Whatever happened, she is my friend, ok?"

He leaned back in his chair crossing his arms on his chest.

The waitress at the small cafe in one of the main New Gotham streets approached with a pot of coffee and he waved his hand indicating he didn't want more.

"Why you are doing this?" he asked the redhead.
"You know why. She is important to me Dick. She was with me in my worst moments. I owe her all those years at my side."

"You already paid for it. You tolerated her rudeness for years."

"I don't need to pay for anything. She, like me, was struggling to survive, to rebuild her life. You don't know because you weren't there."

"Okay, now I'm the villain because I wasn't there all those years." Dick said.

"No, you are saying it, not me." Barbara pointed out.

"That's the past Barbara, we have a present and a future!"

"I know, but it seems you don't understand it. Helena is part of my past, of what I have become and I'm not going to forget it, ever. I survived because of her support. I really would like you to support me and not to fight against me."

"I don't fight against you."

"Yes you do! What are you doing now?"

"All right, all right," Dick said lifting his hand, "if it's what you want, I'll help you."

"Dick I really would like us to stop having these fights." The redhead rubbed her head. "I'd like your support."

"Because you have some unusual ideas." Dick moved back on his chair.

"My ideas have always been the same!" Barbara moved her head "You want me to change."

"It's not that," he said taking his hand between hers "I just think you take so much care of someone that never thinks of anyone other than herself."

"Helena is not like that."

"That's the point where we don't agree."

"She was with me during all those difficult years, that's not being selfish…"

"Well, she didn't have any other place to go and when she could, she left."
Barbara pulled her hand back and put the napkin on the table. "All right, that's enough."

"Barbara."
"Stop, stop right now," the redhead warned "I'm tired of this useless discussion."

"Barbara, please forgive me."

"What's wrong with you?" Barbara asked annoyed.

"You know what happens." Dick exhaled fixing his eyes on hers.
"You are acting like a child. I need you to understand she is an important part of my life."

"But we are together now Barbara."

"I know it and I respect you, but I need you to respect me" the redhead said furiously. "Helena was with me all the initial years of my recovery and made me feel like a person again. If you weren't there it is not my fault or her fault. You can't blame her for it! In that case it's your fault, not hers!"

"I understand, it is just that she exasperates me."

"And you exasperate her with your attitude."

He moved his head. "Well, it's hard to explain, she's always defensive with me."

"Because you don't stop annoying her!" Barbara said.

Dick turned his head.

"I'm going to help Helena. So, I'll ask you one last time, will you help me or not?"

"I'll help you, of course. I want to do it."

"Well, then prove it. Please be polite with her and don't taunt her. I don't want any fighting inside my home. All right?"

"Yes, yes."

Barbara moved her head. "Dick… this is not easy, for her, for me, for you, I know, but I just want to do the right thing and to do it, I'll need your support."

"Count on me Barbara." He leaned forward and kissed her on her lips.

The redhead kissed him back.


"Your brain activity is normal." Barbara said observing the screen on her computer. Her finger traced the lines on her computer screen trying to find something abnormal.

"It means she is as annoying as always?" Dinah asked with her legs crossed over a chair next to the redhead.

"Ha, ha, ha…" the brunette removed the helmet from her head and unbuckled the belt at her chest.

"Your cells fragmented for a brief second but after that they returned to normal." The redhead adjusted her glasses "I… I don't understand what could cause it."

"Me neither," Helena said "but it hurt like hell."

"Do you think it could be a collateral effect?" Dinah asked. "Maybe she likes pink or something like that?"

Helena glared to her.

"In fact there is a collateral effect," Barbara said "she can't remember what happened the last year. She replaced her memories with new ones."

"And I bet you piss everybody off in the memories you have now, just as much as you used to in your old ones." The blonde smiled at her friend.

"In fact no," Helena said standing up "You are pretty happy with me and the best is that you live in your own place."
"My own place? Wow! Where?"

"I moved in to live with Barbara and you live in my apartment at Dark Horse bar."

"You moved here?" Dinah asked wide eyes.

"Yes." Helena said "we live together. Same house, same room." Helena sighed, it was not easy being so close to Barbara when not could show her love for her as she was used to and pretend nothing between them had happened because it was a 'fantasy'. "Not the guest room."

"You snore." Barbara said turning to her computer.

"I don't snore." Helena protested.

"I like the idea of moving to my own place." Dinah said.

"Don't give her ideas now Hel." Barbara smiled "I have enough trouble with you."

"Believe me Barbara," the brunette said resting her hips on the desk next to Barbara. She tried to show she was not so much affected by what was happening around her "you are happy with Dinah living far away."

"Not funny." Dinah said rolling her eyes.

"Okay. What's next Barbara?" Helena asked.

"Well… I would like to check your…"

"Hey girls." Dick appeared at the elevator doors and Helena felt an ache in her heart. He was Barbara's boyfriend, he was her partner, not her and it hurt like hell. He was tall, handsome, with the perfect smile and zero brain.

"Hey Dick." Barbara greeted.

"What are you doing?" he asked, approaching them.

"Performing some tests on Helena."

"Something new?"

"No, all normal."

Dick leaned and gave an effusive kiss to Barbara. More effusive than she expected.

"Hey!" the brunette pushed him back.

"What's wrong with you?" Dick growled.

"Don't touch her!" Helena shouted.
"She is my fiancé!" Dick shouted back at her.

Helena growled, knowing he was right.

"Please Helena, calm down!" Barbara said moving her arm between them.

"She is my girlfriend and we will marry, so please I ask you to respect us!"

The tension in the room was evident. Dinah observed Helena, her eyes were feral and the anger in her face more than evident. She had her lips pressed, she just turned and not saying a word walked to the balcony.

Barbara glared at Dick. "Why did you do that?"

"What?" he asked.

"Kiss me like that!"

"Why? We are engaged!"

"Dick, you know how she feels. We talked about this."

"Barbara, Helena's imagination just created a fantasy about you."

"Yes, I know," Barbara said, feeling angry "and we are trying to help her understand which is reality. Hurting her is unnecessary."

"Oh come on! She will survive." Dick said.

The comment pissed Barbara off.

"You are a moron." Dinah said standing up and walking to the balcony.

"I really would appreciate it if you leave us alone, I need to talk with Helena."

"Barbara you are my fiancé."
The redhead looked at him not saying a word.

"I would like it if you give me my space as your fiancée."

"I always give you your space."

"Not with her!" he pointed to the balcony where Helena had gone "She always is first."

"When you calm down and think straight, we will talk. See you later Dick."


Helena sat on balcony staring at the dark night. It was hard trying to get used to the idea that all her memories where a lie, and not easy to face that Dick and Barbara were engaged. It just sucked.

She tried to remember anything about the other life that Barbara and Dinah had described to her.

She closed her eyes, the only images filling her mind were about her and Barbara. She smiled remembering how sweet Barbara was with her. The taste of her lips. She could feel Barbara's fingers touching her.

"I'm sorry Helena." Dinah said behind her.

"It's all right." Helena felt the cold wind caress her face. She opened her arms welcoming the night.
"No it' was not alright," She stood up next to her "he knows that you are handling a difficult moment. I know him, he just wanted annoy you."

Helena didn't answer, she kept still. After long seconds she opened her eyes and lowered her arms.

"Well," she said "I can't do anything, Barbara is his girlfriend. I have to get used to seeing them together…" the brunette exhaled loudly looking out at the city "but the truth is that I can't handle seeing him touching her. Maybe I need to go and let life keep going."

"No, we have to find out what happened."
"Whatever has happened, it wouldn't change things Dinah." Helena put her hands in the pockets of her coat. "No matter what the truth or reality is, my feelings for her won't change."

Dinah sat on the balcony crossing her hands between her legs observing her. The sadness in her friend was clear in her features. "Are you really in love with her?"

"She is my life Dinah. My everything."

"Why did you said you wanted work alone then? You don't call and avoid talk to us."
"I don't know, I can't remember that." Helena turned and sat at Dinah's side "I just remember being so happy sharing my life with her. When I see him close to her, I just want to go and rip his head off for touching my girl."

"He is a moron." Dinah said "I still can't understand why Barbara is with him."

"She is my girl, she always will be." the brunette growled rubbing her head. "I don't understand what's happening or why it's happening. I just know that it makes me crazy that I can't touch her or tell her how much I love her."

"We will find the truth. Trust in her, she has never lied to you."

"The truth couldn't help me much I guess."

"But we will know what we are fighting against, we can find out what's happening."

"Hi." Barbara's voice was heard over the hum of her wheelchair. "I'm sorry for what happened. Dick behaved badly. I apologize for it."

Dinah stepped back and walked inside the Clocktower, she knew they needed talk alone.

"He is right," Helena said lowering her head and looking at her feet "he is your boyfriend."

Barbara shook her head. "I didn't want him to hurt you."

"I know." The brunette lowered her head. "He is just trying to defend his love for you. I'd do the same."

The redhead rested her hand on her arm. "We will solve this soon, I promise."

Helena felt the touch of soft fingers on her like heaven. She had missed that touch so much.

"Maybe we could solve this soon but..." Helena looked at her. "What do I do with all my feelings for you?"

Barbara stared at her speechless.

"They will stay inside me forever." The brunette said,

"It's a fantasy." Barbara moved he head.
The brunette rested her hands on the wheelchair arms and fixed her eyes on the redhead who shivered under the intense gaze. "You can't call a fantasy what I'm feeling for you now. This is real, it's the most real I have felt in all my life."
They looked at each other in silence.

"I don't think I can stay here Barbara." Helena whispered lowering her head.

"Why not?" Barbara asked concerned, she felt afraid to lose her again. She didn't want it.

"You know. I love you, you and him are engaged. It hurts me so much to see you with him."
"Hel…"

"And it's not fair to ask you for something that goes against your feelings."

"My heart says that I want to help you, that I want you to stay close." Barbara said "I already asked Dick to keep his distance until we find out what's happening. Helena, I don't approve of what he did. He tried to hurt you. We had talked about it, he promised me he wouldn't do it."

Helena looked at her.

"It's what I want." Barbara said, holding her gaze.

The brunette took Barbara's hand between hers and kissed the other woman's knuckles sending a shiver up Barbara's spine.

"You love Dick, Barbara. Your happiness is the most important thing to me…"
"Yes, but it doesn't mean I approve when he acts without thinking. I don't like that he hurt you, especially because we had talked about this before. I asked him and he promised me he would respect you."

The brunette fixed her eyes on Barbara and caressed a soft cheek with her hand and smiled with sadness. When everything seemed fine in her life, she awoke to find out it was just her imagination.

"I'm so in fucking love with you." Helena whispered, caressing her cheek "Do you don't know how hard it is be so close to you knowing I can't touch you… Kiss you."

Barbara blushed. "I'm sure that we will find out what's happening…"

"And then what Barbara?" the dark haired woman interrupted with a soft voice "What will I do? My feelings for you will be as strong as they are now. You are my life, my heaven and my hell. Whatever has happened, what I feel for you is not a fantasy. My feelings for you are so real."

Helena leaned slowly. Barbara kept still, hypnotized by those deep blue eyes fixed on her. Her heart beat fast, she held her breath. For a brief second she was sure Helena would kiss her on her lips but the caress was on her cheek. The touch of Hel's soft lips against her was longer than she expected. When Helena moved back, she lightly brushed her nose against Barbara's cheek. It was a light, but electric touch.

"See you tomorrow." Helena whispered walking inside the Clocktower.

Barbara watched her leave and when Hel disappeared from her sight, Barbara turned to see the night. She just wished all this nightmare finished soon for Helena's sake.

TBC