Last chapter was long, wasn't it? Well, here you have a slightly shorter chapter.
Please, enjoy chapter 9.
APOV
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go 'til we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
The song was on replay after Maxon had left my room in rage. I was on my bed, blinking back tears because I didn't want them to spill. I had send him away and told him to love someone else. With a heavy sigh, I replayed our conversation in my mind.
"Why do you do this to us?"
"There is no us!" I exclaimed. "Maxon, I love you. I do but your fa-"
"What does my father have to do with us?" Maxon asked, frowning.
I sighed and put a hand on his back before pressing gently yet the gesture was enough to let him hiss in pain. "Maxon, your father abuses you. If we ever persuaded anything, he would encrease his abuse. I want you happy but most of all, I want you safe and you won't be if we act on our feelings."
"You don't get it, do you?" He asked me, shaking his head slightly.
"Get what, Maxon?"
"America, I love you which means I would willingly take any hit I'd get for you as long as you are safe." He said, emphasizing 'you'.
"I don't want that, Maxon! I want you gone, out of my life. Be happy with one of the girls, be happy with Kriss."
"You're unbelievable! You love me yet you want me gone." Maxon seethed. "Fine, I'll be gone."
With those words he had stormed out of my room and left the second floor.
Crying, I didn't even hear the door open nor close nor did I hear anyone coming in until I felt a gentle, familiar hand, caressing my hair in an attempt to sooth me and comfort me.
"My dear child,-" Came Amberly's voice. "What is wrong? I have seen my son storming past me and now I find you crying here. Tell me what happened."
"I told him I loved him." I cried.
"And?" Amberly asked, clearly not getting it for which I could not blame her. It is not like I gave her a lot of information. "I don't see how that is a problem. I know for a fact that he loves you as well."
"I told him to leave. To get out of my life."
"Oh, America, why would you do that?" She sat down and took my head in her lap, continuing her ministrations on my hair. "You love him, why do you want him gone?"
"Your husband threatened him if he would ever persue me." I cried.
"Threaten him how?"
I knew she didn't know about his abuse so I just shrugged. "Uhm, I don't know. He didn't tell me how but he just told me that Maxon wouldn't be safe if I disrupted the Selection."
"My dear, I will make sure you can be happy without having to concern about my husband. I promise you that." She said before standing. "Now, I need your help picking out an outfit for tomorrow."
Tomorrow the Italians would arrive. The Germans had already come and I had arrived just in time to accompany them to the airport for their departure. I got them to the airport and with a heavy heart I ignored all the 'fans' I had until they were gone. Once gone, I went over and took pictures with them and gave autographs. Ever since I started appearing on the Report, I had gained fans and people that admired me. I even received 'fan mail' from time to time.
"Of course."
Ten minutes later I was laying on the Queen's bed while she was fitting a dress I had chosen for her. It was a very simple Royal Blue evening gown which she paired with black heels. She looked absolutely gorgeous in her dress.
Turning to me, she asked me a question for the first time in nearly the whole time I was in her room. "What dress will you wear tomorrow?"
"What do you mean?" I asked, standing next to her.
"Well, you are my guest. Caleb is taking over from you tomorrow." Amberly told me. "So what will you wear?"
"I don't know, I didn't know you would be taking me. Amberly, what will I wear?" I asked.
"Relax, I think I have the perfect dress for you. I used to wear it in the time that I used to be a princess." Amberly told me before disapearing into her closet. Not even five minutes later she emerged from her closet with a beautiful dress in her hands.
Just like hers it was simple and modest. It was in blue as well but hers was a bit darker. Instead of having a high neckline, mine was a bit deeper and I had a few spagethi straps. It was definitely more for my age.
"Amberly, it is-" I couldn't find the right words to describe the dress. It was just... indescripable.
"You don't like it, do you?" Amberly was immediately worried when I didn't finish my sentence.
"No, that is not it! Definitely not! I love it, it's just indescripable." I soflty touched the material which seemed as soft as silk. "It- My words do not seem enough."
"Well, you can have it." She said.
"To wear it tomorrow?" I asked, unsure of what she meant.
"To keep it." She said, giving me the dress.
"Are you sure?" I asked, not sure if it was okay for her to give me clothes. She had already done it but I didn't want to keep receiving clothes from her.
"Absolutely. As you can probably see, it isn't exactly for my age so I don't wear it. I want you to have it. In fact there are other dresses in my closet that aren't for my age anymore that I want you to have, if you'll take them."
"I would be delighted to take them." I said.
Ten minutes later, I was walking through corridors with several dresses in my arms that Amberly gave me. I rounded a corner when I gasped and let the dresses fall as I took in the scene in front of me.
Maxon and Celeste were kissing like dogs in heat in the middle of the hallway. Anyone could see it- now I saw it.
Quickly picking the clothes up, I ran away as I saw Maxon looking at me. He pulled away and started walking in my direction as I started running away. In the end, I went back to Amberly's room because I knew I'd find Maxon at my room if I go there.
Quickly letting me in, Amberly rushed me to her bed where I broke down sobbing.
Taking the clothes from me, she let me sob on her bed while she sat behind me on the bed and caressed my shoulder and arm while whispering soothing words in my hair. After a while she laid down behind me and started rubbing my arms soothingly.
In the end, we fell asleep like that.
