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A/N: First of all it's my birthday, yay! And I have taken the day off from hell (also known as high honor roll classes, ugh). So I decided that I was going to write the next chapter of this story, because it's my birthday and this is the one that I wanted to update, lol.

Second, thank you so much, once again, to jay7795for your awesome review. Also thank you to ssdawningfor your amazing review. This chapter it dedicated to both of you. I really appreciate them, reading your reviews make my day. They also help me so much, not only on writing this story, but in writing my other stories.

Anyway, i'm trying to keep this short, we all know about my habit of making my A/N's way too long. So enjoy!

PS: Please keep in mind that this is supposed to be a semi-dark fic while you are reading this. Technically this is rated M more for violence then sex, at least until later chapters.

I sat in my old bedroom, unable to "sleep". I still couldn't believe that I had actually done it, that I had actually forgiven him. That I had kissed him. I knew that it wouldn't be easy for ether of us. I wasn't giving anything up for him, except maybe some of my time. I was giving him one last chance, if he blew it, then he lost me forever. It wasn't like it was before, I wasn't the same person. I didn't need him to be happy anymore, well I didn't need him to be content anymore.

I swallowed hard, the burning in my throat beginning to get stronger as I caught the scent of a human, someone was walking down the road. I could hear their footsteps now. I hesitated for a moment before jumping out the window and landing lightly on the ground before ducking behind a bush and waiting for the human to walk past. I wasn't going to draw it out. . .too much, I just wasn't in the right setting. But I needed it, I needed it so badly right now. The burning in my throat increased as the human came closer, but it was more uncomfortable then painful, after so many years it almost felt good when I thought of what was coming soon, the hot blood. . . .

Finally the human was just a few feet away, he had stopped to tie his shoe. He was a good-looking man in his late twenties. His blood was so enticing, especially after the animal blood, that I doubted for a moment my ability to wait just a few more moments. Does it really take this long to tie your shoe?

Finally though, he stood up, and I lunged forward, knocking him to the ground, muffling his screams with my hand.

"Be quiet and this will be quicker," I hissed, of course it was a lie, it would go as long as I wanted no matter how loud or quiet he was.

I dragged him into the woods and dropped him on a rock. He grunted but was otherwise silent, he was terrified, and in shock. I licked my lips before running my nails down his neck, before licking it up, moaning in pleasure at the taste that I had missed so much. I was never drinking that foul animal blood again. Not when I could have this. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into a standing position before backing him up against a nearby tree and pressing myself against him, thoroughly surprised when I felt his erection, even more surprised by the moan he let out.

"You like that huh?" I asked, grinding up against him as I licked the fresh blood that was beginning to flow from the wounds that I had inflicted earlier. He tasted good, so good, almost as good as my singer, a red haired girl that I had drained fifty-seven years ago. He let out a groan as I increased my pace, grinding against him harder and faster, biting back my own whimpers at the pleasure it was causing me.

But at the moment my thirst was stronger than me. . .other needs, so I pulled him closer, feigning a kiss, but really sinking my teeth into his neck and proceeding to drain him dry, all the while grinding up against him.

When I was finished I buried him under the tree. Leaving only one foot, still clothed in his gray and blue sneakers sticking out of the ground.

Someone would find him. . . .eventually.

Then I turned around, to see Edward, staring at me, shocked.

"Hello, beautiful night, isn't it?" I greeted him casually, licking the blood from my lips. I couldn't help but wonder how long he had been here, how much he had seen.

"Bella. . ."

"Edward. . ." I mimicked him.

"I thought you-"

"Edward, I'm not going to drink animal blood like the prissy little Cullens, I'm sorry," I said. It was pretty obvious that I definitely wasn't sorry. I had absolutely nothing to be sorry about.

"Bella. I don't care if you drink human blood,"

"Then what do you wand Edward, I'm not in the mood for this. I said I'd give you another chance, and right now it seems like you're about to blow it," I said, dusting the dirt off of my leather skirt, trying not to look as if I would care if he blew it. I would, I would probably be just as heartbroken as he would. I just wouldn't show it. I wasn't the one that had to worry constantly about him leaving, it was his turn.

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I sat in a booth at a restaurant in Port Angeles, across from Edward. It had taken the place of the one that we had went to after I had gone dress shopping with Jessica and Angela, after he had saved me.

Ironically it was still an italian restaurant, of course it would matter if they were serving dog shit because Edward and I weren't eating no matter what. Of course the humans there were very tempting.

"So, we should talk," Edward said.

"No duh," I muttered, pushing my pasta around on my plate, "Not that there's really anything to talk about," I added, sipping at my coke and almost gagging at the taste.

"Bella, I need to know. I need to know everything about what happened when I. . . .when I left,"

I looked up and I had to remind myself that I wasn't going to make this easy for him. He looked so. . .so sad, so heartbroken, it nearly killed me, again. There wasn't only sadness in his eyes though. There was also this love, so much pure love, and regret, regret that he left me so many years ago. He was, so, so, so sorry, and I could tell. I had already forgiven him though, I just wasn't ready to love him again. That would take time, but hopefully, one day we could be happy again. Or not. It doens't matter, get a hold of yourself Bella.

"Are you sure that that's best-"

"Yes," Edward cut me off, "I need to know everything, not just these shortened versions you're giving me.

So I told him. I told him about every sleepless night. Every time I woke up screaming in the middle of the night. Every time that I had to pull over on the side of the road because of my sobbing. I told him of cliff diving, and riding motorcycles just so that I could hear his voice. I told him about spending time with Jacob, and how he was the only one that could make things at least a little better.

I told him of how Jake could spend less and less time with me when he became a werewolf, but how he still found the time, still helped me.

I told him about how it was never enough, no matter what Jake, or Charlie, or Angela, or my mother did, it just got worse and worse, until I couldn't take it anymore. Until I went to the Volturi, for either death, or to become a vampire.

When I finished, my eyes were burning with tears that were unable to be shed, Edward's were too.

"I'm so sor-"

"I know you are Edward, and I forgive you. Just don't mess up again. I'm not going to lie to you, I'm not ready for love yet. We are starting over, but this time I'm not going to trip and fall for you, you have to climb up to me," I said, looking into his topaz eyes, knowing that this was going to be much harder for me. It was going to be harder for me not to trip and fall then it would for him to climb up.

But I would do it. I may not have been strong enough the first time, but now, I knew I could.

A/N: Thank you all so much for reading. Reviews are my favorite birthday present!

Edit: So I got a few reviews and PMs saying that there were some spelling mistakes and words missing. I really couldn't find many, but then again, I'm not exactly known for my skills for looking over my own work, especially just after I wrote it. But I did change the ending up a bit, the way it was supposed to be FFN deleted a whole bunch of my edits and revises, so yeah. Thanks for reading.

~~KHC