Chapter 9
New Love
'James Potter you will let go of me this instant!' screamed Lily, kicking her legs on James' back.
'Oh no I wont, Lily Evans!' said James happily.
'Potter, if you think this is some sort of romantic gesture you are sadly mistaken!' said Lily.
James stopped in his tracks, Lily still carefully slumped on his shoulder. 'Its not?' he asked.
'NO! This comes under the term KIDNAPPING!' shouted Lily, giving him a good kick in the back, which made him slouch, but he stood up and grabbed her tightly.
'Seriously James LET ME DOWN!' said Lily.
James gently swung her down and then close to the floor he let her down with a thud.
'Oh Bollocks! Sorry Lily! My hands were slippery!' said James apologetically.
Lily pulled her face up from the floor and smoothed her hair down as if readying herself, and then she turned up to look at him with a death glare.
'Ugh! James! What exactly was the point of all that?' demanded Lily.
James shuffled his feet awkwardly, 'Erm… a romantic gesture?' he said shrugging his shoulders.
Lily sighed and held up her hand so that he could pull her up, but before she could say anything else, the two heard shouts behind them, people around them turned around to look what was going on, and it was indeed the strangest thing Lily had ever seen.
Sirius Black was on what looked like a trolley from the train station, clutching on to Remus both of them holding on to dear life as the trolley sped ahead without anyone guiding it, but the look on Sirius's was not scared, he had amusement written all over his face, but Remus looked ready to kill.
'PRONGS AND EVANS WATCH OUT!' shouted Sirius at the top of his lungs as the trolley sped past the couple who jumped out of the way, behind them was McGonagall and Filch screaming at the top of their lungs telling the two Marauders to stop.
And within five minutes the whole scene was over, people got back to what they were doing, oblivious to what had previously happened, some went back to staring at Lily and James who had also been making a scene, as if eagerly waiting to find out what happens.
Lily looked at James to try and figure out what had just happened, James who had understood what her face was trying to say merely shrugged, because he was used to these things happening all the time.
'Just be glad it wasn't a Hippogriff, you do not want to know what happened at my house,' said James.
This made Lily break into a smile, 'Okay, James – but before she carried on she glared at the third years watching interestedly – SOD OFF YOU SNOTTY CHILDREN I'M TRYING HAVING A PRIVATE TALK WITH MY BOYFRIEND!' she said.
The third years cowered and left, one of them with tears in her eyes and one boy said, 'Some head girl!'
Lily clapped her hand to her mouth, and looked at James who looked amused at the whole situation.
She glared at him, 'This is all because of you and your romantic gesture, if you had just told me what was going on, this – she pointed around her – wouldn't have happened!' she snapped.
'What?' asked James looking flabbergasted. 'Nothing even happened! So a few third years got pissed off at you! Big deal!'
'YES big deal! VERY big deal! I'm supposed to be Head Girl, as you are supposed to be Head Boy, we're meant to be setting examples!' said Lily.
James opened his mouth but then quickly shut it at the sight of Lily's face, so much for his romantic date.
'Well, why did you bring me here?' she asked looking annoyed, which triggered something in James, a spurge of anger flew threw him, he was trying to do something nice and now he was getting ridiculed because of it.
'Oh god,' he sighed.
'WELL?' she demanded.
'I brought you on the seventh floor as you may remember, where the room of Requirement is, for a – um, date, because we never got to finish ours,' he said, trying to say it as calmly as possible.
It was Lily's turn to be embarrassed, 'Oh I am so sorry James! I thought you were up to some stupid Marauder prank!' she said, clapping her hand to her mouth.
'You know me better than that, don't you?' he asked her softly, pulling her hand away from her mouth, it curved into a small smile and she gave an unsure nod.
He pulled her hand, 'Come on, this isn't over yet,' he said.
Finally they were in front of the secretly famous Room of Requirement.
They entered and Lily let out an audible gasp, it looked absolutely brilliant in her eyes, and surprisingly how she had always wanted where her first date would be, it was perfect yet so simple.
The Room of Requirement was a beach, Lily was in awe of the room and had a momentary lapse to go and hug it, a picnic rug was laid in the middle, with a basket which was undoubtedly full of food, drinks were laid out and as Lily went closer, she noticed that it was plain lemonade, and yet it was her favourite. Questions roamed her mind, this room was powerful, how did it know?
Strong arms wrapped around her waist, James whispered in her ear 'Magic,' he said, and she understood everything, she turned around and kissed him gently on the lips, he slowly deepened it and wrapped his hands tightly around her back, her hands pulled his face towards her and she put her arms around his neck craving for more, suddenly she was between his legs and she pressed against him, he moaned softly, hormones were taking over, after what felt like several moments, Lily broke through, both panting slightly.
'Wow, you've never kissed me like that before,' said James, grinning, his arms still around her waist.
'You've never done something this sweet before,' she said quietly looking into his eyes, 'Thank you.'
'Don't mention it, now come on mademoiselle,' he said pulling away from her and bowed, he pointed to the picnic rug, 'Our date awaits,' he said.
Lily grinned, 'Why thank you, kind sir,' she said curtsying, pulling her imaginary gown up as she walked towards the picnic rug.
James laughed, and she found herself laughing along with him, because he had this great infectious laugh that made her ecstatic, even though nothing seemed funny anymore.
They stayed in each other's company for hours, talking about the randomest things from what Sirius looked like in the morning to how Peeves was part of a conspiracy. Lily explained to James some things about muggles, like television and lifts, leaving him looking astonished, especially when she told him about cars. She laughed and patted his cheek, 'Yes James, without magic,' she had said.
Lily drew closer to him, as she looked at the sunset, even though she was sure it was barely five right now, but this must be some of the powers of the room.
She laid there in his arms, just watching the sunset quietly, roaming her fingers on his back, without realising it she drew the letters I – L – O – V – E – Y – O – U, thinking he wasn't paying attention. Then James looked back and said quietly as he gripped her hand tightly, 'I love you too.'
x---x
'Detention,' sighed Remus angrily at breakfast next day, 'For being pushed onto a trolley without your will.'
Fiona sniggered, 'I heard about that,' she said. 'Some fifth-years were talking about it at dinner last night, where were you? Sirius looked extremely bored, because he was the only Marauder there!'
'He looked bored? Serves him right!' said Remus with satisfaction.
'Where were you though?' she asked.
'In bed,' he said yawning, 'Trying to forget about what happened and I wanted to get some sleep before Sirius came, its really hard to sleep with him in the same room.'
Fiona grinned, 'What does he do? Tell me everything' she asked slyly, and she pretended to take out an imaginary note book, and crossed her legs to look journalistic.
Remus laughed, 'He snores like a pig, enough said,' he said.
Fiona laughed, 'Anisha's not well,' she said, looking up to see a reaction from Remus, who merely nodded, Fiona sighed inwardly, all her hopes of Remus falling for Anisha were slowly being crushed.
'Where is everyone?' asked Remus looking around.
'Lily and James, no idea, Sirius and Peter no idea, Anisha, not well, I'm sure that's what you meant by everyone,' said Fiona, Remus grinned and nodded, he looked at the large clock at the back of the Hall.
'Ten minutes till Transfiguration starts, you coming?' he asked her as he got up. Fiona put her hand up and devoured the last of her croissant, after a minute she swallowed, and nodded.
-- Transfiguration --
By the start of Transfiguration, their friends had appeared. Sirius arriving late, looking flustered but winked at McGonagall as he entered, 'Sorry I'm late Minnie,' he said slyly, and slumped into the only seat that was left next to a Ravenclaw girl who seemed more than happy to have Sirius sit next to him. Professor McGonagall glared at him, 'One more late Mr.Black and that is detention, and now am I allowed to start the class?' she said and turned swiftly to carry on.
But Sirius was in no mood to carry on today, he didn't mind if he got detention, he was bored, and he had some making up of lost time to do.
-- Kate's POV --
Transfiguration, overall quite an interesting subject, who doesn't want to know how to turn their pencil into a mouse right?
Didn't get any sleep last night so cant help but yawn every two minutes, Black as usual entered class and managed to not get detention. I had to admit I was impressed, not many students could call McGonagall 'Minnie' and get away with it.
I remembered Zeke telling me about her in his letters, how strict she was and how she used to make him scrub floors for detention. I felt a pang of sadness as I remembered him, and quickly made myself think about something else. I couldn't help but feel like I was drifting away from the lesson, and also a little crazy to ever think Transfiguration was interesting, I had never been so bored in this lesson before. It was then I heard Black's bark of laugh, I turned around, and I'm sure everyone else did as well.
'What brings you to my desk fair lady?' I saw Black say to McGonagall, many people stifled giggles, some held their breaths because they could see McGonagall's vein thumping prominently, waiting for her reaction.
'Mr.Black, I fail to see why you continue to feel free to disrupt my class, this is N.E.W.T year, I want you to take this seriously! Detention for you, see me after class,' she said sternly, but Black merely grinned, I was looking right at him, and our eyes met for a moment, he winked at me and then gave me a genuine smile… and after a second I found myself smiling back, but quickly turned away.
Why had Black just smiled at me? He had lately been nice to me, and by lately I mean two days ago when he talked to me for like a minute, but then I had to go and get up and leave. And I was sure I had seen disappointment in his face, I really didn't know what was going on with him, and frankly I didn't have the strength to want to find out. I was barely getting any sleep, and the truth was, I was kind of scared of going to sleep, scared of having dreams of back in the days when me and Zeke were together as a family, I didn't like it, I didn't like reliving those days even in my dreams, because when I woke up I would have to face the harsh reality. I remembered just a few days ago I looked forward to the nights, it was as if my brain was a television programme at night, it made fun stories up for me, I enjoyed them. From Saturday I had been having dreams about Zeke, and I didn't want that happening anymore.
I doodled on scrap parchment, my favourite pass time you could say, the doodles turned slowly into art, and I made up a story in pictures. I drew a girl, she had short hair, I concentrated on her eyes, they were important, I drew her a tear slightly rolling down her eyes. She was sad, and trapped, exactly the way I was. I drew a box around her, carefully shading in the lines with my quill, and without realising I drew a boy outside the box, who was staring at the girl. I concentrated on his face, to make him look confused, it worked wonders. I shaded in his dark hair, I was surprised to know that the face looked familiar, I shaded in the boys eyes, giving them a hint of mischief.
I put my quill down to look at my work, I was pleased with it. I looked up at the front of the class, McGonagall still lecturing us about the importance of our N.E.W.T s, and I couldn't have cared less. I was, to be honest, okay in most subjects, Astronomy I struggled with, but the others I found interesting and easy. To my delight, the bell rang, Transfiguration was over, then on the down side, I did have Potions now, which was torture. Every lesson Slughorn would tell us to pair up, but since there was an odd number in the class, you could guess who was always on their own, that's right – me.
But I didn't mind, that was how I liked it, this was a new thing Slughorn was trying anyway, to see if we worked better with our friends. Well I worked exactly the same due to the fact I had none, and this idea was bull anyway.
So as usual, I picked my things up from under my desk and prepared to get up, I heard McGonagall shouting at Black, and I was the only one else in the class.
' – Now off you go to your next lesson Black! I will send you a note about your detention!' shouted McGonagall.
I saw Black grin and wink at the teacher, 'No problem Minnie, looking forward to our date!' he said cheekily walking out of the door, McGonagall sighed.
I shoved the parchment I was doodling on in my back pack and walked outside the classroom, to my surprise Black was standing leaning against the wall beside the door, 'Coming Kate? It's Slughorn next,' he said to me, as if this was completely normal. I stared at him for a minute, and unconsciously rubbed my eyes, was this really happening?
'Come on then,' he finally said, and began to walk when I said, 'Okay,' and followed him. What was he doing? What was I doing? I didn't want to walk with him, well fine, that wasn't true, I did actually want to, because it felt like I had a friend, but then I pushed that thought out of my head and reminded myself that I didn't want a friend, I was fine on my own, and that was how things were meant to be.
Black chatted to me normally, even though there was nothing normal about this. 'I read that book you left in the library, Pride and Prejudice? That was really good, kind of fluffy though, it was like, drama and then romance, too much you know?' he said casually.
I found myself smiling, I nodded. 'It has that affect on people,' I said.
For a moment Black stopped, surprised that I had actually commented, but then he pretended he needed to tie his shoelace. I was surprised myself, but did nothing to stop me.
I carried on, 'Pride and Prejudice isn't one of the best though, there's others that are better,' I said.
Stupid, stupid, why did I say that?
'Really? Well you'll have to tell me them,' he said.
'That's weird, I didn't think you would be the type who read,' I said, why though? What did I mean by 'type'? Talking as if I actually knew him.
Black laughed, I found myself yet again smiling, he threw his head back when he laughed, it was like a bark, I liked it, it made me want to laugh as well.
'I usually have that affect on people,' he said.
I nodded and didn't say anything, what was I supposed to say?
We walked on, finally reaching the dungeons that led to our Potion's classroom. He opened the door and jerked his head towards his classroom, 'Go on,' he said, this annoyed me, why was he telling me what to do? As if I didn't know I was meant to enter the classroom.
I walked in, everyone had already sat down, paired up as usual, there was a spare desk at the back, and a seat next to Pettigrew, which was obviously saved for Black. My eyes wandered to Remus who was sat next to Diggory, he had turned around and was looking at Black with an interested expression, I saw Black mouth something to him and Remus turned back around. I went and took a seat at the back of the class, on my own, no surprise there, so much for thinking I had made a friend. Black had his Marauders.
This day should have been called 'Surprise, Surprise' because Black walked past Pettigrew and placed himself next to me, once again as casually as possible, how was he thinking that sitting next to me, Loner Myers as people called me, was normal?
I must have had a confused expression, because Black asked, 'You don't mind me sitting here do you?'
The way he said that… did he feel sorry for me?
Oh god, that was it wasn't it?
That was the last thing I wanted, people feeling sorry for me. I hated that. I had had enough of that when Zeke died, random people coming up to me, saying they were sorry for my loss, they knew what I was going through.
Did they heck? Did they know what it was like to not have any friends or family? Always feeling isolated, left out, abandoned?
I was sure half of the people who had said that didn't mean it, they didn't even know me. And I didn't want anyone feeling sorry for me because I was 'Loner Myers', I knew that everyone felt sorry for me, the teachers did and even the Slytherins.
I noticed Black still waiting for me to answer, I pursed my lips and slowly shook my head, but I would have liked nothing better than to tell him to shove off, I didn't need his sympathy.
Why had Black suddenly decided that he wanted to talk to me? Six years he had…
Things were never going to get better were they?
Whenever things started looking up, I myself managed to find a way out of them. It wasn't like I was happy in this misery… if that made sense. I didn't like being this unhappy, I hated it, and I wished many times for things to be better. So maybe it wouldn't hurt to have a friend, even if he was only feeling sorry for me.
Slughorn announced we would be making a simple Sleeping Draught today, which I didn't exactly find simple. He told us to work with the person next to us, and got prepared to look at me who was usually on my own, to work alone if I could manage, but his expression turned to surprise when he saw Black sitting next to me. And I'm sure many other people were noticing as well, because they were turning around to see why Pettigrew was on his own, Marauder's weren't usually left on their own, they had a reputation to protect. They were all immensely popular, and they had always stuck together, now Sirius Black, was sitting next to Loner Myers, as if this was an everyday matter. Things were getting really weird. I wanted to find out why Black was here, and talking to me, and working with me, but I couldn't bring myself to it. It wasn't exactly a conversation starter, and it was horribly rude. 'Why are you talking to me?' it would get awkward as well, because I know Black wouldn't have liked to answer 'Because you're always on your own'.
So, I did what I knew I was prone to do, 'If you don't mind, I'd rather like to work on my own, your friend Pettigrew doesn't seem too happy about me being here either,' I said, rather arrogantly I might add, and I picked my things up and went to the desk where Pettigrew was sitting, he took this as a notion to go and sit next to Black, things were back to normal.
I hated it.
x---x
'Kate Myers? WHY?' asked James looking extremely confused, Sirius was telling him how he had tried to make friends with her, and how it had gone wrong, Sirius then explained how he felt sorry for her, the conversation between him and Remus, Remus telling him to follow his instincts, and how Sirius was following his instincts, trying to make friends with her.
'But why? Why do you suddenly want to though? If she wants to be a loner then let her be, you don't need to get involved, too much drama,' said James.
Sirius sighed, 'So what? I still want to, listen, drop it okay? It's up to me. You want to go to kitchens?' he said.
James, realising that Sirius wouldn't budge anymore, nodded and they got up to go to the kitchens. Talking and laughing like the old days.
x---x
'What was he doing with her? I was just sitting there, and suddenly he comes in and he's with her,' said Fiona.
Remus nodded, 'I don't know what he's up to, I think he wants to make friends with her or something,' he said.
'That's weird,' she commented. 'Hey, do you know where Lily is?'
Remus shook his head, 'Probably with James,' he said.
'Nah, he was just with Sirius, listen do you want to go to the grounds near the lake? It's boring here, and where's Peter?' she asked, looking around the common room, she and Remus were sitting next to each other in one of the sofas, the common room was surprisingly full. 'Is he upstairs?'
'Nope, I have no idea where everyone is today, why is it just me and you all the time now?' he said, more to himself than to her, then realising that he might have offended her, he quickly apologised. 'Oh bollocks, sorry, I didn't mean it like that, I just meant that Anisha's never around, Sirius has gone crazy, Lily and James are always together, Peter's disappeared, its just us all the time isn't it?'
Fiona smiled, 'Its okay, I know what you mean. But hey… you don't think - maybe… just maybe – maybe, Anisha and Peter are… you know?' she said.
Remus smirked, 'Yeah right, Anisha and Peter? Its impossible,' he said.
Fiona sighed, 'It doesn't have to be! Come on, it's the best possible explanation. I mean I know Anisha was feeling off in the morning but she's fine now! Where is she then? And you yourself said that you barely see Peter anymore!' she said tiredly, as if speaking to a small child.
'I'm sure he's not, Peter – I know he's one of my best friends and all but… him and Anisha? Girls like Anisha do not like boys like Peter,' said Remus.
Fiona perked up, 'What do you mean? Girls like Anisha?' she said somewhat knowingly, but trying not to show it in her voice.
'Come on, Anisha is… well - she's gorgeous, and Peter's well… you know – average looking you would say,' said Remus.
She raised her eyebrows at him, 'Anisha's gorgeous?' she said, a small smile playing at her lips.
Remus nodded, and then realising what she was trying to say he shook his head, 'I don't mean it like that Fi! She's just a friend alright? But I'm not going to deny the fact that she's good looking, well more than good looking,' he said.
Fiona continued to smile at him in a knowing way, 'I'm telling you Fi, just because I think she's gorgeous does not mean I like her more than a friend,' he said.
Fiona was laughing now clearly amused at the sight of Remus's embarrassed face, still looking at him the same way. 'Hey! I'm being serious! I even think you're beautiful!' he said.
Fiona stopped laughing and turned a deep shade of red, 'Oh… thanks,' she said. Remus blushed as well, 'Sorry, I didn't mean to embarrass you or anything. But well you are – you know… pretty, and I was just – uh – trying to prove a point, and you were – laughing and you -' started Remus, trying to clear the air, but was broken off when he found Fiona's lips on his, and without realising he invited her tongue in, and found himself kissing back and thinking how stupid he had been never to do this before, within ten seconds her arms were around his neck and he had his hands firmly placed on her back, pulling her closer towards him, he enjoyed the sweet taste of her mouth, and so he let his tongue roam around them, kissing her fiercely, and hearing her moan softly as his lips thrashed against hers ferociously, just made him want to do more than just kiss. And then they broke apart, suddenly realising what they had been doing, their eyes widened, both still panting heavily. They had forgotten that they were in a common room full of people, people who closely followed the Marauder's stories, and people who had been surprised at the two of them suddenly snogging in the middle of the room.
Fiona clapped a hand over her mouth, she mumbled something that sounded like 'sorry' and ran to her dormitory, leaving Remus sitting there feeling utterly confused.
x---x
Fiona lay eagle spread on her bed, still panting, she had had ran up the stairs after realising what she had done. And now all she could think was how stupid she was to do that, and it had still felt like the right thing to do and now all she wanted to do was run back downstairs and kiss those soft lips again, a sudden craving for him swept over her. What was going on? This was Remus, the boy who was just her friend, and now suddenly all she wanted to do was kiss him hungrily and damn he was a good kisser, she wondered where he had learnt how to kiss like that. But then again, he was a Marauder, he must have had lots of experience. Oh god, what had she done? She had just ruined her whole relationship with him, and – Anisha, oh Anisha, Fiona didn't even want to think about what would happen if she'd find out, but oh she would find out, because everyone had seen them kissing, and things sure did spread fast around school.
Fiona got up off her bed and paced around her room, and she went and slumped on her bed again, and she took her pillow and screamed in it. But that didn't satisfy her, so she threw her pillow on the floor and screamed in the open.
'AAAGGGHHHHH!!' she screamed.
A voice interrupted her, 'Bad day?' asked the voice, and it was a girl, and much to Fiona's surprise it was – Kate.
All thoughts of screaming her lungs out gone, Fiona got up from her bed and looked at the girl up and down, surely she was hallucinating or – dreaming.
Yes! That was it! She was dreaming! Which is why she kissed Remus and Kate Myers had actually spoken to her!
'Erm… Potter? You alright?' asked Kate again.
Fiona smiled, 'I'm fine, because this is all just a dream! I cant have just kissed Remus and you aren't really speaking, so it must mean I'm dreaming!' said Fiona matter-of-factly.
Kate raised her eyebrows, 'Sorry, I'm afraid you're not dreaming, I am actually speaking, but you kissed Remus?' she asked.
Fiona screamed again, 'AAAAGH!! No! This isn't happening! But- wait, you never talk,' she said.
'Hmm,' said Kate, 'Well carry on screaming, I'm just here to get my shawl,' and with that she went over to her bed, opened her trunk, and grabbed a shawl out of it, and she made her way out saying 'Feel better.'
Kate had left, Fiona was alone again.
'AAAAGGGHHHHH!' she screamed. 'But why did he have to be such a good kisser?' she added softly before falling on her bed.
x---x
That had not just happened.
It couldn't have.
He had kissed – Fiona?
No, that was wrong, she had kissed him, but he had kissed back, because it had felt like the right thing to do.
Remus was upstairs in his room, staring out the window, deep in thought, finding it hard to believe that the kiss had just taken place ten minutes ago. But he felt – happy, that was it, he felt happy and excited, but confused at the same time.
He didn't even like Fiona that way, did he?
But she was a really good kisser, and her hair, her beautiful dirty blonde hair, it was just so nice, and he just wanted to run his fingers through them and – smell them? But he knew what they smelt like, they smelt of passion fruit – that was it, wild passion fruit. But how had he known that? Because he had smelt them, when he had kissed her, and the aroma of them had driven him crazy. And her eyes, those beautiful blue eyes, she was just so gorgeous.
But didn't he like Lily? Of course he did, but he couldn't wait around for her, hoping that one day she would break up with James and come running into his arms. That wasn't going to happen. He knew it.
But Fiona? He felt like somehow he was betraying Anisha, having told her he couldn't be with her because he had feelings for Lily, and now he had just had a snog festival with another best friend of hers, oh how he was breaking up their friendship. He remembered how James had been when it had finally hit him that Sirius was going out with Lily, and even though it was all just a scam, he knew that James had felt furious. So wasn't Anisha going to get mad at Fiona? She would, because Anisha liked him. But could Remus help that he didn't feel the same way about her?
And he wasn't exactly over Lily, she was his first love. But Fiona, Fiona was definitely starting to make a place in his heart.
Whether he liked it or not.
x---x
'Yeah, Remus Lupin and Fiona Potter, full frontal snogging in front of everyone,' said a girl to her friend as she went past Lily.
'Apparently he was about to rip her robes off when she slapped him.'
'I heard Fiona Potter slipped him a love potion.'
'As if, he so likes Lily Evans.'
'Fiona Potter, he snogged her? More like she snogged him.'
'No way!'
All around her, people were talking about this. What was going on? Lily raced to the Gryffindor Tower and into the common room. None of her friends were there, so she dashed upstairs into her dormitory.
'What happened-' started Lily but was broken off as Fiona jumped onto her and absorbed her into a hug, Fiona quickly pulled away.
'Oh my GOD! Lily I just did the stupidest thing EVER!' said Fiona miserably.
'What happened?' asked Lily.
Fiona explained what had happened, 'WHAT? Are you crazy Fi? ANISHA IS GOING TO KILL YOU!' said Lily.
'I KNOW!' said Fiona, and she put her head in her hands and started muttering 'Stupid, stupid, stupid.'
Lily sat down next to her and put am arm around her, 'Why did you do it?' she asked.
'I don't know, I just, Lily, he was being really sweet and funny, and then the next thing I knew, I think I – I think – I like him,' said Fiona looking horrified at what she had just said, she clapped her hand to her mouth and lay on her back.
'Oh NO! This is horrible! WHY? Even Anisha likes him, and he said no to her, and he's going to say no to me as well!' she cried putting her hands up.
'Did he kiss you back?' asked Lily looking interested.
Fiona got up, a smile playing on her lips, 'Oh yes, and he is such a good kisser!' sighed Fiona, but then she fell back into bed and screamed, 'AAGHHH! But he likes you Lily! Now I know what Anisha felt like!'
'FI! Its not my fault! Don't you dare bring this on me again! That was the worst thing ever! What I think you need to do is sort out what you feel about Remus, go talk to him okay?' said Lily.
Fiona sniffed and nodded, 'But what if Anisha finds out?' she said.
Lily smiled sadly, 'I'm sorry honey, but I think she might have already found out, everyone was talking about it, you have to go talk to Remus and then go talk to Nish, okay?'
Fiona nodded, 'Thanks Lily.'
'No problem.'
x---x
Sirius walked across the grounds on his own, James had just left to go find Lily, and Sirius had found himself alone yet again, and the faint feeling of the Marauders drifting apart was sweeping over him again. This was their last year, then out into the real world, yet it wasn't going as he had planned, fun and laughter, no, this was too much drama.
And then thoughts of Kate haunted him, why was she like that? Had she, like himself, had a really bad childhood? If so, why wasn't she fun and carefree like him? Why didn't she spend time trying to forget about everything instead of dwelling in the past? And why oh why was he so fascinated by her?
When he had talked to her, she had surprised him, by talking back. She had talked back, but then out of the blue she went away. Which wasn't exactly a great shock, he had kind of expected her to tell him to shove off earlier, but no, she had stayed, and she had had a grateful look in her eye. But then what had happened? Why had she walked away? Didn't she want a friend? Everyone needed a friend right? That was true, but maybe not everyone wanted one. He could say that by looking at Snape, but no one liked him anyway, mainly because he was a greasy haired git. But what was wrong with Kate? She was quite pretty, and she was mysterious. Very mysterious. She had this vibe around her, she made you want to dig deeper, to find out more about her. And Sirius was determined he would.
He found the Marauder's tree and sat down and leant against it, and then slowly, slowly, he drifted off…
Meanwhile
There was a knock on the door, Remus woke up with a start and tipped over his chair. He swore under his breath and opened the door, immediately turning red as he saw who it was.
'Erm… hi,' he said, breaking the silence.
'Hello,' she said nodding. 'Er – can I come in? can we talk?'
Remus nodded, and opened the door wide enough for her to come in, no one else was in the room right now.
'Listen about what just happened-' started off Remus.
'Did you mean it?' blurted out Fiona, but then clapped her hand over her mouth and shook her head to herself, Remus laughed inwardly.
And then found himself saying, 'I think so,' very quietly, but quietly enough for her to hear.
She stepped closer to him, and looked up into his eyes, 'Did you mean it when you kissed me like that?' she asked.
He looked down into her blue eyes, his lips feeling quite dry now, 'I'm not sure,' he whispered. 'Can I try again?'
She nodded, and his lips met hers, and he kissed her with the same amount of passion as before.
He leaned over and kissed her, she felt her knees go weak.
He leaned over and kissed her, and she couldn't even speak.
He leaned over and kissed her, with a passion flowing free.
He leaned over and kissed her, sparks flew that you could see.
He leaned over and kissed her, a touch so soft and tender.
He leaned over and kissed her, a kiss they would both remember.
He leaned over and kissed her, and she sure as hell kissed him back.
He leaned over and kissed her, with a passion no kiss should lack.
He leaned over and kissed her, leaving her wanting for more.
He leaned over and kissed her, his hands willing to explore.
He leaned over and kissed her, making her feel insane.
He leaned over and kissed her, 'Darling, kiss me again.'
'I meant it.'
'Me too.'
'Oh fuck.'
'Well said.'
x---x
Sirius's eyes jerked open causing him to hit his head against the bark of the tree, and he let out a cry of pain, rubbing the back of his head, he looked up.
'I was wondering when you would wake up,' he heard someone say, and he found himself staring into the same girl's eyes whose thoughts haunted him constantly.
'Gazing at me were we Kate?' asked Sirius cheekily.
'Not really,' said Kate without any emotion. 'I just usually sit here and draw, but then I found you here.'
'Oh, well, this is the Marauder tree,' explained Sirius.
'I don't think so,' she said, and with that she placed herself down next to him, much to his surprise.
'What do you draw?' he asked her with interest.
'Anything,' she said.
'Why do you draw?' he asked.
'Because I want to, and it gives me something to do,' she said.
'Do you want to be an artist?' he asked.
'No,' she said.
'What do you want to be then?' he asked.
'Me,' she said, and turned her head around to look at him. 'So, are we done with the interrogation now, or are you going to ask me what sort of quills I use to draw?'
He laughed, 'Well now that you mention it…' he said jokingly, Kate smiled.
Something she hadn't done in a long time, and it was funny how it was always around him she seemed to smile.
'So, what else do you like to do?' he asked her.
She shrugged, 'Nothing in particular,' she said, not really wanting to talk so much. 'You?'
'Oh my, I'm surprised you would ask, oh fair one. Everyone knows what I like to do,' he said grinning.
'Which would be – pranking, girls, food and having a laugh?' said Kate, again as if this was the most obvious thing ever, which it was.
Sirius however looked thoroughly shocked, but recovered within a second, and he let out a laugh, 'Wow, you know me so well,' he said, Kate nodded, then he said, 'But I don't know anything about you.'
Kate looked up at him again, 'Yeah,' she merely said.
She picked her bag up and stood up, 'I better be going now,' she said, and before Sirius could say anything, she had walked away.
This was going to be harder than he had expected.
x---x
I have finally found some place to sit and write, the rest of the place is packed. I have had the weirdest day ever Zeke, the weirdest.
I talked to this boy called Sirius Black, and this girl called Fiona Potter. Who knew it would feel so hard? I don't even know, in school, everyone talks to each other, they don't have to be very careful like me.
Why do I always find it so hard? I feel terrified around people, scared that they will know me. But why though?
Maybe if you were here, things would be easier, they would sure as hell be a lot different. I wish you were here right now Zeke.
I wish I had a family, everyone does. Everyone talks about their own family, and their friends. They don't know I'm not like everyone else, I have neither.
When you died, I thought the whole world would collapse.
In 3 words I can sum up everything I have learned about life … It goes on.
I'm going to take a leap Zeke, and I'm going to fly.
I'm not going to stay and mope around anymore, I'm going to make a difference. Because life is too short right? You lived your life Zeke, to the fullest. And I'm going to do the same.
For you.
For Sirius?
Love, Kate.
x---x
Author's Note: I am very sorry that I took long in updating, it's just that after Harry Potter 7. I just had this feeling wash over me that it was all over, but I'm over it now. Harry Potter must live on right?
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