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is my own characters. James Matthews, Amanda, Steven and Natalie. Also own Jason and the committee person.
Chapter 9
We just landed back in Denver, CO., it was a 21 ½ hour flight and I didn't sleep at all.
I was exhausted and I still had a 36 minute bus ride back to Boulder.
"Did you sleep at all on the plane Emily?"
"No dad. I couldn't sleep. Maybe when we get back home, at least I hope so."
"Don't worry Emily it's going to be ok. I'll make sure of it."
"Thanks dad."
And with that I got on the bus to go back home to Boulder.
Everyone else was asleep on the ride back but me and my dad.
Since there wasn't any seats open by my dad we had to talk by texting each other.
'Dad what are we going to do?'
'We will figure it out Emily. It's all up to you ultimately'
'How is it all up to me dad?'
'Because it's your body. You can do gymnastics after the baby is born or you can have the procedure on a Friday and be back in the gym by Monday.'
'I don't know if I can do this dad. I don't know what do.'
'Emily it's going to be all alright. Ok? I'll be there ever step of the way. No matter what.'
'I just don't want to cry daddy. How will I know what to do?'
'Do you want me to make you an appointment for you so you can decide from there?'
'Are we almost to The Rock?'
'We are about 20 minutes out yet why?'
'I'm restless and I can't get comfortable and I just want to lie down and cry.'
'I can move the stuff off of the seat next to me and you can sit by me if you want.'
'I'm not going to make you move stuff even tho I would like to sit by you.'
'Don't be silly. Come up here and I'll start moving the stuff.'
I grabbed my pillow and blanket and moved to the front of the bus where my dad was busy putting all of our bags by Kim Keeler.
I sat on the inside seat and curled up next to my dad. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I turned into my dad and just started to cry.
I was having a hard time keeping my crying down to a minimal volume so I decided to try to distract myself and just talk to my dad about my career.
"Dad, how am I going to continue with gymnastics if I'm pregnant?"
"What do you mean Emily?"
"I guess what I'm trying to ask is what is this going to do to my career?"
"Anything can happen to your career Emily. This pregnancy can ruin your career if the press find out because the press are relentless when it comes to athletes and other famous people. On the other hand you could have an abortion on a Friday and be back training on a Monday or you could have the baby and go back to training at least 8 weeks after and be back to being performance ready in as little as 4 months. Give or take a few weeks after the baby is born."
"I just…I don't know what to do dad. I'm scared. My mom's not here to help me and my God Mother Linda isn't around anymore since she passed away and I don't know if I should talk to the girls about it. Maybe I could go to Mrs. Keeler for help."
"If you want Emily I could talk to Mrs. Keeler because I'm going to need advise to because I'm just a single parent. I can't do this alone. And if you do decide to have the baby and you need spiritual guidance or spiritual comfort there's Summer too."
"I don't think I could live with myself if I had an abortion dad. I just … *Sobs* do…don't k…know what to do."
"Shhh Emily It's going to be ok. I'll be here for you thru everything. You know someone you could talk to that's on the team? Cause I do. Her name starts with an A and she's going to be getting married before the Olympics."
"Amanda? Why would I talk to Amanda about my pregnancy?"
"Because, she was pregnant once, and you would never know unless you brought the word pregnant or baby up around her."
"Wow really? That's almost unbelievable."
"I know it is, but mind you, you have to be respectful of her wishes if she doesn't want to talk about it."
"I know dad. I know."
"Good now get your stuff because we're pulling up to the Rock."
"OK EVERYONE, UP, GET UP, WE'RE HOME! I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT WE HAVE THE NEXT WEEK OFF. GET SOME REST. YOU DESERVE IT. I WILL SEE YOU ALL BACK IN THE GYM BRIGHT AND EARLY NEXT MONDAY MORNING."
I hear everyone groan as my dad yells the wake up call to them. There were some cheers because the week we got off.
I got off the bus and waited outside for Amanda and Steven to get off the bus.
"Amanda? Can I talk to you?"
"Right now? I was kind of planning on going back to Steven's place so we can get some more sleep but sure. What's up?"
"Well if you want to sleep then I can text you to meet up sometime to talk while we have time off."
"Thanks Emily. I'll call you ok?"
"Ok thanks, Amanda. See ya later. Oh Steven by the way good job on getting gold at Worlds."
Steven-"Thanks Emily, Great Job getting gold yourself. I'll make sure Amanda Calls you someday this week to meet up with you or you can just stop by my place."
Amanda-"Yea See Ya Emily."
"Sure sounds good. Thanks Steven. See ya guys later."
With that I walked over to my dads Corvette and climb in. I was so ready to get home so I could get some sleep. I was exhausted.
I just hoped that I could sleep when I got home. I didn't really know what I would do with an unclear head. I knew my dad would make me a doctors appointment and it would tell me how far along I was in the pregnancy and it would help me make a decision and just hoped I made the right decision.
I woke up after like 3 hours of sleep. I laid in bed for 10 more minutes before I knew I wasn't going to be able to get more sleep.
I reached over to my nightstand and grabbed my phone to see if I had any missed calls or any new texts and I saw that Amanda must have been awake because I had a text from her.
*Emily, I'm texting you instead to see when you wanted to meet up and talk. Text me when you get up or when you get this.-A* (A.N. Kudos to who can guess the show I got the A from.)
I checked to see what time it was and it was about 3 in the afternoon. I was beginning to wonder why my dad didn't wake me before so I could possibly sleep tonight.
I text Amanda back asking her to come over so I could talk to her. Then I go downstairs to see if my dad was awake yet.
I go in the kitchen and I see a note on the counter.
**Emily if you wake before I get home I made brunch and it's in the fridge. I'm going to go see a nutritionist to see what you can eat while pregnant. Until you make a decision I want you to start eating more to ensure the baby is healthy. Call me if you need anything.-Love Dad**
I check the fridge to see what my dad made and I saw a plate with plastic wrap over it with Emily written on it. I pull it out and it's eggs scrambled with hash browns, mushrooms, olives, and green peppers. I took the plastic wrap off and popped the oven plate in the oven as it heated up so it would heat up faster.
About 10 minutes later there's a knock on the door right as I was about to take the plate out of the oven so I could put it on a less hot plate.
I go open the door and I see Amanda at the door crying and I thought she had somehow found out about me being pregnant so I was afraid to speak. I just opened the door further and gestured for her to come in.
"Hey Amanda what's wrong?"
"I hate my life right now. My heart is hurting so badly."
"What happened?"
"This morning I woke up before Steven and his phone was the closest to me and I grabbed it to check to see what time it was and I saw he had a text and I looked because it only told me what time the text was delivered and it was from a girl wondering if he'd left me already since Worlds was over so he could be with her. What am I going to do Emily?"
"Oh my God Amanda I'm so sorry. If he was going to do that to you then he never deserved you. And I actually asked if I could talk to you because I was going to ask you what I was going to do."
"I don't know what to do Emily. I'm so heartbroken and I don't know if I can keep training at The Rock if he's there. I don't think I could handle seeing him everyday. He doesn't know that I know yet. But I don't know if I can continue with this. And what were you going to ask?"
"You can and if you don't think you can talk to Sasha. I bet he could help. And I was going to ask you what I should do. As you know that about 6-7 weeks ago I got raped. Well after Worlds Sasha came to get me because a Mr. Gregory Finashaline from the Worlds committee wanted to talk to me. He wanted to talk to me about what was found in my urine test. It turns out that I'm pregnant."
"Oh my God Emily. I've been pregnant before. It was hard on me and it was really hard to talk to my coach that I had at the time. He kicked me out and a few weeks later I moved to Boulder with my family and I lost the baby so I went and I talked to Sasha about training at The Rock and he told me he'd take me in and help me. He's been so nice to me. Pregnancy isn't easy. It was hard on me for the first 10 weeks. On my 11th week I had my miscarriage. I have healed from that but now with my heart in pieces I don't know if I can heal from this."
"What were you going to do if you didn't have the miscarriage if you don't mind me asking?"
"My family had decided to help me if I wanted to keep the baby and I was with Steven and he said he'd help me. It was another guy's baby and he broke it off with me after we did it and then I met Steven and was with him when I found out I was pregnant. He was really supportive of it and was there for me when I miscarried."
" I think I know what I want to do now. Thank you Amanda. And if you want I can call Sasha and have him come home and you can talk to him. He might be able to help you."
"What are you going to do? And thanks Emily that would be great."
"I want to keep the baby if I can find some help."
"That's brave of you to do."
"I'll be right back. I'm going to go call Sasha."
I run upstairs because I forgot my phone in my room and I dialed my dad's number.
"Emily is everything ok?"
"Yea well kinda. Can you come home dad?"
"What's going on? Are you ok?"
"I'm fine dad I just need you to come home. It's something with Amanda actually."
"Everything ok?"
"I think it better if she would tell you."
"Ok I'll be there in 10 minutes. I just got done in the store anyway."
"Ok bye dad. See you in a little bit."
I hung up and this time I took my phone with me so I didn't have to run upstairs because I didn't like climbing stairs when I'm so tired.
"My dad says he'll be here in 10 minutes. While we wait would you like anything to eat or drink? We have tea, milk, coffee, juice, lemonade and a drink mix with carbohydrates."
"Thanks Emily and I'll take a glass of tea please."
"Coming right up."
I poured two glasses of tea and grabbed a box of pop tarts and granola bars because I was getting hungry again.
"Here ya go."
"Thanks."
"You're welcome."
We sat there in silence drinking our tea and I reached over to grab a package of pop tarts. (Blueberry, Yum my favorite.) I nibbled on it and looked at Amanda.
"Would you like a granola bar or pop tart. Help yourself."
"Thanks Emily."
We sat in silence again. Amanda reached over and grabbed a granola bar and nibbled on it. I could tell she was trying to eat something. I knew this heart break wasn't going to be easy on her. It reminded me to talk to Sasha about me asking Damon if he'd help me because I knew I'd need another guy to help me.
I hear my dad's car pull in the garage and I go out to meet him.
"Hey dad."
"Hey, so what's going on?"
"Well Amanda's in the living room waiting for you and I came out to tell you I made a decision."
"Well what's your decision before we go talk to Amanda."
"I want to keep the baby. I can't have an abortion and I don't think I could give the baby up for adoption after carrying it for 9 months."
"I'm glad you made a mature grown up decision. I got you an appointment to see a nutritionist sometime next week. How was your talk with Amanda?"
"It was good and she helped me make the decision by just telling me her story."
"Good lets go talk to Amanda now."
We walk into the living room and Amanda has her head in her hands and she's sobbing. I knew something was going on even worse since she walked in the door so I went and sat by her and pulled her into my arms so she had a shoulder to cry on.
Sasha-"Amanda?"
Amanda-"S...Sa...Sasha"
"Amanda what happened? I know it's hurting know but it will get better. I promise."
Amanda-"Well I was hoping he would still want to be with me and he was going to break it off with the other woman but he texted me and told me it was over and that he's seeing another woman and that he want's all of my stuff out of his place by tonight and my mom texted me telling me that we're moving to Texas and if I can't find a place to stay then I have to leave The Rock and go to The Texas Gymnastics Training Center. I don't want to leave but what other choice do I have with Steven leaving me and me not knowing if I can focus with him at the gym everyday."
Sasha-"That Bastard! I'm going to give him a piece of my mind and he's no longer allowed at The Rock to train. For all I care Marty can have him. And you don't have to go to Texas if you don't want to. I have an extra guest room that you can stay in. I don't mind helping out my gymnasts when they need it. That's another reason why I became a coach again was because a lot of gymnasts whose parents move around a lot have to move too and that ends up ruining their career. So you are more than welcome to move into the guest bedroom. And don't worry about not being able to focus with Steven because he's no longer welcome at The Rock and I will let him know that."
Amanda-"Sasha you don't have to do that. I could always move to Texas as much as I don't want to because of this to get away."
"Amanda listen to my dad. If you moved to Texas it'd be harder to get to the National Team Practices since we still have International meets. Well they need someone to take place of the Worlds Gold Medalist on the team and who better than the Worlds Silver Medalist. It'd be cheaper and easier for you to stay here and for Steven to move. I'd love to have someone here who understands a little bit about pregnancy. I feel so alone besides having my dad here. And God only knows if my biological dad tracks me down and finds out. I'd be the end of my career as I know it. You're my best friend Amanda and you're like a sister I never had and we could help each other."
Sasha-"She's right Amanda. I'm clueless about pregnancies and I'm going to be even more clueless as the pregnancy hormones come along. And you've baby sat your Niece and Nephews when they were babies so you know what to do. I am a father to Emily and another kid but I never saw him. His mom changed her number and moved and I only know about him because of a mutual friend of ours who told me he looks a lot like me and that he's doing gymnastics like I once did. I don't know anything about infants or kids in general. I know how to be a coach and I'm still learning to be a father to Emily. I don't know what a grandfather does."
Amanda-"Thanks Emily and thank you Sasha. I really appreciate it and I will take you up on your offer. But I want to pull my own weight around here. I can help take Emily to and from her appointments and make sure she takes her pre-natals and help her take care of her body. She can't do any high impact stuff with being pregnant but I can make a physical activity sheet for her to do so she can stay in shape."
"Thanks Amanda that would be great. I want to do gymnastics yet after the baby is born. I just have to find a sitter so I can go to the gym and train."
Sasha-"If you follow me Amanda I will show you your new room and it's already got a bed and it's fully furnished. If you need anything just let me know. Emily why don't you try to lay down and take a nap."
"Thanks dad. I hope you will be ok Amanda. If you need anything my room is right next to my dad's."
And with that I basically gained a sister and I had someone who could help me with this pregnancy. I didn't have to be 100% scared anymore. So I layed down on the couch and I took a little nap.
A.N. I hope this doesn't suck too much. I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. I'm going thru some really rough things in my personal life and I guess it got a little bit added to the story. With this chapter please review because I think it's horrible but that's because my self esteem is at an all time low.
