(numb)
Whether you are here or not, dad, no longer matters. I've become so numb, like the soldier you wanted me to be.
An order, a mission, a job. That's all there is. Even the pain is dull. Just another reminder of what not to do. How not to screw everything up.
Death, the cold reality of not being fast enough, smart enough, prepared enough for the battle. The sting of loss is quick and bitter.
I do what I must to find the will to keep going. I harden my heart against the pain. I can't feel you there anymore.
- S – P – N – S – P – N –
I know this one is slightly out of order, but I felt it needed to be here. TTFN.
~Ari :D
