Bella's POV.

"I missed you so much," I told Edward as he ran to meet me just outside his home. He had been hunting again, been gone a week and a few days and no word of a lie, being away from him that long made my heart ache like no other could believe. He gave me that half grin and lifted me into the air with a twirl and his lips met mine. Familiar lips, rough to the touch but in a strange way, gentle on my lips.

"Bella?" He asked as he pulled away far too soon. I noticed him looking down at me, his brow crossed and he sniffed. He smelt something. I could only pray that it wasn't Emmett or Rosalie, It had been three days since the two of them and I has showered at least a hundred times and today, when I knew I'd be seeing him again, I'd covered every inch of my body in perfume. "A new perfume, and a lot of it," he chuckled, smelling my neck carefully.

"Yeah, sorry. I had like um, a blocked nose or whatever this week. I couldn't smell it so I guess I put a lot on, sorry," I mumbled, running my hands up and down the muscles on his arm. He shook his head, shaking away the worry.

"Don't fret, love, it's nice. Just try not to overwhelm me next time," he then kissed me again, "I miss the smell of you,"

I looked down and away from his eyes, blushing. He chuckled and kissed my forehead. I wish, oh how I wish I was blushing about what he said. But I wasn't. I was blushing because I was lucky I wasn't caught. Wasn't caught cheating on my true love.

"Let's go inside." he said and he took my hand in his and hurried us through the front door. As we moved through the house I glanced into the kitchen where Rosalie and Emmett were sat talking, both of them winked in sync before going back to their conversation. I wish I knew how the vampires kept the thoughts and memories from Edward. It was a miracle they could.

"Actually," I said before Edward sat us down on his bed, "Could we go to our Meadow?" he smiled happily and the next thing I knew I was on his back, my legs wrapped tightly around his waist and he threw us through the balcony doors and into the ocean of trees.


Edward and I lay in the spot line of sunshine. The meadow was lit but not enough to make him glimmer like he does in the sun, but one spot was not shrouded by the sun and in that spot, we shared a kiss. The brightness of his skin hurt my eyes, so I closed them and continued to kiss him, continued to let his hands mould my body around his.

It didn't take long before I was worked up and I shook off my jacket and pulled my bobble out of my tied up hair. Edward didn't stop me he helped me move my jacket and then he lay down with me on top, kissing his neck and his chest.

"Is this going to happen?" I spoke aloud but I mostly asked myself the question, but he answered with the same answer as always.

"Bella, we can't."

"Fuck, Edward!" I growled before getting to my feet and putting my hair up.

"Bella, please," he whispered reaching for me but I didn't want to touch him. I went in search of my jacket.

"Why get me worked up then, Edward?" I asked, "You know how much I want you, how much I want to be with you in that way and how much it hurts every time you dismiss the idea!" Before he could speak I continued, "I have needs, Edward, lots of them and I want you to be the one to fulfil them! I need you to be the one!"

"Bella!" he gasped sadly.

"Forget it. Don't visit tonight." I snapped before heading into the forest, burning with rage and fury.


It seemed that my emotions couldn't stop fidgeting when Edward and I were together. When we were apart—even now, four hours later—I felt a pull to be near him, an urge to have him cradle me in his arms and to ensure me we'd be together until the end of time. But recently every time we were together we'd be arguing either about me wanting to be turned, his constant conflict with Jacob or the one that pissed me off the most, sex!

I didn't know whether or be angry with him or with myself. I understand totally why he doesn't want to have sex. Actually he does want to have sex like any other teenage boy his age, but he's smart and he knows the risk. Being intimate with me in that way could result in him losing his self control and killing me, and he doesn't want to risk it for the sake of getting laid when he can just jerk off on his own. Sure he can please himself to stop the urges, and I guess I can too but he doesn't understand for girls it's different; I honestly think girls are hornier than guys! I need the comfort sex brings, not just the pleasure. It's what I've been craving when I've been with everyone. I hate Edward for refusing to give me that comfort I need, but I hate myself for making him feel bad about it and because I broke my promise, eternal promise, to be forever faithful to him. Even after all I've done the idea of cheating on him seems alien to me, yet I've done it multiple times these past couple of weeks. And I need to again tonight.

I heard Esme on the Phone with Carlisle earlier this morning, he's staying at the hospital tonight late. I know it's a disgusting thing to want to have sex in a place where there is so much pain, but I don't care. At that moment in time I needed to be touched, and I wanted Carlisle. I hoped into the truck, told Charlie I was stopping over at Jake's (That way if Edward did come to see me tonight despite my telling him not to, he'd not be able to come find me) and I drove through Forks to the Hospital. It didn't take me long to find the ward Carlisle was working on, didn't take me long to find his office too. I knocked three times.

"Bella?" his calm voice asked before he opened the door, catching my scent already. He opened the door. "Is everything alright?" he asked, I tugged my thumbs in my jean pocket before glancing down the hall and turning back to him.

"Can we talk?" I asked, he nodded and stepped back to allow me inside. Once he closed the door I turned to him, "Actually, we won't be doing much talking," and I put my hands on his shoulders and leant up to kiss him. He moaned a chuckle as he leant back against the wall, he tried to say something but before he could the door opened and closed and Esme smiled at me sheepishly as she saw us.

"Holy shit!" I gasped pulling away. Esme was always a kind, generous and understanding women but Carlisle was her man plus I knew she was badass in a fight. I didn't want to know what she was going to do to me.

"Bella, Esme decided to come join me in the office tonight to help me out with some paperwork." Carlisle explained with an embarrassed smile. I didn't want to look into Esme's golden eyes in case I saw them glaring at me in anger, but I couldn't help but look up. She was smiling. A sarcastic smile? I guessed but she didn't look surprised by what she had seen. What am I supposed to say! Three times now I've been caught doing stuff with a Cullen by their partner. Caught by Jasper when with Alice, Caught by Rosalie when with Emmett, I was lucky the first two times that they wanted to join in!

"Hello, Bella." Esme greeted me. She lay some papers down on the desk neatly before leaning back against it and looking at her husband who was straightening his tie. "Looks like Bella beat me to the punch, didn't she dear," she and Carlisle laughed and I just stared with muted horror.

"Esme and I were planning on...having a little intimate time together before continuing on with our work, it appears you arrived at the right moment." Carlisle said,

"Would you care to join us, Bella?" Esme asked. I turned my attention fully towards her, "A lot of our family experiment with those of the same sex as well as group love making and other extravagant things yet I have never engaged in a threesome before or had intercourse with a woman. Would you like to be my first?" Once again. Stunned. I looked between the two of them, unmoving. I had to be dreaming or something, right?

Esme shrugged, "If you feel the need, join us." Then with a light tug, she tore the buttons on her white shirt away, revealing her large, plump breasts held up by a black lace bra. She caught my eye and winked at me as Carlisle walked by. He pulled his shirt out of his trousers and tugged his tie loose. Esme grabbed it and pulled it towards her and the two met in a kiss. I stood against the wall and watched for the most part. The kiss changed into a fierce embrace and Carlisle turned and swiped the entire desk clear of its contents before laying his wife down roughly on the table top. I moved forward to get a better view as he tore her bra from her chest with his teeth and bit her erect nipples, his hands grasping the flesh of her thigh. I walked around the desk until I stood at the head, looking down at Esme, watching Carlisle's teeth caress the nipples, tug on them and cause Esme a jolt of pleasure. Pleasure I wished I was having. Esme looked up at me, licked her lips before whispering the words.

"Kiss me, Bella," I didn't hesitate before leaning down and kissing her. Esme's lips were the softest I had ever kissed and the plumpest, the most sensual. My hair fell down by our faces as we kissed, in a funny Spiderman-like kiss.

"Bella, you couldn't do me a favour and remove my trousers, could you?" said Carlisle. I was already around the table and on my knees before he could say anything further. I slid his belt out and threw it to the side, unbuttoned his black trousers and tugged on them. They slid down to reveal his extremely tight pearly white boxers, showing his glory which came out of the end. Esme chuckled and Carlisle took a step back to take off his shirt.

"Bella," Esme mumbled my name and I rose between her legs, "Show me how it goes?" Esme whispered. How do I do this! I don't want to seem like a fool when giving Esme her first lesbian experience but I'm not so experienced on the topic myself. Most of the time Rosalie and Alice did all the work! I tried to mimic what they did, and I used my tongue on her clitoris, wetting the area to loosen it up a little as well as pleasing her with my fingers but not too much. I didn't know what she was ready for. But then Carlisle stepped forward, rubbing his foreskin back and forth and I took a step back. I forgot she had him inside her, she can take a lot. I watched as Carlisle slid inside her and got to work. It was strange. While I sat in his leather chair feeling aroused myself, Esme's eyes didn't leave mine at all. Carlisle was the one forcing himself deep inside her, causing her to scream and moan and cry but her eyes looked into mine as if I were the one doing it.

Carlisle decided that I deserved some fun seen as though I came all the way over here, and then I lay on the desktop. Carlisle slid in me and I got the pleasure I came here for but Esme wanted some fun too. Esme kissed me in the same way I had her, but she crawled onto the table, kissing my fragile human skin as she moved down, my kissed moved all the way back until my tongue found her entrance. We stayed like this for a short while before Carlisle finished up. I felt him explode all over my chest and crotch, but my mind was elsewhere.

I came here with hopes of him and I got him, but I also got so much more.


FanWriter's Note: Hey guys, I know this chapter is not the most descriptive but I hope you enjoyed it. Big chapter coming up after this one! Hopefully that'll be up sooner than it took for me to upload this one :D enjoy.