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I flinch when Giles threw the vase, I know he did it because he is angry; and he has every right to be. He's angry at Riley for blackmailing me, me for tolerating it and now as he looks at me I can see he's angry at himself for not doing anything to try and find me and help. It hurts so much to see him in such pain, I see he is concerned about my reaction to him throwing the vase. I drop my hands to the side to let him know its ok and that I understand why he did it.

"I really am sorry Giles, I didn't know what else to do."

"You don't understand, all these years that we could have had you here with us, you weren't. We missed you all so much. I missed you."

"I thought of you everyday, it was kind of hard not to."

"What do you mean?"

I look at him and see confusion in his eyes. By now I figured he would have realized the twins were his and not Riley's. The twins reminded me of him, especially Alex he looked so much like Giles that it was hard not to think of him. I decide to give him more time to think and try to make my way out of the room.

"It's nothing. I'll go check on the twins, they should probably wake up soon."

"I have a few questions before you go, if that's all right."

"Of course."

I sit in the arm chair next to the fireplace, this house is really nice, I can see why Giles likes it so much, makes me wonder why he wanted a house this big in the first place, but I see little traces of him through out it.

"You said the twins are 5 and half?"

"Yes, they are growing so fast, seems like yesterday they were born."

"Were they early?"

"A month, but I was expecting it, so I was prepared for it. They spent about 2 weeks in the NICU before I could take them home."

"When is their Birthday?"

"November 14th."

He takes off his glasses and begins to pace, I know he is trying to figure this out himself and I will allow him to do so, but I will not give him incorrect information. We both know that this is something that he must do for himself.

"You were pregnant when you left Sunnydale?"

I can see that it's a statement more than a question, but I nod my head and let him know that yes I was pregnant, but also tell him that I didn't know until after I had left.

"So Riley is not their father?"

"No he's not."

"I am aren't I."

"Yes." I say once the words are out of my mouth I take in a sharp breath. I watch him carefully as the words sink in. I see a brief hint of a smile. Then I see the shock and anger wash over him as he realizes that he missed so much, and that I kept so much from him by not being able to speak to him or any of my friends here in Sunnydale. His face tenses and then he places his glasses back on his face and storms out of the room and down the hall. I hear him grab keys and the front door close, I want to go after him. I want to tell him how sorry I am.

I don't however, the only thing I do is sit back down and start crying for the life that I lost. I know I will never have it back. H.G Wells time machine would be nice right about now. Cause if I could then I would not have answered the door the day Riley came to Sunnydale.

I must have sat in that chair for hours. I finally realized the sun had set when Alex and Emma come into ask me about dinner. I'm not sure what Giles has in his fridge but I still remember the number to the local pizza parlor and give them a call for a delivery. I make sure to answer the door and don't let anyone in that I don't know for fear of what they may be this is Sunnydale after all.

The kids and I sit in the dinning room and eat our pizza, Giles has not returned yet, and I am starting to get worried. I know he knows how to take care of himself, but he also just had a huge shock and I don't know if he is completely in his right mind. I get the kids in to pajamas and tucked into the bed in the guest room once again. Once I get back downstairs to clean up our mess from dinner, I hear the front door close and breathe a sigh of relief that Giles came back safely.

He walks back to the kitchen where I am, and I can see he's carrying a few bags, and both look heavy. I go and offer to help but by the time I get to him he's already placed them on the table. I start to help him pull items from one of the bags. Inside I find a loaf of bread, some peanut butter and jelly. There is also some of the microwave spaghetti meals to go along with mac and cheese and ice cream. That one I know is for me, its my favorite flavor Ben & Jerry's Death by Chocolate, I haven't had this in ages.

I watch as Giles pulls items from his bag; a baseball and glove, a doll and some stuffed animals. He bought toys for the kids. I smile and hold back my tears as best as I can. He has already begun accepting the children into his life this is his proof.

"What's all this for?"

"Well, I didn't really have much in the way of food for the kids, so I picked up a few things to tide us over until we can get a good shopping in. And I noticed that you didn't bring many of their toys, so I decided that they needed something to play with. it's the least that I could do for them." He pauses as he picks up the baseball to have something in his hands to play with. "They really are mine?"

"Yes, they are. Alex looks so much like you and well they both have your eyes."

"I noticed."

I place my hand on his cheek and force him to look at me. I can see so much hiding behind his glasses. I know him too well, even though I haven't seen him in 6 years, I know him. He his humbled and grateful for this gift I have given him. I give him a soft kiss on the lips, I want more but will take what I can get at this point. I pull back and lean my head against his.

"I really wish I could have told you. I missed you every day."

"And I you. Come lets go sit in the study and you can tell me all about our children."

He takes my hand and leads me down the hall. And I notice that for the first time in 6 years I am not afraid to have someone touch me.