JAMES POV

I hate that she's happy with him. That was me almost a month and 2 weeks ago… actually it was a month and 11 days.. yeah, I still count how long it's been. We go back on tour next week. And I should probably make peace with everybody…seems how I've been the outcast since the breakup.

I bent down next to my bed and pulled out the bottle of vodka. I shouldn't be doing this to myself, but I am. I opened it up and took a quick sip; I shook my head at the sting I felt as it went down my throat. I closed it and put it back then went to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

I went back into my room and grabbed my notebook, and flipped to the page with the song I've been working on for her… I sat down on the bed as I read it to myself,

You say sometimes it's like I hardly know you
And maybe there's some things I never showed you
Sometimes you're certain but you just can't get it working it all

You say to yourself somebody better
Will understand you more than I ever
I'll shake his hand and smile and say I understand, and while I do,
That don't mean I don't think about you

I know we said it's just as well
That I won't keep, keep you for myself
But I don't want to see you happier with somebody else

Why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lonely?
I know you need someone to
This just feels so soon

I know some things should just stay broken
I'm well aware this should remain unspoken
But I've been working on the things that
I was learning all wrong
I know sometimes I only twist ya
And maybe I'm too proud to say I missed ya
But what if here and now I tell you that I'm all figured out
Or maybe I just like how that sounds

I know we said it's just as well
That I won't keep, keep you for myself
But I don't want to see you happier with somebody else

Why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lonely?
I know you need someone to
this just feels so soon

Then I finally realized the last part that was needed… I grabbed my pen off my dresser and wrote the last verse.

I know it seems beneath me
But sometimes it's not so easy
To wish you well and let you go

And I said it's just as well
I just can't keep you for myself
I don't want to see you happier with somebody else
Oh…. Lonely, why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-
This just feels so, this just feels so, feels so soon

And with that… I had finally finished it. I ripped it out of my notebook and folded it up putting it in my back pocket. Then went out to the living room where angel was laying with Logan, I coughed and looked at them. "he-hey, um… would it be alright if I talked to you for a second in the living room Angel…" She looked up at Logan and he nodded, as she got up.

We walked out to the kitchen and she jumped up on the counter to sit, and I sat next to her. "So what'd you wanna talk about?" she looked over at me. I looked down at the floor "I uh, I just wanted to apologize for everything… honestly. I want to be friends, I hate how awkward things are, and I share a room with Logan on tour, so we'll all be seeing each other a lot…" she turned to me "I appreciate it, I want to be friends too" I finally looked up at her and saw her smiling at me "As long as you're happy Angel, I'm happy."

Then she said the words that made my chest ache "I am really happy with Logan, he's so perfect. I don't want anything to happen to me and him." I got up "Well I'm really glad you're happy, maybe we can go to the mall before we head out on tour and hang out alright?" I smiled at her as she got down and hugged me. I felt my stomach turn as she wrapped her arms around me and I breathed in her sent. I wrapped my arms around her tightly and hugged her for what seemed like a second….

"Yeah, that sounds great. I'm happy we can be friends" I smiled and nodded "me too."

I walked off back to my room and took the song out of my pocket "shit…" I thought to myself "I can't give her this… it'll ruin everything now. I sighed and read it once more, then opened my top drawer and put it underneath some shirts.

I laid back down and closed my eyes, and whispered to myself as I drifted off for my nap "This just feels so soon…."


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it'd mean everything 3

The song this was basically based off of was this - you have to put youtube . com / then whats in parenthesis (watch?v=0CR3O2SP6Ls) it wont let me do a link.

I've been obsessed with it, and i felt like it was perfect for James' situation. :)