It's My Life

Itachilova101

Ch. 9

A/N: Angsty, huh? Thanks to all who've reviewed! Italics for flashbacks!

Numb, floating in cold water. Yelling, screaming. A white light. That was all I was able to decipher while my body laid somewhere. Where was I? What was going on? What had happened?

Then, my eyes opened. I looked around only to see that I was in a hospital room.

"SAKURA!" I heard a voice yell in my mind.

Then, everything came flooding back to me. Sakura... Where was she? Was she alright?

A doctor came into the room and looked at me with a warm smile. "Hello, Itachi-san. My name is Tsunade."

"Sakura..." I whispered. "Where's Sakura?"

"We'll answer your questions another time. Why don't you tell me what had happened?"

"H-How did you find us?"

"A man called an ambulance after you jumped." she answered. "Do you know your name?"

"Uchiha Itachi."

"How old are you?"

"Nineteen."

"Were you trying to committ suicide?"

"No."

"Then, why did you jump?"

"Because Sakura did."

"Was she trying attempting suicide?"

I nodded and looked away. I wanted to see her... I mean, she had to be alive! If they saved me, they had to of saved her! Shouldn't they of?

"Where's Sakura? Is she alright? I want to see her." I told the doctor.

"I'm sorry, but that's not possible."

I sat up and eyed Tsunade. "Not possible? Why not? Where the hell is she?"

"She's in Konoha cemetary. She was buried a week ago."

I felt like I was going to be sick. I shook, though I wasn't cold and I could feel my stomach churn.

Tsunade put a water basin beside me and I got sick.

'Dead... Gone... Gone forever...' the words tumbled through my mind as I vomitted.

Finally, after about five minutes, I was reduced to dry heaves and began to cry uncontrollably.

"So, you could save me, but not her?"

"Well, the police and rescue personnel weren't able to find her body."

"So, how did they have a funeral if they couldn't find her body?"

"They had a funeral without her body there. It's been done before. They're saying goodbye to her spirit rather than her body."

I stood shakily and started to walk out of the room. When I reached the hallway, I saw Mother, Akashi, Sasuke, the twins and Arashi, all sitting in chairs.

Mother stood and hugged me tightly, sobbing.

This time, I would not hold her back. I could only cry and wish that it would've been me who'd died instead of Sakura.

It should've been me. Why did it have to be Sakura? I mean, she didn't do anything to anybody! Why couldn't it have been me!

I looked to Arashi and could barely hold in my sobs.

"I'm so sorry, Arashi-san. I'm so sorry. I-I should've saved her when I had the chance. I should've taken care of her more!" I apologized, crying like every other girl in the hallway.

He stood and put an arm around my shoulders. "Don't worry, Son. You made her happier than I had ever seen her. I could never ask for more from anybody. And you're always going to be welcome in my home anytime."

I thanked him and asked when I could be discharged.

Tsunade came out and said that I would be let go the next day, after they were sure that I was fine.


I was released from the hospital and, instead of going back to the college, instead of going home, I went to the cemetary and paid a visit to Sakura. I wanted to go alone and everybody understood, so they left me be.

"Hey, Sakura." I greeted, sitting on the cool grass. "How are you?- I'm sure that's a stupid question to ask. I mean, you're dead. So, you can't be very good. I hope you're keeping God company. Are you having fun in heaven?"

I remembered a time she wanted me to come with her to the hospital to pay a visit to some cancer patients. Most of the patients we saw were children and touched my heart in a way nobody else ever could.

That's why I loved her so much. She had such a kind person.

"Have you been playing with the children?" I asked, tears welling in my eyes and my voice faltering. "Have you been playing hopscotch with them and painting their toe nails like you did with those children in the hospital?"

I wiped away the tears that were rolling down my cheeks and choked back a sob.

"I can't believe you're gone. I miss you so much. You promised me you'd marry me, but you couldn't. Why couldn't you let me help you?"

Then, something flashed through my mind.

She turned to me. She was crying and looked so scared.

I outstretched my hand to her. "Take my hand. Come on."

She reached for my hand, but a man stepped out of his car and yelled,, "hey, what are you doing over there!"

She looked to him in surprise and stepped on a surface that was wet. Her foot slipped and she fell over the edge. I reached for her, but she was gone.

She wasn't going to... She was going to take my hand! It was an accident! Well, it didn't change the fact that she was gone forever and wasn't coming back... She was never going to come back to me... Never...

I began to cry harder and buried my face in my hands and sobbed uncontrollably.


I stood at the bridge and stared down at the river. The river that she'd died in. The river I'd proposed to her over. The river I stood over whenever I wanted to think. I had liked this river, but now what?

I just wanted to jump over the bridge and die with Sakura.

I couldn't though. I had to live. I had to live for Sakura. If I didn't live, it would prove that the both of us didn't care for eachother. At least, that would be how others saw it.

I ran my hand along the edge of the hand railing and sighed.

I turned and walked away, knowing I would do that the next day, the day after that and so on.

That's what I had done for the last six months. Since her death, I visited the bridge for at least a half hour every day, rain or shine, sick or healthy.

I knew that Sakura was going to be the reason I do everything in life. I was going to dedicate every good thing I did to her. Nothing would be without her in mind.


Three years later, Itachi graduated from Konoha college with high honors and eventually made his own law firm that he called, "Haruno Sakura Firm of Law."


A/N: What do you think? Is it a good end to an okay story? Please review!