Dear Readers, be happy that I have no intention for leaving this unfinished because I really do not feel like writing right now. However, if I put this off, I do know that it will be weeks before there is another update so I am doing this now. School is stressful and on top of that I have other activities I have to worry about. I hope this chapter is worthy enough for your reading.
Of course they automatically think it is all my fault. It is not like I did not expect it. I just did not expect them to come to Thomas's house, especially in the middle of the night. The thing that shocks the most is that Simon seems like he does not even consider the fact that Izzy could be overreacting or the problem could not be me.
"I did not do anything to Izzy," I reply with my arms crossed.
Simon starts towards me and I back up until my back hits the wall. Jace stops him and spaces us.
"I thought you were my friend!" he yelled. Jace clamped his mouth shut while I looked around to see if we woke anybody up. When the coast is clear, Jace slowly takes his hand off of Simon.
I blow the hair out of my face before starting. "If we were friends, you would not automatically accuse me for doing something to Izzy," I fire back.
He is almost on top of me before Jace shoves his way in between us. "You did something to her and I know it," he accuses.
"I did not do anything wrong!" I am starting to get tired of this. "All I did was tell Izzy the truth!"
By the way Jace stiffens, I can tell he has a feeling which truth I am talking about.
"All I did was tell her that Jace cheated on me and Alec knew for the past two years!" I blurt out in a rush. While they are both paralyzed from shock, I bolt.
And I did not need to look back to know that they were chasing me.
I did not care at this point whether they were chasing me or not. All I care about is getting far away from this place. Thomas could have walked out at any minute and that would not make my situation with my friends any better.
I run to the field, the space that separates the city from the mansions. I calmly sit down and wait for the boys to catch up. They do not take that long thankfully. I still need to get back to Thomas before he wakes.
They run up to me. Both of them look infuriated and confused at the same time.
Jace calmly sits down in front of me. Simon hesitates and then copies his action.
Jace sighs then buries part of his in his hands. "That is what you told Izzy?" he asks quietly.
I nod while Simon lays down on his back. "There is no way. You are lying. That is why Izzy is mad at you, because you lied to her," he reasoned.
I disagree immediately. "I did not lie to her. You have all the proof you need here." I look over to Jace, though he keeps his face tilted down.
"Jace, you expressions needs to change. You are actually making me believe her," says Simon.
"How is Alec?" I ask.
"What does that have to do with anything!?" he shouts.
"Is he still reliable? Do you think he would protect the family at any costs?" I question.
"Alec would do anything for the family! He has always been there for everybody! Even me! Unlike you, he cares about us!" he shouts.
"Oh yeah!' I fire. "I guess he still considers me as part of the family then because he has lied for me all of these years!"
A dumbstruck look strikes across his face before he argues, "You are such a liar. He would never do that to us!"
"Simon," I calm down a tiny bit and glance at Jace. "Jace cheated on me. That is why I left. The only person who knew this was Alec. I left letters for everybody, but somebody seems to have disposed of them," I say.
There is a moment of silence. Simon looks like he is trying to process the information while Jace still will not make any eye contact with me.
"Jace, please tell me right now. Is she telling the truth at all?" begs Simon.
Jace looks up at Simon with sad eyes, something that I never thought I would see again.
"Simon, I am sorry, I truly am," he says in a raspy voice.
Simon slowly gets up to his feet. He takes one step away before turning to us to address us once more. "I am going to see how Izzy is doing. This trip has been on her so far." He takes a couple more steps before speaking again. "Jace, this is hard to process but do not let it stop you from coming home. I know you, and I also know that Izzy would like both her brothers to be with her." With that, he walks off into the night, heading towards the one he will always be loyal too.
-line break-
As I sneak back into bed next to Thomas, I ponder over recent events.
Jace looked so heartbroken when Simon found out the truth. How is that even possible? They were never really that close when I lived in New York City. At one point I am pretty sure they hated each other. Now it seems like they have this brotherly connection. Simon really looked like he was betrayed.
And even though he learned Jace cheated on his former best friend. Even though Alec had lied to him all these years. Even though I yelled at him for not understanding. Even though he has a high chance of containing guilt for not believing in me, he still goes back to Isabelle. That I find remarkable.
Yet, I do not know if anybody will ever truly do that for me.
There is just something about being single. The independence and freedom coursing through your body. The feeling of not having to rely on somebody. You start doing things by yourself that you normally would not do unless you want a real taste of that independence.
But still. The thought of someone always having your back is relaxing in some kind of way.
Thomas, he was one of the first friends I made when I moved to London. Right away, he tried making a connection with me. He is a very sweet and protective person. He made it where I went from being heartbroken, to having a life again.
But Jace was the one I originally fell in love with. He was the one who lead me into this world filled with adventure, and why I am what I am today. All I did was grow a curiosity for the man with the blond curls. He was my gate to the world of angels and demons.
However, taking recent events into account, I cannot forget about Alec. He was my shoulder I leaned on during my final days at the New York Institute. He was the one that kept my secret from his own family for the past couple of years. He was the one that even after our time apart, has still contained a liking for me. He brings the elements of sarcasm, kindness, and protectiveness together and into play. I think that is why he can never leave my mind.
These thoughts keeps me from shutting my own eyes to sleep for the evening. As my frustration of my prevention from rest grows, so does my curiosity for these men. How can three totally different men influence my life so much?
I do not know.
I do not know anything anymore. My mind travels to my friends, the ones who can help me in this situation. It is time to make amends.
It is time to live up to the name this world has made for me, Clary Morgenstern.
My eyes drift shut with resolution in my head.
I swear, I start a chapter and just leave it for about two or three weeks. I am such an awful person. I hope you guys had a nice Halloween. Just remember, IT IS NOT CHRISTMAS YET. We still have Thanksgiving to get through. To make up for this, I will try to have a new post by Monday but we should know by now that I cannot promise this. Who do you think the friends are?
