Bella had dressed herself in a beautiful turquoise colored eyelet embroidered dress it had a empire waist and a scalloped neck. She wore a beautiful and expensive pair of sling back sandals. She sat in front of her vanity trying to decide weather to wear her hair up or down. After finally settling on her hair up Bella sat in front of her mirror and stared.

She looked pale…much to pale his parents would think she was a freak. Her eyes were tired and didn't sparkle. She was ready to cry when Edward came into the room looking like a star. He had a pair of dark wash jeans on and a navy snug fit t-shirt on covered by a soft black leather jacket.

He settled into a crouch by her feet. " Bell they will love you….you look amazing now lets go before we are late."

Bella sighed allowing Edward to help her up from her seat. The drive was quiet and quick. Bella could feel the bile rise in her throat as she walked up the porch. Edward politely knocked twice before opening the door and leading her in.

Bella had barely gotten her coat off when she was swept into a tight hug. Looking down she came face to face with a woman no more than her own height. Bronze hair hanging down her shoulders in soft waves. Her green eyes twinkling with happiness. The woman then spun to hold Edward in the same motherly hug Bella had just encountered.

The woman smoothed Edwards hair back holding his face in her hands as her eyes searched every part of his face. Checking, checking to make sure her only son was really standing before her completely out of harms way. Once she was content with her inspection she turned her attention back to Bella embracing her once more.

" Oh Bella thank you so much. I will never be able to thank you enough." Bella nodded her head fighting back the tears that threatened to fall.

Esme Cullen led her son and Bella into the sitting room where Alice and Jasper were currently in a deep discussion with Rosalie and Emmett. They had just sat down in discussion when a tall blond slightly older looking man glided into the sitting area.

" Edward…Bel…."

Bella jumped up from her seat hand covering her mouth as she stared at the beautiful man before her. Before anyone had time to question her reactions Bella had thrown her arms around the man and was crying into his chest.

Esme raised from her seat quickly standing before her husbands side as Edward rose to Bella's.

" Bella do you know my father?"

Bella pulled away from the mans arms wiping away her tears as her cries turned to quiet hiccups.

" Yes Edward he was there when my mother died….I never connected him to you and I never got to thank him for being there with her in the end." Bella finally settled in her seat next to Edward after a quick reunion. He knew something was off Bella he couldn't quite figure out what it was but decided to ask her about it later on.

She hated feeling like this she clamped her eyes shut as the room began to spin, clutching tightly on the leather cushions of the couch. Esme rose gently wrapping her hand around Bella's elbow leading her out to the kitchen.

Bella seated herself at the bar as Esme zipped around the kitchen finally settling a mug of hot tea in front of Bella.

" Here honey sip on this slowly it will help with the nausea."

Bella's eyes flashed to Esme's beautiful soft face searching it to figure out how she knew. Esme came around embracing Bella and tucking her into her side.

" Sweetie a mother just knows these things."

Bella for a moment let her mind wonder to her own mother who she had lost almost 5 years before.

" Bella how did you loose your mother? If you don't mind me asking you."

Bella let out a sigh before resting her head on the cool granite counter.

" She was diagnosed with a brain tumor when I was sixteen. She had just married her second husband and she was blissfully happy. She went through treatment eventually going into remission and then when I turned eighteen it had spread. They tried everything they could but it was everywhere, and the treatment was making her more sick than it was doing good. Phil wanted to take her home she didn't want to die in the hospital so he took her home and for 5 years she held on never once giving up."

Bella paused a moment before continuing where she left off. " I got a phone call from Phil on Christmas eve saying that mom wasn't doing good and was in a lot of pain. He said he was taking her in and that I should catch a flight home. By the time I got there she was so out of it from the medication she didn't know who I was. Thank goodness for your husband he made her so comfortable. She passed the night after I arrived in her sleep."

Esme wiped the tears that started to pool. She kissed Bella's temple softly rubbing soothing circles on Bella's back.

" Sweetie do you miss her? I know your taking care of your father and now Edward but whose taking care of you honey."

Bella felt like a horrible person at that moment this woman standing before her this amazingly beautiful, and kind woman who was concerned for her and asked if she missed her mother and all she wanted to yell was no.

" Would you think I was a terrible person if I said no?"

Esme shook her head wrapping her arms around Bella rocking her gently. " No sweetheart I could never think you were a terrible person."

Bella nodded resting her head on Esme's shoulders.

" I miss the idea of a mother Esme a mother like yourself. But I gave up that dream a long time ago when I was still very young. Charlie became everything I needed and Renee well she was more of a burden. There was always drama with her. She didn't know how to be a mother because she was so wrapped up in her own world and ways that she never had time to have to provide for someone else. So when she met and married Phil she didn't have to worry about that she was going to be taken care of and I was relieved oh so very relieved. Then by the time she wanted to be my mother she was sick and I was so much older and I just couldn't do it."

Esme held Bella as if she was one of her own she knew this poor girl before her jus needed someone who cared, someone to care for her.

" Then six months after Renee, Charlie had his stroke and I'm just so exhausted Esme. Half the time I don't know which end is up and Charlie says he wants to come home. What do I do then…"

Esme brushed the tears off of Bella's face.

" Now you are watching out for Edward and no one is watching out for you. Sweetie you need a break…you do the best you can. We will figure something out for Charlie. I think it would be great for you to have him be closer to you. Now I want you to go those stairs to Edwards old room and take a hot bath and then go and lie down for a while. Don't argue don't you worry about Edward you worry about Bella for once and get some rest and I will wake you up for dinner alright."

Bella smiled gently wrapping her arms around Esme's waist. Esme smiled placing a soft kiss on Bella's forehead before shooing her up the stairs.

Esme made her way to the sitting room once Bella was situated upstairs. Edward had a look of concern all over his face as did Alice, and Rosalie.

" Poor girl is just worn out so I sent her upstairs for a hot bath and a nap."

Edward jumped up at the mention of Bella and was headed for the stairs when his mother stopped him.

" Darling let her rest please she has enough on her mind and the last thing she needs is to worry about you worrying about her."

Edward watched as his mother danced around the kitchen stirring pots and adding spices. She was graceful and small very much like his own sister. Bella was very similar in the manner that she cooked. She could do a million things at once and still manage to not burn dinner. Something Tanya couldn't do. It seemed like she couldn't do anything domestic at all.

Esme watched her oldest child as he sat so pensively at her counter. He was brewing in his head so deep in thought she knew it would be hard to pull him out of it. She gracefully rounded the other side of the counter sitting directly across from him.

" My son come back to me, what is going on in that mind of yours? What has you thinking so hard?"

Edward slowly raised his head eyes settling on ones that matched his own. He knew she would break him down as she had done so many other times throughout his life. How would he tell her when he didn't understand the thoughts himself. He should have thoughts like the ones he was plagued with.

" Edward Please don't shut me out. You never have before."

Edward slammed his fists on the counter startling them both.

" Kids mother, Kids….I think about them all the time what it would be like to have a child…to have a child with her."

Esme was taken back by her sons outburst he had never been one to act as he was he was always so calm and collected even as a small child. Tantrums were not in his personality.

" Children…with who Edward …Tanya…her leaving was the best thing she could have done. How can you not see this."

He was seething. She could see the waves of anger roll off his tall sinewy form.

" No mother not with fucking Tanya…with Bella…it has been driving me absolutely crazy. Every time I look at her its all I can think about."

Esme smiled a knowing smile rubbing her sons shoulders.

" Edward have you ever told her about your thoughts. In the entire time being married to your father even the very day I met him he was always aware of what I wanted. I never kept a thought or feeling that passed through me."

Edward clenched his fist releasing it before clenching it again.

" Mother, I'm not even dating her how would I tell her something like this. I mean I know I thought of these things with Tanya, but it scared the shit out of me then."

His mother smiled a very knowing smile.

" And now Edward are you scared?"

Edward laid his cheek against the cool granite counter.

" No mother I'm not scared at all and that scares the shit out of me. I mean Tanya walked away and left for me even mentioning the idea of children."

" Yes and thank god she did, that woman was horrid she sucked the life out of you Edward. Bella…she's not Tanya and you can't compare Bella to her. Whatever sort of relationship you have with Bella it's something powerful Edward don't let your fear cripple you please because you have everything to loose right now."

He sensed her presence before he saw her. It had been that way their entire lives. She just knew. He was afraid this time. Afraid of what he'd see in her eyes. He slowly turned his head to the direction his mother was facing to see her in the corner. Tucked into the dark alcove by his mothers prized pantry. She was small and delicate so different than everyone else in his family. She stood out because she was special.

Panic was written over every Elvin feature of his sister. Cobalt orbs glittered with unshed tears . He watched the panic turn to worry as her eyes danced across the room. She gripped the wall tighter as her eyes scanned hoping to settle upon its target. She turned her head to the direction of her mothers stare.

Upstairs. She'd find what she needed upstairs.

A/N: Sorry It was so long but I didn't want to have to drag it on to more chapters tell me what you think will happen next time and what you think. I know it's a filler no song for this chapter couldn't think of anything that would do it justice…suggestions pleas!