Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight, I'm just messing with her characters.

I'm falling apart againAnd I can't find a way to make amendsAnd I'm looking in both directionsBut it's make believe, it's all pretendSo...Shed some light on meAnd hold me up in disbeliefAnd shed some light on meAnd tell me something that I'll believe in

Shed Some Light- Shinedown

BPOV

"Hey, Momma!" I say as she sits beside me. We are in a huge meadow filled with every type and color of wildflower, it's beautiful.

"Bellie, how have you been? I've missed you so much," my mother's eyes are full of tears as she pulls me into her arms.

I hug her as tightly as I can, tears escaping my eyes as well, "I've missed you too, Momma. I love you." I hear a cough behind me, it's Edward. He sits down and hooks his arm around my waist.

"And who is this, Bellie?" my mother asks smiling.

"Momma, this is Edward," I look to him as he reaches out for my mother's hand and brings it to his lips. My mother gives me a look of approval as she takes in Edward.

I am beaming as I turn back to Edward, my eyes rise to his. They are no longer green.

They are blood red.

He pulls my mother's body against his harshly, and moves the hair covering her neck, "You're next," he growls as he tears his teeth into my mother's flesh. My mother screams, and try to get to her, but I can not move. I close my eyes and try to block out the sight of my mother dying once again. When I open them, everything is dark. I'm surrounded by a warm softness. It takes me a few minutes to remember where I am. My head is throbbing. I need medicine.

I move slowly and get out of bed. On my way to the bathroom, I see light coming from Alice's room. I push open the door, "Hey, Al. Can I talk to you ab-" she isn't alone. Jasper, her brother, is sitting next to her kissing her, and touching her. Alice is topless.

This is beyond weird and disgusting, "Alice?"

Her eyes widen, "Bella!" she says as she pulls the cover over her chest. I back out of her room and shut the door. With my door locked, I crawl back into bed, my headache forgotten. What just happened? Jasper was Alice's brother, well not by blood, they were all adopted, but regardless, he is still her brother. This was too bizarre. Did Carlisle and Esme know? If they did, how could they allow it? They were only seventeen, it didn't make any sense.

There was a soft knock on my door, "Bella, can I please talk to you?" Alice asks. I get up and unlock my door, opening it slowly. Alice is staring at the ground as she enters my room, "Bella," she begins, "I know you're probably very confused by what you saw in there, and I'm very sorry you had to see it. I didn't hear you coming," she continues to look at the floor as she fidgets with the corner of the bedspread. I say nothing, "Listen," she continues, "there are things about my family that you don't know, things that I can't tell you," she won't look at me, "Jasper and I are married, Bella."

Bomb dropped, I am speechless. I've known Alice for two years and she never even told me that she was interested in anyone, or had dated anyone, much less that she was married.

"Maybe one day I'll be able to explain all of this to you more thoroughly, but now I can't. I'm sorry," Alice walks to the door, "Get back to sleep, Bella."

I can't sleep. I keep thinking of what Alice said about her and her family. What other secrets could they possibly have? There are two other siblings in the family, Emmett and Rosalie, I never saw them much. Could they be together as well? I thought that I knew everything about my best friend, apparently that was far from the truth.

At some point during the night sleep overtook me. I awoke to sunlight shining in my eyes, a rarity in Forks. I slipped out of bed and cautiously walked down the hall into the bathroom carrying my toothbrush with me. Fortunately, I didn't cross paths with anyone. Alice's bedroom door was shut, and the rest of the house was silent. I brushed my teeth in peace, and took a quick shower. I tiptoed back to my room with a towel wrapped snuggly around me. After I pulled on my jeans and favorite blue sweater, I went down stairs.

When I hit the second floor, I heard a familiar voice coming from the kitchen, "I thought I'd never see you both again," Edward was here. My heart fluttered and my pulse quickened.

"We're so glad to have you back, my darling," Esme cooed.

"Hey, Edward. What are you doing here?" I said as I entered the kitchen. He was sitting with Carlisle and Esme at the breakfast table; they each had a coffee cup in front of them. I looked at his eyes, they were the same beautiful green, and I was relieved.

"I was just visiting, and I thought that you would need a ride back to your house this morning," he said cheerfully. I smiled in response and took the seat next to Edward at the table. Esme took a sip from her cup and looked to Edward as he brought his cup to his mouth. He took a sip and wrinkled up his nose.

"It takes some getting used to," Esme said giggling at the look on Edward's face.

"I don't like coffee either," I said. They all began laughing. I was confused, I didn't say anything funny.

Edward wrapped his arm around my shoulder, "Are you ready to go home?" I nodded and returned to my room to get my things. There was still no sign of movement from Alice's room, I was grateful for that. I still didn't know what to say to her.

When we arrived at my house, I was surprised to find that Charlie wasn't there, and also happy. I wanted some more alone time with Edward, "Are you coming in?" I asked as I unlocked the door.

"If you would like me to, angel, I will."

"Of course," I said pulling his hand, "Get in here." I dropped my bag at the bottom of the stairs and walked into the kitchen, there was a note from Charlie.

Isabella,

I am going back to church this morning. After church, I am leaving until Saturday. I know this is unexpected, but a trip came up that I cannot refuse, its going to help both of us. I need you to stay at the house to look after it. I know you can take care of yourself. There is two hundred dollars in the cookie jar that you can use for food. If you have an emergency while I am gone call the number at the bottom.

I love you, baby girl, and when I get back I hope that we can start putting our lives back together and moving on.

"What's wrong?" Edward said as I placed the note back on the table.

"Charlie's leaving until Saturday. Out of no where some trip came up that he says he 'cannot refuse.'"

Edward looked alarmed, "Do you mind if I read the note?" I shook my head no and handed it over to him. He studied it closely, flipping it over and upside down.

"Is there something wrong with it, Edward?"

"Huh?" he said as he was reading over again, "Oh, no, there's nothing wrong, angel," he said easily. It sounded like he was hiding something. He wouldn't have studied it so much if there wasn't something wrong with it, "I promise you nothing is wrong, but would you mind if I stayed here with you? I don't want you here alone for a week," I could tell that he wasn't telling me the whole truth. What could he know about my father that I wouldn't know? And he just asked if he could stay here for a week. With me. Alone.

As much as I wanted to know more about why he was acting this way, I couldn't pass up the opportunity to have Edward all to myself for a week, "Sure, you can stay here," I said nonchalantly. He smiled.

"Great, I need to go run this pass my dad real quick, make sure that he is okay with it, and grab some clothes. I'll be back soon," Edward placed his hand under my skin and tilted my face towards his; my heartbeat broke into a sprint as the spark flowed through me. I closed my eyes as his lips kissed my forehead gently. I shivered as his cool breath lingered on my skin. When I opened my eyes he was gone. My house was a cold, unwelcoming mess without Edward in it. I was beginning to think that every place was a cold, unwelcoming mess without Edward in it. If Edward was going to be staying here, the house needed some major TLC. It was embarrassing to me for him to see the way our lives had fallen apart, and as my father had said, we needed to start putting them back together. I folded up my father's note and put it in my pocket; I didn't want to lose it.

Our dish washer was full to the maximum capacity; I couldn't even fit an extra spoon in there. I turned it on and filled up our sink with soapy water. I placed the rest of the dirty dishes in the sink to soak, and turned around to begin cleaning up the counters.

"You know you should lock the door when you're at home alone. Anything could just walk right in," Edward leaned against the door frame with a cup in his hand and a bag slung over his shoulder. I took a mental picture of him, wanting to always remember the way he looked. His smile, his messy hair, his emerald eyes, he was perfection.

"You can put your bag in my room, if you would like," I offered, "I can show you where it is," I said shyly.

Edward gave me his heart stopping crooked smile, setting down his cup on the counter and waved his hand in front of him, "After you, angel."

"You can just drop your stuff here," I said. I turned to face Edward and he is standing right behind me, I bump into him, "Oh I'm sorry." I try to move around him but he won't let me. He puts his hands on my waist and pulls me to him. I'm pressed against his cool body. We're alone. I look into his eyes and melt. We're alone. He kisses my head, and grabs my hand, leading me to my bed. We are so alone.

"I want to do something before it's too late," Edward says, "Bella, before I met you I only knew one way to act, one way to live. You've changed that in so many ways that I can't tell you now, but I am praying that one day I can tell you because you should know it," he looked at me as if I am the most precious thing to him. I could feel his emotions in every word he said, he truly meant every word, "If anything happens, I want you to remember me like this, I need you to remember me like this. Bella, I don't ever want to hurt you. I don't want to cause you pain, and I don't want to see you suffering," I was bewildered, "I know this doesn't make any sense now, but it might soon. That is why I need you to listen to me, I am always on your side, and I need you to trust me, no matter what happens. Remember this," he lightly squeezed my hand, "and remember this," he placed his hand on my neck and pulled my face to his. My lips touched his briefly and he pulled away but that small moment was more than enough to set off the spark that ignited every cell in my body, I needed this. This new hunger made me bold. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and my lips collided into his. Edward seemed to have the same need, he matched my every move. Passion was a new and unknown feeling to me, but it brought me to life. I pulled his bottom lip into my mouth and ran my tongue across the smooth skin, it was sweet, like vanilla and cotton candy, only a hundred times better. I released his lip and slid my tongue over both of them. He opened his mouth slightly, and I moved into him, wanting to taste him as much as possible.

Edward's teeth grazed over my upper lip and he made a low hissing noise, he pulled away, "My angel, my Bella," he peppered small kisses over my face, on my cheeks, my nose, and at the corner of my mouth. He trailed his lips over my chin and to my neck. He closed his eyes as he inhaled deeply. I felt his teeth on my neck and his tongue darted out to taste my skin, "so fucking good," he murmured. His words drove me crazy. He replaced his tongue with his lips as he planted one last kiss on my neck.

"That was the most amazing thing I've ever experienced," Edward said as he leaned his forehead against mine. I doubted that, but didn't say anything, "I've never kissed anyone, Bella," How could that even be possible? I found it very hard to believe that Edward, looking the way that he does, had never been kissed, "My past has never allowed it," he said sadly. What kind of past could he have?

"Its okay, Edward. I've never kissed anyone either," I said trying to make him feel better.

He smiled, "I'm glad we're each other's first."

I nodded and we stayed with our heads together, staring into each other's eyes. We were interrupted by my stomach rumbling, "You haven't had anything to eat all day, Bella," Edward said caringly. He pulled me into his arms and carried me down stairs into the kitchen. I got out some things to make sandwiches.

"You want one?" I asked Edward.

"Oh, no. I'm good, I'm all full on Bella," I laughed as Edward smiled.

"Damn it!" The blade of the knife I was using to cut my sandwich sliced my finger.

"What did you do?" Edward asked as he moved toward me.

"I cut my finger," I showed him my finger, blood was dripping down it. Edward froze as he stared at the blood.

"Bella, get away from me," he said coldly. I stood there confused, it was just blood, "I said get the fuck away from me! Are you deaf?" Edward yelled and tears sprang to my eyes. I went over to the sink and washed the cut off. With a paper towel covering the cut, I walked back to Edward.

He had his back to the wall and he was rubbing his eyes with his hands, "Edward?" I said quietly. Two small things fell from his hands, I looked down at them.

Green eye contacts.

I couldn't breathe as I moved my hands to his and pried them from his eyes. My fears were confirmed when I saw that they were just as red as the blood dripping from my finger. I backed away slowly from him as he moved toward me.

"Bella, I am so sorry," I was entranced by his ruby eyes, but terror won over. I began to scream but my legs gave out and I fell to the floor, I couldn't feel them.

"It was you, all along it was you. Why are you doing this to me Edward?" tears blurred my vision.

"I'm so completely sorry, Bella."

I was so lost, all I knew was fear. I wanted the fear gone, I wanted him gone, "Get away from me, Edward," I said forcefully.

"Bella, let me talk, it's-"

"I said get the fuck away from me! Are you deaf?" I repeated his words from earlier just as harsh as he had.

"Bella," he said once more.

"Go away!" I yelled to an empty room, he was gone.

I was alone.

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