NOTE: (So after every chapter, I'm going to be puttin gup a new JH pix in my profile! so check it out!) As always, thanks for the reviews! I couldn't wait to get this next chapter out to you guys. So, here it is. Oh, and I know that i said that ch 9 was going to be titled "It's not Over", but i decided to switch the next two chapters around. So, this one is actually going to be "When You Told Me You Loved Me" by Jessica Simpson. i STRONGLY ADVICE you to go onto Youtube and listen to this song. It's AMAZING and it fits Jackie sooooo perfectly right after Hyde cheated on her with that nurse. (which is what this chapter is going to be about. It's going to center the events of the nurse and Sam--Jackie's perspective.) Enjoy!


CHAPTER 9: "When You Told Me You Loved Me" by Jessica Simpson

Cleveland, Ohio

April 20, 1982; Tuesday

9:13 PM

Jackie's Apartment

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Jackie was talking on the phone with her best friend. "Donna, stop it."

"Come on, Jackie. Just tell me."

"No."

"Why? It happened months ago! Why can't you tell me now?!"

"Because it's personal."

"I'm your best friend!"

Jackie hesitated. "Well…"

"Jackie, just tell me why you really broke up with Evan. I don't think that the long distance was really the problem."

Jackie let out a breath and gave in. "Fine. I'll tell you. But, no telling Eric cuz then he'll tell the guys."

"Ok, ok. Tell me."

"Ok." Jackie took a deep breath. She knew Donna was gonna get a kick out of this. "He was sweet and kind. He knew what he wanted to do in the future and had a great head on his shoulders. I really did fall head over heals in love with him, Donna."

"So…what happened then, if he was so perfect?"

"Um…well, after four months of being together, we finally did it, and…" she hesitated.

"And…" Donna urged. She was at the edge of her seat right now.

"And…" a pause. "I didn't feel it."

Donna frowned. "Feel what? An orgasm? You didn't have one? Ever?"

Jackie rolled her eyes. "Donna, will you shut up and let me finish?"

"Sorry. Continue."

Jackie did. "Don't get me wrong, the sex was good. He was real good in bed. But…" She didn't know how to put it into words.

Donna was losing patience and fast. "But what, Jackie? You're killing me here!"

Jackie thought for a minute, still trying to know how to word it right. "I didn't feel…it. You know, the fireworks. The magic."

"Jackie…it's called an orgasm."

Jackie wanted Donna right in front of her so she could kick that stupid lumberjack. "Donna! Believe me, I had an orgasm. But it was lacking that…connection," she finally found the right word.

Donna frowned. "Connection?"

"Yeah." Jackie's face turned soft and gave a small smile as she thought about what she had wanted--and had expected--when she and Evan had sex. "That feeling of completeness. The happiness and warmth. That feeling that what had just happened had only happened between the both of you."

It finally sunk in on Donna. "Oh…that feeling. But, Jackie…I'm betting that with time, you would eventually feel it. I mean, for how long did the both of you have sex for?"

"Two months."

"Two months?!"

"Yup."

"And nothing."

Jackie shook her head. "Nothing."

Donna was in complete shock. "Wow."

"Yeah. I thought the same too. That maybe the more we did it, the faster the feeling would come to me. But it just didn't. The sex just felt like…" she paused. She again was trying to find the right word.

Donna frowned. "Like what?"

Then, it hit Jackie. "Like Michael."

Donna chuckled, bewildered. "Like what?"

"Like when I would have sex with Michael. I mean, there was the passion in having sex with both of them, but that completeness was never felt. I didn't really ever feel the connection with either of them. But I'd rather choose Evan, though. Cuz I know he never cheated on me. He, unlike Michael, is dependable and kind.

"So, there you go. That's the real reason. Now lets change the damn subject." She began to wash some dishes. "How you been? Anything new?"

A big smile spread across Donna's face. "Well…" she said in that very happy and excited tone of hers.

Jackie's eyes grew wide. "What? What happened." She gasped. "Oh…did Eric finally propose…for a second time?!"

Donna frowned. "How did you know he was gonna propose?"

Jackie rolled her eyes. "Donna, come one, it's me." She went back to her chair and sat down. "I just…I can't believe he finally proposed. What took the idiot so long?"

"Well Miss Sensitive, if you don't remember, he had to save up to buy the perfect ring," Donna said on the other line as she stared at her perfect engagement ring.

"Yeah, I'm guessing he had to make up for that other small, stupid ring he go you in high school," Jackie said as she remembered that small ass diamond that Forman had given her best friend. "God, that was a miserable little piece of dirt--litterally."

Donna let out a chuckle. "And that, too." She wasn't going to deny it. Her last engagement ring had been so tiny.

"Well, he better not run out on this one because I don't think I'd be able to contain myself from beating him up this time around," she warned.

"Contain yourself? Jackie, when you first saw Eric right after he ran out the day before our wedding, you went directly to his shins. He had bruises for a month! I mean, you kept hitting the same spot to prolong his suffering."

Jackie rolled her eyes. "Well, is it my fault your stupid boyfriend has such sensitive, pale skin? And besides, I said 'beating him up', not hitting him, Donna."

"But you know Eric. Getting hit and getting beaten up basically mean the same thing."

Jackie made a noise that agreed with Donna as she nodded.

"So, what are you doing for the rest of the day?" Donna asked.

Jackie scrolled through her new Vogue Magazine. "Nothing much. I don't work until Friday."

"Oh, that's right. Because of the new job position that you started last week. So, how is it doing the weekend news?"

Jackie grinned. "So awesome! I still can't believe that after just working there for two months, they decided to put me on for 'Quick Reports' during the weekends. I mean, I only get to do it in the first five minutes of every hour, but still! I called Warner and gave him the good news. He actually talked to the producers here and told me that they told him that if I continue on like this then I could possibly move to the weekdays--since Janice is leaving for that job offer off in Florida. Isn't that awesome?! I mean, Janice covers the top news from 5AM to 7AM on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And next year, Craig is retiring! Deirdre is more than likely going to be taking his spot. And Greg will take Deirdre's old spot. And then his spot is open! I could then take his job as anchor!"

"I still can't believe you're getting so hyped up about a job, Jackie. You would have never been like this five years ago. Back when you still had those stupid stuffed animals."

Jackie smiled. "I know. I'm almost 21 and I seriously think that I'm a lot more mature than how I was just some years ago. I mean, I have my own place, my own car, my own bills, and I seriously believe I don't need a man to do well in this world."

"Wow, Jackie."

Jackie chuckled. "I know! I'm a new Jackie and I'm honestly not afraid, but excited. That old Jackie Burkhart died."

Donna shook her head. "Nope. I beg to differ. You'll always be the same Jackie…just, you'll be more mature. But, all in all, you're always gonna be you."

"I guess you're right."

"Yeah, I mean Hyde is one of the key points about you that will never change." A smile spread across her face.

"Yeah, he--wait, what?!" Jackie didn't understand what her friend was talking about.

Donna gave a little chuckle. "Yeah, Jackie. Hyde. Hyde will forever be the same person he meant to you just some years ago. Your…love."

Jackie rolled her eyes. "No, he's not, Donna."

"Yes, he is. You both still have the hots for one another--everyone can see it."

"Donna, for the hundredth time, Steven and I are just friends. We hang out, that's all."

"Yeah, you guys hang out practically every weekend. I really am amazed that you both haven't slept together already."

"Donna!"

"It's true! I'm telling you, it's only a matter of time."

"A matter of time for what?"

Donna rolled her eyes. "For this stupid little game that you guys are playing to end. At first it was cute, but now it's just getting annoying."

"Game? What game. Seriously, Donna, I don't know what you're talking about." She began to put away the dishes.

"Don't be stupid. You know what I'm talking about. This game between you and Hyde. You both act as if you don't care about each other any more, when you do. God, why don't you both just quit it and get together already? You know you want to."

"Ok, Donna, even if I were interested in Steven--which, I'm not--I could never get back together with him."

"And why's that?"

Jackie sighed. "You know why."

"No, I don't. Refresh my memory."

Jackie really didn't want to talk about this. It only upset her to think about the past. Yeah, she had forgiven Hyde and all, but it still hurt. She didn't think that she could ever forget. "There's a past between the both of us. A past that I really don't want to relive."

"But he's changed, Jackie. Just like you have."

Jackie was really disliking this conversation. "Look, Donna. I really don't want to talk about this anymore. I gotta go."

"But Jackie--"

"Bye, Donna." She hung up before her friend could continue on. She continued to clean her kitchen up, trying to distract herself from Donna's stupid words. She opened up the refrigerator and tried to find what she could have for dinner.

You both still have the hots for one another…. It's only a matter of time….

Jackie slammed the refrigerator door shut. "Stupid Donna. What does she know?"

She decided to skip dinner and started to get ready for bed.

However, that whole night she couldn't sleep. She tossed and tossed and couldn't get a comfortable spot. She punched at her stupid pillows, furious that Donna's stupid voice was still ringing inside her stupid head.

Then, it happened…. She was reliving one of the most hurtful moments of her life. And she couldn't stop it. She tried to block it…but she couldn't…her thoughts overpowered her.

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Jackie was trying telling Hyde everything that had really happened the day before between her and Kelso. She wanted him to believe her. "So I was in the den and Michael came over, all upset--"
She didn't notice that Hyde was trying to make her stop talking.

She just kept rambling on. "And Steven I asked him to leave--"
Still, she didn't notice Hyde trying to tell her something.

"And that's when you saw us, but I swear nothing happened!"
This time, she finally heard him. "Jackie, stop talking! Look I know all this know okay? But before I knew…I was at the hotel last night, and I was really mad," his voice broke a little then. He sounded a little hurt.

Something tugged at Jackie's heart. She knew she had done nothing wrong. But that didn't stop the fact that she hated being the reason for any kind of hurt that Hyde was feeling.

She noticed that he wasn't really making eye contact, however. His eyes were a little sad now that she was noticing. That look looked a little familiar to her, but she just couldn't put her finger on it.

Hyde kept talking. "There was this nurse…"

Then it hit her. She recognized that look. It was the same look Kelso always had after-- She felt something stab her in the stomach and heart. Frustration as well as sadness consumed her.

He wasn't looking at her now, looking guilty as hell. "And--" He stopped for a split second.
And however hurtful it was making her feel, Jackie still wanted to hear the words. The words she had always wanted Kelso to admit to her before she had found out by herself--which was always more hurtful. She wanted to know if Hyde had the balls enough to actually own up to it before he got caught by her. "And what?" she demanded.
He turned to her, seeing the hurt and anger in her eyes--mainly the hurt. He had never felt lower than how he did right now. He knew she knew. Jackie wasn't stupid. But…he wanted her to know. Maybe if he let her know, then she could be as forgiving as she had been with Kelso. A big part of him--a big
stupid­ part of him--had great hope that she would still want to be with him. He was more than willing to give it a shot. "And I'm really sorry, okay? I promise it'll never happen again." He gave a silent prayer that she would forgive him and they could move pass this.
Those words just fueled Jackie to more anger.
How dare he?!! He knew what she had lived through! How could he ever think-- "That's exactly what Michael used to say!" Tears threatened to come out.
It felt as if someone had just punched him in the stomach. He had always hated being compared to Kelso…and right now, it topped all moments. However, this time, deep down he knew he deserved it. However, Kelso hadn't deserved Jackie. Unlike Hyde, Kelso never really cared or lov-- Hyde stopped himself. He needed for Jackie to forgive him. Maybe if she did, then he'd finally feel that she
did love him--that she cared more about him than she ever did Kelso. If she did forgive him and was still willing to stay with him, maybe he would finally tell her... Maybe… "C'mon Jackie--"
Jackie knew what was next to come out of his mouth. She had heard it a dozen times for almost two years. "No. You know what Steven? I'm sorry." She wanted the ground to swallow her whole. However, she held onto what little strength she had left. "It's over." She dashed out of there before he could stop her. Before he grabbed her arm and gave her that look that sent her weak to the knees.

She ran for what seemed like hours. She finally came to an alley and felt not only her knees give--but her entire body. She burst into tears and her entire body shook like crazy.

His words rung into her ears over and over again. She made a fist and hit the ground as hard as she could, not feeling the pain. How could he do this to her? HOW?! What had she done? Didn't he care--? Did he ever care?

The tears weren't stopping. Her body wasn't stopping. Then…she couldn't breathe. She couldn't catch a breath.

"Jackie! Just breathe. Breathe." Donna had a hand on Jackie's back. When Donna had gotten to the Hub, Fez told her everything that had happened. And when she saw Hyde completely out of it as he drove away on his car, it didn't take her long to guess what had happened. She decided to go and look for Jackie. Knew her friend was gonna need a lot of comforting.

Jackie hadn't seen her friend come in. Didn't even notice that Donna was trying to talk to her to relax her.

Then, out of nowhere, Jackie began to throw up. The pain hit her entire body. She had never felt any sicker. She just kept throwing up, not being able to control her body. All that she kept thinking about over and over again--and it made her throw up more--was Hyde with another girl.

Idiotic questions kept popping in her head. Had the nurse been better than her? Had he cared for this slut? Was this nurse able to give Hyde what Jackie couldn't? Is that why he had really cheated on Jackie with this chick?

After several minutes, Jackie stopped vomiting. She was able to sit down and control her breathing a lot more.

Donna was right there. Her hand was trying to soothe her friend.

Then, when Jackie had finally relaxed…the tears came back again. Her sobs were silent, but her pain could be felt for miles.

Donna herself had to bite back tears, and she wasn't much of a crier. However, seeing her friend like this broke her heart. She had never seen Jackie like this before. Jackie had always been cheated on by Kelso and Donna couldn't remember Jackie ever having this kind of reaction. Sure, Jackie cried--a lot--but she had never cried so hard she couldn't breathe. Much less vomit!

That's when it had hit Donna for the first time. That's when it sunk in that this thing between Hyde and Jackie wasn't just some phase. It was the real deal. Both loved each other. Jackie loved Hyde more than she had loved Kelso.

Jackie began to shiver.

Donna noticed then how cold it was getting and saw that Jackie didn't have a sweater on. She began to help Jackie up. "Come Jackie. We need to get you home."

It took long to get Jackie there. She kept throwing up and she could barely walk. When they had gotten to her house, she had fainted for about a minute. It was enough to make Donna almost call the ambulance. Jackie however had woken up and had made Donna stay at her side all that night.

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Remembering the feelings she had felt just some years ago brought her eyes to some tears.

The hurt was still there. After all these years, Jackie thought that it would go away. But she was more than wrong. She didn't think anymore that they would ever go away. She would never forget. Just like she would never forget that day that she had found out about Sam.

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"Oh, my god." Jackie got up off of the Formans' couch and walked out of the living room. What the hell?! He got married? In Vegas? With that skank?! She needed to get the hell out of there.

Jackie walked pass the Pinciotti home. A big part of her wanted to talk to Donna and be comforted. But the other part of her just wanted to be alone right now. She wanted no one near her.

She got into her car and began to drive to her home. No one was there. Her mother had said she was going to be gone for a few weeks and wouldn't be back until the end of summer. That house was perfect for her right now. It was empty.

Jackie tried to control her breathing. Tears were more than ready to come out. She held them back as much as she could. She didn't want to cry there in the streets. Everyone in this stupid small town was a snitch and word would get out to everyone quick about how weak Jackie Burkhart looked. No, she didn't want people talking about her that way…not when the news could reach Hyde.

She took deep breaths and drove as fast as she could.

When she finally got to her driveway, she dashed out of there and went directly to her room.

She locked it, just to be safe. She didn't want Donna to turn up there unexpectedly. She couldn't face her right now.

She went over to her bed and grabbed one of her stuffed animals. She hugged it tight as she allowed the tears to finally come down.

It didn't take long before her entire body began to shake. Soon, she was sitting in her bathroom, throwing up. The memories of when Hyde had cheated on her kept coming back to her mind.

And she began to doubt it all again. Doubt that Hyde had ever loved her. Doubt that he had ever cared for her.

Some hours passed and Jackie was able to control herself. She felt better. A lot better.

She brushed her teeth and looked up at the mirror. God, she looked like a mess. Her eyes were puffy and red. Her entire face was flushed and her hair was a disaster.

Then, anger began to build up. "What's wrong with you, girl? You are Jackie B. Burkhart. The hottest girl in Point Place. You are worth a lot more than this. This…boy is not worth any of your tears. You were able to move on from Michael Kelso. I think you can learn to forget about Steven Hyde."

Her confidence began to come back again. She swallowed hard and felt determination as she stared at herself in the mirror. "You will move on. You are better than this. Understand? You don't need that stupid Hyde. You never did." She took a deep breath and smiled. "I am Jackie B. Burkhart. And you, Steven Hyde, will not break me. We are through."

She felt a weird change begin to form in her. She put away that Jackie that had once loved Hyde. That Jackie that still wanted him back. She was going to be a different Jackie. A Jackie that no one knew . She told herself that she was now over her stupid ex and that she would be strong.

She began to wash up her face and fixed her hair. She needed to get herself ready to go back to the Formans. She needed to officially end it. End it all with Hyde.

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The Sam incident had been the trigger for Jackie. Jackie had always gotten hurt in her relationships, but never of those times that she had gotten hurt had she changed drastically…for the bad. And after Sam, Jackie had stopped being so much like herself. It was as if the laughter had died out of her. Whenever she would laugh, it was empty and dry. It was as if it was a robot that was living in her for those last few months in 1979.

But, she had come back. In January of 1980, she had slowly been brought back. And until recently, she was beginning to feel like her self again. That strangeness--aka, Robot Jackie--had died away.

She turned to the side and noticed the letter that Hyde had given her after her graduation. A smile spread across her face.

Hyde definitely wasn't the same as he had been before. She knew he wouldn't hurt her anymore. They were now great friends and Jackie didn't want to damage that. She treasured their friendship too much to try anything with Hyde.

And that's what scared her most. Deep down inside of her she knew she still had strong feelings for Hyde. She didn't want to admit it out loud--ever--but it was a fact that Jackie could not lie to herself about. But she had to be strong. She couldn't let her emotions get in the way of her friendship with Hyde. She cared too much about it. But, it still frightened her that one of these days, her emotions were going to win the best of her…and it would just be the end of the friendship. Her and Hyde had already tried it a million times. Who was to say that if they were to get together again, how their friendship would end up. Would they actually make it this time? Or would the relationship end just like all the other times before? She didn't think her heart could take another breakup. Plus…she needed Hyde in her life.

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May 14, 1982; Friday

6:02 PM

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Jackie heard the doorbell ring. She ran to go get it. She took a peek in her peephole to see who it was.

Hyde was standing on the other side of the door. Zep was in his arms. "Will you hurry your ass up? It's freaking freezing out here!" He shivered.

Jackie frowned. She immediately opened her door. "Steven? What are you doing here?"

Hyde let himself in and put Zep down on the floor. "Zep's a little hungry, I think. You have any leftovers she could eat?"

Jackie closed and locked her doors. "I actually have some dog food for her." She made her way into the kitchen.

Hyde followed her, frowning. "You have a dog now?"

"No," Jackie responded as she went into a cupboard and pulled out a bag with dog food in it.

"Then why do you have it?"

Jackie grabbed a small bowl and began to feed Zep. "Well, I figured that you always come every month--and always without food for Zep--so I might as well have some for whenever you decide to show up." She went back to her cupboard and pulled out another tray. "Come on Zep. Eat up. I'm gonna get you some water too." She began to fill the bowl up with water.

Zep happily went to eat her food, wagging her tail all along.

"Thanks, Jacks."

Jackie placed the water bowl next to the dog. "No problem." Then she turned to Hyde and gave him a small hug. "So, what brings you around here?"

Hyde shrugged. "Pete's off with the wife and kids for the weekend and…I was bored. So…"

"Well, it's glad to know that I'm second choice." She gave him a teasing smile.

"Um…I actually called Forman after that, but he told me that he and Donna were having a romantic weekend tomorrow. So…"

Jackie rolled her eyes. "Fine, then. Third."

Hyde gave a small fake exhale. "Oooh. Well…I called Kelso after that. He was busy with Brooke and Betsy. They were going to Six Flags…and taking Fez--who was next on the list."

Jackie gave Hyde a fake death stare. "Fine. Fifth."

Again, Hyde gave a fake exhale. "Uh…well…I actually then called the Formans--"

"The Formans!" Jackie placed her hands on her hips. "You thought of hanging out with the oldest--most boring--couple in the state of Wisconsin first before me? Next thing I know is that you were trying to reach Laurie before me!" She began to furiously wash her dishes.

Zep had stopped eating her food. She was now staring at both humans, silent. It seemed as if she always enjoyed watching both. Whether it was arguing or laughing, it was always entertaining to watch these two idiots interact with one another. You never knew what you were going to get from the conversations.

"Well…" Hyde began.

Jackie turned towards him, holding a knife on her hand. "What?" She looked like she was more than ready to stab him right then and there.

Hyde chuckled. "C'mon, Jackie."

Jackie shook her head. "Not a good joke, Steven."

After several minutes of silence, Hyde decided to break it. An evil smile spread across his face. "So, Jackie…"

"Yeah?" Jackie saw from the corner of her eye that Zep was starting to look a little bored. She went back to her cupboard and pulled out a small ball. She tossed it over to Zep, who happily went after it.

Zep went over to Hyde and gave it to him. He took it and tossed it across the room towards Jackie's direction. "I heard that…" he tried his hardest to hold back his laugh. "That, uh…Evan wasn't that great in the sack."

Jackie's eyes shot fireballs at him at that moment.

He was laughing so hard right now that he looked like he was about to roll over.

She took the ball away from Zep and threw it directly to Hyde's face.

It hit him right on the nose. "Ow!"

"Jerk," Jackie said looking a little satisfied when she saw that his nose was very red. It looked as if it was going to leave a big mark for the rest of the week.

Zep barked a little to her owner and wagged her tail as her tongue hung out of her mouth. She looked happy.

Jackie started to laugh at this.

Hyde got up from his chair and began to go after Jackie. "Sure, laugh it off Cheerleader. I'm still gonna have the last laugh." That evil smile appeared on his face again.

Jackie got to her feet immediately. "Steven…don't." She got herself ready to run.

Hyde's smile didn't fade.

"Steven, don't," she said again.

He was still not stopping.

She ran to her room, laughing.

He came after her and was faster than her. He pushed open the door before she could even lock it. Once he got in there, she went to her bed to try to grab one of her pillows so she could hit him with it. However, she wasn't able to even lift it. Hyde came in and charged on her.

Jackie laughed. "Steven, get off!" She tried to push him off.

"Not til you say uncle." He began to tickle her along her sides.

Jackie then began to giggle. "Steven…stop." Her giggles were coming harder.

Hyde smiled. "Say it." He began to tickle her lower back.

"No," she let out. She giggled like crazy and still tried to get his heavy body off of her.

"Say it," he warned.

"Uncle," she barely muttered out. She was ready to pee on her damn pants.

"Again." His hand went a little lower.

"UNCLE!"

That's when he stopped. And when he did…he noticed the state that their bodies were in.

He was crushed on top of her. Their legs were intertwined with the each others. His hands were on her lower back. Her hands were rested on his shoulders. They were too close. Their lips seemed only a breath away…. Both leaned in a little more to fill in that small gap… So close… Their eyes closed….

Bark! Bark!

They both drew back and came back to their senses.

Jackie wiggled out of Hyde's embrace and got off of the bed. "What's up, Zep? Are you still hungry, girl? Lets go get you something more to eat. Come on."

Hyde watched her walk out of the room.

He had sensed it--he was sure of it. And he knew she had sensed it too. That closeness…. It just couldn't be denied.

And it hit Hyde then…. The time was almost there… It was very close….


OMG! What's gonna happen???

I always wanted to explore what happened to Jackie after the whole nurse thing. Cuz while I was watching that episode the first time, I couldn't stop crying. I was feeling what Jackie was feeling! And i just had to write down what I could only IMAGINE what Jackie was going through.

Also, i wanted to give an emphasis as to WHY Jackie was SOOOO un-Jackie during season 8. She wasn't so funny anymore (duh, STUPID writers). So, AGAIN, i'm picking up there mess and trying to give an explanation.

Hope you liked it! Please, leave reviews!!!

CHAPTER 10: "IT'S NOT OVER" by Daughtry

Hyde pays Jackie ANOTHER visit in Cleveland. We get to see what happened with HYDE after the whole nurse thing.