Hi everybody !
I'm sorry for the late chapter. I hope you will still read it. This is a Finn centric chapter but I think it's important for the next chapters.
Enjoy ^^
Almost every teenager had to do a choice for their future. They had to choose what they wanted to do in the future then what college to choose to do the job they wanted to do. For some, it was rather easy either because they knew what to do since they had been a child or because their parents decided for them. For others, it was a hard choice.
It was the case for Finn. Indeed, the teen had thought about that many times but he still didn't know what he wanted to do in the next years. Not because he still didn't find an interesting job (well it was one of the reasons) but the main reason was his family.
In one hand, he wanted to go to New York with Rachel (they were together since the end of the previous year, just after Nationals) because he wanted her in his life and he loved her but in the other hand, he didn't want to be away from his family. He will miss his parents, sure, but he was thinking about his brother. He didn't want to leave him. Kurt was young (he was going to be eight) and if he left for New York, he won't be able to see his brother grow up.
He knew even if he went to New York with Rachel, he still could see his brother for the holidays. Besides there were the phone and Skype. But it wasn't the same thing. If Kurt needed his help, he wouldn't be there to help him. And just thinking about that made him shiver. He had always helped his brother since the latter had been born.
He wanted to talk about that with somebody but he didn't know who. He wanted to talk with a person who had the same problem. Somebody who had siblings or family they didn't want to leave. Maybe talking with this kind of person could help him.
He hadn't talked with Rachel about that yet. He was afraid of her reaction. He knew she loved Kurt but New York had always been her dream. And sure Finn going with her would be a bonus but even if he wasn't with her, she would still go.
"Hey Finn," a voice said.
Finn jumped and raised his head. He was sat in the choir room for he wanted to be alone to think. Apparently, Sam found him since he was at the door with his guitar.
"What do you do here ?" Finn asked.
Sam walked in the room.
"I could ask you the same question. But if you want to know, I just want to play a little," Sam said showing his guitar. "And you ?"
"Oh nothing. Just thinking."
"About what if you don't mind ?" Sam asked as he sat beside Finn.
The quarterback sighed. He looked at his friend. Then he remembered about Sam and his family. He had two siblings so maybe he could help him.
"About the future."
Sam immediately understood. It was his final year too.
"It's a hard choice to do but I thought you already knew what to do. I thought you wanted to continue the football."
"I know. It's just…" Finn sighed and started to talk about his hesitations, his doubts. Sam listened carefully. Eventually he finished his explanation and waited. The blond teen ran his tongue on his lips before speaking.
"I understand. I don't want to leave my family, especially because they need me. I want to become a musician but I can't go to New York. Even if I have a scholarship. But only you can make your choice, Finn. You just have to think about what you think is right."
Finn thought about Sam's words for a moment before nodding.
"Thanks, Sam," he said, standing up. "I'm going to let you play. See you tomorrow."
The tall teen left with Sam's words in his head.
When Finn came at home, he just had the time to put down his bag before a body clung to his legs.
"Finn !" Kurt exclaimed.
Finn laughed and caught Kurt before lifting him.
"Hi kiddo. Did school go well today ?"
Kurt nodded.
"I have the best grade at math test. Artie said I was the best."
"That's my boy. I'm proud of you. Do mom and dad know about it ?"
"Yes. Mom said I could have ice cream at the diner."
"That's great !"
Finn took his bag and with Kurt still in his arms (he knew his brother was too old to be carried but apparently it didn't bother the youngest brother), he went upstairs. Once he was in his room, he put his bag next to his desk then he sat down on his bed.
"Do you have homework to do ?" he asked. Kurt nodded.
"We can do homework together then after we can…" Kurt stopped his sentence.
Finn looked at him frowning. He could see his brother wanted to say something but he hesitated. Usually when Kurt did that, that's either because it was something serious or because he was afraid of the reaction. So Finn put a hand on his back and started to make invisible circles. He wanted to encourage him to talk.
Kurt sighed and finally decided to say what he wanted to do.
"Can you teach me how to play drums ?"
Finn blinked, not expecting this question. He knew his baby brother loved when he played drums but he had never said one day he was interesting by learning how to play.
"But I thought you love playing piano."
Kurt nodded.
"I do but… I want you to teach me. It's fun when you play."
Finn swallowed.
"O-Okay, if you're sure."
Kurt beamed and put his arms around his brother's neck to hug him.
"Thank you, thank you. You're the best brother ever."
Finn smiled and hugged back his little brother. He loved when he made his brother happy.
When homework was finished, Finn took Kurt where the drums were. In the basement. Kurt was so excited that he jumped. His older brother found him so cute he ruffled Kurt's hair. The latter pushed his hand away, making Finn laugh.
Finn sat on the chair before the drums and lifted Kurt to put him on his lap. While the little boy made himself comfortable, Finn took his drumsticks.
"Okay. Instead of starting now, I'm going to show you the different parts and explain you why they're here."
Kurt nodded excited. He carefully listened to his brother who showed him the different parts of the drums. Everytimes he showed him a part, Kurt stared at it as if it will reveal him all its secrets. Finn told him what the parts did. Then he hit them with his drumsticks to show him the sounds they made.
"Do you want I explain again or did you understand ?"
"No, I'm good. "
Finn smiled, happy his brother listened to him. After showing him the different parts of the drums, he told him how to hold the sticks. This time, Finn had to explain several times but Kurt still got that.
Now Kurt knew about drums, the tall quarterback could start to teach him how to play the instrument. They spent their time laughing and playing drums until Carole came to tell them to come for the dinner. Finn put down the drumsticks and looked at his brother who was smiling.
"So did you have fun ?"
Kurt nodded happily.
"Can we play again later ? "
Finn laughed and took his brother in his arms before standing up.
"Yes, of course."
The little boy shouted a happy 'yeah' which made Finn laugh. The latter put Kurt down and ruffled his hair.
"Come on. We have to go upstairs for dinner."
Eventually Finn couldn't avoid the discussion with Rachel any longer. But he was surprised that Rachel wanted to talk about future weeks later.
They were in Rachel's room, on her bed. Rachel was talking and Finn smiled at her, listened to her distractedly. That's why he didn't hear her when she started to talk about future and New York and Broadway. So when he realized she became silent, he focused on her. She stared at him with her arms crossed on her chest.
"Finn, are you listened to me ?"
The tall boy blinked for a moment before shaking his head.
"Sorry. Go on, I'm listening now."
"Great. So when we are at New York, we should search for a flat. No way I'm sharing a room on the campus. Besides my dads told me they'll give me the money for the apartment. You know as soon as I was born, they started to put money on an account for me when I go to New York."
"What ?"
All Finn had heard was Rachel saying the part about New York, them and a flat. He knew Rachel made plans for New York but he still wasn't ready to hear them. In fact, he thought he finally knew what he will do the next year. But he knew his plans wouldn't please his girlfriend. And he dreaded her reaction.
Rachel sighed and looked at Finn exasperated.
"Finn, we have already talked about that, don't you remember ?"
"But…"
Rachel, who had stood up as she talked, sat down beside Finn and put a hand on his arm. She looked at him, worry in her brown eyes.
"What's wrong, Finn ?"
The tall boy lowered his head and stared at his hands, not sure how to tell his girlfriend what he was thinking. Seeing her boyfriend didn't answer, Rachel asked a question.
"Is it about college ? Because Finn, I'm sure a recruter will appreciate your talent at football and you'll have your scholarship."
Finn swallowed nervously.
"Rachel, I thought a lot about my future and… I think I finally know what I want to do the next year."
Rachel took Finn's hand and smiled.
"I think I… I think I'll stay here in Ohio."
The small diva opened her mouth to say something but nothing came. She tried to find her words but she didn't manage.
"Why ?" she finally whispered.
Finn raised his head and looked at her.
"I can't stay away from my family, Rachel."
The girl frowned.
"You mean you can't stay away from your brother," she accused.
The quarterback sighed.
"Don't put the blame on my brother, Rachel. Yes, I love my brother and yes, I can't not be here for him. I mean, he's just seven and I know he needs me. Besides…"
Finn stopped. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. Rachel stared at him, tears in her eyes, waiting for her boyfriend to keep talking.
"I don't think I'm good for New York. I mean, did you see my grades ? No college at New York will accept me."
Rachel took Finn's hands and looked at him intensely. She shook her head.
"No, Finn. Don't say that. I'm sure a college will accept you but you can't know if you don't try."
Finn sighed again. Rachel kept watching him. She could see Finn won't change his mind and she didn't like it. She really wanted Finn with her at New York. If they didn't go at New York Together, she knew they'll break up. This kind of relationship never lasted.
"And did you think about what you want to do at college ? Music ? Football ?"
The tall quarterback looked at her.
"I… I want to be a music teacher."
Rachel blinked several times. She didn't expect this answer. In fact, she thought Finn was going to say something about football or something about sport. But a music teacher ? Finn wanted to be a music teacher ?
"W-What ? B-But why ?"
Finn turned his head and thought about the moment he had spent with his brother weeks ago. It was a good memory. He could remember the happiness of this moment.
"Kurt asked me to teach him how to play drums. He really wanted so I said yes. I was happy to teach him something. Besides my brother is a good student. He still wants to learn so I teach him. But this moment in the basement… I realized how much I loved teaching Kurt how to play. So I want to teach other kids to see their happiness."
Rachel could see her boyfriend was sincere so she smiled. She smiled then took his hand.
"I can see how much you want to be a music teacher so I want to support you. Even if you're not in New York with me, I want you to be happy."
Finn stared at her and smiled. He leaned down and kissed her.
"Thanks, Rachel. I love you."
The school year was finished. The seniors were graduated and were ready to go to college for most of them. Some stayed in Lima, others went to different states. When Kurt learnt Rachel will go to New York, the little boy became upset. He didn't want her to go. Who will give him his lessons ? Who will watch with him Broadway musicals ?
Seeing his brother sad, Finn decided to talk with him. When he saw him in his room, he knocked at the door.
"Can I come in ?" he asked.
Kurt raised his head and when he saw his brother, he nodded. Finn thanked him then went to sit down beside him on the bed. Not knowing how to start the conversation, the tall young man watched the boy. His blue eyes looked at his pale hands. Eventually he started to talk.
"Listen Kurt. I know you're upset about Rachel leaving but she had to. It's her dream to go to New York to become a star."
Kurt sighed.
"I know but I won't see her anymore."
Finn put an arm around Kurt's shoulders.
"Kurt, you know it's wrong. Rachel will come back at holidays and there is Skype and the phone. I know you'll miss her, I'll miss her too, but she won't forget you."
Kurt raised his head to look at his brother.
"You won't ever leave me, will you ? Because I don't want to be alone."
"Oh Kurt…"
Seeing tears in his little brother's eyes, Finn took his brother in his arms and hugged him.
"I'll never leave you, Kurt. I love you so much to do that."
Kurt seemed to like these words for he tightened his arms around Finn's neck. The two brothers stayed like that for a moment before Finn moved.
"Besides I'll probably become your music teacher in the next years."
That made Kurt laugh. Finn smiled, thinking about what he just said. Yeah, it would be so cool to be his brother's teacher.
I hope this chapter pleased you. It was the last chapter with little boy!Kurt. The next ones will be about teen!Kurt.
Now, if you have ideas, don't hesitate to give me prompts.
Happy New Year in advance !
