Chapter 9-

Isabella's POV-

I laid in my bed, with my eyes squeezed shut. I knew if I opened them I would begin to cry and I can't begin to explain to you how much I hate crying. Crying was for the weak, for the mercyful. I was neither.

"Did you know..." The bed sunk a little under my mother's weight. She drew me closer and put my head in her lap to stoke my hair.

"Mother, i am in no mood for one of your stories." I told her sternly.

"Hush up and listen! Did you know you've stopped yourself from crying just like this when you were little?" I heard a smile in her voice and peeked out to look. Of course there was a smile on her face just as i suspected. "Does it work?"

"Not when i open my eyes!" I told her honestly.

she sighed and sat me upright. "What's the matter my Love. Come on, talk to me."

There was so much wrong. So much i don't know where to begin. My mother is and always was kind and tender. How would she react to this news?

"He doesn't like me!" I decide to begin with. "He hates me. It hasn't changed and it won't. I bet he never even planned to make me an alpha! I'm a fool. When we were with the Bloodstone, he swore to me I'd make a great leader. Now he's going back on his word...like always."

One deceiving tear drop found it's way out of my closed eyes and trickled down my cheek. It sparked an anger in me. I wanted to punch something. Someone...Myself. It burned like hot fire on my face. Mother seemed to get that abs wiped it way with her thumb.

"He's right. I don't make decisions like max. I couldn't even begin to think about torturing that poor girl."

"Of course you don't make decisions like your brother." Mother hissed at me, making me flinch. "But that is what makes you, you. I know you wouldn't have tortured her, mate or not, you wouldn't have done it. You would have thought up some other to make her gifts show themselves. This is why you are special my dear, this is you'd make a better leader than your brother."

I didn't believe that. Max was lucky enough to become a fully recognized Alpha the minute he turned 18. His chosen pack members were strong and hardy. It was Max who nearly drove the bloodsuckers into extinction. It was Max who forced them out of the four clans and into the dark where they belonged. His reign was short but like Father's it was great. In a short fifteen years, he was ready and great enough to be put amongst the elders on the council. I always admired him...until now. it still made sense as to why Father would choose him to take the crown and not me.

"If it were up to me My love, you would already have the thrown." Mother whispered to me. "You make decision's faster, to honor and save the ones you love-

"Father said i'd put my pack on the line that way." i interrupt her. She rolls her eyes. "He said i didn't think, just acted. And he wasn't wrong. I wasn't thinking."

No i really wasn't because if i were I would have waited to attack Max. I would have waited till i was an Alpha, till i was stronger. Then i would tie him up and make hin feel every slow painful wound as i took my sweet time killing him.

"Isabella... Trust me. You are a better alpha than he gives you credit for."

we sat in a moment of silence for a while. Mother wasn't a liar. She never sugar coated anything and us like it is. Like she once told me a story of how Father raped her because she didn't want to lay with him. The point of the story was: he didn't ask twice. He just took. So I am not sure why i have the nagging feeling she's lying to make me feel better.

"I don't think i made a mistake with Alice either. The night i found her I saw something, something i can't explain. It made me want to take her under me...i wanted her to be safe under my captivity. I believe she is good and will be a nice change for all of us. I can't explain why...i just know. I know it in my heart she is the one. Like it's zeus speaking to me or something." I slowly open my eyes feeling much better now that i'm speaking of Alice. Just hearing her name soothes me.

"I understand. And believe me this morning i saw it too. There's something about her that screams 'leader.' You can see it in her eyes she will be good for the kingdom. We just need to make her realize this." i sigh in relief she saw Alice the same way i did.

Something was great about that girl. It wasn't just her gift either. Something about her was special.

My fingers clench as i begin to think about Max again. How dare he? How dare he? Rob her of her innocent like she was some toy he could deface. I will show him. He will not get away with touching my things so easy.

I am suppose to be protecting her and instead i let that happen. I'm such a terrible mate. i swear to her...I won't let it happen again.

"So..." Mother says. The tone in her voice lighter, more playful. It lets me know the previous conversation is over and new one is about to start. "How was it?" she grind like a fool making me smile.

"How was what?" I know exactly what she speaks of but it's fun to play dumb sometimes.

"Oh you know, the sex!"

MOTHER!" I grin my face beginning to feel flushed with embarrassment. Leave it to Marie not to hold anything back.

"I want to know every detail. Go on, I'm listening."

"No!" I tell her sternly.

"Oh come on, i'm your mother! I know exactly what you have down there. i carried your fat head for nine months, you owe me!" I blush deeper.

Oh great. Here we go...


Short chapter i know. sorry? We got a nice little peak of what goes on in Bella's head.

any questions? Please review. I love those things,

Till next time

*flies away*