Harry POV.
I stared at Alice as she gave a gasp and let a vision overcome her. Once her eyes seemed to glaze over, I shut my eyes, trying to stop the guilt I was feeling. I looked at Edward as he frowned in confusion.
"I never meant for this to happen" I said softly, looking into his eyes and blocking everything and everyone else out.
"I was never meant to become a vampire. When I died, I was meant to become a Whitelighter, helping to guide new witches. I was to give up everything, my brothers and sisters, James and Hogwarts and most of all, you. Instead, I was given a choice, a choice to be selfish or to forget what I held close to me. I decided to take the latter option. There was a catch though. I was to take something as a trade. I was meant to take something in a trade for me to still be here" I continued, speaking quite quickly while still staring into Edward's eyes.
Edward's eyes now held a look of anger and betrayal in them and I was afraid to continue and tell him the rest but I knew I had to, in order for him to understand what had happened.
"What were you meant to trade?" He asked of me, no emotion in his voice.
"The soul of a vampire" I answered him, finally tearing my eyes from his to stare out the window.
"Why?" Edward asked me and I closed my eyes.
"I wanted to be selfish for once and have something that I wanted, which was you" I told him, trying to let him know how honest I was with my words.
"Get out" He said and I snapped my eyes open to stare at him.
Betrayal. Anger. Loathing. They were the emotions that I could see in his eyes and I was afraid to turn and look at the others, positive that I would see the same in their eyes too. I nodded my head and turned to go out the side door. I had gripped the door knob when his next words froze me.
"I never want you to return. I never want see your face again. Your parents and your family would be so ashamed of you" He said coldly and then, I was running through the forest, trying to forget what had happened but knowing that it had.
I ran as fast as I could, as fast as I could, trying to get as far away as I could. I knew, that if I were human, I would have tears streaming down my cheeks like mini waterfalls. His last words to me were true, My siblings and parents would all be ashamed of me. I knew the laws and rules regarding our magic. An let it harm none, do as ye will. I had failed, almost harming the man I loved and it had cost me my family. Then there was the law of 3. Whatever was sent out, came back threefold. They were basic rules to live by and I had basically broken both of them.
I stopped my running when I thought I was far enough away. I looked around and found the tallest tree I could and climbed to the top of it. I looked at the moon, hoping I could find the answers that I needed, hiding in it's face.
"Someone's changed me
Something's saved me
And this is who I am
Although I was blinded
My heart let me find out
That truth makes a better man
I didn't notice
That you were right in front of me
Our masks of silence
We'll put away so we can see"
I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You
I gave off a bitter laugh as I thought over the lyrics that I had just softly woven into the noises of the night. It was amusing to think that a lot of it applied to me and yet, a lot of it was also false. I had betrayed them, all of them for my own selfish purposes and I had been thrown out. I understood that they had every right to do so but it hurt and I just wish that they could see it from my perspective. I had done it, not only for myself but so that I could remain with them, with everyone I loved and cared about. I guess, now that I am sitting in this tree, that it would have been better if I had never heard of the choice to become a vampire and accept my fate as a Whitelighter with no family and no love. Standing on my branch, I dropped down and landed gracefully on the ground. I gave a sigh as I looked at the moon before calling a name out into the night, hoping that I had made the right choice and that everyone would be happy and better off.
Desdemona POV.
I gave out a scream of anger and frustration as I saw what had occurred at my little vampire's home. I had worked so hard to have it set up so I could steal two vampires souls instead of just one, as I had told the newborn. The spell would be useless without the souls and now, the little vampire had gone and called an Elder. It was not fair. I just wanted 2 souls that belonged to vampires.
I sighed as I sat down again and began to think over my other options as to what I could do to get my hands on 2 vampire souls. It would have been better if I could get the newborn's and his mate's but it would seem that I would have to go about getting someone else's soul. It would have to do, if I were to go through with my plans.
Edward POV.
I stood in the same spot, frozen as I trued to find an answer as to why he would do such a thing. I blocked out the thoughts around me, not wanting to hear them as I try to find an answer to what Harry had done. I could come with none, only that he was selfish. I wanted to break down and cry, wanted to throw things around the place, destroy everything that reminded me of him, wanted to hurt him and yet, love him at the same time. I wanted answers. I didn't feel as the ones he gave were good enough for what he had tried to do. At least, he had answered one of the questions I had desired to find the answer a long time ago. Did a vampire have a soul? Yes, they did and now, I finally knew that.
A/N: Sorry for the long wait, but here is the next chapt. I dont know where Im going with this story anymore but it's fun trying to find out. Hope you enjoy it and that your happy with it. I need some more ideas, so please give me some suggestions. Anywho, please leave a review and hope you had fun.
P.S. Updates may take longer now as I am at TAFE.
