Casual


"I love you."

I blinked.

"What?" I said stupidly, because I heard her perfectly the first time.

"You heard me," She teased, blushing a little. "I said I love you."

I stared again. I couldn't start hoping. She had just had on orgasm, right? Maybe the post-coitus thing was messing with her brains, or her emotions or whatever. But I could not start to hope that Ally and I could be together, only to have that hope shattered.

I shook my head. "Stop messing with me, Ally," I muttered, burying my head in her hair. "It's not funny."

I was spooning her, so she was turned around and couldn't see me. She broke free from my grasp, and turned around so she was on her back. "I'm not messing with you."

"Okay," I allowed. "But you mean that in a friendly way, right?"

She shook her head. "No. I don't. I mean I love you. I really do, Austin."

I gulped, and bit my lip a little harder than necessary. To distract myself from what I should feel. From how happy I should be right now.

"You don't mean that." I muttered.

"I do-"

"You don't."

"Look, Austin, I get it. You're trying to change my mind about this because you don't feel the same way, but that's not going to change how I feel-"

I shook my head. "You're crazy, Ally."

Her shoulders slumped. "Thanks."

I shook my head again. "No, I didn't mean..." I sighed, titling her head upwards so I could look into her eyes. "Ally, I love you, too. But I just need to know that this isn't a heat-of-the-moment thing. That you mean it."

A small smile graced her lips. "Okay. Where do I begin? Well, there's the obvious fact that I wanted you specifically when I could have had anybody else. I think that's when I realized I loved you - but it was a subconscious thing. I didn't realize it properly until after the least time we did this," She gestured at our nakedness. "And I was hurting. And so were you. And I hated that. I hated myself for it."

I tried to interrupt her, but she went on before I could.

"And I also hated myself for being so selfish. I put our whole friendship at risk because of something I wanted. And I did the same thing again tonight, I guess. And-"

"Ally," I interrupted her. She looked like she was about to burst into tears. She ignore me and continued.

"But even though I did all that, I do still love you. I know it's hard to believe, because I was so stupid-"

"Ally, don't-"

"-And idiotic-

"-Don't do this to yourself-"

"-And just plain dumb-"

I sighed, and covered her mouth with my hand. She narrowed her eyes at me, but kept trying to talk.

I placed my other hand just below her waist, and her breath caught in her throat, and she gave up on her efforts to speak.

Not for long, though.

Soon she was furiously licking the palm of my hand, and I rolled my eyes.

"You think that's gonna make me stop?" I asked, my hand travelling lower. She spread her legs for me, and I chuckled quietly, feeling her wetness with my fingers.

She stopped struggling immediately.

"Always so ready," I muttered, before looking back at her.

"If I take my hand off your mouth, do you promise to stop your rambling?"

I saw her frown.

"Any other time, your rambling is adorable, trust me. But you're making yourself feel bad for no reason."

She raised her eyebrows in defiance.

I sighed, looking back down to where her legs were still spread, and stroked her clit with my thumb. I made sure I did it hard enough that she was aroused, but lightly enough that she couldn't come.

Her breath came in labored pants, and I watched her chest rising and falling erratically, the effect it had on me growing stronger.

It didn't take long for her to get impatient.

About fifty seconds later, she was moaning in frustration.

"Promise to stop rambling?" I asked, positioned my middle finger at her entrance and looking at her face.

She nodded, and I removed my hand from her mouth cautiously.

I pushed my finger into her slowly, and she let out a long, low moan. Fuck, I almost moaned, as well.

Her warm, slick walls contracted around my finger, and the small whimpers escaping from her turned me on all the more.

My thumb returned to her clit, stroking it with intention now

"You're not dumb," I told her, remembering the words she used to describe herself.

"Or stupid," I continued. "Or selfish. You can't possibly think that you're the only one who wanted this. Don't be so hard on yourself."

"But-"

"Nuh-uh," I stopped her, curling my fingers inside of her. She gasped, forgetting about talking, let out a moan so loud it was nearly a scream.

"Don't you dare disagree with me on this. I know I'm right."

I saw her shake her head quickly, still writhing on the bed.

I raised my eyebrows, curling my fingers again, stroking that spot inside of her that rendered her completely incapable of doing anything.

"What did I say about disagreeing?" I asked in a dis-approving tone.

I felt her walls throbbing and tightening around my fingers, and I knew she was close.

"No," I told her. "hold it."

"Austin," She moaned. "I need to - I can't-"

"Do you agree with me yet?" I asked, smirking at her predicament.

"Um- I-"

"Say yes, and you can cum," I told her, my fingers twisting inside of her.

She nodded. "Okay! Okay. I agree with you - I'm - I'm not stupid or - or selfish," She said in a strained voice.

I nodded, stopping my moments for a minute. "Damn straight."

"Austin," She moaned. "Please-"

Her eyes flickered shut, and I took my now almost painful erection in my hand, positioning myself.

I thrust in to her.

My vision became blurry.

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I would never have enough of this. Never.

Ally screamed then, as her walls gripped me in the way only she could. I kept my pace, slowing down, then going quicker.

Her hands came around to my back, gripping onto me, her nails digging into my flesh.

I bent closer to her, and my lips met hers. I trapped her bottom lip between my teeth, teasing her for a second before leaning in closer to kiss her.

I was close. Very close. And so was she.

"There's something I need to tell you," I whispered, my lips kissing the skin near her ear.

"Mm?" She replied, breathless.

I smiled, and looked at her again, kissing her and pulling back a little, so I was so close to her that our noses were touching. "I love you," I said, loving the way it sounded.


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Oh, and also, my best-friend - you know him, the one that helped me out when my arm was broken?

Yeah, he decided that he wants compensation.

So, he wants to write a chapter of this fic sometime soon - but only if you're okay with that.

So please say (in a review) whether or not you're okay with that.

If you're not, then I'll tell him no.

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