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Songs: Night of The Hunter (Flood Remix)-30 secs to Mars
Eet-Regina Spektor
Drowning in my loneliness,
How long must I hold my breath…..
EDWARD
Fuck, I was so screwed.
My heart stopped as I turned to face Bella, a guilty excuse upon my lips. Standing in front of me was the goddess Aphrodite personified. Dressed in a tight, short blue satin strapless gown and matching shoes her appearance didn't leave much up to the imagination. I drank her in, committing all of her exposed flesh to memory. Her body had me begging and the look in her eyes brought me to my knees.
As I stared into the brown depths I caught a glimpse of just how much my antics had affected her….and I hated it. I didn't want to be the guy who caused such pain and anguish to flitter through those beautiful eyes.
I wanted her to smile.
I wanted her to laugh.
I craved her happiness.
And that shit wasn't normal.
"Edward." Isabella breathed, her eyes hardening against me, evolving into fiery pits of hatred.
"Isabella." I returned, pushing Jessica from my lap.
"Oh…do you two…ah…know each other?" Jessica asked, her question more directed towards Isabella than to me.
"I thought I knew him." Isabella retorted, pulling the drink from Jessica in a fluid movement and downing it in another. "You two have fun." She bit out, shoving the empty glass at me with more force than necessary.
"So you do know each other?" Jessica persisted, seemingly clueless.
"Yeah." I sighed, watching as Bella crossed the dance floor gracefully commanding every male's attention in the vicinity. Her hips swung suggestively as she began to move to the slow, heavy beat. Within seconds all eligible bachelors had swarmed around her.
"Oh, well that's just too bad." Jessica grinned, rubbing her palm along my thigh slowly. I pushed her hand from my lap and shook my head, dismissing her instantly. With a huff of exasperation Jessica took the hint and moved away.
"You have no idea what you're missing." She called as a final offer.
"I think I'll live."
"Whatever."
I turned my attention back to Isabella and watched as she downed another shot handed to her by some young hopeful and continued dancing.
God she is sexy.
I wished that Bella's hands were my own as she ran them sultrily down the sides of her body and my breathing hitched as she ran her tongue over her lips. I growled as a tall blonde grabbed her hips and almost stood to go to Isabella's rescue when she merely spun out of his grasp and wiggled a finger with a mock stern face before returning to her torturous dance.
The lighting on the dance floor accentuated her lithe, alluring form. Her movement exposed the honey highlights in her hair and the porcelain perfection of her skin. Her bewitching eyes beckoned to me from afar and I longed to go to her, to claim her as mine to the rest of the world.
I longed to possess her…but nothing more.
Still, I couldn't evade her lure.
Something told me I would never be able to.
I continued to watch her from afar for the duration of the night, desire building until it reached an unsurmountable level. I was mad with lust, with need. Everything that was Isabella taunted me reminding me of what I could never have, what I would never deserve.
Finally, when I could no longer endure the pain of our separation, I moved toward her. Slowly, as if a hunter stalking his prey, I circled around Isabella. When her back was toward me I pounced and grabbed her hips in a firm, desperate hold. She struggled against me until I locked my arms tighter around her and pulled our bodies together.
"Shh Isabella, I'm not going to hurt you." I assured her, my lips caressing her ear as our hips swayed in time.
"You already have." She returned, pushing her hands backwards through my hair and pulling the strands quickly, as if she was trying to punish me.
"I didn't mean to." I replied, covering her tugging hand with my own and moving it down to my mouth so I could taste her.
"Why are you doing this to me?" Was her unexpected plea, as I gently kissed the palm of her delicate little hand.
"What?" I asked, jerking back slightly, the underlaying pain in her voice disarming me.
"Stringing me along. What do you want from me Edward? What do you want?" She begged, turning into my chest and burying her face into the crook of my neck, continuing to move against me with tortuous rapture.
"I…I'm sorry…Isabella, all I want is you." I gasped out; her body melding with mine and making me crave what I could never truly possess.
"You have me." She rasped against my neck, delivering an open mouthed kiss to my neck.
"No…Isabella you deserve better…you should stay away from me, I'm no good for you." I pleaded with her as my resolve started to fade.
"I want you."
"No."
"I need you."
"It's wrong."
"Nothing has ever been more right." She urged, grinding against me repeatedly.
"Please." I pleaded with her, pulling her hips from mine.
"Edward?" Isabella called, throwing her arms around my neck.
"Isabella."
"Kiss me."
With a groan of assent I slanted my lips across hers in a deep, soul shattering kiss that warmed my entire body. We clung to each other in the middle of the throng of people and devoured one another greedily, each of us grappling for dominance and neither succeeding.
I gradually moved us from the middle of the floor and guided both of our bodies to a booth situated in the corner and settled Bella onto my lap. She groaned as I pulled her closer, chest to chest and ran my hands through her luxurious locks.
Her hands slipped beneath my shirt and slowly began to trace my abs creating a slow burn in the pit of my stomach. Gliding my hands from her abs to her smooth, exposed thighs I rocked her against me causing us both to moan.
"Fuck." I groaned as Bella moved to place relentless kisses along my jaw, neck and the front of my chest.
"I love you're jaw Edward…I just want to…"She cut off to lick its length forcing me to throw my head back in ecstasy.
"Isabella…my goddess…" I panted, grabbing her nape, to force her lips back to my own.
"Edward?" She breathed, her lips hovering above my own.
"Mhhmm?"
"Am I really your goddess?" She giggled, the noise making me grin in return.
"You are."
"Then tell me we can make this work. Tell me I'm more than just some one night stand. Tell me I'll see you again after tonight."
"Isabella…" I started but was cut off when Isabella pulled us together for a desperate, anamilistic kiss.
"Say it." She begged.
"I can't." I replied painfully.
I felt like a bastard when Isabella let out a heartbroken whimper and leant her forehead against mine.
"Why?"
"I'd only hurt you, sweetheart…don't you understand? I could promise you now, but it would be a lie. Is that what you want? A lie?"
"No. I want you."
"I'm only available on a one nightly basis." I retorted, setting her face away from my own so the seriousness of my words would sink in. "Tonight Bella, Tonight is all I can give you."
"It's not enough." She whispered, a lone tear streaking across one velvet cheek. I leant down to capture it with my mouth and despaired at its salty warmth.
"Isabella."
"No."
"What?"
"No. I need you Edward. All of you, not just the bits and pieces you allow me see."
"I can't give you that."
"Then this is over. No more…from this moment on it will be as if I never existed."
"So you're cutting me out?" I demanded as she pushed herself from my lap and began her retreat.
"I never had you to begin with." She relied, tears freely falling. Turning away from me she moved to leave, shoulders shaking.
"What did you expect? I'm Edward fucking Masen!" I yelled angrily after her.
"And nobody cares." She replied softly, and she was gone.
I jerked back as her words hit me like an arrow through the heart. She was right…nobody really cared. I'd cut myself off from the world and so they'd learned to ignore me. And now Isabella would too.
My beautiful Isabella.
Too beautiful and good to be real.
And I'd chased her away. She laid herself open for me not once, but twice and I'd thrown it back in her face every time. She deserved more than that. She was so full of fire, so pure, she deserved to be worshiped, revered…loved.
She needed me, just as much as I needed her.
Stumbling from the booth and ran after Isabella, hoping to catch her before it was too late. I needed to apologize, to tell her I'd try…that I'd do anything for her.
I'd give her anything she ever wanted.
I'd try to be worthy.
"Isabella!" I called out, fighting the midnight crowd.
Battling against the rush of people I made my way down the busy street, searching every face for the person I so desperately needed to reach…the reasons why, I was reluctant to examine.
"Isabella!" I repeated, becoming desperate in my movements.
As I glimpsed her slight form the heavens opened up, assaulting my body with its thunderous downpour. Nevertheless, I fought through, the rain clearing the streets of its inhabitants and allowing me the opportunity to run to the one I needed.
"ISABELLA! WAIT!" I pleaded sprinting towards her form. Isabella swung around, her tears mingling with the precipitation.
Her mouth opened in shock which turned into a slow smile as I pulled her body to mine, dragging her feet off the floor and into a passionate kiss that seemed to last forever. Neither of us wanted it to end and so we clung to one another, suspended in time, the only thing that mattered was here and now; that perfect moment in which all else was erased.
"I'll try…I promise to try, Isabella." I gasped against her lips, both our bodies quivering.
"And I promise to help you. I'll teach you everything I know." She vowed, rubbing her nose against me own
"Then I'll be your enraptured student."
But I'd already learned my first lesson….
Sometimes it was okay to risk it all…
Sometimes it was okay to fall….
Awwwww….just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside How are you all holding up? Here's where the lessons come in so hold on ladies and gents, it's going to bumpy ride! I get a sort of sadistic pleasure out of knowing secrets but don't hold against me because all will be revealed…if you review!
YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO! PUSH THAT BUTTON! Think of it this way…it takes you a second to write a couple of words…it takes me a week to write…didn't I end up with the short straw
