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C.P.O.V.
I have to go find Ana. I shouldn't have acted so rude in front of her. I could tell that she was uncomfortable. I just couldn't help myself Trent is a fucking dick, I screwed him over in business because I found out he was hiding money and not keeping good records and I have no patience for that bullshit. I get that he was mad but he had no right dragging Anastasia into it. I saw my mom and Ana coming outside towards the garden so I make my way there. I need to find Ana and apologize I shouldn't have put her in that position and we need to talk about what happened.
I find them sitting by the steps that lead into the garden. My mom has Ana in her arms, I think they are both crying. I am just about to ask them what's wrong when I hear Ana say "It's not fair. I don't want to die. No fair. No fair." What? What? Hospital. Oh my god she was in the hospital when I met her. No but she's fine. She's perfect, she has to be.
"What?" I ask. My voice sounds like it belongs to a stranger. Long gone is the control and confidence that once was, it's not replaced with anxiety and worry. They both immediately look up at me. They both obviously thought they were alone.
"Christian." My mom says in an attempt to calm me but how can I be calm when I just found out the only girl I have ever wanted, the brightness in my life is DYING for god sake. I still keep my eyes on Ana i want to hear it from her. I need to know what is happening. I can fix it. I will find a way to make her okay. I just need to know what's wrong. Before I can say anything i hear Ana's sweet voice.
"Grace I'm okay. Can you just give us a minute?" Mom looks at Ana for a second making sure she is okay before gently touching my arm before leaving us. Ana refuses to look up from the ground but I can't take it anymore I need to look at her, feel her. I go over and tip her head up to look into her eyes. In her eyes I see the tears she has shed, all the pain she feels. I want to take all of her pain away,
I just want to make her okay.
"Talk to me baby. Tell me what's wrong. It will be fine. I promise just tell me i will fix it." I say to her softly. My voice does nothing to hide my feelings, desperation, anxiety, anger, and so many more. However my words do nothing to calm her, in fact it does the opposite. She begins to cry again. Fuck.
"I.. uh… I can't" she says between sobs. I just hold her head against my chest. Wait. She's against my chest. Why doesn't it burn? How is she touching me? Fuck I need Flynn. I can't think about that right now. All I can think about it Ana. Why didn't she tell me? I could've helped her. That doesn't matter. I will help her now.
"Ana come on. Stop crying. I hate seeing you like this. Everything is gonna be okay. Just talk to me. Please." I say trying to make her better.
"No. Screw you everything won't be okay. You can't just say that." She says suddenly.
"Just tell me the. We can figure it out but I need to know. Ana you are making crazy please. "
"I have cancer. You can't help me or make it all go away no matter how much money you have. You can't fix me." She says crying again.
What? NO. My angel can't leave me. She has to be okay. She has to be okay. She has to be okay. No this is gonna be okay. She can beat this. I will get the best oncologist, she will beat this. I realize that it's been a few minutes that I haven't said anything. Ana turns around to leave but before she can i bring her to me and kiss her. We both need this. We need to just be with each other.
"Christian stop. Don't you understand what this means? I can't be with you. We can't…" Ana say after breaking of our kiss.
What why? No I'm not going to leave her. I am going to stay with her. We are going to get through this together. How can she even think that I would leave her?
"Why? That is ridiculous.I am not going anywhere. We are going to beat this Ana." I say quickly.
"No. Christian WE aren't." She says and goes inside. I stand there in shock. Why does she not want me? Deep down in my dark soul I know that it's because some part of her knows that she deserves better than me. I can't live without her. I need to find a way to convince her that.
I head back inside to go find Ana and tell her exactly that when I find none other that than Trent FUCKING McNamara standing too close to her. I start seeing red. Fuck this I have had enough of this dick trying to get her she is fucking mine. I immediately go over to them and kiss Ana. It's a long meaningful kiss to show every fucker who has been looking at her all night that SHE. IS. MINE.
"I am not going anywhere. Do you understand me?" I say to her with as much feeling as I can. I need her to let me be with her. I don't care if she's gonna be at the hospital for however long, I can stay there. Or even better I can have everything she needs from the hospital brought to Escala, she can live there, with me. I'll have Taylor find someone to get all the equipment. I will do anything just to be by her side. Anything.
Ana doesn't say anything back but just looks back into my eyes. In her eyes I see the pain that she feels, the hesitance to be with me, to just let me in. I see how unsure she is about everything but I know that she wants this too. She wants to be with me, to be happy and free. We can have that I just need to earn it. How I am going to do that? I have no idea. I have never been in a situation even remotely like this. All my life everyone has jumped at the opportunity to do whatever I wanted, girls would do anything to talk to me. Employees do anything because I give them a large paycheck to do so, and of course subs would do anything to please me in general. That is when it comes to Ana I am completely and totally lost. We can figure this all out though, I know we can. After a few seconds the MC tells the guest to make their way outside for the firework display. I have never actually stayed this long but from what I have heard they are usually pretty spectacular.
"Fireworks?" Ana asks in her sweet adorable perfect voice. Everything about her is so soothing and wholesome, she is incredible. Wait I think she said something. I quickly clear my throat and say yes and begin to make my way outside while of course holding her hand. I can't believe that something so common and mediocre feel so intimate and special. Of course it does anything that I do with her is automatically amazing.
When we finally get outside I find my whole family standing together. My mom and dad, Kate and Elliot, and ugh Mia and Ethan. Elliot and I have been staring him down all night yet he has yet to react, one point to Kavanagh. I make my way over there with Ana through the crowd of people.
"Hey! There you guys are." My mom says to Ana and I. The rest of the group quickly acknowledges us before the fireworks begin. We take our place next to Kate and Elliot who are standing almost on top of each other. Ana steps in front of me and I quickly wrap my arms around her and out my head on her shoulder. I snuggle my head into her hair, it smells so good like vanilla and lavender. For some strange reason the smell is so comforting to me, I feel completely at ease for the first time in my life. She brings her hand up and caresses my cheek while she looks away from the fireworks for a short second.
"Watch the fireworks." She playfully scolds me. I just smile at her. I don't understand how this one girl, one beautiful, tough, funny, charming, sick girl brings me so much joy. I continue to think about that while I watch the fireworks. Elliot was right they are pretty amazing. They are timed perfectly with the song that's playing from the speakers. I feel Ana's eyes on me during the fireworks, probably because I have the biggest goofiest smile on my face.
"You're staring." I say mimicking the way she said it to me on the balcony.
"Fuck this" She says softly. I can't help but laugh right before I kiss her. I hear Elliot clear his throat which brings me back to reality. Ana and I both look up at everyone who are looking at us like we just committed a homicide. I can't help but start laughing.
Ana on the other hand does not find it quite as funny. She just stands shyly in front of me while blushing, She looks at me, and I see that she looks kinda pissed. Wait, what did I do? No one says anything but I see Kate staring at Ana. The fireworks end after a big finale. The last fireworks spell out "THANK YOU" in bright colors.
"Ladies and Gentlemen before the night ends, thanks to all of your generosity we have a total of 1 million six hundred and seventy thousand dollars which will help families affected by drugs everyday. Once again thank you for all of your donations and thank you for making this night so special. We hope to see you again next year. Good night." The MC says I was in a family affected by drugs. Ana probably doesn't even know about my past. She can't know how fucked up I am. She would leave me, and she would be right to. Just like that I get caught up in the thoughts of my dark life and how much I don't deserve Ana. After a little while, I'm not even sure how long, Ana reaches up to my face gently.
"Hey. You okay?" The irony of the fact that she is the one who is sick yet she is worried about me is anything but lost on me. She is so selfless.
A.P.O.V.
"Hey. You okay?" I ask Christian. Ever since right after the fireworks he's been really quite . Maybe he's having second thought about I know this all too good to be true. I need to know what he is thinking. It's probably sometime around midnight so now would be an appropriate time for my fairy tale to end. He still has yet to say anything. Everyone else has made their way inside to leave yet we stand here looking at each other, not a word said.
"Listen, I umm. I should go. I'm tired and I have a long day tomorrow." I quickly say while looking at the ground. I turn to leave but before I can ever take a step I feel Christian grab my arm and pull me back to him.
"Wait Ana. Please." I still haven't looked up at him. I'm too scared of seeing rejection or pity because I'm the sick girl who he has to hurt. He brings his hand under my chin to get me to look up. I'm surprised because I don't see pity or rejection. All I see is affection and fear, what is he afraid of?
"Look we have a lot to talk about. It's honestly going to be hard and I don't really know how any of this is going to work. But all I know is that in the very short time that I have known you I have not been able to stop thinking about. All I can think about is how much I want you to be with be and I want to know you and I just want to be with you. So please just let me." He says. I want to be with him but I can't. I can't burden him with my baggage only to die a couple of months later.
"Don't say no. Not yet. Just come back to my place. We can talk... and I can convince you to say yes" He says playfully with a half smirk at the end. How am I supposed to resist that? I can't.
"Okay." I say reluctantly with a smile. The night is only just beginning.
