Author's Note: Thank you all! Yep, so Bella knows...but will she accept it? And no, Edward didn't kill the boy he just stuck him.

Ziggy - Celine Dion

He's my only friend, in his head there's just music and noise he works at a nearby store...but one who think he comes from another galaxy.

I felt completely unprotected. My skin felt thin and taunt; my eyes were dry and yet swollen from all the tears I kept resisting to let fall gracefully. I was laying on my bed not trying to move or think. 'I wish I could fly' I said softly looking out the window. I was letting my mind drift off into different realms--just anywhere but here. The rain was pouring out my window was open blowing in a gust of wind and water it hit my face like a crude slap and I thought it would tear me to shreads...I wanted it to. I felt like being punished for getting up my hopes, I wanted to be taught a lesson so I'd never let myself get too involved ever, ever, ever again. Sleep. That was all I needed to escape if only for a little bit, just a cool and non-permanent thing that still allowed the fanciful to exsist even if it was just all in my mind. Hell, in my mind I was already Edward's girlfriend and he was lying her beside me protecting me from this same pain burning through my body and coursing through my veins now.

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The days, the hours and the seconds passed down and I still hadn't said a word to Edward but I could sense he knew something was off about me. I went through the entire school week only talking to him in terse, scant sentences the modern equivilant to cavewoman speak only more unrefined. I felt like had been labotomized and left out on the side of the road to fester in the sun--I felt myself stumbling through this week, like I was locked inside a straight jacket with no way to escape. My mouth felt completely restricted, no voice could reach out and say what needed to be said or inquire any questions. Come Friday, I found myself surprisingly anticipating getting out of Forks and down to Seattle; I knew that once I was well out of sight of Edward I could think even just a tad bit clearer. I waited in the parking lot with Angela as Lauren pulled out of the parking spot and motioned for me and Angela to jump in. Jessica was sitting shot gun putting on layers of makeup as Lauren backed up.

"Nice car," I noted in an attempt to break the ice

"Thanks, my parents bought it for me." Lauren said smiling her perfect tooth smile. I hated how perfect she was and how hard she strived just for that. She was just so conscious and yet unaware at the same time that it disgusted me. I didn't even know what I was going to buy when in Seattle. I was feeling a bit daring at first, wanting to dress up a bit more 'grown up' but I don't know how I feel.

The ride was long but not without plenty of girl talk, pop music blasting through the speakers and near head on collosions on the highway, but all and all we made it to downtown Seattle in one piece. Lauren already had her heart set on the stores she wanted to go to, so that meant that all the stores we were to go to were already prechosen. Lauren parked in front of a cute mom and pop boutique named 'Sarah's Closet'.

"I heard this place is just perfect for the dance," Lauren said smiling huge

"Really? It just looks like a thrift shop." Angela said

"Exactly. All their clothes are inspired by oldern looks which'll be perfect for the halloween dance." Lauren replied confidently

I just shrugged my shoulders to Angela and we all got up from the car and went into the store.

"Hello." An older woman greeted while folding up a shirt in the back

"Hey..." Lauren greeted already setting her eyes on a dress she liked

"Wow, that dress is amazing. I'd look like the sexiest witch in town!" Lauren cooed taking the dress and silohoutting it with her frame while the hanger was still on

"So cute." Jessica said smiling

"Nice." Angela said simply

"Ah, yeah." I said my mind completely somewhere else

"You sound like you don't like it Bella," Lauren said wrinkling her face in anger

"What?" I asked in a spacey tone turning my head to catch her face

"Nothing..." Lauren said just moving the topic

"Say, I wanna look over in jewelery." Angela said breaking the tension

"Ok, well I just gotta ah see something." I said kinda fast

"Where you going?" Angela asked

"No where just out for a second I'll be right back," I said while moving to the door as I was leaving I heard Jessica quip to Lauren that I was purposely sabotaging the dress pick, yeah, I was gonna let her just keep thinking that. I was finally outside and I was staring intensely at the outline of the building just a few blocks up. I decided to run up, I ran across the street and down the tree lined blocked till I saw the ediface of an ancient looking building with marble statues surrounding the steel gates that encased it.

I softly read aloud the name at the top "Wesley..." I said my eyes doubling, the sun was starting to fall and soon it became all dark and the building looked even more forboding than ever. I knew it would be impossible to get through the front gates so I walked around till I was half in the woods surrounding the school and looked for a crevice from which to walk onto the school ground. I had no idea what the hell I was doing, surely this was very illegal but I felt like being curious. I knew back at the shop the girls were worried sick about me...well, at least Angela was but they'd just have to wait, I thought while slithering through to the other side. I looked around and saw the half empty parking lot of falculty parked cars nothing too interesting. I slowly meandered up the sole staircase there and pushed hard to open the door but it wouldn't budge, I ran down and carefully looked to see if there was another entrance. I found once by the side of the huge open sports field and yanked it open with all the force in my body. I quieted closed the door behind me and I walked down the dimly lit halls feeling the antiquity and prowess of the legendary school with each step. Tresspassing here is so wrong, I kept thinking as I saw all the face busts of former benifactors and alumni mounted everywhere with quotes of fortitude and law abiding underneath in a plaque. I gulped and continued going, all I wanted to do was reach the school main office and look up some records and see if Jacob's story was straight...no pun intended. Lord, I sounded so psychotic, this is what private detectives do and since I most certainly am not one it was just stalking and a very creepy form of stalking as well. I'm contemplating going through a boy's personal school records about something very serious...what was I thinking. Why did it matter? Oh, how could it not. The only boy I've been the slightlest bit interested in being gay is a big deal dammit. I reached the door that said 'Office' and I walked in and saw some of the school boys sitting on the desk of the small room smoking.

"Opps, I'm sorry," I stuttered

"What's this? Why you here?" The biggest kid of the four boy group said extinguishing his cigarette on the desk

"It was an accident that's all," I said backing away

"Accident my ass aren't you Artie Simmons cousin?" the skinny kid said exhaling from his cigarette

"No...wrong person," I softly trembling

"No, you're lying it is you. We saw you wearing your skirt today showing all that skin--

"What? no, that's not me..." I said moving for the door handle only have the biggest kid jump in my path

"Why you leaving so soon Fran?" the kid said

"I'm not Fran--look leave me alone!" I cried wanting to just tear the door down and run

"Oh, I like them fiesty." The big kid said laughing

"Come here you!" The big kid said reaching me by the arm and forcefully jerking me to his side

"Now, I said you're not going anywhere. Do you understand?" He said sternly

I just gulped

"Now sit your ass on the desk." He ordered

I didn't move

"NOW!" He screamed and I reluctantly walked to the desk

"Now, I want you to--

"Who's in there?" a gruff voice called

"Shit!" one of the boys screetched stomping out their cigarettes

"Whoever's in there better get out or I'm calling the cops!" the voice screamed

The boys wasted no time hauling ass out the top window leaving me there all alone. My heart never raced as hard as it was now and I didn't know what to do. THe door opened and I was too weak to apologize.

"Bella?" I heard a voice say

I turned around and it was Edward.