I ran after Lilly.
I wasn't going to let her get away without giving me details on what actually happened.
"Lilly wait!"
She turned, but the look on her face spelt "annoyed".
I didn't say anything, I was hoping maybe she'd tell me herself.
I understood her being upset, but through-out the week she'd known me, she knew I wasn't strong enough to handle her evil glare.
"Miley..what your doing…I can't take it.." She paused for a minute and continued, raising her voice a little "Your hurting yourself!" .
My gaze fell, I was scared to look her in the eye
"You know Miley, …You're the best friend I've ever had and…I don't wanna see you hurt yourself over and over again"
I scrunched up my face with mixed emotions
"Hold on!, When did this become about me?!".
"The day I met you!" She shouted.
Seeing her so angry, tore me up inside.
I wasn't quite sure how to feel in a friendship, but Lilly was the most amazing person I'd ever met.
I never wanted to see her get hurt and yet the bruised mark on her face, proved that I couldn't protect her
We stayed silent, looking at each other,
but she sighed and turned away within a couple of minutes.
I decided not to go after her again, ..I'd wait until she calmed down.
I walked back to the main part of school, with my head hung.
I looked up briefly to see everybody laughing and pointing
They all had their laptops in their hands.
I knew what they would looking at, and I couldn't stand it.
I ran out the school doors, my feet barely scrapped the ground, and I had no idea where I was going, but I had to get away from there.
I though about going home, but that meant explaining to my dad, what I'd hid from him for so long.
My feet finally stopped outside a block of flats.
I realized where I was and let the tears slowly fall.
Lilly's.
I remembered her mum was an alcoholic and probably wouldn't be there anyway.
I walked along the flats to Lilly's number.
I was weary of course,
Lilly had come to school battered and bruised.
My heart was thumping at the consequences.
What if her mum hit me?,
I didn't care.
If Lilly could take it then I would, I'd be strong for the one person I actually cared about, …….whether she cared about me or not.
I pushed the door and it creaked open,
No lock.
I examined it and realized it had been kicked at some point during the argument
.
I crept in slowly seeing if Lilly's mum was in sight.
She wasn't
I placed my hand on the banister and dragged my feet up the stairs,
I looked at every photo on the wall running my finger along the latest one,
Lilly looked so happy.
It seemed like forever since I'd seen her smile....
I forced myself to look away and carry on to the top of the stairs.
I noticed a door on the left and figured it was Lilly's.
There were scribbles all over her door, mainly of skulls.
I pushed it open and sat on the bed.
I thought for a moment, about how things could turn out.
I thought back to my college theory.
I could start fresh....... be somebody.
I snapped out my thoughts when I saw a black blur approach me
.
I reached my hand out and rubbed its head.
It purred and I knew instantly what it was.
I lost myself in thought and starting thinking out loud
"Why does no-body like me?" I asked the cat
It only continued to purr.
"You like me.. don't you?" The animal responded by rubbing it's head on the side of my hand.
I smiled
I got bored of the silence and walked across the hall to another room
The bathroom.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
My face was smudged.
I wiped the black marks away and rinsed my face with cold water.
I hated the reflection staring back at me.
I reached for the side of the mirror and opened a cupboard.
It was like a mini chemist
Painkillers, sleepers..
I pulled out one of the bottles and read the instructions.
"Take 1-2 pills at a time. Do not repeat doses within 4 hours."
I pulled out a couple and poured them down my throat, I sucked on the tap and swallowed.
They didn't seem to do anything.
I untwisted the cap again and poured some more out.
About 7 this time.
I poured them down my throat and cringed.
I should have had another drink but I couldn't be bothered.
I stood impatiently, tapping my hand on the side of the sink,
They weren't working!
I got really impatient, and shakily poured the rest of it's contents in my hand
I stared for a moment
Thinking...
What if i took to many?
I decided it wouldn't matter
After swallowing the final contents, my pain disappeared, I was … numb
What had I taken?
I had no idea, but they worked.
I felt my knees tremble ..
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Sorry if you can't understand it too well.
I wrote this really quickly
And it was hard to write about Miley taking pills, because i've never really taken an overdose, so i can't describe the feeling.
Anyway.
The stories coming to the happy ending soon.
I think they'll probably be about 3 more chapters, then i want ideas for something new.
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