A/N I've recently realized that by going at this pace, I'll still be writing this story much too far into the future. So, I'm going to attempt to move things along more quickly and will very probably not stick to canon.

(Harry) I probably shouldn't have been so short with Ruth today. The poor woman was just trying to be kind but I am so unused to having anyone care about me the way she seems to care. I should probably apologize to her if only she didn't get so flustered when I speak to her about anything other than work. No, best just let it go.

(Ruth) Well, I stuck my foot in it and should have kept my mouth shut. I don't think I've been this embarrassed since I dropped the files in my first team meeting on the grid. I was just trying to show some care and concern (which most people would like to have shown to them, I might add!) but bloody I'm-invincible-so-don't-tell-me-what-to-do Harry took it the wrong way. Infuriating man.

It's been a few days since I've had the time to write here. The days have flown by and now that I've finally arrived home and had a chance to catch up on my sleep, I'd have a chance to write down some random thoughts.

Tom's gone from the service. I suppose that none of us should have been surprised; after all, he did shoot Harry and wasn't really right even after it was proven he was set up by the Joyces. And then Harry went on with that cricket analogy. Senior pro? What the hell does that mean? I'm not 'senior' anything. Adam is now in charge and I must say, it is a welcome change. Adam seems to know how best to treat his team.

Danny was really distressed that he wasn't able to protect Harakat. We thought we had the assassin under surveillance but we had the wrong guy so Harakat was shot and killed. I'm just so glad Danny wasn't shot too. He's a friend and becoming a good friend. This operation was the first time I have seen Level One, Counter-surveillance in action. Impressive. Harry played a direct part too when he used his authority to manipulate the tube running on schedule. I bet that sticking one over on Oliver Mace probably made his day. There is a lot of bad blood between those men and I fear what the future may hold. Harry doesn't like Mace; Mace doesn't like Harry. Harry is an honorable, brave man; Mace is an evil, devious one.

(Harry) Tom's gone from the service and on one level, I was sorry to see him go but on another level, I didn't trust or know him anymore. Adam stepped in and right now he seems to be doing well. I think I frustrated Ruth with my cricket analogy but I thought it was pretty good. I did call her one my 'senior pros' so why would she take exception to that? Doesn't she know that this team would flounder without her presence and input? I'm depending more and more on her too. She really is a such wonderful woman.

Danny was upset about Harakat but there was probably nothing more he could have done. He shouldn't have taken Harakat to the pitch but we had the wrong guy under surveillance so it wouldn't have made a difference anyway. Shit! Sometimes I wonder why I do the work we do when it is our own side that is causing such mayhem and Oliver Mace at the bottom of it. That man is such a slimy, power-hungry bastard who cannot be trusted and who would sell his own mother down the river if he could reap any benefit from it.

Ruth has been entering more and more of my thoughts when I'm home and I'm not really sure why. I think that it may be because she is so unusual in so many ways. Maybe sometime in the future I should list them and see if that clarifies anything. I don't know. Right now I'm tired and I want a drink.