Just a small update before I go into work! Expect another update later on tonight ;)
Tris P.O.V.
As we pulled away we rested our foreheads together. I feel a warm glow on my cheeks. He sees my blush and kisses my cheek.
"Tris. The last thing I want to do is scare you off."
I think I knew where this was going.. I was so happy at that moment and just like that I was sucked back into my reality. I pulled out of his embrace and sat looking into the fire, it had gotten smaller from when we first started it.
"I just really don't want to ask you to be my girlfriend if you aren't ready." He said facing me. I knew he had a good point but I couldn't help but feel a wave of rejection serge through me.
"I get it." I said getting up returning the blanket to his lap. I couldn't meet his eyes.
For the past month he has been my escape from everything, from the memories of the accident, from the hospital visits, from my family even. But now it was all catching up to me and I couldn't help but feel a huge weight on my shoulders.
"Tris.." He reached out and gently took my hand.
"I'm tired, I should really get to sleep." I said still not meeting his eyes.
He dropped my hand and I walked over to the tent I was sharing with Tori and Christina. I look back at him and he had his fist rolled up into a fist on his lap and he was putting out the fire.
They both were fast asleep and I quietly crawled in and closed the tent and made my way to my sleeping bag. I don't know how long it was till I fell asleep but all I could do was think of everything that had happened to me within the past few years. I've thought about this a lot lately.
But this time was different, I didn't cry.
Soon enough everything faded away and I was left to my dreams.
I woke up to the sun shining through the tent. The girls were already awake. We all were still wearing the clothes we wore yesterday. We were actually heading home today. Right away so it didn't really matter anyways.
Christina tossed me a breakfast bar and a bottle of water.
"You have a long way ahead of you today." She winked at me.
"Good thing Mr. Eaton can keep you company." Tori said winking at me.
"Guys.. Nothing is going on." I said as we all rolled up our sleeping bags.
"That is clearly a lie. We all can see it." Tori said wrapping her sleeping bag up.
"Just give it time." Christina said sympathetically to me.
I shrugged, neither of them knew what had happened last night and I wasn't really in the mood to talk about it. I wasn't really looking forward to the long hike home.
We all finished packing up our stuff and we all took down the tents and we were all ready to head home. I saw the others securing themselves to the ropes they had left secured on the cliff. They started making their way up.
"Behave!" Eric yells over his shoulder at us. I blush.
I look over at Tobias. We haven't said a word to each other since last night.
"Ready?" He asks. I nod.
"Yeah, lets get going."
He straps a backpack to his back and I do the same.
"After you." I say not meeting his eyes.
We follow a trail surrounded by a canopy of trees. The sun was peaking its way through the leafs.
We were climbing up a hill the ground was covered with rocks and dirt. I wasn't paying too much attention to where I was going. I was just following him.
My foot gets stuck on one of the rocks and I stumble but before my body hits the ground. I feel strong arms wrap around my body. I look up and I see his face inches away from mine.
"Thanks." I say brushing myself off.
"Are you ok?" He asks still holding onto my elbow keeping me steady. We continued walking.
"Yeah. I'm fine." I lie.
"I mean about what happened last night.."
"What do you mean?" I say moving in front of him. My eyes focused on the ground and I weave around all the rocks.
"I mean Tris, look." He catches up to me and we are walking side by side. "I know you've been through a lot. And I just don't want to push you into anything if you aren't ready for it. That wouldn't be fair to you."
"Maybe you're right.." I pout still not looking at him.
He takes my hand in his and we both stop walking.
"I want to be completely honest with you." He turns so he is standing in front of me. I look up at him. We were standing so close together I take notice of everything.
How his brown eyes have specks of blue in them that only shows when the sun hits them. I notice that despite our size difference my head only meets to where his chin is. I take notice to how his chiseled muscles move as he fidgets with his hands. I notice dark circles under his eyes.
"I like you Tris, a lot." He says in a sweet tone, not one that many people would of expected to hear from him.
"I like you too." I say finally meeting his eyes.
"I don't know what we are right now. Either its just friends or more but I can't stand this. Us just walking around, not talking to each other. I hate it." He said playing with my fingers.
I look down. "I hate it too. I really like where we were before all of that happened."
The sides of his mouth curve up to form a smile. I couldn't help myself. I find myself wrapping my arms around his neck and I pull us closer to each other, his strong arms wrap around my small waist. I rest my head on his strong chest.
I couldn't help but smile.
"Everything is so much easier with you. I just feel so safe with you, like nothing could hurt me." I whisper.
I feel his lips kiss the top of my head. "I promise I will never let anything happen to you Tris."
To be continued….
