Hola hola hola thanks for all the reviews!
i decided that ima finish this story first but im dying to get back to the buffs and and angel's little bun in the over...thanks again for all the comments and insights you really inspired me to lead this story in a new direction...and i would never kill off Buffy...but someone will hit the hay soon...haven't figured out the master plan yet but your welcome to read what i got!
"Oh my god Buffy", he gasped out coming closer to her.
Buffy turned around fiercely, putting away her stake. "I'm fine Angel", she reassured him not looking at his face. She just beat the vampire to a plump. Her hands were bloody ad in her actions she failed to notice when one escaped. She was not fine….borderline pissed but nowhere near fine.
"You're not fine", Angel whispered lifting her chin so he can establish some form of eye contact. "Your hurt", he said noticing the blood on both her hands and the open cut on her face. He gently moved his fingers over it. When he got to the alley he was already fearing the worst and smelling the blood just intensified his fears. Smelling her blood just made it more real. He known it's been a month almost two but he was worried about her. Losing her seemed to be something that he was good at doing and watching her fight strong and confident he felt that he was getting ready to say good bye all over again. He became use to having her around 24/7. Buffy would argue that she was the one that became dependent on him but the truth was he was just as dependant on her.
"Angel, you don't look so fine yourself…I'm fine", she whispered as he stared at her in a daze losing himself in his thoughts before snapping out of them and attacking her mouth with a vengeance.
At first Buffy was shocked. Ever since she came back Angel treated her like a china doll but this time there was no holding back. She felt the primal need and raw love…he needed this and so did she. She returned the favor wrapping her legs around him while he stumbled to a wall in blind heat trapping Buffy against it.
After what seemed like forever he broke away from her lips so she could breathe but his lips never left her skin. He trailed down her neck nibbling and sucking as he reached his mark before he made love to it. Buffy moans of satisfaction only fueled his fire and he brought one hand up to fell her chest while the other was holding her up and messaging her inner thigh. He bites down hard with his blunt teeth and he smelt Buffy arousal building. He grinded his own arousal against her making soft purring noises.
"Do it Angel….drink baby please", she moan Buffy was right there moving her body to be in sync with his. She was right there on the blink of bliss. 'This is what it feels like to be alive' she thought.
Her words to Angel though were like a bucket of cold water breaking the spell and clearing the fog. He was dry humping Buffy in an alley with intentions of doing way worse. He stiffen and buried his face in the crook of her neck before glancing at the teeth marks and in unmistakable hickey the size of a golf ball. He jumped back as if she was a cross herself only to be trapped in a slayers grip. "Buffy, I'm so sorry", he started to repeat guiltily explaining his actions.
Buffy tired to shake the lust from her hooded eyes and become more coherent and just like Angel's member that was still pressed against her; it was a hard. "Angel", she panted huskily. She didn't mean to sound that way at all but her voice wasn't getting the no sex allowed program. "Look at me", she pleaded.
Not being able to deny her anything he did and Buffy shook with lust all over again and involuntary moved against him. God she wanted this man so much in front of her. She smiled lovingly as she gazed at his face. Gone were the brown eyes that she knew and loved and instead they were the yellowish golden color she loved as well. She figured he didn't know that he was in game face and she smiled all the more knowing that he hated it. She reached out and caressed his face loving the ridges underneath her touch. She saw the moment he realized he was in game face as he tried to look away but the soft caress turned into a firm hand holding his head in place. Before leaning in and kissing him softly on the lips.
Angel didn't even realize that he was showing his true face until Buffy hand was exploring the ridges on him. He hated her seeing him like this. It was like another constant reminder that he wasn't good enough. He just seen her beat one of his kind to a bloody pulp and her she was gazing lovingly at him while he was looking like the vamp that he was. She leaned in to kiss him and her lips felt like heaven or the closet thing he was ever going to get to the pearly gates. 'God I loved this woman', he thought as she stood her kissing him fangs and all.
"I barely notice" she sighed as she leaned back on the brick wall behind her looking completely content.
"Beloved-Buffy I'm sorry this was wrong you shouldn't live like this", he stated mentally steeling his heart. If you love someone let them go. But he truly didn't know how many times he could watch her leave but for her happiness he was willing to feel like he was run over by a semi truck.
"I'm only living because I'm with you. Don't you love me? Shouldn't my happiness matter? I'm not some little girl who doesn't know what she wants", she bit back unconsciously tightening her grip on him.
He groaned at the pressure it felt like a snake was wrapped around his waist trying to crush him. If he was human he would have been dead, another reminder to him that she wasn't normal.
"Being the slayer aged me. Waking up and digging my way out of my own grave aged me", she said quietly losing her grip on him as if she was just realizing that it was painful as hell but she had no intentions of saying sorry. "I had no fight left in me. A slayer with no fight", she laughed humorlessly. "But you came back to me and you catered me back to life and I knew that I was going to be okay because as long as you never abandon me the world never could. We both had bad experiences, as much as you hate to admit it we're both creatures of the night. The only difference is that I don't wake up feeling sorry for myself", she said detangling herself from him and walking away.
She didn't know where she was going but she knew she couldn't be with him for another second. She had to try to steel her heart for the pain that she knew was coming. She heard him calling for her; felt him moving closer… so she ran. She knew her little harsh speech was going to do wonders on his conscious; rather for good or bad she didn't know. All she knew was that she was tired and she needed to get away from him before he caught her. She ran to a place she haven't been to in a while and knocked frantically on the door. He was less than a block away. Lesson number one you could never out run a vamp; especially an old one.
"Anne", the lady asked.
Buffy shook her head franticly, "please can I come in", she begged.
The woman hurriedly let Buffy in and not a moment too soon because Angel was right behind her and the invisible barrier made her untouchable.
It was another blow below the belt telling him that he wasn't good enough. Angel stared at the door blocking him from his mate and growled at it. He knew it wasn't the lady fault that let Buffy in or the door because it was a damn object. He waited to the sun came up before he left. He knew he had no one else to blame but his self that night for the reason he was going home alone.
He walked numbly back to the hotel and went to check on Dawn as he did before her sister's resurrection before going back into his room. He pictured them making love for hours and the way his soul was breaking when she left him. He had made love to a ghost but it all felt so real to him. He pictured the words she kept saying over and over again in his head. He groaned this was the first time he was going to sleep alone since she's been back. For a vampire that was used to being alone it was the toughest thing he had to do. He signed restlessly and went down stairs to do some research because there was no way he was sleeping tonight.
Buffy awoke from a dreamless slumber in an unknown room. "Angel", she called out to the empty room but he was nowhere in sight. She didn't feel the safeness in his embrace, or the comforting tinge in her stomach from his presence. He wasn't here because she did want to hear the words that were fated to come. Buffy signed and realized that it was 5:30 in the morning and the sun was just rising. She got up grateful for the change of clothes she found from Anne and took a shower because there was no way she was going to be able to go back to sleep without him.
"Hey Anne", the woman from last night greeted her when she came down the stairs.
"Morning Anne, and its Buffy now….just Buffy, thanks for letting me stay here", she thanked.
"No problem, I owe you my life and besides it's what friends do. Mind telling me what you're running from", asked Anne.
Buffy laughed bitterly. "Fate", she replied drily.
"Come on eat up. I'm an early riser so I cooked breakfast", the woman explained.
"You really didn't have too, I'm not hungry", was Buffy automatic response.
Anne just looked at her.
"Okay maybe I am", Buffy joked sitting down enjoying her food.
"You can't run forever Buffy, you taught me that. I can't believe you're here. How long are you staying in LA?"
"I'm looking forward to forever, but a couple more months at least. I'm staying with my", Buffy trailed off. What was Angel exactly? The term boyfriend seemed inadequate, they were never just friends, soul mates fit perfectly but it sounded weird. "Im staying with my Husband he owns that Hyperion Hotel", Buffy supplied. It was sort of true they were married in Angel's cultural and in every way that mattered all they were missing was the sheet of paper in the law's eyes.
"Oh really my friend works there. Actually he should be on his way over now", she exclaimed.
Buffy froze. It was such a small world sometimes.
"You know a guy name Gunn", she asked.
Buffy smiled. She spoken to him once or twice and he really was nice. They spent the rest of their morning talking about their lives. Buffy giving the abridge version of course and making plans to keep in touch. Gunn dropped by to pick up some breakfast too and made sure she was alright and left probably to check in with Angel. Buffy decided that she over stayed her welcome and went to spend some much needed time with her sister. It was almost time to get out of school so Buffy figured what better time to get some shopping done. A little heart retail therapy with Angel's credit card would cheer her right up. She was now very happy she accepted it from him. Cordy was fuming but it was a done deal. Maybe she would even buy him a birthday gift since it was coming up after all you live to be 250 once right?
"Hey Dawnie", Buffy said as she stood outside of Heremy High. She got there thirty minutes early and decided to look around only to be told that she needed an escort because apparently they still remember the gym explosion. Buffy rolled her eyes if it wasn't for her half of that graduating class would have been vamp food and they got a brand new gym out of the deal. It's been like what five years she thought they were over that chapter in her life but just like her, things didn't always stay buried.
She walked around the premises and saw the football and cheerleader team practicing making her miss her old life before the darkness was introduced to her. She briefly wondered what her life would have been like but then dismissed it because without this gig she wouldn't have Dawnie or her Angel. She watched them practice for a while and earned a few wolf whistles in her direction. Buffy blushed awkwardly trying to act like it never happened. She was extremely glad that the bell rung and Dawn was getting out on time. She had gotten four marriage proposals and double the amounts of people either asking or trying to get her number.
"Buffy, not that I'm not totally geeked to see you but what are you doing here and I know you are way older than me but where were you last night Angel was a total wreck and I was so worried", Dawn babbled; a common Summers trait.
Buffy launched herself in her sister's arms mumbling her apologies. ''Me and Angel got into a little heated discussion and I stayed with a friend. Wasn't really hard since the world didn't know I died", she added bitterly. She was pissed that she was torn out of heaven but even more so that they acted like it never happened not feeling the need to let other people in her life before them know that she blew the hay. That only confirmed her early suspicions that they planned this from the begging. She knew Dawnie and Angel were blindsided as much as she was but could one blame her for wanting to send Angelus after them?
"Buff I'm so sorry", Dawn started to say but Buffy stopped her.
"Don't I'm here now with you that's is all that matters….that and I may have scored you a date with the star quarterback this Friday so let's go shopping", Buffy squealed forgetting all her current problems and enjoying the stolen time she now had with her sister.
Dawn froze. Her sister did not just say what she thought she said. "Rewind pause. You alive for five minutes and you land a date with the Mike Anderson".
"No I'm alive for five minutes and I landed you a date. I told him I was married but I had a sister who was to die for… literally", Buffy smiled and squeezing Dawn into a hug lightly because of her strength. She knew how Dawn felt about her death from Angel and she wanted Dawn to know it wasn't her fault.
The sisters shared eye contact and Dawn smiled getting the message that Buffy wanted her to understand. "Well I am kind of cute and super smart", she joked lightening the mood as they walked to the mall.
"Don't push it kiddo", Buffy said joking right back.
Shopping and a little sister bonding time was just what the doctor ordered as the two made their way back to the hotel. It was two hours before sunset she wanted to be home before Angel woke up plus she didn't want them to think Dawn was in danger. The two sisters joked and bickered on their way back when they passed a park and a bunch of kids where playing. One kid in particular caught her eye and Buffy froze. This was not happening, it couldn't; but the similarities where sticking. The kid turned and smiled at her.
Buffy didn't know how long she was in a dazed but she was brought back to reality when Dawn threw her heavy book bag at her face and she caught it on instinct. "what the hell Dawn, you couldn't pinch me or wave a hand in my face like a normal person", she asked still spaced out so her words lacked the usual bite.
Dawn gawked at her. "I did", she dead panned. "And I got nothing. Are you alright what's wrong is there evil or something afoot", she asked.
Buffy snapped out of it thinking it was just her imagination. 'it was definitely something", she agreed. Her slayer senses where tingling there was no way it was her imagination now.
Nothing like bonding time with a long lost sister back from the dead...i felt that they needed this time to bond. stay tuned for the Angel confrontation...he needs to realize that she has a brain of her own and is not his childe but his equal and get over his im not worthy monologue...Any guess to who buffy saw and how will this effect them?
