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Chapter 9-Oh Ana!
Gideon
Ana and I spend the next two hours, eating, talking and enjoying each others company. She tells me about her roommate Kate. It appears that she is dating Greys brother Elliot. I met him at a charity dinner once. Kind of a buffoon if you ask me. She tells me about her friend Jose. It appears that Ana has intentions on inviting him out here to visit her. We'll see about that. Moving on. She tells me about her love of English Literature. She tells me how she wants to visit England and Paris. She is going on and on and here I sit listening and hanging on every word. I listen to her sweet voice and how animated she gets when she is telling a story. When she talks about her step-father her love and admiration for him makes me smile.
"Silly me. I am going on and on." She says shyly.
"Ana I could listen to you talk forever. You are and angel." I catch myself when I say that. That was my name for Eva. Ana is not Eva. I have to keep telling myself that. She reminds me of her all the time. Her playfulness, her kindness, and her constant need to put others first. I frown and Ana notices.
"What's wrong Gideon?"
"Nothing. Are you ready for that tour now."
"Sure but only a quick tour. I have work in the morning and I really can't stay much longer." What the hell.
"Sure you can. You can stay here tonight." That was the plan was it not.
"In light of recent events I don't think that is the best idea."
"You mean Grey. You are saying that you won't stay with me tonight because you saw him."
"I don't know."
"And if you hadn't."
"I don't know. Maybe we are rushing this. I rushed into a sexual relationship with Christian before we even knew each other and I don't want to make the same mistake again." Patience Cross. Grey will no doubt fuck it up all on his own. You have the upper hand.
"Ana, we can go as slow as you want to. I would never force you to do anything you are not comfortable with. Come. I will show you around."
Ana
I can't sleep with Gideon. Not tonight. I am reeling over the fact that Christian said he loved me. Does he mean it. Does he really mean it. A part of me tells me he does but another part of me tells me he did it out of jealousy. I guess I will know tomorrow. But for now Gideon is willing to wait. He really is very sweet. He has listened to me go on and on about my friends and family. He has listened and hung on my every word. It is nice to have a normal conversation with a man without having him intimidate you into silence.
Gideon shows me his living room with a TV and a very comfy looking couch. It is so homey here. The jewel tones set off a feeling of opulence yet not so much that you couldn't feel comfortable. He goes on to show me his office where it seems like some pictures have been removed from the way the lighting is set up but there is nothing to showcase. Maybe they were pictures of Eva. Before we go any further I ask Gideon where the bathroom is. He points down the hall and I excuse myself. I open a door and step into what appears to be a guest room. It is very elegantly decorated. I hear Gideon yell my name down the hall.
Gideon
"Ana, no." Shit she found Eva's room. She stands in the doorway taking in the décor. No one is allowed in that room. Even after Eva left I couldn't bear to go into that room because it was her room. I told her I would never enter unless she invited me and I never did. I have to change it. It is not healthy that I keep it here.
"I'm sorry, I thought it was the bathroom." She looks confused as to why I yelled.
"No I am sorry. I didn't mean to scare you its just that…I don't go into that room. No one does."
"Why?"
"It's a long story but-" I run my fingers into my hair and let out a breath before I continue. "I just don't."
"Gideon. Its ok. You don't have to tell me." I walk out of the room and open another door for her that does lead to the bathroom. " You sure this one safe." She mocks. I nod and she enters. While she is using the bathroom I open Eva's room door again and step inside. I sit on the edge of the bed and look around. The room still smells like her. My chest gets tight and emotions run through me. Anger, fear, sadness, loneliness fills my soul. I have to realize that she is gone. 'She is not coming back Cross and you have to deal with that.' I keep telling myself that but it doesn't sound real. I look over to the dresser and I see a photo that was left behind. It was a photo of us from the fundraiser. Our first date. Eva in her red dress. My mind goes back to that night and to her wanting to fuck me in the back of the limo. Stop Gideon. Stop torturing yourself. She is gone. But Ana is here. She is the only thing that makes sense right now and I can't screw it up. I have to be open and honest with her and not keep any secrets. Secrets and lies are what drove a wedge between Eva and I and I won't have that with Ana.
"Gideon?" I hear her call our. I put the picture frame back on the dresser and turn back towards the door. I see Ana standing in the doorway. Her in this room seems wrong but I have to let Ana in.
"Yea. Just exercising some ghosts. I haven't been in this room since she left and I guess its time to move forward. I am really sorry if I scared you."
Ana
He did scare me. His voice was so full of urgency. Like he was scared that I would find some deep dark secret in here. I wonder who's room this is.
"Gideon its fine. Who's room was this?" I am curious.
"It was Eva's room." My mind goes back to Escala and Christian. He had a separate room for his subs. Maybe him and Christian were more alike then I realized. Maybe they had the same start and ending that Christian and I did. I wonder if he has a playroom. He hasn't showed it to me yet but our little tour is not over. Hell what if he wants to beat me like Christian does.
"Why did Eva have her own room? She didn't sleep with you during her time here." I remember what he told me about his former fiancé. 'I didn't sleep in the same bed with her, it was mostly sex.'
Gideon runs his hands through his hair and sits on the edge of the bed. He looks like it is causing his physical pain to continue. I kneel in front of him to get down to his level.
Gideon
How to I explain this in a way that she will understand. How do I explain that I had to give Eva her own room so that I wouldn't rape her in her sleep? She is so innocent I doubt that she will understand. It was so hard to explain it to Eva. It wasn't until she saw the sick bastard I am in living color that I had to explain myself.
"I have nightmares." Maybe she will just accept this answer and move on. Perhaps I can seduce her long enough for her to stop asking questions. She is killing me kneeling in front of me with those big blue eyes looking right into my soul.
"Nightmares. So?"
"They get pretty intense sometimes. I don't like anyone seeing me like that."
"So you don't have an issues with woman in your bed, you just don't like them staying over night with you?"
" No. I don't have issues with woman in my bed. In fact that is our next stop on this little tour." I give her a wicked smile. She rolls her eyes.
"Gideon I think you need to continue exercising these ghosts. If you love her this much then why don't you go and get her. It sounds like you are still hoping she will come back and the fact that you have kept this room sealed off confirms that you are not ready to move on." She puts her hands on my knees and stand up. I grab her wrist and pull her to my lap.
"Ana. I don't know how to explain this to you. Do you really want to talk about this?"
"Yes. I am your friend." I raise my brow. "Don't look at me like that. We are friends."
"With benefits." I snort.
"I don't recall any benefits, Mr. Cross. Continue."
I don't know how to explain Eva and I to her. We were so intense. "Ana, Eva and I were…everything to each other. I don't know how to explain it. We were each others breath, her life didn't exist without me and I didn't exist without her, I couldn't function as a person without her being close to me. I am not explaining this correctly. You probably think I am crazy."
"Not at all. I think you sound like a man in love. So what went wrong."
"She didn't care for the way that I handled a situation. That's enough of this conversation. She is not coming back and even if she did I don't know if I could take her back. She moved on with one of her ex's. I caught her kissing him while we were dating and after we fell apart she ran off with him." Ana is rubbing the back of my neck with her fingers as I speak. It is very distracting and with her on my lap. I have to get out of this room. I stand her up and get off the bed myself.
"Ana, we have to get out of this room. I want to peel that dress off you and I can't do that in here." She gets nervous and looks down as if she is afraid of telling me something.
Ana
Gideon is pouring his heart out and all I can think of is how much pain I am in from my earlier waxing. When I was in the bathroom I noticed my skin was very red and swollen. I can't have sex with him. It would be too painful.
"Ana, what's the matter." He lifts my chin. "Talk to me."
"It's just that I know what you expected to happen tonight but I can't."
"That's fine." He cuts in quickly. "I told you if you wanted to slow down then that's fine with me."
"Its not that. It's just that when I went to the spa today I got waxed and I didn't realize that it would be so sore. The girl who did it said that I would have to wait for a few hours but I guess since it is the first time I ever did it it may be untouchable at least until tomorrow. I am sorry Gideon.
Gideon is laughing at me. "Ana its fine. I am intrigued that you waxed. Can I see?"
"No! It looks gross all swollen and red."
"Damn it. If I knew this would happen I would have skipped spa day." He teases.
"Well Cross," I get really close to him and put my hands on his hips, "If you recall I did inform you that I have a very unique ability." I shove him down on the bed and he falls backward.
"That you did. But not here. I don't want any distractions for what you are describing." He gets off the bed and kisses me hard and fast. His tongue is exploring the inside of my mouth with such need. He pulls back and grabs my hand to quickly lead me out of the room and into his room.
Gideon
I close the door to Eva's room and practically run down the hall to my room. I can feel that Ana is nervous by the way she just tensed up but its time for her to put her money where her mouth is. No pun intended. She has been teasing me all day and I need her. I want her and I need to feel a physical connection. I close the door behind me and saunter toward her. Her eyes get wide and I feel her trembling beneath my hands as I run my fingers from her shoulders and down her arms.
"So Ana, you wanted my attention and now you have it. What ever will you do with me."
She smiles wide and reaches for my belt. I continue to run my hands up and down her arms as she bites her bottom lip. She manages to fumble my belt loose and as she pulls it through the loops her expression changes. She holds the belt in her hands and throws it across the room as if it disgusts her. That's a very odd thing to do. She looks back at me and I put my lips on hers and kiss her sweetly. Hopefully this will help ease her nerves. She runs her hands up and down my length a few times from the outside of my pants. I unbutton my trousers and she moves my hands out of the way to finish the job herself. She is taking the lead and I am more then willing to let her.
She slides down my zipper and then runs her fingers around the waistband of my boxer briefs. She puts her hands on my hips and yanks them down taking my pants with them. She pulls her head away and glances down to see what she just unveiled. Her eyes grow wide with shock. That's right baby, I am impressive. From her expression I will take it this is one area that Grey can't compete with me.
Ana
When I pull away and glace down at Gideon I am taken back by the monster I just set free. He is just as well endowed as Christian but in different ways. Gideon is thicker and slightly shorter. It is a good thing that I can't have sex with him. I don't know if it will fit. I remember Christians words the first night we had sex. He told me I would stretch to accommodate him. I get a feeling of guilt but just like Gideon I have to move forward. Me and Christian are not together anymore.
Gideon kicks off his shoes and removes his socks and pants. He lifts his shirt over his head and is not standing gloriously naked in front of me. I kick off my shoes and kneel in front of him. I grab him unsteadily with one hand and begin to pump him back and forth while flicking the head with my tongue. I look up at him through my lashes and wait for him to give me an indication he is enjoying himself. When I see his lips curl I remove him from my mouth and lick the underside of his penis.
Gideon
Ana's warm hands and sweet breath feel so good wrapped around me. She is licking me all over and her mouth is so soft. I am looking down at her in anticipation of me filling her mouth with as much of me as she can take. She is pulling me in inch by inch and then all of a sudden she slides me entirely into her mouth. I am shocked that she can handle it all. Her uvula is tickling the tip of my dick as it slides down her throat.
"Fuck Ana, take it all baby." And she does. She slides the remaining few inches down her throat and I can feel her lips at the base of my manhood. God she wasn't kidding she doesn't have a gag reflex. She pulls me mostly out of her and continues her masterful skills while pumping me with her hands and mouth. I am so turned on right now. I want to pull her up and slide inside her but I can't. I would never hurt her on purpose. She is picking up the pace and I can feel my legs getting ridged. "Ana, I am going to cum. If your don't want me to cum in your mouth then you are going to have to stop."
She doesn't' t stop. She picks up the pace and again takes me deeper and deeper until I can't hold off any longer. "ANA! ANA! Oh Fuck! I grab the roots of her hair to steady her head. I take over sliding myself in and out until I can't take it any longer and I pour myself into her mouth. She continues to pump me until every drop is gone. I release her hair and pull her up by her shoulders and passionately kiss her. I can taste myself but I don't care. That was a job well done.
