When You Find Me

Paring: Callie/Arizona

Rating: M

A/N: This chapter is more from Callie's point of view. Next Chapter we will see more of Arizona's perspective.


Chapter 9:

"What does this mean?" Callie asked as the both of them were laying in bed exhausted.

"That you're still as good as I remember." Arizona said.

"I'm serious, Arizona." Callie said.

"So am I." Arizona said. "I don't know." Arizona said almost whispering. "I hate the fact that I know that you're going to leave any minute to go home to your girlfriend who loves you, who knows parts of you that are completely foreign to me. I hate that. I hate knowing someone has parts of you that I never will."

"I don't know what to do." Callie said.

"Do you regret it?" Arizona asked.

"I don't." Callie said.

"I don't either." Arizona said softly stroking Callie's cheek.

"What are we going to do?" Callie asked taking Arizona's hand in hers.

"Well in a few seconds I'm going to take a shower and then order some take out." Arizona said. "You're welcome to join me if you don't have anywhere you need to be."

"I could use a shower." Callie said.

Under the water they explored each other's bodies unhurriedly and with care. They memorized each part as if they had never seen each other naked before. Through the years things had changed, everything was still very beautiful but very different. For a moment they decided to forget about everything that waited for them outside of Arizona's apartment. For now it was just the two of them and nothing else.


"I wish I didn't have to go." Callie said leaning against the doorframe of the front door.

"We both know it's for the best." Arizona said.

"You're right, you're right." Callie said. "I'll see you around?"

"Maybe." Arizona said. "You should leave…before it gets too late."

"Listen…I…" Callie said.

"Please don't say anything." Arizona said. "Not tonight."

"Okay." Callie said dropping a kiss on Arizona's cheek before closing the door behind her.

Once Callie was gone, Arizona fell to the floor; she couldn't everything she was feeling at the moment. She wanted to go after Callie and beg her to leave Emma. She wanted to tell her that Callie knew that no one could make her as happy as Arizona made her. Arizona wanted to tell her that they could build a future together; they could have everything together if they wanted to. She wanted to say a lot but the only thing she found herself capable of doing at the moment was cry and cry and cry.


Callie tiptoed into her apartment. She didn't know if Emma would be here waiting for her. Lately Emma was spending almost every night with Callie. She appreciated having her over but tonight of all nights she would have appreciated more if she could be alone for a while to think. She needed space to think about Arizona…and Emma…and herself. She desperately needed to figure out what everything that happened in the last couple of hours meant.

"It's almost two in the morning." Lucia Torres said turning on a lamp. "Where have you been?"

"What are you doing here?" Callie said after almost having a heart attack. "How did you get in?"

"Emma let me inside." Lucia said. "We've been trying to reach you all night. Emma is worried sick, that poor woman."

"I'm sorry, my phone must be turned off." She said taking her cellphone out of her purse. She had around ten missed calls from Emma and about five from her mother.

"Where have you been?" Lucia said.

"At Mark's." Callie said. It was the first thing that came to mind. "Where's Emma?"

"Asleep." Lucia said. "I told her I would wait up for you."

"She's here?" Callie asked.

"Obviously." Lucia said.

"Obviously." Callie parroted. She headed for her bedroom not believing her bad luck. As if things in her life weren't complicated enough, her mother decides to stop in for a surprise visit.

"Calliope…" Her mother said making her stop in her tracks. "Why is your hair wet?"

"It was raining out." Callie said.

"Of course it was." Lucia said not believing a word of Callie's story. She had called Mark a few minutes before Callie walked in; she knew he hadn't heard of her all day.


"We need to talk." Lucia said first thing in the morning when she saw Callie in the kitchen drinking her usual cup of coffee before going to work.

"About?" Callie asked not taking her eyes off of the newspaper in her hand.

"Emma doesn't deserve what you're doing to her." Lucia said in a hush tone.

"I don't know what you think you know, but I do know that this is not the time nor the place to talk about it." Callie said.

"I'm glad I came up to see you." Lucia said. "I think I'll stay for a while longer. You need me around. You'll make a mess of your life if I let you on your own."

"Mama, please don't." Callie said.

"Good morning, my love." Emma said kissing Callie on the cheek. "I almost didn't feel out at all last night. Where were you, anyway?"

"Business dinner." Lucia said before Callie could get a word in. "You know how she is. Making us worry for nothing."

"Your mom and I were worried." Emma said. "Please don't disappear like that on me again."

"Wont happen again. I'm sorry." Callie said.

"That's all I ask." Emma said. "I gotta run. I'll see you for lunch?"

"Sure." Callie said.

"Bye." Emma said before she kissed Callie goodbye. "What happened to your lip?"

"Oh I ran into a door." Callie said touching her swollen bottom lip.

"You need to be more careful, honey." Emma said kissing Callie again but this time with more care. "See you later, Lucia."

"Have a good day at work, mi hija." Lucia said. Once Emma was gone she turned back to her daughter. "You're fucking this up, Calliope. She's a good woman and she loves you."

"I know that!" Callie said.

"Do you?" Lucia asked. "If you did you wouldn't be doing this to her."

"You don't know what you're talking about, mother." Callie said.

"I know that you came home very late last night with your hair wet and guilt all over your face." Lucia said. "Más sabe el diablo por viejo que por diablo."

"I'm going to go to work." Callie said. "I'll see you later." Callie kissed her mother goodbye and left before Lucia could ask any more questions.


"What are you doing here?" Callie exclaimed frustrated at the sight of her mother in her office. "I'm trying to work."

"I'm here to pick you up." Lucia said. "We're meeting Emma at the hospital, she asked us to lunch."

"No, she asked me to lunch." Callie said. "You're just tagging along. Don't you have anything better to do?"

"What better than stop my daughter from messing her life up?" Lucia asked. "I want more grandchildren, Calliope. Emma would make an excellent mother."

"Mama, could you please not?" Callie asked. "The last things on my mind right now are children with Emma."

"Why? You're almost thirty-five, you should be thinking about kids soon." Lucia said.

"I don't want to talk about this." Callie said.

"Fine. But lets go." Lucia said. "We don't want to be late."

Once they were in the hospital Callie was visibly nervous. The selfish part of her wanted to run into Arizona but the rational part of her knew that it would be a bad idea. She knew that after last night things had changed, she just didn't know how much. Every time she saw a group of people in light blue scrubs her heart skipped a beat and her eyes inevitably looked for Arizona.

"Where are we having lunch?" Lucia asked.

"We have a great cafeteria here." Emma suggested.

"We should go someplace nicer." Lucia said.

"I agree." Callie said. "There's a great place around the corner."

"I don't want to be too far from the office today." Emma said. "The board members are meeting today and my boss is going out of his mind."

"Then we stay." Lucia said. "It's really no problem."


The three of them walked towards the cafeteria, Callie was grateful that her mother was with them because it saved her from making conversation. She couldn't help but feel guilty every time she looked over at Emma. Emma seemed so happy; she didn't know how to tell her. She contemplated the thought of not saying anything but she knew that sooner or later she needed to have that conversation with Emma.

"Oh look who's there." Emma said pointing to the line where Arizona was standing waiting to pay for her lunch with Teddy. "I'm going to invite them over."

"No, Emma, don't." Callie said but it was too late. Emma was already on the way towards Arizona and Teddy. A few seconds later Emma came back to the table with Arizona and Teddy in tow.

"Is that Arizona?" Lucia asked to no one in particular as she stood up to give the girl a hug. "Oh my god, look at you."

"Hi, Mrs. Torres." Arizona said blushing.

"You're a doctor now?" Lucia asked as she took in Arizona's appearance. "Your parents must be so proud. Oh my god, you look so beautiful."

"Thank you." Arizona said.

"What am I chopped liver?" Teddy asked.

"Oh Teddy, you know you're my adopted daughter. No need to get jealous." Lucia said.

Throughout all the hellos and the brief catching up Callie sat in silence wondering at what point exactly did her life turned out to be like this. This is what hell must be like.

"Calliope, you didn't even say hi." Lucia commented once everyone was sat down. "I tried to raise this one with manners but alas, there's only so much one can do."

"Mother…" Callie said.

"That's fine, Mrs. Torres." Arizona said. She was sitting down in between Teddy and Lucia, directly in front of Callie who had Emma by her side.

"So rude." Lucia said when she turned to look at Arizona she noticed marks in her neck that her suspiciously alike the mark that Callie had on her lip. "What happened to your neck?"

"Ran into a door." Arizona said averting eye contact.

"Huh I see." Lucia said turning to look at her daughter. It would take an idiot to not be able to put two and two together. "You should be more careful."


"Are you out of your mind?!" Lucia yelled at Callie once they were alone in the car. "I can't believe you, Calliope. I can't believe you could do this to Emma."

"I can't talk about this with you." Callie said.

"This thing you're doing is not right." Lucia said.

"You think I don't know that? I know that." Callie said.

"Do you love Arizona?" Lucia asked.

"Yes. I do. I love her." Callie said.

"Do you love Emma?" Lucia asked.

"Yes…" Callie said. "She's amazing. We've been together so long that things are just easy and familiar. For the first time in a long time I'm comfortable."

"And Arizona? You said you love her too." Lucia asked.

"Arizona…she's something else entirely." Callie said. "She's passionate, she cares about people. She's not easy or comfortable. She drives me crazy, sometimes she so annoyingly cocky but at the same time incredibly adorable I can barely stand it. Whenever we're together I don't want it to end even if I know its wrong."

"Sounds like you already know what to do." Lucia said. "Seeing you like this hurts me. I just want you to be happy, mi hija."