chapter 9
The black haired mage was sitting down on the chair that was in the bar in front of the barmaid as he was putting his head down on the table making the others worry and asks themselves where the hell is the cheerful Gray. He went out from the home early so he don't even if his wife and his son came out from the house or not. First, he went to the restaurant checking on the employees and then went to the pink haired.
The barmaid was cleaning some plates that were in her own table glancing every second at the ice mage. "Did you have a bad dream?" asked the white haired mage looking at Gray as she felt that he wasn't the same as everyday.
He raised his head to look at her "No, I'm just..." he wasn't able to complete his sentence as his head fell down on the bar for the second time. Mira tried to hold her laughter at the black haired reaction.
"W-well" she closed her eyes avoiding seeing his funny face. "You look.. a little down" the black haired didn't comment of what she said instead of that he groaned a little not even looking at her. Suddenly the ice mage heard a person comes sitting next to him. He raised his head to look at the person next to him to find that it was the Titania and her little daughter.
"It's just you" he said returning his head down again. Erza raised an eyebrow at her friend's reaction then she looked at Mirajane. Mira's sweat drop smiling a little.
"He seems a little depressed" she whispered.
Erza moved her head to the barmaid ignoring the ice man. She requested a cheese cake for both her and her daughter then she started to look at the people in the guild. "Where's Natsu? I don't see him" she said still looking at the guild's members.
"I don't know" answered the white haired. "He didn't come today"
"He went to the grave" answered the ice mage instead sighing. "He said he will come at twelve" he continued his sentence grabbing his drink and starts to drink again. Erza looked at the clock realizing it was 11:30 already. She sighed as she hugged her daughter who was holding a teddy bear she owned. She touched her cheeks softly making the little girl giggle as Erza smiled at her innocent action.
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"I will be going to the guild" The blue cat was standing on Lucy's desk to catch her attention because she was writing down a story she started recently. When Lucy sank in her own world of thoughts, she never wake up even if they shouted and screamed.
"Happy?" she called not knowing what's happening around of her. "What did you say?"
"I was calling you for 15 mins!" he puffed his cheeks in annoyance. Lucy smiled as she rubbed his head.
"Sorry Happy" she apologized as she stuck her tongue out. "I couldn't hear you" Happy sighed in defeat rubbing his head.
"Anyway, I will be going to the guild, will you come?"
Lucy paused a little staring at the flying cat remembering what Erza said the other day. She told her that Natsu comes in the morning and she told her that because if she didn't want to meet with him. She smiled "Happy, go I won't be coming now" she told him to find that look he had when he sees her pauses and starts to think about something. "Happy, it's alright go"
"Really?"
"Yeah, believe me"
After the blue cat left the place Lucy sat down on her bed getting a big box from under the bed. She opened the box slowly staring at what was inside. She grabbed a frame that had a picture of the family on it. Natsu, Haru, Happy and her. She touched Natsu's face slowly as she realized that the tears slowly gathered in her eyes. How much she missed that guy, how much she wants to feel his warmth while he is hugging her, how much she wants him to place a kiss on her forehead and tells her that it's fine. How much she missed being with her family. Lucy rubbed her eyes trying to hold her tears from falling down. She put the frame in her bed and looked back at the box. Lucy grabbed a notebook and opened it.
'I can't believe it, I'm going to become a mother, it's the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. I got married around six months go and now I'm pregnant with 3 months kid. I feel he is actually a boy. It's amazing after all' Lucy smiled softly as she felt her memories slowly return to her head. she changed the page.
'I was right. It was a boy, I win a bet me and Natsu made and he promised to feed me in the most expensive food in Magnolia. I'm so excited that I will eat there I'm waiting to know what is the food that had the most rate in Magnolia. Haru-chan I will be taking you when you come to the life and grow up' she changed the paper.
'I ate in the restaurant and beats that it was the most amazing food I have ever ate of course with your beloved father. And the most amazing thing he made a surprise to me when the musician came playing the song I always loved. He is adorable isn't he?' she changed the page.
'Baby, you are growing a day after a day. I'm so excited to meet you. I think I can't wait for that. Imagine how will our life be? Playing, laughing and having fun. I believe you will love this life like I do. I believe you will love your father like I do' Lucy stared at the last sentence she wrote about loving and then she closed the book staring at its envelope. She can't back up now, she can't return to her old life and she still feels guilty.
Do you know something the most painful thing is to feel guilty not thinking about the other how he feels while you are saying that you are punishing yourself and you really don't know that you punishes him not yourself.
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"It's the second flower" Natsu smiled as he buried down the root of the bouvardia flower he just bought. After finishing what he was doing he sat down as he rested his back on a tree that was near him and he put his elbow on his knee. He stared at the grave with silent expression.
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The blonde closed the door behind her as she was preparing herself for going in somewhere. She walked and walked as she greeted those people she knew. She finally reached her aim, her son's grave. Her eyes went wide when she found a flash of the pink haired, she quickly hid herself behind a tree to not get caught and be in a position she don't want. She begged her God that he won't smell her.
"I'm sorry Haru" she heard him says as it shocked her. She tried to look at him to find the same cold look she always hated. "I couldn't give you except the flower you loved" she looked down at the ground to find two flowers and it was the same kind her son always loved. "But, maybe at the end you will have 90 flowers at least" he smiled touching the stone softly.
"You left me and I became alone. It's something I really couldn't change because I was always alone but you two gave the sun to me" he smiled making Lucy's heart aches at hearing something like that. "I loved your mother so much and I believe that she also did that but,.." he paused staring at the grave. "There was always something missing. When we divorced I became empty,.. so empty" Lucy held her shirt tightly gritting her teeth to prevent tears from coming down.
He then stood up forcing a smile in his lips as he looked down at his son's grave"I can bear it, I can bear the pain"
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End of the chapter
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Sayanora
