Jon pov
I slowly began to wake, but my eyes were still to heavy.
I could hear the ocean, I had to be on a ship. I could also feel someone sitting with me. I could feel a touch at my hand, a sweet sensitive touch, from a hand with skin so soft. Danerys
So I had made it back. But the price of it was to much. I had lost her. The one I dearly loved. The one who had ment the World to me. The one I had hurted shortly before we had parted.
The fact that I will never see or feel her again, broke my heart.
Thinking about a broken heart, I knew Danerys had to be broken hearted because of her dead Dragon. Slowly, almost painfully I opened my eyes. And like I thought Danerys was at my side.
I looked apologetic in her eyes, it was my fault that she lost a child. It was my fault that she had to come and rescue us.
"I'm sorry. I'm so Sorry!" I croaked. My voice still not fully back.
"I wished we had never gone or that I could turn back the time." I said, not only because of her but also because of me. I had lost Rayne, my true love.
"I don't. Now I know what is coming. I mean the Dragons are my children and i will revenge him. I will fight with you, I want to destroy the Night King and his army. Together. You have my word." She answered me
"Thanks Danny!"
She giggled a bit at that.
"Danny" She smiled "I don't know if I like that. The last man that called me Danny was my brother and he sold me."
She was opening up more and more to me. She really had a good heart, like a Queen should have. I didn't have a Queen anymore, I had left her behind. So I got nothing to loose anymore, nothing that mattered.
"Oh okay, not Danny then." I swallowed nervously
"But how about my Queen? I bend my knee to you, Danerys Stormborn Mother of the Dragons. I will protect and keep you out of harms way, I give you my word."
A smile grew on her face, her eyes showed happyness. Almost like Raynes eyes did as I told her I loved her for the first time.
Danerys looked questioningly at me "You bend your knee? To me it seems like you are laying here" She joked. I smiled at her attemp to get my mood up.
Her hand comes up and stroke the scar above my heart. I hissed lowly at the sensation her touch brought to me.
"So its true, you really died for your people" She said with awe in her voice.
"I wouldn't word it like that, rather I died because of my people."

Two days later I knew we were on our way back to Dragonstone. I was on my feet again, weakend but on my feet. I couldn't stand it to lay in bed anymore, all I got to do was thinking about Rayne. If she died? If it was painful for her? Would she be one of the White walkers now?
I should have stayed with her, we swore to each other to get down together. I could still hear her say "We are in this together!"
I tried every possible thing I could at my weakend state to escape these thoughts but nothing would stop them. I was even hunted by them in my Dreams, I would always see her get pierced by the whights befor they would shred every limp of off her body. Or Rayne hunting me down as a whight, with icy blue eyes.
Even if I would Drink myself into unconsciousness I would wake with her Name on my lips.
I had left her behind to die, it was my fault, I took her with me north the wall. Even after I knew what danger could come onto us, I should have fought her harder to stay behind. The thought of never hearing her sweet voice, never seeing her beautiful smile hearing her laugh was slowly killing me.
And again I tried to escape those thoughts with drinking.
In my drunken state I got onto deck, eventually a sailor came to me and told me we would arive at Dragonstone shortly. I was on my way to tell the Queen that we would arrive at Dragonstone in the evening.

I knocked at Danny's door, when she opened it I was left speachless. She had her hair down it was falling to her delicate hips, I wondered how it would feel in my hands it looks so soft. I didn't know what came over me. One moment I was standing there and the next I had her in my arms, kissing her. Maybe it was my way to try to forget about Rayne, I didn't know.
We shed each other clothes off, I layed her down on her bed and climbed above her. Her skin was hot under mine, my cock touched her thigh. She opened her legs even more for me, my heart knew that what I was doing was wrong. That it was disrespectful to Rayne. But my head just wanted to forget a moment about her, and here was a chance to distract my mind.
I slowly positioned myself at her opening, I slowly entered her. When I noticed that she had gotten used to me being inside her. I began to trust myself inside her, hard and rough. There was no sweetness to this. Her hands came up to touch my chest, Images of Rayne doing that flachen infront of my eyes. I stopped them from wandering, not wanting to get touched by her. I liftet her hands above her head and hold them there.
I could feel her orgasm before she even reached it, I was far from near the edge. Her walls constricted around me, I slowed my trusts down to a halt.

I couldn't cum, this was wrong. I was really playing with fire.
She must have noticed that I haven't reached my peak, so she got down on me and took me into her mouth. That was an absolut new feeling to me, she bopped her head up and down on me. While sucking me deep into her mouth, the friction she created felt good, I closed my eyes and imagined Rayne.
The thought of Rayne doing that to me brought me over the edge, I trusted my hip towards her as i came into her mouth. I opened my eyes to see her blue Green eyes starring at me, guilt immediatly made its way up.
What had I done?