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Chapter 8 - Knocking On Heaven's Door.
My eyes began to flicker open. The light filtered through making me just want to keep them closed. But then again heaven is waiting for me. If I made it that is? I couldn't help but laugh. I'm fucked if I haven't. I gradually opened my eyes even though they protested. The first thing they focussed on was a tanned hand holding mine. My eyes traced up the well toned arm, across the broad shoulder and up the muscular neck to his perfectly chiselled face. Dimitri. He was fast asleep with a letter folded up in his other hand. My letter. "If this is heaven why do I feel like crap?" He jumped. His blank face shifted to one of relief.
"Oh, Roza," he sighed, and threw himself at me, capturing me in a bone crushing embrace. "I'm so glad you made it. I was so worried. I've been such an idiot. I never should have left. Please forgive me."
"One thing at a time, comrade. Remember I have just woken up. I want to go to a party. I'm in the mood for a party. Looks like my new life is going to be awesome. Especially seeing as I can have you now. Are you dead as well then? Or are you just a Dimitri that God has provided me with so that I can play with you to my hearts content?" He looked at me as if I was about ready for a straight jacket.
"Roza," he whispered, "why did you do it?" Guilt was hidden in his dark eyes.
"Because I couldn't have you. I couldn't live and not have you. But it doesn't matter now because I can have you forever now. That's my kind of heaven."
"You're not in heaven, Roza." he said, plain faced.
"What? I don't wanna be in hell. I know I've done some pretty bad things but that doesn't warrant me going to hell. Does that mean you are the devil? Oh man! You are gonna torture me by showing me what I can't have, aren't you? That is evil, even for you. I know I'm a badass but even I can't deal with seeing everyday, the man I love loving someone else. You are gonna make me watch that aren't you? God dammit! I wish I'd stayed alive now. Anything is better than having to deal with you. I've seen The Omen, your son is not a very nice person, and I bet you are a million times worse. Just send me back to Earth I can deal with my life now, knowing that it may be a living hell but it is better than actual hell Why me God? Why-" I covered my face in my hands as I was cut off mid rant.
"Rose, stop babbling. I meant you're not dead. I got to you just in time." This shocked me. How can I not be dead? You obviously aren't very good at killing yourself.I removed my hands from my face and smashed them down on the bed releasing a scream as the sore flesh was crushed by the bandages. "Rose! Don't do that. You'll bust your stitches."
"What? Why are you here? You left me. Twice." I was so confused. "I thought you didn't want me."
"I changed my mind. I've always wanted you, Roza. I could never stop wanting you. I love you. I realised that I couldn't let someone dictate to me how I should live my life. I came back. I raced through the academy when I heard a scream. I saw Lissa covered in blood. Your blood. I hate myself for what I've put you through."
"You had no choice. Alberta told me the truth when I broke the punch bag."
"Wait. You broke the punch bag?" He looked at me with amused eyes.
"Yeah! I was very angry. When I went to see Lissa she shouted at me. So without you and without my best friend I couldn't see any future for me."
"I should never have left." he said looking so guilty.
"You had to."
"I'm not going anywhere again." he said, sounding so determined.
"But what about Kirova?"
"I'll sort something out. But I am not leaving you again." I couldn't stop smiling.
"I love you, Dimitri." he seemed shocked by my statement, but the shock quickly changed into a big grin.
"I love you too, Roza." he said before recapturing my hand and raising it to his lips to place a light peck on my knuckles. What if he leaves again? What do you mean? He said he was staying. He's said stuff like that before and then left.
"But how do I know that you won't leave me again? How do I know that you aren't just using me?" He looked at me with a hurt expressed written all over his perfect face.
"I understand how you'd think that, but I'm not going anywhere, and I'm going to spend the rest off my life trying to make it up to you. One day I hope you'll forgive me. I hope I can re-earn your trust."
"I hope you can too."
A/N: Wooooo! What do you thinks? Review please guys. Also, for you Twilight lovers, I have just started a BellaxCarlisle fic, so check it out =]
