Hold on for dear Sanity.

She finally arrived at Black station, with Elise and Mac waiting impatiently outside.

She stepped onto the snow and just stood there, no movement stirred from her feminine body.

Mac ran straight to her.

"KAORI!" He yelled "Are you ok?" he breathed.

Kaori just nodded her head, silently wondering why he gived a damn.

Elise walked up to them and saw Kaori and just stood there.

She could tell that Kaori seemed different, she would normally be all like "OH MY GOSH! I HAVE MISSED YOU GUYS!" But she was dead silent. Something was defiantly wrong.

"Kaori? What's wrong?" Elise asked concerned that she may be on the edge of losing a friend.

"Nothing is wrong, now if you don't mind I'm going to take a shower" Kaori gave a cold shoulder to both of them and walked off.

"What was that about?" Mac asked very confused.

Elise shrugged and followed Kaori into the lodge to get out of a chilly wind.

Mac was confused and scared, why was she acting like this?

Kaori couldn't believe the sensation of the burning water running down her body, it was fantastic. It made her forget about the past week for awhile and only her and the water mattered to her.

It was only until she got out and glimpsed at herself in the mirror.

This person looking back at her had puffed up eyes, soggy brown hair and sour hazel eyes. She didn't like the look of her reflection but couldn't look away. Her eyes had to tell her something but Kaori still couldn't figure out the hint.

In a flash, she imagined Mac behind her, resting his hands on her shoulders and kissing her neck.

She sighed when she realized that it was only a hallucination.

She turned her eyes away from the mirror to dry off her body.

Once she turned back she gave a small squeal when she saw Psymon behind her; he leaned his arms around her front so she leaned back into his body.

Suddenly, she snapped out of it. Kaori had no idea what the hell was going on.

Kaori closed her eyes and prayed for Mac to come back.

She opened them but the worst hallucination she could see was this one. Hayden laughing evilly and holding her down so she couldn't move.

Kaori screamed.

Mac came rushing in, "Kaori, its okay. What's wrong?" he asked calming her down and really not bothering to care that she was naked but she was mildly covered by a towel.

"Its…its … Him!" Kaori was going hysterical.

"What? Who's him?" Mac asked trying to calm Kaori down.

Kaori suddenly realized whom she was talking to and got up and rushed off her room.

Mac was dumbfounded, why wont she tell him? Has he done something wrong?

He just sat there until Elise came walking up.

"Mac? What the hell are you doing sitting on the bathroom floor?" She asked rather confused and annoyed.

" Having a little meditating lesson are we? Well, some of us might have problems with this as to this is where we pee, if you want a good view pay me $50" she joked.

"EWWWW!" Mac went white.

"No! Hell no. I was just in here cos Kaori was in here and was screaming hysterically so I came in here to find out what was wrong but she just said 'its him.' And ran off." He stated.

"Him? Who's him?" Elise asked.

"That's what I asked but she didn't tell me, tell you anything?" Mac asked hoping for a good answer.

"If I'm asking you do you think I know?" Elise asked somewhat sarcastically.

Mac's hopes of a good answer just flushed down the toilet.

"So you don't know ANYTHING about this?" He asked one more time.

"No, now get out, I need to pee." Elise demanded.

Mac left without hesitation.

He started to walk down to the room where Kaori was but he decided against it, it hurt him that she couldn't confide in him. It sucked. He was worried about her, about "them".

What was he going to do?

Kaori had taken all the mirrors down off the walls to avoid having to deal with random hallucinations of a horny Mac, a rather usual Psymon and a sex crazy Hayden. One of which frightened the hell out of her.

She didn't want to see any of these men, nor did she want to look at herself.

Once she dressed herself, she headed down to the lounge area and laid on the couch, hugged up against a fluffy red cushion.

Mac needed to know what was going on, he saw Kaori peacefully lying on the sofa and he decided to infiltrate her room.

Sneakily he tip toed into her room and rummaged through her draws, he found a book of "101 reasons" lying on her dresser and wondered who had brought her that.

He found a small bag and he poured out all the contents onto the bed. He found a hair straighter and wondered if she ever used in the 5 days she was gone.

He then discovered her diary, knowing it was bad to look through someone else's private property, desperate times call for desperate measures and this was desperate.

He flipped a few pages until he found the pages he was looking for.

He skimmed a few lines and then his eyes went wide with horror and shock.

He took the journal and headed for Elise's room.

"Elise! Elise!" he hissed through her door.

She opened the door rather annoyed but Mac thought she was always annoyed.

"What do you want now?" she hissed back.

"Read this!" he said as he practically shoved the book in Elise's face.

After a few moments of reading, Elise's face turned white then her colour returned after nearly fainting.

"Oh my freaking gosh, do you know what this means?" Elise asked.

"Yeah, someone touched my girl!" Mac scowled.

"She's been out in the woods for 5 days and hasn't taken a pregnancy test!"Elise worried.

"Holy !" Mac sweared.

"SHHHHH!" Elise hissed.

"We have to tell her," Elise said.

"Tell her what? Hey Kaori, we where wondering why you weren't talking to us so we abused your trust so we could look through your diary and hey, guess what? There might be a slight chance that your pregnant with another mans baby! Congratulations!" Mac said sarcastically.

Elise slugged him upside the head.

"We? Since when had it been 'we'? YOU abused her trust, YOU looked through her diary, therefore YOU are going to get in trouble" Elise growled.

Mac slumped.

"I don't wanna get in trouble" Mac whimpered.

"Should of thought of that before you took her diary, dork" Elise lightened up on her growling. The girlfriend was already going through hell, no need to drag the boyfriend down as well, one of them had to be happy otherwise the relationship would never work and Mac would be crying at Elise's room every single night.

Elise shuddered at that thought and sighed.

"Ok, well there's nothing much we can do now since we already know, were going to have to break it to her gently, how? I do not know," She plainly said.

And she was right, how were they going to figure this out without ruining Mac and Kaori's relationship?