Remembering and Losing Time

'thoughts'

"Speaking"

Italics= dream/flashback

Yuki's POV

I wake up to find myself in a chamber that I remember yet I don't truly know like I say it once in a dream. I look around the room and see a boy with black hair that I seem to know and love a name came from my lips, "Toshiro-koi…?"

The boy shifts his head and looks at me right away I see that its Toshiro from his face, blue almost teal, but instead of his (don't tell him I said this or else but I love his white hair) his beautiful white hair.

"Yuki!" He jumps up from his seat and hugs me, "I was so worried that you were hurt and going to die on me. Also keep the koi to yourself, please I haven't even asked your father yet for your hand." He looks away like he's ashamed, "I shouldn't have let you go out by yourself. I shouldn't have let you out of my sight Himeyuri. Oh god I almost lost you."

He pulls away again and looks me in the eyes seeing I'm confused, "What happened, Toshiro-koi?"

He looks away ashamed, "You left for a little bit because this orphan girl that you knew wanted to speak and I thought that it would be ok since you made it look like you had black hair with your skills. I was wrong you got hurt by an arrancar. He tried to mark you but I stopped him, but he still was able to hurt you Yuki-sama and I'm so sorry for that."

Toshiro never cried trust me when I say this so when I saw he had started to cry I pulled him to my chest hugging him tight.

I kissed his forehead and wrapped my arms around him, "I'm here Toshiro and I'm with you and only you are in my heart in the way that I'd marry you and have children with you (Pyro: He-he there's another meaning isn't there eh Yuki. Yuki: Shut Up and let the nice people read the story before I go psycho killer on you)." I pull back and look him in the eyes, "Look Toshiro I'm glad that you can call me Yuki because no one will even look at me when they do and you say it with so much love in your eyes." I take his face in my hands and look him in the eyes, "you are too sweet."

He smiles at me something he so rarely does since he was a child when i met him for the first time.

"Yuki…"

The door slides open and my father walks in and behind him is my mother smiling more brightly than she usually does it deal with me still being alive.

I study my parents who look so different. My father is a man who's not to short but not too tall with longish black hair, pale skin, who never shows any emotions, and emerald green eyes that if you look carefully see everything. Well my mother who is barely shorter than my father, with long orange hair, silver eyes, tan skin from sitting in her garden all day well dad's in the library or council room they never give him time to be with us anymore, and lastly my mother wears her heart on her sleeve and loves showing emotions I think that's a bad thing no matter what how my mother feels is on her face nothing is hidden about her.

"Otosan," my father's strange greens eyes pierce my soul.

I sigh, 'I guess our eyes make us no different except his he has tiny slits. I wonder why?'

My mother comes and wraps her arms around me, "Never leave the castle again."

I groan, "But mother there's a whole world out there, and I want to know more about it. I mean look out that window don't you want to leave the castle and just I don't know live. I mean this place is so stuffy and it's easy for people to come in and try to kill 1 of us."

I look up to see tears in my mother's eyes, "You stupid girl don't' you know anything about my past."

Then she runs away from me surprising me I look at my father and ask for once wanting him to talk, "Father, what does mother mean I thought she was a princess?"

He sighs, "Sweetheart," how odd for him to call me that, "I think it's time that I told you a story about me and your mother's love much like you two are much alike. Except you and I had switched places. Your mother is the daughter of the chamber maid to my mother after my father died and a tyrant had forced my mother's hand. I was forced to deal with him beating me and my little sisters. When I tried to stop him I was almost killed, but your mother had saved my life then patched me up. Whenever something bad would happen to her I was there. If you think about it she was more like a princess than I was a prince, but I was her knight. I fell for your mother when I was 10 and I've loved her since. My mother once said that we were soul mates. I had laughed but every day I thank god for what my mother said it gave me courage to ask for your mother's hand."

I smile at my father something that never really happened before not since I was about 10, "That's a cute story father now you better see how your soul mate is doing."

He laughs slightly, "Yeah and later you will apologize to your mother."

I laugh and smile at my father. When he left the room I ran over to Toshiro who looked a lot more pale and in pain than I thought. I start to cry and he whips away my tears.

"You jumped into that battle and almost got yourself killed for me and screamed to the world about our love and secret marriage, why when I told you not to."

I laugh slightly and drag him over to my bed and make him lay down, "I did that because I love you and I don't want someone who will throw their life away and leave me alone. I want someone who will want to live and not die. I want them to try their hardest to live like you have been doing since that was infected. Toshiro its been many summers since we met after I had turned thirteen. I mean it's been double that time. You need to understand that we need you."

"What do you mean we?"

"I mean my love that I'm pregnant with your child and I want you to help me raise her and I say because I want a girl."

He laughs and pulls me against him making me laugh, "Yes, I live as long as I can for you and our child."

He puts a hand on my stomach smiling, but it doesn't last long the happy air when he starts to cough up blood.

"Maids! PLEASE SOMEONE GET ME A DOCTOR TOSHIRO IS COUGHING BLOOD!"

I hear people running and the first 2 to walk through the door is my mother and father.

"Oh god Toshiro," I hear my mother gasp as she embraces me hiding my tears knowing I hate when people see them.

When I try to get up Toshiro doesn't' let me go. I smile at him and hold his hand. I had whispered sweet words until he died.

Toshiro Bakuya, my lover, my husband, and the father of my child is dead at the age of 29 summers.

My eyes snap open to see my room and I feel someone holding my hand and whispering for me to be alright. I look over to see white hair and what would be aqua eyes would be are closed and asleep. On my other side is the devil princess and my father who is holding my other hand they all look like they had just pass out.

"Sorry, I worried you guys." I burst into tears remembering my dream and right away I feel arms around me something that Toshiro rarely does for anyone especially me.

"Oh god I thought you were dead I saw you die. I told you great news and you died. They couldn't save you."

Toshiro stays quiet not really knowing what I'm talking about but I know he'll do whatever he can to make me feel better.

My father wakes up and hears me remembering being outside the door well I had told them the news, "Yuki, you know that your child had survived?"

I chuckle, "Yup, I watched over her for a while until I felt a light envelope me and the next thing I remember is being reborn to the same family except my sister Amaya isn't here." I look at my hands, "Still she died didn't she?"

My father looks down, "People attacked our castle and killed everyone including your mother, your siblings, servants, and myself. I was the last to die for how I was fighting my way out."

I nod and pull my legs to myself, "So she's dead and won't be reborn for a while I was 27 when I had her dad." I start to cry more, "She was born only 4 months after Toshiro died from his battle injury."

I feel arms hold me tighter bringing me back that Tosh is in the room, "I know what happened was bad and that I should be sad, but Yuki think of it this way that no matter what you're going to have your daughter."

My father nods, "Think your mother had you when she was 21 I think truth be told I forgot. Trust me sweetie I know what it's like to have a child taken away from you. Your mother was pregnant when she went into a coma a few months after your brother was born and your brother and sister but someone took them." I freeze and look at the picture that was taken a little bit after my brother was born.

"She went into a coma after they were born." I look back to a smiling father, "they were just born when she went into a coma you don't remember because I had sent you away making sure that you learned to fight and stay away from your mother's mood swings. Trust me she was the most dangerous person I had ever dealt with."

I laugh thinking of my dad 1 of the top annacars cowering in the corner because of my mother's mood.

"Yea, I can see that can't' you? Yeah think about it 5 months and we won't even realize it."

"How long was I asleep?"

Everyone looks away except Toshiro, "You were asleep for a few months."

"How many?"