A/N:
To arbiter-cosmos, Bejeweled Lust, Kelshmo, strengh-91..., inuwolf04, wickedlady101, Sakigami, Pinkfox190, and all the others that were/are reading this fanfic but haven't reviewed.
I am so absolutely, completely, totally, utterly sorry. I have left you guys hanging for over a year and I am here to ask your forgiviness with the oh-so-delayed-epilogue.
Please forgive me and I apologize profusely for this. I will try to explain what happened. The past year was chaos -though apparently this year will be too- and I reached a writer's block. I have written other things in the meantime I know. But somehow as I began my fanfics I suddenly could not find a way to continue, losing my line of thought in the middle of it.
For that I apologize again.
This epilogue is probably disconnected and not really alike the rest of the fanfic, but I tried my best for I could not leave it not finished or hanging.
I could not abandon you. Forgive me for taking so long. Thanks for your patience and kindness.
Epilogue: Linger
There was a bright beautiful sun on the sky, no clouds, just pure blue and the amazing sun on the middle, shinning for everyon
If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.
There was a bright beautiful sun on the sky, no clouds, just pure blue and the amazing sun on the middle, shinning for everyone to see, to light everyone's day.
Not Kaoru's day though. This is supposed to be a happy day, he should be smiling, laughing in absolute joy for his brother. But he can't. He cannot pretend that he is happy about Hikaru's wedding. Or his.
I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything
They had both agreed to get married in the same day, one after the other. Kaoru was already married and now it was Hikaru's turn. He should be happy, he should be playing along with his twin, but he is finding himself incapable of doing so.
It is not like he does not get it. It is not like Violet has not explained it to him a thousand times. There is logic in this, they are supposed to get married some day but Kaoru just avoided the issue until the media started scpeculating on their lives. Wondering why they were almost thirty and still single.
I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
That was the time whe the three of them sat down and tried to make a plan, something to distract the media...nothing came up obviously. The time they had feared arrived. Kaoru had tears in his eyes by the end of their little "meeting" and Hikaru held his hand tightly.
And here he was, watching Hikaru marry this weird and short girl, her straight black hair turned into curls for a day. For this day. Hikaru looked amazing with a dark brown suit, a bit unlike his own –a light brown one.
The younger redhead was feeling so insecure. What if Hikaru eventually fell in love with his wife? What if he decided that all the trouble they would go through wasn't worth it? That he rather have a normal life beside the black-eyed wife? Kaoru shivered and shook his head lightly, trying to make the thoughts go away.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?
This apparently caught Hikaru's attention – he became more observant over the last years, the elder glancing quickly at Kaoru, a worried expression on his face. Kaoru simply smiled in a way of telling him not to worry.
The ceremony took forever, but what hurt Kaoru the most was the few seconds in which he had to watch his brother, the love of his life, kiss his –now- wife.
--
"I don't think I can take this aymore, for how long I will be able to take this." He said, voice a little bit higher than normal, pacing around the hotel room.
"Kaoru, please, you know how much I love you, so why are you acting like this now?" Hikaru said, walking up to Kaoru and taking his hands, trying to calm the other down.
"I just...I just wish I could take a walk with you...hold your hands on the park, be in your arms in public. Stop acting like this is wrong. It is not wrong...it can't be." He said, tears falling from his eyes. He just wished he could act like a normal couple with his brother.
But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?
Hikaru just ighed and held the weeping Kaoru in his arms. They had a fight like this, from time to time. Hikaru knows how his twin feels but there is absolutely nothing either of them can do. They know it.
"I love you Kaoru and you love me. It doesn't matter who sees it or what people think about it ok? The lack of walks in the park and holding hands in public has not changed our feelings and will not change." He said with such security in his voice that at the time Kaoru believed him.
Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
--
Hikaru was dancing happily with his pregnant wife. Pregnant. That could only mean one thing: that weird woman put her hand on his Hikaru. He was made, he felt jealous, he wanted to take that damned ring and burn it, destroy it.
But then he looks at his side and sees his wife. He is touched and tainted as well. He cannot blaim Hikaru for they are playing their part. But lately he just can't help but feel that his brother is playing his part a little too well. Wasn't that the way it all began anyway? With an act?
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.
Kaoru sighed and asks his wife if she wants to dance as well. The blonde woman nods with joy, taking his hand as he leads her to the dancefloor. She dances happily, her long and curly hair swaying in the air, her hips going from side to side, the smile never leaving her pinkish lips.
Kaoru barely moves as he tries to watch Hikary. Search for a sign of jealousy, a look of longing, something that demonstrates that Hikaru wishes to be here, to dance with Kaoru, to take his hand...
But there are no signs nor looks. He fears for their secret relationship at that moment.
But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?
--
He only has a few days to ponder on his fears, before he realizes it's Violet's wedding. God, the woman took a long time to get married! She has a 5 year old kid already and yet she was reluctant to put a ring on her finger. Kaworu only laughed at her nervousness, a playful smile on his lips as she walks the aisle quickly.
Kaoru chuckles at the scene. He is seated at the front row, his wife by his right side, his brother by the other. They are thirty one years old now and it is about time Violet decided to finally take the last step. She is with Kaworu since their little encounter at the restaurant with Haruhi - Haruhi by the way is happily married with Ari, that broke Tamaki's heart for some time but it was quickly mended by a more than happy to help Kyoya. The two best friends - now lovers- are together since then.
Kaoru sighes at them. It is all so romantic he can do nothing but stare like the romantic moron he is. A hand cover his own shyly and he glances from the corner of his eyes to his brother. They exchange a smile and everything is ok again. The fear is gone.
And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?
--
Kaoru sighs...ever since they really got together they had so many worriyng moments. And happy ones...and fights. Btu these calm and loving moments were the ones that made everything else, even the worse of the fights...worth it.
They are at a random hotel room, Kaoru has Hikaru laying on his arms, his eyes closed as he sleeps peacefully. Kaoru's hand slowly massages the back of the other's neck, playing with his hair from time to time. Hikaru's arms are wrapped aroung Kaoru's waist, their legs are entangled, locked together.
Kaoru passes his free hand through Hikaru's back, feeling the other's muscle contract against his finger and smiling. "Are you awake Hikaru?" He whispers on his brother's ear, feeling him smile against his skin.
"Yes...sorry for not telling you. I just really love the way you treat me when I sleep." H says shyly, a faint blush tinging his cheeks.
You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?
Kaoru smiles and laughs, and he doesn't even have to ask for what he wants. His brother already knows, so he slowly lifts himself on top of Kaoru and their lips meet in one -of many to come tonight- breathless kiss.
He sighes as the kiss ends, purring with happiness as eager hands start to travel through his –more than eager and receptive- body.
"I love you." He whispers to Hikaru and pulls the other down for another kiss. It is moments like this that everything else ceases to matter. He is wrapped by Hikaru, trapped in beneath his body, locked to his soul and his heart beats with the love pouring from him.
It doesn't matter how many times they fight or if sometimes Hikaru may seem to be a little in love with his wife. He was always –ever since he was a teenager- happily wrapped around Hikaru's finger no matter what situation that would put him in. And that's the way it will always be for Kaoru.
It doesn't matter how many times Kaoru feels lonely or left behind, how many times they fight about it. Hikaru was always –ever since he was a teenager- by his brother's side no matter what. Happily wrapped aroung Kaoru's controling finger. And that is the way it will always be for Hikaru.
Because they love each other...and their love will remain forever.
A/N:
Oh and the song I used is called Linger by The Cranberries.
Again, I am sorry.
And thanks -. See you some other time, I hope.
Ps.: Please don't abandon me ;--;!
